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to me that seems like the most beautiful and warm thing to say in the whole world...but I can see how to hear that given how you feel could be v.painful! was it yr mother that passed to suicide?
I can see your perspective as well. It's just that I feel like an utter failure for not being able to bring forth anything good, not even a lack of sadness. Yes, it was my mother, three months ago...
I can see your perspective as well. It's just that I feel like an utter failure for not being able to bring forth anything good, not even a lack of sadness. Yes, it was my mother, three months ago...
Im so sorry- that must be a huge part to who you are feeling now no? that very recent...I hope it does not sound patronising to ask if you have had any grief counselling or a support group for people that have lost people to suicide?- it must be strange dichotomy to be on here...and try and cope with yr recent loss
Im so sorry- that must be a huge part to who you are feeling now no? that very recent...I hope it does not sound patronising to ask if you have had any grief counselling or a support group for people that have lost people to suicide?- it must be strange dichotomy to be on here...and try and cope with yr recent loss
Maybe not that terrible but I remember getting into an argument with my mom about 15 years ago. And at one point she said "well we never really talk about what a basically crap person you are." That always stuck with me. It's pretty messed up when your parents can't keep themselves in check.
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Lots of stuff.. from saying that im being manipulative to saying that i sexually harassed on whatsapp to someone who i met when was a cashier that became friends n ended up saying to me that he pretty much has nothing to gain from staying friends with me n all that ,oh well :/
My ex-dating said to me: "no is no, it's over," and also she never really loved me and I don't do anything all day (it's almost true) so after that I decided ctb...
I only remember 2 things that stuck with me. First, was when someone back in jr.high told me "you're so stupid" for accidentally spilling his drink. Second, is that my dad usually always says "what's wrong with you" in a tone of voice that always hurt me. He said this to me when I accidentally had a minor car accident, whenever I cried in front of him, and sometimes when he gets angry with me.
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I do not tell anyone about wanting to die. I keep everything to myself. My problems do not concern anyone else. I see it as better to stay quiet. There is no words that I ever want to hear. Keeping quiet means that nobody can say anything that can upset me. People can be cruel.
Something a doctor, psychiatrist or parent or relative or friend has said. So many people "in power" have said and done so many bad things to me. Can't pick a single person or a single thing.
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Can't remember the exact words but my father told me I was lying and didn't believe me when I finally got the courage to tell him I was raped by my brother at 7. I was around 10 years old. What 10 year old would lie about that?
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I played MapleStory back when it was popular. My father wasn't very fond of my gaming habits. There was this one day I was pleading with him to give me more time to wrap things up (more specifically to get to Level 30), then out of the blue, he lashed out at me. Sometimes I still hear him say those words in the back of my mind.
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One of my ex-boyfriends told me when I broke up with him that I am an evil monster who doesn't know what love is, that I have autistic traits and that I have abused him. (it was mostly vice versa :P )
Platitudes are often useless, but most of the time well intentioned. But then there are people who treat people with depression or similar illnesses like shit. What is the worst thing someone said to you, because of your problems in life? What was the most hurtful comment youve ever heard?
Lies about how I'm "not in trouble" or "how I could be this or that" or how the "system helps people" or how these fuckin stupid crisis lines "care."
Or how fuckin loser cops are there to "help" which they aren't. I hope my sister gets stabbed. She wouldn't help either.
Nobody does. Nobody does. People just ignore me, use me, lie to me, lie about me, throw me back into the street and blame me because of a garbage family,
Oh is that your peepee? Apparently that's all you're fuckin good for.
Heeeeeheeeee.
Like I care. I want to commit suicide.
Leave my dead body on a cops doorstep for revenge.
Tell them to go fuck themselves.
I'm not so sure, but the most ironic and funny at the same time was "you had to grown up". Into the context: "ya people are crazy stupid, i'm crazy stupd as hell, and cause we are all like that you shuld be too, so grow up and accept what i did to you and that you are the same.". That one made my day, that day :)
Being called stupid and ugly to my face as a teen by my only friend. I stayed because I was so isolated and thought one day she would stop. She never did and then when I finally avoided her after 2 years she called me insensitive. She's normal and successfull now and doesn't think of the girl she wrecked emotionally. She knew how isolated I was....how I would come home to an empty apt and cUT myself...but she still went in on me terribly. What an evil person.
My best friend like a year ago: You've changed. You only hang out with other people (this wouldn't have hurt me so much.)
And then she said: "You were never there for me, I was always there for you but you never cared." I did care, I wanted to be there for her but she kept pushing me away.
Also someone telling me: I" know you're just doing this for attention. "
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This came from an "ex-boyfriend" who groomed and manipulated me. He lied about spending two weeks in a psychiatric ward before he said this and immediately returned and made sure I knew it was my fault he "tried to die"-- because I didn't "love him enough". It was all a manipulation tactic to make me scared of him dying so I would stay with him and he could keep using me. This is why my own first attempt was at age 11. He was 23 when we were talking. I couldn't have known he was really too conceited to hurt himself.
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Funnily enough so many things have been "thrown at me" verbally that I stopped taking anything to heart. Nothing matters anymore...probably been called an "ugly/selfish/cripple/spoilt/psycho/whore/asshole" by various people but it doesn't really matter since it only reflects their own insecurities at that particular moment.
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I think I've rather completely lost track of words at this point in life. What sticks with me more than sharp words are the sharp silences
: the things I can see people choosing not to say, the disappearing acts that leave me creating my own words to fill the gaps, to try to guess what that facial expression hides; the hurt of having to create the words yourself, and possibly making them so much worse than they might have meant,but also not really knowing what that first intent was either
I was walking into a little shop one time with my favorite flower pin, rainbow wig, comically large shoes, red nose, and polka dot suit. Anyway this guy stops me at the counter and says: "We don't allow your kind here. Get your ass out." This shook me to the core. I've started a GoFundMe and a StopTheCoulrophobia.com website after this disgusting incident. Why is this intolerant hatred still going on in this day and age? The fucking nerve of some folks.
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