when did you give up with your health

[tevati]

How you cope with that you are forever alone, because of your health.

How you cope with very little amount of life quality?

 

[TAW122]

I've given up on my health over a decade ago, when I started to go to college. It started off with I just didn't have enough time to care about my physical fitness, health, and psychological health. Not to mention the emotional and psychological damage I've suffered during adolescence and what not (another story though). As for coping, well I've just resorted to video games, watching youtube videos, sometimes porn, and instrumental music.

 

[Made4TV]

Well, I haven't given up yet. And yet the truth is that physically I will probably deteriorate further. Mentally/emotionally there is a lot of chance for me to get better, I just can't afford the treatment. I don't know how to cope with any of it frankly. Being here, I guess, is how I cope right now. I cope by planning ctb. I cope by trying to make meaning where I can. I cope by trying to do good things and help other people. Eventually I'm guessing I'll cope by ctb-ing.

 

[worldexploder]

I totally gave up on my health after my divorce. I wasn't healthy to begin with. When I moved back home 4 years ago I took to heavy drinking, laying in bed all day, cigs, and bad foods. I haven't had a vegetable in months.

 

[Susannah]

My mental health is ok, but physically I suffer from chronic pain disease and nerve damage (arms). I "give up" every day, cry and scream inside, hate life, people, my destiny. But then I distract myself with music, training. Or I drive to the forrest for a long walk. I might call a friend if I'm really sad. I visit this forum, read the stories, write down my thoughts.

I can get furious sometimes and instead of trashing my home ;) I take on my boxing gloves (love boxing).

 

[BjartNO]

I haven't, I am in excellent shape

 

[Jodes]

My mental health is ok, but physically I suffer from chronic pain disease and nerve damage (arms). I "give up" every day, cry and scream inside, hate life, people, my destiny. But then I distract myself with music, training. Or I drive to the forrest for a long walk. I might call a friend if I'm really sad. I visit this forum, read the stories, write down my thoughts.

I can get furious sometimes and instead of trashing my home ;) I take on my boxing gloves (love boxing).

Your mental health is making you suffer horribly I'd say, actually? And that technically is room for treatment? Sorry...

 

[Whiskeyjames]

Since college too..., eating normal and exercise sometime but smoke a lot and not sleep...

 

[Susannah]

Your mental health is making you suffer horribly I'd say, actually? And that technically is room for treatment? Sorry...

Probably, but without any diagnose;) or meds.

 

[NoOneKnows]

copying by scheming planning CTB, the thought of being dead, away from this place is almost euphoric

 

[weedoge]

How you cope with that you are forever alone, because of your health.

How you cope with very little amount of life quality?

I'm a bit of failure actually, I've been self sabotaging for far longer than I knew I would commit suicide. Ever since I was still in college I stopped taking my meds for an endocrine disorder, supposed to take them 3 times a day. This in itself apparently can cause or exasperate mental health issues. It doesn't seem to come as a natural instinct to do normal every day things until I'm feeling the negative effects from not doing them. When I get hungry, if I then eat and don't feel hungry anymore, I'm not really worried about my quality of life just not suffering at any given moment. It's almost hedonistic because I can't see the long term in any way except I'm not seeking pleasure, just comfort and freedom from pain.

probs didn't make much sense sorry

 

[TooLate2582]

I'm too vein to give up on my health, as it relates to my physical appearance. I do engage in unhealthy, self destructive behaviors such as substance abuse, risky sex and general risk taking though.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I was never taught to be concerned about my health. I can count on one hand how many doc/dentist visits i attended as a kid.

My first office job, I was talking to a coworker about my plans to forego health insurance. She was almost disgusted that I would consider such a thing. It was at that moment that I felt like the biggest idiot. Like a child.

Ive had breif periods over the years where i try to get serious about my health. But, eventually i start to feel invisible again. Nothing matters. I only do enough to not draw tooooo much attention to myself.

Plus, I'm in Usa.. health cost.

 

[Sundayafternoon]

I'm a bit of failure actually, I've been self sabotaging for far longer than I knew I would commit suicide. Ever since I was still in college I stopped taking my meds for an endocrine disorder, supposed to take them 3 times a day. This in itself apparently can cause or exasperate mental health issues. It doesn't seem to come as a natural instinct to do normal every day things until I'm feeling the negative effects from not doing them. When I get hungry, if I then eat and don't feel hungry anymore, I'm not really worried about my quality of life just not suffering at any given moment. It's almost hedonistic because I can't see the long term in any way except I'm not seeking pleasure, just comfort and freedom from pain.

probs didn't make much sense sorry

It makes plenty of sense.