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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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Sorry it´s in danish but since I am danish this is so nostalgic to me I just wish I could be a child again in the blissful world of happiness <3 :'(
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
721


this was my escape as a child. I buried my life into JRPGs. I made a reality where I was Crono as a means of coping with my trauma.

My inner child lives on through me.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,999


this was my escape as a child. I buried my life into JRPGs. I made a reality where I was Crono as a means of coping with my trauma.

My inner child lives on through me.

RPG games were amazing I miss getting immersed into games like Pokemon, Harry Potter and Dragonball Z on the Nintondo Gameboy.
 
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Red star

Red star

Experienced
Sep 15, 2018
206
My child me is badass adventurer and he does mad spins twirling around. Sticks tongue out at people in church and loves exploring nature. Oh yeah and cant forget grabbing the hose and spraying the neighbors trying to make them think its raining.

Hes still here inside me, I bring him out sometimes to play.
 
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jaemus12

jaemus12

Earth’s Parasite
May 11, 2018
562


Sorry it´s in danish but since I am danish this is so nostalgic to me I just wish I could be a child again in the blissful world of happiness <3 :'(

It's so fucking cool hearing the song in a different language. It's beautiful.

Dis my jams. I love Trini (Yellow Ranger) Hope to see her again soon.

 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,999
It's so fucking cool hearing the song in a different language. It's beautiful.

Dis my jams. I love Triny (Yellow Ranger) Hope to see her again soon.


Omg the Pokemon intro why don´t you just kill me now? God I miss being a child so much!!!!
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Minds as well add the Beyblade and Yugi-Oh intro.

 
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Schopenhauer

Enlightened
Oct 3, 2018
1,133
I don't. I hate my childhood. Even more than I hate being an adult. Being poor, having to go to school and having no agency just sucks. I was never fit for this world.
 
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Blackbird

Blackbird

Member
Jul 23, 2018
34
My childhood was the only happy period of my life, but I can't say that I miss it. In hindsight I realize the seeds of what would later become crippling depression were already there. I was doomed from the start.
 
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Warlock
Jul 13, 2018
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I'd like to go back to childhood but only in a happy two parent stable family with no abuse.
 
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littlelungs

littlelungs

Wizard
Oct 21, 2018
634
I would rather grow a penis and have a baby through it than go back to my skidmark excuse for a childhood.

But if I could have a do-over under completely different circumstances (i.e. a healthy environment, stable caregivers, etc) I think that going back to being a child wouldn't be so bad.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I would rather grow a penis and have a baby through it than go back to my skidmark excuse for a childhood.

But if I could have a do-over under completely different circumstances (i.e. a healthy environment, stable caregivers, etc) I think that going back to being a child wouldn't be so bad.
Lol! The first paragraph :pfff:
 
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zzz919

I'm Nobody
Sep 19, 2018
96
I don't ever recall a time when my life was not painful ...... My father abandoned us when I was five years old ...... My mother married a man who used to get really angry about once a week and beat me ...... I was very angry growing up ...... My stepfather would beat me ...... I would go out at night and vandalize things ...... Sometimes I would vandalize Police cars ...... Because the Police refused to arrest my stepfather.
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When I was a child ...... I would escape into ...... Cartoons ...... Sitcom television shows ...... and Music.
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This was my favorite cartoon

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This was my favorite television show

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And this was my favorite song ...... I learned the words to this song when I was around six or seven years old ...... I can still sing it word for word to this day.

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Trashcan

Trashcan

Trash
Aug 31, 2018
1,234
Yes. Adolescence is when everything turned to shit. I'm now an adult and it's still shit.
 
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worldexploder

worldexploder

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Sep 19, 2018
2,821
My childhood sucked and my adulthood sucks. I don't miss the past and dread the future.
 
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Niko

Niko

Student
Oct 4, 2018
112
i miss it all the time, i'm pretty sure i'm a poster boy for arrested development. life was so full of potential and possibilities then, now it's just heartbreak and disappointment.

also, frankly, i kinda miss being oblivious to sex and women in general. nowadays i'm constantly reminded how alone i feel in my social life whereas when i was a kid i couldn't care less if i had a stupid girl to hang out with or not.
 
