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wildflowers1996

wildflowers1996

Mage
Oct 14, 2023
562
if you could have any life you wanted, would you want to live?
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,666
I would look like and be cool like the Shears brothers and I would be able to see my bf irl regularly (and that my parents would be accepting of our relationship). I would also be smart and talented and my family would be well-off. My ideal life would also involve living in a world that is structured in such a way that the world's governments' main focus is on helping others and ensuring a good quality of life for everyone instead of being built on greed and a lust for power, along with people actually being for the rights of others instead of being bigoted dumbasses.

Instead, I am a loser and I live in this garbage world.
 
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Blueberry Panic

Blueberry Panic

The Angel of Death
Jan 5, 2025
433
He would still be alive , that's all ... that's all i want
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,084
I can't even imagine what it would be like to truly be happy
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
1,491
I prefer to not have existed to begin with but I guess my ideal life would have been to live in a small cozy house with my best friend without needing any sort of job for money and to continue to make the games I want to. I would have liked to not experience, forget or recover from any huge trauma that I have got from school and people leaving me. Other than that I don't really want much else but I still will probably kill myself mid way into my life as I think life is too long and will get repetitive and boring.
 
rllysuper

rllysuper

ready to go
Jan 7, 2025
34
i'd live in a romantic, secluded cottage with a big, lively garden. i'd be happily married to a kind and beautiful woman, and together we would have a beautiful child. we would own one cow, two black-faced sheep and one oriental shorthair cat. the kitchen would have a huge skylight and there would be a small natural stream that lazily wraps around our backyard. i would have no responsibilities or obligations besides raising my child. money would never be an issue.

kind of a common fantasy but it's one i dream about it whenever i'm feeling a little optimistic:heart::heart:
 
Greyhawk

Greyhawk

Lord of loneliness
Jan 3, 2025
53
Having a job I like, not being an inferior outcast.
 
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donttalktome

Member
Jan 11, 2025
32
not being born
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,801
There is no such thing as an ideal life for me. I'd still rather be non existent no matter what
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

death wont return my calls
Mar 20, 2023
642
a place where i can remove all the painful memories i have and universal healthcare so i can treat my mental illness, find out how low my IQ is (probably below average.) and get a job. id love to go to college and work with nature.

but i live in a shithole so thats not happening. ever. even if the technology was there to remove memories, i couldnt afford it.
 
Pluto

Pluto

Cat Extremist
Dec 27, 2020
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HereIGoAgain24

HereIGoAgain24

Member
Sep 2, 2024
66
First and foremost: the world would be stable- our leaders would lead with the people's best interests at heart, our businessmen would have a sense of morals that they would place above any short-term profit chasing. I wouldn't have to worry about ecological devastation, war, civil unrest, and income inequality like I constantly do now. Anything else, I can pretty much deal with.

For added niceties, though:
-I'd find my soulmate- the type of person you just naturally play off of, who you never feel like you're 'faking it' around. The person who you might face troubles with, but always know you can and must work through because they're worth it. We'd watch terrible movies together, swap stories from our video games, and dress up fancy for a dinner at Denny's because of how funny it would be.
-I'd live in a small community close to nature. A town or small city in upstate New York or Vermont, probably. I'd get down to the big city once or twice a year.
-I'd have a stable job at a nonprofit, preferably as a teacher or something. It wouldn't make me rich, but it'd be comfortable, and it'd give a great sense of purpose.
-A couple of cats and dogs, but no kids.

Essentially, I want to live in Stardew Valley.
 
happynuclearwinter

happynuclearwinter

Hand me my shovel, I'm going in
Oct 10, 2023
32
Live together with my partner and my cat, no kids, homey house with a small art studio, work desk side by side with my partner. Somewhere far away from my hometown, but still in the city.

Can't afford those, sadly.
 
billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
623
i would have my own family with a house and pets and a job that i like where i earn a lot of money
 
Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Here for a bad time, not a long time
May 9, 2024
866
Idk about the specifics but in an ideal world I would not be mentally ill
 
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CogitoMori

I won't be on as much as usual. Less alone time
Oct 21, 2024
407
A charity job where I won't contribute to slave labor or pollution. Having Jason as a friend. Having enough energy to work, do chores, socialize, and craft. A dog would be nice.
 
pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,265
i would never want any kind of life / existence / consciousness ever. non-existence forever is the only thing i want

non-existence forever is the only guarantee of never suffering unending constant unbearable pain nor suffering extremely .

i believe after Death every human ceases to exist forever . The main problem i have is i'm alive in this hell and they made t guaranteed suicide methods into crimes. for example they made me paying someone to help me kill myself a crime . so i have to risk brain damage or further disability with a risky diy suicide method .

I reject everything in this evil world and horrible life especially the pleasurable addictions because those are the things that keep me here to fall for the most extreme torture and temporarily fool people into thinking this is anything but hell

for example i hate washing clothes , scrubbing the toilet , working a job, humiliating myself to others, the flu, etc...... but these things are better than the pleasurable addictions like eating food, or watching youtube . because the things you hate give you a clue to the reality that this is utter hell and to maybe anticipate and avoid the really extreme torture than can happen. the food and youtube and news keep me distracted and fooled.

also this is an imposed prison. they made it a worse prison my making guaranteed suicide methods into crimes

i won't sit here watching my news, my youtube , eating the "yummy" food all the while being a slave prisoner and waiting for extreme torture

i'm a slave prisoner risking extreme suffering for no reason . all those pleasurable addictions are meaningless . there is no reason for me to want to live another minute in any kind of life. the only things i want is to avoid unbearable pain
 
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CPY

Student
Oct 30, 2023
134
A long time ago I would have said a decent life with a gf and enough money to enjoy life but, personally at this point I just would like my mental illnesses to go away.Just that would suffice...but sadly I've been suffering for 6 years and I know that most likely there won't ever be a cure in my lifetime
 
cotton

cotton

Member
Nov 6, 2024
94
The will to make friendships, relationships and pursue a job
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
11,264
I likely did have the potential to be happy. Even after some of the crap that happened early on, I may have still pulled through. I think it's probably an upbringing with a (suspected) narcissist that truly threw me for a loop. Although, it's the various coping mechanisms I picked up in response that trouble me now. On the one hand, they've been enough to carry me this far but, they were never going to be sustainable forever.

If that hadn't happened though, I have a feeling I'd be slightly more balanced and slightly more sociable. I think having a partner and/ or keeping good friends maybe would have made me happier.

I can't really imagine being who I'm not now though. I've had too many bad/ disappointing experiences to trust friendship properly.

Putting all my focus on getting a creative job on the one hand partly paid off but it's also not the solution I hoped it would be and it carries its own problems.

Really, I don't know though. Sometimes I do run through imaginings of how my life would have been with or without a certain thing happening. But, it's like- I can often imagine gaining in some ways but, losing in others. Maybe I'm just an ungrateful person who would always find a way to feel unfulfilled and miserable.

It's not something I'd want though. Like that whole- Would you want your life again? Would you want a different life with better prospects? It's a big 'no' for both. Life requires far too much effort and it's far too risky in my opinion to willingly participate in.
 
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windows7enjoyer

windows7enjoyer

:3
Dec 23, 2024
14
being free, what I mean by that is being able to be a girl freely and being able to wear whatever I want (im mtf), having a wife, living in a small city that's in the woods or smth similar to that and having 2 kitties :3

but all of that is impossible so eh ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
 

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