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What do you do when you have really bad suicidal thoughts? if none of these are it, specify below!

  • draw/write

    Votes: 28 21.2%
  • nsfw stuff

    Votes: 39 29.5%
  • listen to music

    Votes: 83 62.9%
  • game

    Votes: 49 37.1%
  • talk to friends

    Votes: 24 18.2%
  • cry

    Votes: 70 53.0%
  • eat

    Votes: 32 24.2%
  • binge

    Votes: 29 22.0%
  • exercise

    Votes: 7 5.3%
  • go for a walk

    Votes: 22 16.7%

  • Total voters
    132
guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
personally I draw, listen to music, masturbate, talk to friends, or cry
 
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vitbar

vitbar

Escaped Lunatic
Jun 4, 2023
382
Distract myself with games, or youtube mostly. On the more negative side I listen to sad music, cry, and wander the streets.
 
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EternalShore

EternalShore

Hardworking Lass who Dreams of Love~ 💕✨
Jun 9, 2023
1,121
Sleeping is nicer than being awake when one is stuck in such an awful rut and feeling terrible~ >_<
 
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guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
Distract myself with games, or youtube mostly. On the more negative side I listen to sad music, cry, and wander the streets.
oh? what music? I listen to CAS or stuff like clairo, baby bugs, etc
 
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Depressive_Thoughts

Member
Jan 6, 2025
43
i hang out with my girfriend, listen to music, but its getting hard to keep up with the thoughts...
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
674
stare at a wall and dissociate
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
3,905
Listen to music and daydream
 
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guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
Some Grunge, New Wave, Placebo, Radiohead, and a bunch of random songs, mostly rock-adjacent.
i am a big radiohead fan!!!! i love their music so much
 
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hardcorebisnis

hardcorebisnis

love addict
Jan 2, 2025
15
hop on here or dissociate
 
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Malfunction

Malfunction

Member
Jul 27, 2024
43
Music, World of Warcraft, Left4Dead.
When possible I go for a walk.
 
dreamking

dreamking

Member
Apr 21, 2022
23
I listen to this until I either disassociate with life, or fall asleep...
Stone in Focus
 
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radiohead

radiohead

beach life-in-death
Feb 1, 2023
18
pretty much only the music option. that, roll around in bed, daydream, and scroll through this site for fifteen minutes. not healthy
 
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fuewybfunsfoiceoi

fuewybfunsfoiceoi

life is short, make it shorter
Mar 3, 2024
42
If I'm motivated I practice my ctb method, and scroll this site
 
Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
531
I mostly either vent on here, self harm, try to sleep, eat something that is chocolate or masturbate.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,637
None of them. I don't see my suicidal thoughts as something that I need to temporarily get rid of by coping because, firstly, my suicidal thoughts don't really cause me pain as it's just a by product of the reality of life and, secondly, nothing that I can do would get rid of it anyway (though I don't want to get rid of it as it gives me utility).
 
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SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

A dead man cannot regret. « MtF »
Nov 13, 2023
400
Talk to my online friends as #1, of if it's low I'd just listen to music or play games I think. It all depends on how bad the sentiment is at the given moment.
 
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Loaf of bread

Wizard
Mar 22, 2022
672
When I have bad suicidal thoughts, I just sit there and suffer. I havent found any coping to be effective
 
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lamy2006

lamy2006

Sata Andagi
Nov 22, 2024
55
stay in the shower or if possible the bath, and wallow in the thoughts until i have to leave

because most of my time is spent distracting myself from them, but it's getting harder
i kinda answered the question backwards, sorry
 
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PhilosopherInAV0id

PhilosopherInAV0id

The Reaper of Self, Amid the Silence
Jan 28, 2024
54
I sleep, to at least temporarily forget it all. A lot. People never believe me when I say one of my hobbies is sleeping, or think its a joke.

Other than that, depressingly self-hate music, killing things on games with a stupidly low difficulty setting, and thinking about life/death
 
darkenmydoorstep

darkenmydoorstep

Not Waving But Browned Off….
Sep 27, 2023
576
Come on here or try to sleep
 
guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
pretty much only the music option. that, roll around in bed, daydream, and scroll through this site for fifteen minutes. not healthy
fair, and it's not the most unhealthy option
I sleep, to at least temporarily forget it all. A lot. People never believe me when I say one of my hobbies is sleeping, or think its a joke.

Other than that, depressingly self-hate music, killing things on games with a stupidly low difficulty setting, and thinking about life/death
when I had time for gaming, I would hop on VR and play bonelab or pavlov to take out my anger and it really helps
 
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sximii

meow
Dec 4, 2024
79
Sleep, self harm, video games, smoke
 
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JesiBel

JesiBel

Harpy
Dec 5, 2024
40
Selfharm, feel some pain and remember what a failure I am and how much I hate myself.. And then cry.

It's strange, but after releasing so many negative emotions, one feels a little more relieved.
 
guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
Selfharm, feel some pain and remember what a failure I am and how much I hate myself.. And then cry.

It's strange, but after releasing so many negative emotions, one feels a little more relieved.
crying really helps. I have forced myself to stop cutting but that would also help me a ton. so would drinking
 
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Arrival03

Arrival03

Member
Jan 1, 2025
13
Listen to music, sleep, daydream, or self harm
 
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human909

human909

I just want peace
Dec 30, 2024
164
I think most of the times i would just cry and listen to music and then go on this site, it helps and it doesn't at the same time, i just can't wait to ctb this year.
 
guineapiglover8503

guineapiglover8503

Emily
Oct 7, 2024
155
Listen to music, sleep, daydream, or self harm
i am thinking that I should have put daydream on there. I personally daydream about dying, or if im listening to music I just daydream about performing the song im listening to xd
 
Lo$t95

Lo$t95

Hello Darkness my old Friend
Jul 16, 2024
108
Music, drinking/drugs until blackout disassociate and sometimes cut a little bit.
 

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