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Neon

Neon

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May 20, 2018
53
I lived my entire childhood thinking that the future would be so much better than it was back then, now I'm here and it's far worse. I'd do anything to go back
 
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Snee

Student
Aug 3, 2018
135
i had a good childhood everybody loves me and everyone think i will be a good person but now everyone hate me exept my family.
 
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Lunar

Lunar

Student
Aug 14, 2018
188
I wouldn't want to go back to being mentally and physically abused by my peers and mother, but then again there's no time period in my life I'd like to go back to in general. I'm one of those "I just wish I wasn't born to begin with" types of people since I don't feel built for life so to speak.
 
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TheLastTrip

TheLastTrip

Experienced
Nov 2, 2018
285
I think the first 3 - 4 years of my life were ok, after that definitely not. So yes I missed out on my childhood.
 
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LifeSick

LifeSick

Eat the rich or die!
Sep 20, 2018
167
My child me is badass adventurer and he does mad spins twirling around. Sticks tongue out at people in church and loves exploring nature. Oh yeah and cant forget grabbing the hose and spraying the neighbors trying to make them think its raining.

Hes still here inside me, I bring him out sometimes to play.

That sounds really cool. I wish I could do that, but I don't even remember how it was like to be a child, I only remember not having constant anxiety, and that was great. My mom says I was a really happy child, always smiling and running everywhere. I wish I knew what changed when I reached puberty. Now I don't wanna do anything, and I can't even ctb.
 
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Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
272
No it was an emotional and mental hell. I do miss the little responsibilities though.
 
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Going Home

Going Home

Specialist
Sep 21, 2018
357
I miss being a child during the time when nurturing family members took me to live with them. I try not to think about what abusive family members and their friends did.
I used to love to watch The Brady Bunch, Good Times, The Flintstones, The Mike Douglas Show, Matchgame and Flip Wilson shows.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Yes. Adolescence is when everything turned to shit. I'm now an adult and it's still shit.
i miss it all the time, i'm pretty sure i'm a poster boy for arrested development. life was so full of potential and possibilities then, now it's just heartbreak and disappointment.

also, frankly, i kinda miss being oblivious to sex and women in general. nowadays i'm constantly reminded how alone i feel in my social life whereas when i was a kid i couldn't care less if i had a stupid girl to hang out with or not.
Discovering sex by my first ejaculation was the final nail in the coffin of my childhood, I was 12 and as soon as I ejaculated for the first time I was no longer a child I had entered a whole new world that would chew me up and spit me out. Of course it didn´t happen from that moment at 12yo but it was where I started descending into hell I was no longer an innocent child who would watch these magnificent cartoons that I would become so immersed in no I would lose all of my childhood friends and be cheated on by every girl I ever had a relationship with.


i had a good childhood everybody loves me and everyone think i will be a good person but now everyone hate me exept my family.
I was so loved and popular as a child I had a ton of friends really close friends I would have all of these amazing experiences and adventures with every day I would feel excited because I knew after school I would have a play-date with a close friend I had play-dates everyday and the weekends were the best! Being able to stay up late, eating candy, chips etc. and playing videogames or Yugi-Oh, Beyblade, Harry Potter, Dragonball etc. I was happy and assertive people looked to me as a leader every time a decision should be made my childhood truly was paradise on Earth and now it´s all gone I have no friends the only people I see is my parents and occasionally my two brothers but I have nothing left.

I lived my entire childhood thinking that the future would be so much better than it was back then, now I'm here and it's far worse. I'd do anything to go back
Even though my childhood was heaven on Earth I looked so much forward to the future to be an ADULT which was such a big deal to think about as a child because as an adult you can do what you want, stay up late, eat junkfood, drive a car all of these insignificant things that doesn´t matter at all. Also food isn´t as good as when I was a child and I have a theory why take drugs for example if you have been using a drug over many years (not necerssarily abuse but just many times over a few years) then the drug ends up being boring because you are used to the effect and the brain is too familiar with it, this is exactly like as a child a happy meal from Mc Donalds, candy, chips, pizza or any other junkfood tasted so amazing because at lets say 9 years old we haven´t been eating this food for that long and it was fairly restricted now I am 24 years old so I have been eating all of this food for close to 20 years so of course the body doesn´t find it as good anymore. EVERYTHING was better as a child and it hurts even more because I remember a lot of good moments so vividly like it happened only a couple of weeks back so it hurts so much to compare how I feel now to how heavenly my childhood was.. I am literally starting to cry just writing this because I literally believe I might have had the best childhood on Earth or close to it and to be in a paradise like that to end up in the hell that is my life now just breaks the heart of the little child that is still inside me but long lost </3
 
