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LimpandNumb

Member
Mar 16, 2025
98
I was listening to Numb by Linken Park and tada!
 
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getoutgirl

Member
Mar 17, 2025
41
I had been listening to this Jason Molina's song on loop for two hours

The whole album really is one of the most sorrowful, and honest pieces of music I've listened to. The pain in this man's voice cuts like a knife. RIP
 
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Nobodi

Nobodi

Member
Sep 24, 2024
78
I could have sworn I read a quote somewhere where it came off like" it's better to be a nobody, for how dreadful it must be to be a somebody" not sure if that how it goes word for word but it stay stuck to me and that's why I have. I thought Sylvia Plath quoted it but I don't find anything from her saying it.
 
saturn1402

saturn1402

Take me back to the night we met
Sep 13, 2024
148
From the song Saturn - Sleeping at Last. It is the song I will listen to right before CTB. And 1402 cause it is a very important date for me (I met my ex)
 
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Emerita

Emerita

Martyr for Peace
Jan 16, 2025
27
Emerita:
'A woman retaining an honorary title held immediately before retirement'

Im retiring from life so I thought it was fitting.
 
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Manaaja

Manaaja

euROPE
Sep 10, 2018
1,457
I don't fully remember anymore.

Maybe it's because there was a finnish donald duck comic album named "Munaaja" and that made me think "Manaaja it is". Manaaja means an exorcist. I guess it's death or other-dimensions related. Mystical, fantasylike. Makes you think of demons and evil. But also purification and getting rid of evil and demons. A badass like Belmonts. Also religion and magic related. Kinda cool, it's related to many things. If you split it, it becomes Mana and aja which would be translated to "Drive, Mana!" as in mana in video games used for magic. Magic is best.

Munaaja was a joke title. It's Manaaja where a is changed to u. Muna means Egg (ducks lay eggs). Munata means to screw up, to botch. Munaaja means like someone who screws up, botches things. But in that title it also makes you think of someone who lays eggs and exorcises.
 
Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
21,309
My username is actually an anagram. Though it is a bit ironic because I hate doctors and this website allows me the space to chronicle the arc I've been on.
 
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Halfhourdays

Halfhourdays

Mage
Mar 14, 2025
534
How long the days are here in this...
 
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spypilot896

spypilot896

I will finally be happy when I'm floating in limbo
Mar 23, 2025
85
I took two of the aliases I use and mashed them together
citizen896+spypilot=spypilot896
pretty simple
 
ForeverCaHa

ForeverCaHa

Heartbroken Welshman
Feb 16, 2025
370
Mine is a combination of the first two letter of the city my partner and I lived in (Cardiff) and the first two letter of his surname. Forever there, with him
 
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CTB_random

CTB_random

Member
Dec 16, 2023
39
I got the rando part of my name from the main part of my username I use on every other site and videogame and the ctb part was because when I first logged onto the site and you see the online members some of them had it in there name so I just kinda merged them
 
TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,087
I've mentioned it on other threads but it's just an old internet identity from over a decade ago. it just feels close to home.
 
LifeIsASadist

LifeIsASadist

F you pro lifers
Oct 16, 2024
140
Life is just fucking sadistic and evil
 
Lyn

Lyn

Momentary
Mar 1, 2025
48
It's just a random combination of letters with no meaning at all.
Just like life itself.


Oh wait... That's also some sort of a meaning now lol
 
ione

ione

say whaaaaaaaaaaaat?
Mar 24, 2025
6
It's the name of an OC that's close to my heart.
 
Izzythebelle

Izzythebelle

Member
Mar 8, 2025
27
its one of three usernames I use for everything, started when I was like 9 and kept with it.
 
SomewhatLoved

SomewhatLoved

Bringing out the Dead and Searching for the Living
Apr 12, 2023
244
The song "Somewhat Damaged" by Nine Inch Nails
 
MathConspiracy

MathConspiracy

Virta venhettä vie
Mar 25, 2025
69
Math – I absolutely despise mathematics! No, but really, I hate it.
Conspiracy – I think math was invented by the system to keep us in line. You can't make sense of the number shit? You failed your test? Say goodbye to your future.
 
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Apokryphiel

Apokryphiel

Forevermore
Mar 23, 2025
72
You can't make sense of the number shit? You failed your test? Say goodbye to your future.
Unfortunate reality.

I like making more unique usernames with no real inherent meaning. Apokryphiel is sort of just a combination of words.
 
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BloomingAzaleas

BloomingAzaleas

Full Bloom
Apr 13, 2023
77
A long time ago I was in psychosis and believed that eating Azaleas was the only way to wake up from this world and into the world I fell into a coma in from eating Azaleas.

Since then, Azaleas has been a symbol of suicide for me, and since I'm on this forum, one could say my Azaleas are in full bloom.
 
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yeahyeahyeahfan

yeahyeahyeahfan

Member
Jan 1, 2025
17
The advise was to use a username not used elsewhere, so I referenced a band I've never listened to.
 
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Anne Alias

Anne Alias

tired.
Feb 11, 2025
20
I couldn't use any of my normal usernames, so I needed an alias. An... Alias.... Anne.... A-you get it, You get the thought process, I don't need to explain it. 'Anne Alias' is an alias.
 
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PurpleMorality

PurpleMorality

Questioning
Mar 31, 2024
10
There's black, white, and grey morality. Often, cultures alien to humans (e.g. the fey, literal aliens, etc.) are described as having blue and orange morality.

My favorite color is purple and I'm struggling to line up my sense of morality with the real world.
There's black, white, and grey morality. Often, cultures alien to humans (e.g. the fey, literal aliens, etc.) are described as having blue and orange morality.

My favorite color is purple and I'm struggling to line up my sense of morality with the real world.
 
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untraveler

with no precious memories
Aug 27, 2023
14
I dreamed of traveling, camping and having a good time with close friends who'd enjoy it, too. Building precious memories from adventures and intimate conversations. I haven't done that too much. I'm scared of traveling abroad, rarely have friends to go with, and I'm depressed, making it all pointless if I can't even share the joy. Therefore, a traveler, but not. Untraveler. I don't care if that's not a word. I travel mostly in my dreams.
 
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bubblecat

Member
Nov 11, 2024
9
Don't even remember. Probably based on something I had randomly generated since I have a hard time thinking of usernames. But I do love cats.
 
Rainbow Dash

Rainbow Dash

Member
Aug 11, 2024
63
New Username: My Little Pony: Friendship Is Magic.
Okd Username: I forgot cause I forgot my old username.
 

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