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pleasexbexover

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Feb 26, 2025
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hi! please be kind, forgive me if I sound stupid or tone deaf, that's pretty much been the state of my mind for the past 2 years. my health insurance cancelled literally a year ago (was on my mom's plan/medicaid and she passed at the end of 23). with everything I've had going on its been insanely hard for me to find the energy to go through insurance applications let alone actually fill them out. my income is extremely limited right now as well. so this kinda does sound really ignorant now that I'm typing it all out and reading it. I've checked on hers, and they don't have anything that would benefit me/I haven't taken before with no affect. I've been taking vistaril off and on since my dad died in 2017, a year later, my first therapist said I should be prescribed klonopin "but since he was a psychiatrist, he couldn't do it". Cut to, I am now seeing a psychiatrist, and even if I asked, I'd probably get denied anything stronger due to my history of self harm and suicidal ideation. So all I do is smoke weed, take my prozac and welbutrin. Any advice? I can't keep going like this but after lurking for years and finally making an account, I'm realizing that I'm not as ready for death as I thought I would be. I need help. Help that my family, friends, nor anyone in my life has been able to provide. 😞😓
 
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hi! please be kind, forgive me if I sound stupid or tone deaf, that's pretty much been the state of my mind for the past 2 years. my health insurance cancelled literally a year ago (was on my mom's plan/medicaid and she passed at the end of 23). with everything I've had going on its been insanely hard for me to find the energy to go through insurance applications let alone actually fill them out. my income is extremely limited right now as well. so this kinda does sound really ignorant now that I'm typing it all out and reading it. I've checked on hers, and they don't have anything that would benefit me/I haven't taken before with no affect. I've been taking vistaril off and on since my dad died in 2017, a year later, my first therapist said I should be prescribed klonopin "but since he was a psychiatrist, he couldn't do it". Cut to, I am now seeing a psychiatrist, and even if I asked, I'd probably get denied anything stronger due to my history of self harm and suicidal ideation. So all I do is smoke weed, take my prozac and welbutrin. Any advice? I can't keep going like this but after lurking for years and finally making an account, I'm realizing that I'm not as ready for death as I thought I would be. I need help. Help that my family, friends, nor anyone in my life has been able to provide. 😞😓
You should try to ask the psychiatrists now, you don't know if they will say yes or no until you've asked, they might prescribe a suitable anti-anxiety med if they feel like it. If they are unsure about it, explain that you want to recover and keep living, but it is a bit hard to live with all the anxiety that you're currently experiencing and that everything feels too overwhelming.
 
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Apr 22, 2025
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Something easily accessible otc drug wise would be DPH (e.g.: benadryl) if only for the sedating effects...

But that is a slippery fucking slope and I honestly cannot recommend it for repeated use. It's a terrible fucking drug to be reliant on and soooooo soooooo damaging as you go up in dosage.

Best bet would be to look into herbal remedies and see if any work for you. Other than that, just shoot your shot with your psych and see if they can give you anything. Can't lose what you don't have.
 
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kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
119
Sorry, I'm a bit confused - if you're seeing a psychiatrist, what do you think you can't get? Even with a history of self harm there are plenty of anti-anxiety medications that can be prescribed. Just explain your anxiety has been through the roof and what you're on now isn't helping any.
 
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Mar 3, 2023
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Sorry, I'm a bit confused - if you're seeing a psychiatrist, what do you think you can't get? Even with a history of self harm there are plenty of anti-anxiety medications that can be prescribed. Just explain your anxiety has been through the roof and what you're on now isn't helping any.
plenty?
I'd be very curious for my own anxiety disorder but to my knowledge there are basically just SSRIs (which don't work for me, also yucky sides), buspirone (which also acts serotonergic), and BZDs which acually help, but aren't exactly suitable for anything outside of PRN use.
(and I dont count meds with drowsiness as side effect like anti-histamines, or BP lowering meds that only help if your fear is a physical reaction rather than actual fear)
 
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kotonearisato

memento mori
Feb 13, 2024
119
plenty?
I'd be very curious for my own anxiety disorder but to my knowledge there are basically just SSRIs (which don't work for me, also yucky sides), buspirone (which also acts serotonergic), and BZDs which acually help, but aren't exactly suitable for anything outside of PRN use.
(and I dont count meds with drowsiness as side effect like anti-histamines, or BP lowering meds that only help if your fear is a physical reaction rather than actual fear)
There are also SNRIs, which are not SSRIs, but also many classes of anti-depressants are used off label for anxiety treatment. TCAs and MAOIs for example, but I also know wellbutrin is used off-label. Other things are trazodone, a few anti-convulsants, and a few anti-psychotics. By BZD I assume you mean benzodiazapines? There's a few that are actually prescribed at very low doses for daily use, so it's not just as needed. So yes, plenty of options.

Also, if it's available to you, spravato might be worth looking into. It's usually used for depression but it's been shown to be helpful for longterm anxiety management as well.
 
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