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Neon

Neon

Member
May 20, 2018
53
Even though my childhood was heaven on Earth I looked so much forward to the future to be an ADULT which was such a big deal to think about as a child because as an adult you can do what you want, stay up late, eat junkfood, drive a car all of these insignificant things that doesn´t matter at all. Also food isn´t as good as when I was a child and I have a theory why take drugs for example if you have been using a drug over many years (not necerssarily abuse but just many times over a few years) then the drug ends up being boring because you are used to the effect and the brain is too familiar with it, this is exactly like as a child a happy meal from Mc Donalds, candy, chips, pizza or any other junkfood tasted so amazing because at lets say 9 years old we haven´t been eating this food for that long and it was fairly restricted now I am 24 years old so I have been eating all of this food for close to 20 years so of course the body doesn´t find it as good anymore. EVERYTHING was better as a child and it hurts even more because I remember a lot of good moments so vividly like it happened only a couple of weeks back so it hurts so much to compare how I feel now to how heavenly my childhood was.. I am literally starting to cry just writing this because I literally believe I might have had the best childhood on Earth or close to it and to be in a paradise like that to end up in the hell that is my life now just breaks the heart of the little child that is still inside me but long lost </3

literally this, my childhood wasn't exactly heaven but so many things were better then than now.
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140


Sorry it´s in danish but since I am danish this is so nostalgic to me I just wish I could be a child again in the blissful world of happiness <3 :'(

Yeah, looking back on how simple things were. I never had a perfect life and there were often family problems but the peacefulness of watching cartoons (Scooby-Doo, Ren & Stimpy, Batman) and playing with toys, building with LEGO's etc. I'm pretty sad that's all gone and all I have left is adult stress and hellish depression. Maybe death will bring back that simplicity by shedding the corruption of this reality. One way or another we'll be done with all of this.
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Yeah, looking back on how simple things were. I never had a perfect life and there were often family problems but the peacefulness of watching cartoons (Scooby-Doo, Ren & Stimpy, Batman) and playing with toys, building with LEGO's etc. I'm pretty sad that's all gone and all I have left is adult stress and hellish depression. Maybe death will bring back that simplicity by shedding the corruption of this reality. One way or another we'll be done with all of this.
Agreed I really don´t know how long I can keep up with the rat race that is life, just when I woke up not long ago it was like a big sigh where I just realize all of the things I have to do today like having to call my doctors, bank to assure my bills are paid and trying to eat enough calories in a day (since I have a throat problem this is a hard task) these things might seem easy to some but I still see myself as a child and it´s so exhausting to do all of these things. Actually to me just being in my own body is hard and exhausting probably because I don´t get the right amount of protein, fat, vitamins and minerals due to my allergies it´s just so hard just being.

I loved your description of how watching cartoons and playing with toys would be so amazing because we would be immersed into this beautiful world of imagination. I also remember watching Batman the animated series, Batman Beyond, Superman animated series and the list goes on.
 
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2211264

Member
Sep 7, 2018
160
I lived my entire childhood thinking that the future would be so much better than it was back then, now I'm here and it's far worse. I'd do anything to go back
I was the same. By about 16/17 I started to crack. I'm a broken vase now. And there is no future for me. But I do miss the the blissful immaturity of childhood and how magical it was to discover and learn and grow...
 
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2211264

Member
Sep 7, 2018
160
Its almost as if

There were so many possibilities as a child and the older I got the more the possibilities shrunk, died, ended, drifted away and otherwise disappeared. And now as I stand here as an adult I see so few opportunities ...
 
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