Venting what do you do on hard nights?

[monetpompo]

nights are hard. eventually i fall asleep but the time in between me going to bed and me laying there trying to sleep makes me really anxious, so i go and pick up my phone to avoid my thoughts. it's hard for me to not stay up, because it's not like i have anything to do in the morning anyway. i just hate being alone and i hate that i spend the majority of my time alone, even if there's people that i can text on my phone. it's not like i can see them whenever i want. i can hardly see my friends at all.

i feel melodramatic and like i don't deserve the time i spend around other people because i just seem to want to use it as a distraction from my own thoughts. since i don't have a driver's license (my sister is getting one before i do, we're both in our twenties and we rely on our mom to make the money) i can't just go somewhere when i want company. i don't have the privilege to leave my own house. i've never been able to find a sleeping trick or anything. some nights i feel really self destructive and think about sending nudes of myself to people because i think it'll make them like me more and make them hang out with me. it probably won't. i'm not sure how to make the spiraling or the loneliness any better. i feel like no one in my life is ever able to relate to me anymore. maybe this is just pointless wallowing and i'm meant to get over it.

 

[Pluto]

 

[Cosmophobic]

Try rolling around. Put your body in stupid positions that you could never fall asleep in. Put away your phone because it's not helping. Pick up your phone again because you forgot already that it's not helping.

Those are my sleep hacks!

 

[YourLocalSadGirly]

i'm not sure where you live and how safe this would be but i used to just walk around outside and listen to the bugs chirping and look at the stars. it sounds pretty stupid but if you put on some nice music it can be a good way to relax and try to forget about everything else in your life. just try to truly be present in that moment and forget everything else if you can. i know it sounds stupid but it has helped me several times throughout my life..

as for getting sleep just putting on a video that's just interesting enough to keep your attention but just boring enough to put you to sleep can help. it's a popular tip though so if you've tried it already and it hasn't worked for you i apologize.

 

[Dejected 55]

All day and all night are always difficult for me. Different times of day are difficult in different ways. Being in the house alone is difficult in a different way than it is to hate being out in public near other people. Everything is horrible, basically... just not the same kind of horrible.