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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
My benzos just arrived, I'm so excited! And a little nervous, since the whole underground benzos scene feels a little sketchy, and there isn't much info on some of these benzos.

I'll wait until later this evening to test one, that way I can just go to bed early if it has any weird effects. I live with my parents unfortunately, so it's not the best situation for experimenting with drugs.
 
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Peter Skellern

Enlightened
Jan 10, 2025
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Do you think it makes the most sense to take enough for mild/moderate sedation without blacking out? I'm confused because the PPH seems to think it's best to just black out almost immediately afterward, which it seems most people here do not do
I think most people don't have the quantity to do that.
 
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onmywaytothebusstop

onmywaytothebusstop

~ Transgirl looking for eternal tranquility ~
Feb 9, 2025
107
Do you think it makes the most sense to take enough for mild/moderate sedation without blacking out? I'm confused because the PPH seems to think it's best to just black out almost immediately afterward, which it seems most people here do not do
Not for me but it's all personal choice. The sooner i black out the better. I haven't tested my sn yet so no clue what the smell taste like is but i dont think it will be great haha. That makes me think i still have to get something against the taste
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
Well my first test with flubrotizolam is underwhelming, I took 0.5 mg over an hour ago and I don't feel anything. It's supposed to be pretty potent so 0.5 mg was a decent starting dose. I guess I'll try a bit more tomorrow.
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
I just tested 0.5 mg of fluclotizolam and I don't feel anything after an hour either.

Now I'm going to have to try bumping the dose. I hope I didn't get scammed, this vendor was recommended multiple times on Reddit so I think it's good. I'm just surprised I'm not getting effects at standard doses when I have zero tolerance to benzos.

I'm annoyed because I want to be CTBing instead of fucking around with these research chemicals.
 
cait_sith

cait_sith

Apr 8, 2024
266
Where are you from? Is rilmazolam available where you are from? I ordered rilmazolam pellets as they are said to be the strongest and fastest rc benzos available where I live, it's a prodrug of rilmazolam, which is a popular Japanese benzo so it should work, but I have yet to try it, I, like you, am not comfortable fucking around with RCs
 
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ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
Where are you from? Is rilmazolam available where you are from? I ordered rilmazolam pellets as they are said to be the strongest and fastest rc benzos available where I live, it's a prodrug of rilmazolam, which is a popular Japanese benzo so it should work, but I have yet to try it, I, like you, am not comfortable fucking around with RCs
I'm in the US. The supplier I used didn't have rilmazolam. I thought I had a good supplier, but I'm starting to believe their products are weak which is pretty annoying.

I tested 1.0 mg of flubrotizolam, which is supposed to be pretty potent, and I didn't feel much. I do feel uncoordinated when I move around the house, so I have to be extra careful with the stairs. I guess I'll just keep going up to 2 mg for the next trial.
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
Do you think it makes the most sense to take enough for mild/moderate sedation without blacking out? I'm confused because the PPH seems to think it's best to just black out almost immediately afterward, which it seems most people here do not do
im warning you now i know the exact site youre talking about. First word Novel. They often sell entirely bunk product. Completely inert chemical
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
im warning you now i know the exact site youre talking about. First word Novel. They often sell entirely bunk product. Completely inert chemical
Oh I know what you're talking about, those guys are a scam. I think the only active ingredient in those bottles is the alcohol they dilute it with.

There must be a tiny bit of benzos in there because my body is so uncoordinated I can barely make it down the stairs without falling. But there are none of the beneficial effects I bought it for.

This is frustrating because I just want to get some benzos and be done with life. The supplier I used got decent reviews on Reddit, but they must be going downhill. I miss the good old days when my drug dealer was a guy I could go hang out with at his house, and we'd all get high and listen to music together. He wasn't doing anything shady because everyone knew where he lived, and he was a nice guy. These mysterious internet dealers are a different breed, you can't trust anything.
 
dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
552
I've been searching for RC benzos to take with SN, but I've only found one clearweb supplier that I'm confident is legit and they're out of stock on a couple of the most common benzos.

Out of stock: bromazolam, flubromazepam
Available:
  • clobromazolam
  • desalkylgidazepam
  • deschloroetizolam
  • flubrotizolam
  • fluclotizolam
  • pyrazolam
Any thoughts on which of the available ones is best for the purpose of CTB with SN?

Should I keep searching to find bromazolam which is more commonly recommended?

I've been using Reddit to get a sense of what they do and flubrotizolam sounds like a strong sedative that might work. Several people say pyrazolam is all fake these days, so I probably don't want to get that one.
What does "RC" mean. And why isn't plain old xanax good enough?
 
ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
676
RC means research chemicals, they're slight chemical variants of benzos that are legal to buy on the internet.

I would love to get ahold of Xanax, but doctors keep a tight grip on benzos where I am. If you do talk them into it, they give a microscopic dose for only 5 days and want a follow-up.

I keep wanting to tell the Doctor "Look, I'm just a miserable soul trying to kill myself as peacefully as possible, can't you spare me some meds so that the last moments of my life are a little less unpleasant?"
 
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siouxsie

Member
Nov 3, 2023
56
Oh I know what you're talking about, those guys are a scam. I think the only active ingredient in those bottles is the alcohol they dilute it with.

There must be a tiny bit of benzos in there because my body is so uncoordinated I can barely make it down the stairs without falling. But there are none of the beneficial effects I bought it for.

This is frustrating because I just want to get some benzos and be done with life. The supplier I used got decent reviews on Reddit, but they must be going downhill. I miss the good old days when my drug dealer was a guy I could go hang out with at his house, and we'd all get high and listen to music together. He wasn't doing anything shady because everyone knew where he lived, and he was a nice guy. These mysterious internet dealers are a different breed, you can't trust anything.
There are people who don't respond to benzos. Tried different kinds, prescription ones, before going into MRIs and they never had any effect on me, no matter the dosage. But other meds which are not meant to be that sedating knock me out in ridiculously low doses. It's all to do with how our cytochrome system metabolizes drugs.
What I'm saying is, the quality of the benzos might not be the issue here, your drug metabolism might be. Benzos might just not be for you
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
What are you talking about?
the site selling benzos in solution bottles is scamming. Theres another vendor but also selectively scams. Dark web is your best bet rn
 
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Prism

Prism

🌈💎
Jul 15, 2024
131
im warning you now i know the exact site youre talking about. First word Novel. They often sell entirely bunk product. Completely inert chemical
Oh I know what you're talking about, those guys are a scam. I think the only active ingredient in those bottles is the alcohol they dilute it with.

There must be a tiny bit of benzos in there because my body is so uncoordinated I can barely make it down the stairs without falling. But there are none of the beneficial effects I bought it for.

This is frustrating because I just want to get some benzos and be done with life. The supplier I used got decent reviews on Reddit, but they must be going downhill. I miss the good old days when my drug dealer was a guy I could go hang out with at his house, and we'd all get high and listen to music together. He wasn't doing anything shady because everyone knew where he lived, and he was a nice guy. These mysterious internet dealers are a different breed, you can't trust anything.
Sorry to be a bother but I was wondering if either of you (or anyone else reading this) would happen to know if an RC source I found is legit. It starts with an M and seems to be the new site for a previous brand that began with a B, which had mostly good reviews but some claiming they were scammed.
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
833
the site selling benzos in solution bottles is scamming. Theres another vendor but also selectively scams. Dark web is your best bet rn
Oh. Well the one I found is not selling in solutions. I'm confident it's legit based on what people online have said

What are the initials of the other one?
 
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Peter Skellern

Enlightened
Jan 10, 2025
1,072
DW is definitely best for Benzo's. Some extremely reliable sellers who deal in pharma products.
 
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lonleycrowdedwest

im so dumb i misspelled lonely
Aug 16, 2021
127
Oh. Well the one I found is not selling in solutions. I'm confident it's legit based on what people online have said

What are the initials of the other one?
RC is the other one. I've got two products from them, one was legit the other was either very underdosed or another chem altogether.
Sorry to be a bother but I was wondering if either of you (or anyone else reading this) would happen to know if an RC source I found is legit. It starts with an M and seems to be the new site for a previous brand that began with a B, which had mostly good reviews but some claiming they were scammed.
Never heard of them. I would go to reddit and DM people to find sources. Otherwise use the DW for best results
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
833
RC is the other one. I've got two products from them, one was legit the other was either very underdosed or another chem altogether.

Never heard of them. I would go to reddit and DM people to find sources. Otherwise use the DW for best results
hm, okay. i was going to use rc. are you saying i shouldn't?

edit: scam-detector lists it as a scam, but trustpilot does not... I'm so confused
 
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Eudaimonic

Eudaimonic

I want to fade away.
Aug 11, 2023
833
DW is definitely best for Benzo's. Some extremely reliable sellers who deal in pharma products.
I agree with this. After much research idk how viable RC benzos are at least if you aren't in the EU. Every major vendor i have come across has been outed as at the very least selectively scamming...
 

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