
worldexploder
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- Sep 19, 2018
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My aunts having company over. She did invite me to have dinner with them. That was nice of her but I declined. I am thankful for having a family that doesn't pressure me into participating in holiday traditions!
I'm gonna do what I do everyday - stay in my basement. I feel awkward around social gatherings especially during the holidays. Everyone's cheerful and going about their lives. Meanwhile there is a constant war going on inside my head and I don't have the energy to pretend that I am content.
I guess I do feel ashamed to be me. It's a very humiliating feeling and pushes me deeper and deeper into reclusiveness.
I'm gonna do what I do everyday - stay in my basement. I feel awkward around social gatherings especially during the holidays. Everyone's cheerful and going about their lives. Meanwhile there is a constant war going on inside my head and I don't have the energy to pretend that I am content.
I guess I do feel ashamed to be me. It's a very humiliating feeling and pushes me deeper and deeper into reclusiveness.