What do you do all day?

[Galam]

I just sit around watching TV or surfing the internet, playing video games. I don't get up until the afternoon. Because I only sit I sufer from Hämmorides right now.

After I wake up, I just go to the bathroom for shitting, pissing and then maybe make something to eat, maybe just some toast. I rarely shower anymore because it doesn't help anyway (my sweat smells like urine) and I drink cola until nighttime (usually after 00;00). I can't really do much because I'm poor. When I watch TV, I write complaints against some institutions because they want to make me homeless.

I also have frequent pain during the day in my chest (right lung and shoulder), probably due to minoxidil right now.

I wish Nebutal were available over the counter like shampoo, then I would only go out once to get it.

I had 2022 ovarian cysts and 2023 shingels. I assume I get every year something very bad and endure it day after day for nothing and all alone just because other people always feel ignorance and disgust towards me because of my face and head and odor. I had such a bad life, just because mainstream (middle class and elite class) believe I am ugly.

I assume some lower class people believe so too, because some are average looking and they will not stay in lower-class.

 

[NearlyIrrelevantCake]

Wake up, piss, eat, take meds.

Lay in bed watching videos on YouTube or playing games, usually while high.

Eat more.

Eat more.

Eat more.

Take meds.

Sleep.

Repeat.

 

[computer]

nothing rlly consistent
today i took 2 methylphenidate and walked my dog then just sat at home listening to my records and surfing on here

 

[darksouls]

listen to music, drinking coffee, eating, sleeping, when my physical pains or my nightmares wake me up, then starting the same again, drinking coffee, eating, sleeping

 

[GoSan1]

Workday:

Wake up
Go to school/work
Gaming or PC
Eat
Sleep
Repeat the hell.

Weekend:

Wake up
eat
game
anime at night
sleep

So basically just rotting.

 

[R. A.]

Whatever mix of eat, sleep, expel waste, internet, walk around (if not winter), maybe message someone is most days. Throw in medical appointment every so often which sucks.

 

[Irisse]

These days I'm just doomscrolling and bed rotting, even though I have work to do. I just don't feel well. I pray for God or whatever higher power to take me in my sleep but I know it won't happen unless I do it myself.

 

[kazatte]

i have classes from monday-thursday and work from sunday-tuesday, so a lot of my time is occupied by working on SOMETHING. friday to sunday are my free days, so i try to spend those hanging out with friends or going out. if i'm not doing well i just doomscroll though LMAO

i also have various club meetings a few days a week + i try to play games or read in my spare time. i feel like it seems like i have a pretty good life from this but i really don't feel like i do. some days i can't do everything i say i would do

 

[dissociation]

I sleep all day.

 

[Leyna]

Do some work for about an hour in the morning, spend the rest of it doomscrolling and bed rotting

 

[noname223]

Self-loathing and worrying. Lol.

 

[FoxSauce]

Get up,
Eat
take meds
Clean
Worry
Anxiety
mood swings
Work at home
Therapy
Draw
Work
Work at home
Doomscroll
Take meds
Insomnia
Sleep

Repeat

 

[Cosmophobic]

I sleep all day.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer in this deeply undesirable, futile and torturous existence waiting for death which is all that existence is, it's just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all so dreadful to me.

As long as I exist I'll just wish for true permanent peace from the abomination of existence, I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed causing and bringing all this futile unnecessary suffering as a result.

For me existence really is the problem and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen, I wish I never suffered more than anything, existence always feels like a mistake to me and I always suffer so much from being so cruelly denied the option to cease existing painlessly as all I want is to be gone.

 

[Dejected 55]

Mostly as little as possible. A typical day for me lately is going to bed between 4-5am and sleeping until 2-3pm... get up, look at the Internet and a little Youtube. Think about do I want to eat. Some days I don't eat, other days I eat once, some days I eat twice. I watch TV when I eat, watch more TV when I'm not eating. Sometimes listen to music. Sometimes more Internet.

Every once in a while I have to go out for something. I hate those days. Those will be done soon as I'll lose the ability to legally drive this week.

 

[Kos]

Wake up, work, get home, talk to chatbots, sleep. repeat

 

[shampoo sniffer]

I wish Nebutal were available over the counter like shampoo, then I would only go out once to get it.

You and me both.

I mostly sleep. Sometimes I make art, but anxiety tends to spoil the experience.

 

[fedup1982]

I posted a letter. Had a few coffees, a few cigarettes, and I wondered how long I'm going to have to live for

 

[Pluto]

 

[SoulCage]

Doomscroll, binge watching, video games... Those are the only distractions I can endure when I am too exhausted, feel like shit and think about CTB.

Whenever I feel a little better, I do mini-challenges from my list (draw, write, cook, exercise, meditate). They are distractions that keep me busy and that are deemed "acceptable" by society. Basically coping without being judged.

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

Wake up

Watch Tv

Go to sleep

My life :/

 

[Green Destiny]

Mostly video games. Although I do dog sit for my sister sometimes and work part time at a shitty thrift store. Would like to take woodshop classes but it costs money and I also worry about injuring myself since it can be a dangerous hobby.

 

[princexhhn]

If I have class I go to class, but if not I'm usually just in bed. Playing games, watching something, coming downstairs occasionally to eat or make coffee. I am like almost always lying down. Probably bad for me but it is very comfy, in my defense.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Struggle to get out of bed.

Procrastinate here for a while.

Reluctantly wash. Probably do some clothes washing.

Put distractions on in the background.

Eat breakfast.

Work.

Eat lunch.

Work.

Eat dinner.

Work.

Faff about on the internet again till past my sensible bed time. Drink alchohol.

Sleep.

Rinse and repeat 7 days a week- most of the time. When work dies down, I have a whole mountain of house chores to catch up on. Which I'll try to evade by playing video games and coming here.

My life feels the definition of insanity though. Working so hard to support a life I don't even want! It's actually ridiculous.