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Pretty Girl, Sick Mind
- Jun 28, 2025
- 20
So by end of August, I will be dead. My last few minutes of my life will be spent at one end of cord, or if that fails any type of passing out will be fine. All I want to happen is my vision to go blurry and I feel that sensation that honestly from the one time I managed to clasp my carotids correctly, felt amazing.
So once that has all happened we each have our own feelings about what will happen next. Some will just sit in darkness, some will be joining others, a few may want their souls to float around the world. For me tho, even if it sounds pathetic I wanna die dreaming.
So this sounds a bit pathetic but I don't want to catch the bus, I want to catch the train. I'll stand their waiting in some rural area, it's cherry blossom season, it's sunny but not unbearingly hot, but I'm in the middle of nowhere, just wild flower fields and cherry blossom trees, and where I'm standing in just a concrete platform with a plastic shelter behind me and a few bins, but it's tidy and peaceful, the only sound is the wind blowing in my hair.
So eventually the comes and stops where I'm at, the ticket conductor comes out and welcomes me aboard, and I sit down by a window and look outside. We leave and I spend my time gazing at the endless amount of wildflower fields and cherry trees, there's a few more stops and a few more people come aboard.
Who are they? Idk, maybe others who beleive the same as me, who knows?
They are just souls now looking for a final resting place.
Finally the stop where we all get off at is here, unlike all the other stops, this one is a small building with someone inside with a load of paperwork. We each go up to whoever they are and we are handed a document about where we need to go. We all have our own routes, so I go off on my own. Turns out this building is kinda large on the inside many hallways, many doors each with a different code on them. Once I reach mine, I simply put in a code what on the document and open the door…
As soon as I'm inside, the door closes and I'm greeted by a rainy evening, but luckily for me I'm inside, in my room, the bed is very comfortable, there's lots of dvds I can watch, my wardwrobe is filled with with all the clothes I love, I have a games console and all the games I can play, I feel like I'm home. I lay down on my bed and I feel peaceful, all I can hear is the sound of the rain outside and I doze off, knowing that I have made it, I am now free spirit. I shall do that until I move on, whatever it may be, I'll just be happy I am no more and my free will has returned…
Hope someone can relate to that, just wanted to share how I feel. As the site will be blocked tommorow in the UK, I will still hopefully be able to reach it w a vpn, but if I am unable to bypass the block, thank all so much for all the information that you have given, It has been a great help for the past 3 months, even though I only registered on Saturday, I've been lurking for a while. And I will be back, if I can find a way to bypass the block or if not in early august thank you so much <3
So once that has all happened we each have our own feelings about what will happen next. Some will just sit in darkness, some will be joining others, a few may want their souls to float around the world. For me tho, even if it sounds pathetic I wanna die dreaming.
So this sounds a bit pathetic but I don't want to catch the bus, I want to catch the train. I'll stand their waiting in some rural area, it's cherry blossom season, it's sunny but not unbearingly hot, but I'm in the middle of nowhere, just wild flower fields and cherry blossom trees, and where I'm standing in just a concrete platform with a plastic shelter behind me and a few bins, but it's tidy and peaceful, the only sound is the wind blowing in my hair.
So eventually the comes and stops where I'm at, the ticket conductor comes out and welcomes me aboard, and I sit down by a window and look outside. We leave and I spend my time gazing at the endless amount of wildflower fields and cherry trees, there's a few more stops and a few more people come aboard.
Who are they? Idk, maybe others who beleive the same as me, who knows?
They are just souls now looking for a final resting place.
Finally the stop where we all get off at is here, unlike all the other stops, this one is a small building with someone inside with a load of paperwork. We each go up to whoever they are and we are handed a document about where we need to go. We all have our own routes, so I go off on my own. Turns out this building is kinda large on the inside many hallways, many doors each with a different code on them. Once I reach mine, I simply put in a code what on the document and open the door…
As soon as I'm inside, the door closes and I'm greeted by a rainy evening, but luckily for me I'm inside, in my room, the bed is very comfortable, there's lots of dvds I can watch, my wardwrobe is filled with with all the clothes I love, I have a games console and all the games I can play, I feel like I'm home. I lay down on my bed and I feel peaceful, all I can hear is the sound of the rain outside and I doze off, knowing that I have made it, I am now free spirit. I shall do that until I move on, whatever it may be, I'll just be happy I am no more and my free will has returned…
Hope someone can relate to that, just wanted to share how I feel. As the site will be blocked tommorow in the UK, I will still hopefully be able to reach it w a vpn, but if I am unable to bypass the block, thank all so much for all the information that you have given, It has been a great help for the past 3 months, even though I only registered on Saturday, I've been lurking for a while. And I will be back, if I can find a way to bypass the block or if not in early august thank you so much <3
