What are your motivations to recover?

[timetosleep]

I recently got a chance to build a good life, something that I never had before. It will be a lot of work, but could be worthwhile. However, I am not sure if I should follow through. I feel tired to be honest. I also feel like this world isn't a good place to live in since it's competitive and unkind. What are your motivations to recover?

 

[BPD Barbie]

My motivations used to be that I decided I was worth more than the shit life I live currently. That I deserved another chance. I still think this, but I'm too far gone.
I hope you do go and build and amazing life and achieve everything you're capable of. Nothing good comes for free, work hard and reap the rewards. Good luck

 

[Keepingtabs]

There's always a chance to kill yourself, but in the meantime you can enjoy the good things life has.

 

[nerve]

I just want a normal life at this point.

 

[Nem]

I'm hoping to recover enough to end my life peacefully, one failed attempt has caused enough problems
Peace/hugs

 

[Susannah]

My main motivation for recovery is my teenager son, I love him terrible much. I can't ruin his opportunity to build himself a good future. I lost a family member myself when I was 14, so I know how much it sucks. Also I have a chronic ill mum. She'll probably die in a few years time.

I hope to find other motivation factors in the future, pain relief, social welfare support or a job suitable for my disabilities. I wish you good luck, stay strong. I'm very happy for you.
LoveS

 

[a.n.kirillov]

To be able to continue learning about the world

 

[mathieu]

My only motivation is not wanting to abandon my dog. It's not enough, though.

 

[SipSop]

I found out, that everything that was wrong with me was actually due to my dysfunctional environment.
I happens that I visit daily a more nurturing environment emotionally. I can eat properly, I feel motivated, I might start to raise my self-esteem and to feel good about myself.
I lost so many years due to familial neglect. They stole it from me. But now, perhaps I can recover.
Remember, we must be nurtured emotionally, physically and mentally.
In order to be productive, creative, authentic human beings.

 

[Supersadmommy90]

It sucks for me that all of my reasons for remaining alive are selfless reasons. Lol. Like there is little to no personal reward in it for me, which makes hanging on difficult.

First and foremost my kids. Why should they have to be broken-hearted and traumatized and grow up without me? I don't want them to feel that I did t love them enough to stick around. I do love them very much despite the emotional pain I have to feel every day.

My career goals which have become difficult to remain focused on due to depression making me want to give up. Ultimately my profession will benefit society but. It is very arduous and continues to require immense investment and dedication in order to establish myself in the field. I suppose that I will find the work personally satisfying to some degree but, it's just very difficult getting there.

My dad is elderly and I do t want to traumatize him or leave him at a time in his life where he will depend on me increasingly, I am an only child so no one else can pick up the slack.

That's it. I have to be in pain every day so that I can fulfill these aims

 

[Woodnote]

My motivation is my dogs. I don't want to abandon them.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Anger. Defiance. Stubbornness.
I want to flip the bird to everyone who has caused me grief.

 

[Epsilon0]

My family.

 

[helpmehelpme]

Honor the life I've been given

 

[Quinlor]

Just the exercise of thinking in a motivation makes me crying because I don't see an one...sorry

 

[Deleted member 17949]

There are things I still want to do. I want to become good at cooking, learn to program, go to university, visit other countries and make friends. I know I can still do these things and I want to live long enough to actually do them.

 

[AlexM]

My family. Honestly for me my life doesn't matter anymore, but my family went through hell because of me and for them my life still has value.

 

[Sad_Autistic_boy_101]

Being forced to live. I don't think I can recover but i'm being forced to recover

 

[funeraleveryday]

the possibility of being happy. i want it so badly.

 

[catmom13]

My cats, mostly.

I also just discovered an investment app that I'm interested in tracking my progress in, I'm taking classes to switch career fields, and I've been entertaining the idea of moving to Oregon.

I don't think there's really true happiness, so I make and chase goals.

 

[Desky]

Just started learning Russian and it's another good reason to be able to connect with other people without too much trouble. Love memorizing things anyways.

 

[WhatIsMyLife]

Family. I know they'd be shattered if I ctb.

 

[AlexM]

Just started learning Russian and it's another good reason to be able to connect with other people without too much trouble. Love memorizing things anyways.

Привет!

 

[tothemoon]

My cats, mostly.

I also just discovered an investment app that I'm interested in tracking my progress in, I'm taking classes to switch career fields, and I've been entertaining the idea of moving to Oregon.

I don't think there's really true happiness, so I make and chase goals.

Nice, where in oregon? I'm interviewing for a job in Portland.
I suppose because suicidality is not my 'default' state. I'd never even considered the idea until about a year and a half ago.And I'm in my 30s. Depression, even bad depression is a totally different beast from being suicidal.

 

[Quinlor]

Nice, where in oregon? I'm interviewing for a job in Portland.
I suppose because suicidality is not my 'default' state. I'd never even considered the idea until about a year and a half ago.And I'm in my 30s. Depression, even bad depression is a totally different beast from being suicidal.

I would like to move to Oregon, has a lot forest and hippie communities there. Are people friendly? I would like to pass a season learn english and working in the field perhaps ...

 

[tothemoon]

I would like to move to Oregon, has a lot forest and hippie communities there. Are people friendly? I would like to pass a season learn english and working in the field perhaps ...

what language is your native language? Yeah Oregonians are super chill.

 

[Quinlor]

what language is your native language? Yeah Oregonians are super chill.

Portuguese. Good to hear that about Oregonians .

 

[catmom13]

Nice, where in oregon? I'm interviewing for a job in Portland.

I am in love with the idea of Portland! I'm currently in San Francisco and I am hoping to buy a house in Portland eventually. Hoping to transition to a more analytical role that would allow me to apply for jobs there. I'm planning on flying there when it's safe to check it out.

 

[Quinlor]

Nice to read that most people in this thread are less suicide than in the entire SS .

 

[Nyxx33]

My family, friends, love of dance, nature, and travel (if I'll ever even get to travel again).
Tiny chance I'll ever meet someone again that suits me really well and we love each other and is honest and loyal. Chances are slim but girl can dream.