What is the dumbest way you ever tried to ctb?

[mattoman]

4 years ago I took a bunch of clonazepam and drank a bottle of vodka on top of that. Friend called an ambulance and I went to ER.

 

[Silent_cries]

Where do I even begin? Attempting to od on d vitamins, swallowing batteries, od-ing on paracetamols and ibuprofen, od on anti-depressants and anti-psychotics, tying clothes/ligatures around my neck and sleeping with it, the list goes on... Seriously though, I do the stupidest things when I'm desperate.

 

[blacksand]

Sat on a train track until it was within 80ft

Put a shotgun in my mouth and squeezed the trigger back hard several times teasing it to go off.

 

[Gone soon]

I didn't try it, but I thought about jumping from our balcony, which is on the first floor. Probably I would just have got a few bruises

 

[LostLily]

Trying to strangle myself with a belt. Honestly, barely an attempt.
climbing into th bath tube with a knife but I couldn't do it because I'm afraid of the pain
Both were impulsive and poorly thought out so of course I failed. Next time I will prepare and research better.

 

[coffeebeany]

On the night of my 13th birthday I took a whole bottle of tetracycline I'd been prescribed for a minor oral surgery. My parents gave zero care and didn't even know the entire bottle disappeared overnight but if it were either of my sisters, they would have checked, known and prevented it. Tetracycline, dumb, I now know but my 13 yo self thought lots of pills should equal death, right? I did this due to severe neglect and abuse from my mom and only regret the fact that I woke up as if I did nothing.

I later moved on to whatever was in the medicine cabinet at around 15 and still lived as if I did nothing and at 21 tried to CTB by OD on Rx back pain pills while at work due to a manager who was moved to my team treating me badly and at one point he slammed my hand between 2 pieces of metal. He was moved to supervise my team to get him away from other women he sexually harassed in a different department (without any info or choice about his actions being given to us) and he began acting possessive of me as if I even knew who the heck he was. I knew nothing about him until he began acting crazy, a man who had to be 20-25 years older than me too! He was my sup and I was not into that!

I didn't find out the truth about him or how the company kept him on instead of firing him after numerous complaints until well after I pressed charges against him for slamming my hand between two peices of metal and the company then moved me (didn't fire him, the multiple time sexual harasser and now physical assaulter of women) to his old department where other women who were complete strangers to me began coming up to me telling me all of the things he did. Horrible!

Anyway, on the last attempt I was naive and always making myself smaller in any way possible so when the company Dr. asked if I tried to kill myself I said I was just hurting so bad that I thought more back pain pills would have helped my back that I had actually injured on the job previously. Now I feel stupid because if I was honest with the Dr. and talked to a lawyer, I might have actually had a lawsuit that could have brought some kind of change to that place. I ended up quitting, that place was awful.

I m so sorry and feel for you. I had a similar experience as a kid. All of this must have been devastating and draining for you ;-(

 

[metothemoon]

Well name all the stupid attempts that do not work and I did it. OD, suffocation, slitting wrist…

 

[Aglossa]

OD of sertraline (primarily) and seroquel when I was a teen. Kept swallowing them until I was physically unable to swallow anymore and threw up so much. It was not enough though... Only thing that happened was me spending the night and day after vividly hallucinating which was funnily enough pretty entertaining.

Other than that, although I am not sure I would count it as an actual attempt, one hot summer I was very depressed and decided to stop eating and drinking. Did not take long before I fainted from dehydration and hit my head which scared me so I started drinking again lol.

 

[M4rii]

it was 2015 for me. i didn't know the forum and thought you could use sleeping pills. but that's not the case

 

[End_it_all]

My first attempt was with Paracetamol. I was only 15 and had been having suicidal thoughts for a few years prior. I got told that if you take 60-100 paracetamol you're guaranteed to die. I didn't. Was just sick like a dog for days.

OD of sertraline (primarily) and seroquel when I was a teen. Kept swallowing them until I was physically unable to swallow anymore and threw up so much. It was not enough though... Only thing that happened was me spending the night and day after vividly hallucinating which was funnily enough pretty entertaining.

Other than that, although I am not sure I would count it as an actual attempt, one hot summer I was very depressed and decided to stop eating and drinking. Did not take long before I fainted from dehydration and hit my head which scared me so I started drinking again lol.

I tried to OD on Seroquel too. Also had the hallucinations. Was in and out of sleep, couldn't walk or move around, was hallucinating and talking to people who weren't there, and also kept pissing myself lol not a good experience

 

[dontwakemeup]

Where do I even begin? Attempting to od on d vitamins, swallowing batteries, od-ing on paracetamols and ibuprofen, od on anti-depressants and anti-psychotics, tying clothes/ligatures around my neck and sleeping with it, the list goes on... Seriously though, I do the stupidest things when I'm desperate.

Swallowing batteries omg, what happened??

 

[Redacted24]

I was probably 13 and wrapped a bungee cord around my neck.

Somehow that didn't work! I just got faintheaded and my eyesight went into tunnel mode. And nobody had a clue since no bruises or scars so there's that I guess.

When even younger I ate a bunch of chewable aspirin - not trying to hurt myself but because I liked the taste.

 

[CantDoIt]

I've also have had several incidents where I tied things around my neck while sleeping. I was hoping it would just happen to cut off my arteries lmao but of course not. The one time I actually almost suffocated while sleeping because of a pillow on my face I had a dream about suffocating and woke up.

 

[SadBishop]

When I was 14 I tried ODing on over-the-counter sleeping pills. I just threw them back up. I didn't even bother telling my parents about it. That's what I get for believing what I see in movies.

 

[willow115]

SSRI od for sure. All I got was a bunch of delirium and charcoal shits in the hospital.

I haven't tried anything stupid since. I've luckily managed to not stab myself or slice my neck in my more deranged episodes where I end up on the kitchen floor like an idiot.