Discussion where do you see yourself in the next 4 years

[resteasy3232]

honestly, i see myself either dead or just existing until that moment comes. i don't believe my life will improve. while i've never been suicidal or harmed myself in any way, ever since my girlfriend passed, i feel overwhelmed with despair and guilt. all i want to do is sleep, and the thought of ctb crosses my mind more than i'd like to admit. the only things that keeps me from ctb is my cat, my family, and my brother. they're the reasons i cant, i wish no one cared whether i lived or died. i hope to live alone soon, but part of me just wants to ctb now. i often wish i could turn back time and make different choices to fix my life, but that's not possible.

 

[chocosyrup]

I'm not sure, either dead or doing my GP training program to become a qualified GP.

 

[L'absent]

Yes, it's terrible when you lose the person you love. Did she disappear recently? I really don't see myself in 4 years.

 

[resteasy3232]

Yes, it's terrible when you lose the person you love. Did she disappear recently? I really don't see myself in 4 years.

Yes, last month she passed.

 

[Mirrory Me]

I don't know either, it's a long trip and I don't currently have super hype feelings about it. But in a different place I assume.

 

[SVEN]

Hopefully I won't be around to be seen by myself, or anyone else.

 

[LostLily]

Hopefully dead. But who knows I'm not really good with going through with plans, I thought I would be dead by now.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

Hopefully dead / not existing forever

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I'd be heavily surprised if the world is even habitable for us to live in 4 years time. Either way, I hope that I manage to die before that happens but I haven't been so fortunate with regards to a suicide method

 

[Alcoholic Teletubby]

God, I hope I'll be dead. As much as I've built up the desire to keep living, I also can't perceive there being much of a point in doing so.

Nothing will change; it's always the same.

 

[TheHolySword]

If I'm not dead then I've probably won the lottery. Even then I'm probably dead.

 

[helloandbye1]

dead for sure.

 

[ShatteredSerenity]

I'll be ashes and memories by that point, unless something terrible happens and I survive.

 

[PI3.14]

I'll be long gone and nothing but ashes since I'm planning to ctb in Jan

 

[dontwakemeup]

DEAD!

 

[greebo6]

Don't want to be here then , it isn't worth it , but if fail to ctb then...….. even worse than I am now. Definitely not even the same.... nor any better.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I'd be heavily surprised if the world is even habitable for us to live in 4 years time.

Why do you say so?

 

[WeDontKnowTheFuture]

I do not know and cannot imagine, i Just hope that my suffering will be less intense

 

[NoPoint2Life]

I never have an answer to these type of questions. Even when I was a kid. It's because I've never had any ambitions or goals. My first thought is to say dead and while that's true I have no idea if I will have the guts to ever do it. I never imagined being this old, but then I also never imagined CTB to be as difficult as it is.
If I am still alive, things can only have gone downhill by then. So probably I'll just be miserable.

 

[divinemistress36]

Hopefully dead but if not rotting in bed still

 

[ijustwishtodie]

Why do you say so?

I should clarify beforehand that I'm just taking this with a grain of salt but I'm basing this off what the professor Guy Mcpherson is talking about in his videos. Within climate change discussions, I tend to see people talk about how anthropogenic climate change could potentially cause extinction via loss of habitat at around 2050 or around 2100 but mcpherson argues that it would happen much earlier than that. He's just a messenger per se who refers to a lot of scientific work to display his message.

Anyways, I'm not going to use this as a factor of me living or wanting to ctb (and I suggest that anybody else here also doesn't consider this as their reason to ctb) as I'm just taking this with a grain of salt. After all, there were a bunch of people saying that the arctic would be ice free at a certain year in the past (the latest being 2022) and we're almost in 2025 so obviously that didn't come to fruition https://humanprogress.org/is-the-arctic-ice-about-to-disappear/.

Nonetheless, I still would be surprised if the world is still habitable in 4 years time but, honestly, I hope that I don't even stay alive for 4 years longer in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

I personally only hope to cease existing and never suffer ever again, existence just feels like a terrible mistake to me, it's something deeply undesirable that I'd never wish for that I see as just causing so much suffering, personally I'd always prefer to die than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it, I just have no interest in suffering in this existence and I see existing as deeply undesirable.

I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence but rather I just want nothingness instead, I only hope for an eternal, dreamless sleep where this existence is finally no longer my problem and I can be at peace. What appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent and if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, to me existence is an abomination, I see existence as pointless unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it's all just so terrible to me and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace and never exist ever again.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I should clarify beforehand that I'm just taking this with a grain of salt but I'm basing this off what the professor Guy Mcpherson is talking about in his videos. Within climate change discussions, I tend to see people talk about how anthropogenic climate change could potentially cause extinction via loss of habitat at around 2050 or around 2100 but mcpherson argues that it would happen much earlier than that. He's just a messenger per se who refers to a lot of scientific work to display his message.

Anyways, I'm not going to use this as a factor of me living or wanting to ctb (and I suggest that anybody else here also doesn't consider this as their reason to ctb) as I'm just taking this with a grain of salt. After all, there were a bunch of people saying that the arctic would be ice free at a certain year in the past (the latest being 2022) and we're almost in 2025 so obviously that didn't come to fruition https://humanprogress.org/is-the-arctic-ice-about-to-disappear/.

Nonetheless, I still would be surprised if the world is still habitable in 4 years time but, honestly, I hope that I don't even stay alive for 4 years longer in the first place.

I personally would take that claim with several heaping tablespoons of salt lol. Climate is not weather -- the timescales we're dealing with here are totally different. Even with the gargantuan amounts of CO2 we're pumping into the atmosphere, change comes only slowly and is typically (though not always) not detectable anecdotally within a human being's lifespan. Rather, trends are detected through data over many decades and, preferably, centuries. I'd suggest checking out Roger Pielke.

 

[SoulWhisperer]

4 years from now, I hope dead, just not on the fucking streets... Sigh.

 

[Gone soon]

Dead. It's as simple as that

 

[untothedepths]

i hope dead and left the mother fuck alone

 

[tbh2023]

Dead for sure!

 

[uselessflesh]

drowning in loneliness

 

[Unknown21]

Hopefully dead.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I really hope I'm dead by then. If I'm not, I'll likely be in exactly the same position that I'm in now or, something worse. I want to wait for my Dad to go first.