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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

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Aug 27, 2018
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I was the same. By about 16/17 I started to crack. I'm a broken vase now. And there is no future for me. But I do miss the the blissful immaturity of childhood and how magical it was to discover and learn and grow...
That is true as a child it was fun and exciting to learn and grow I miss that too.
 
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iglooblimp

Another parasite to Earth
Oct 17, 2018
75
How times have changed... I do miss it, barring the times when I got bullied and had no friends.
 
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Lra888

Lra888

Enlightened
Sep 30, 2018
1,140
Agreed I really don´t know how long I can keep up with the rat race that is life, just when I woke up not long ago it was like a big sigh where I just realize all of the things I have to do today like having to call my doctors, bank to assure my bills are paid and trying to eat enough calories in a day (since I have a throat problem this is a hard task) these things might seem easy to some but I still see myself as a child and it´s so exhausting to do all of these things. Actually to me just being in my own body is hard and exhausting probably because I don´t get the right amount of protein, fat, vitamins and minerals due to my allergies it´s just so hard just being.

I loved your description of how watching cartoons and playing with toys would be so amazing because we would be immersed into this beautiful world of imagination. I also remember watching Batman the animated series, Batman Beyond, Superman animated series and the list goes on.
Yes. It seems to me a complete pointlessness to perpetuate this constant stressful madness in order to just survive. No rest, just a constant treadmill of stress and depression. Everything that's going on seems almost meaninglessness, the only purpose is to keep the whole horror going. Taking on debt so you'll maybe be able to pay off that same debt in the future, struggling to pay rent/ mortgage just so you have a place to sleep and get ready for work, pitting so much time and money into travel cost to and from work. All of this while struggling with anxiety and depression whose expensive and time-consuming treatment with medication jeopardizes everything because of its side effects.

A nightmare.
 
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Help_Me

Help_Me

Gene pool mistake
Oct 21, 2018
516
There was a time in life when I used to struggle. I want that stupid state of mind back. I literally thought I can solve any kind of problem, survive through everything. I had a plans and dreamt of the brightest future...
 
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TheGoodGuy

TheGoodGuy

Visionary
Aug 27, 2018
2,999
Yes. It seems to me a complete pointlessness to perpetuate this constant stressful madness in order to just survive. No rest, just a constant treadmill of stress and depression. Everything that's going on seems almost meaninglessness, the only purpose is to keep the whole horror going. Taking on debt so you'll maybe be able to pay off that same debt in the future, struggling to pay rent/ mortgage just so you have a place to sleep and get ready for work, pitting so much time and money into travel cost to and from work. All of this while struggling with anxiety and depression whose expensive and time-consuming treatment with medication jeopardizes everything because of its side effects.

A nightmare.
This is so true word for word and a pathetic and actually stupid too since we don´t want to live and don´t have anything good to look forward too we are just keeping the machine that is our bodies working because if we had the mentality to say fuck it all and don´t want to work, or keep adding fuel to our bodies to keep going we would die it´s so unbelievably stupid when you look at it objectively.
 
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bunny

bunny

保管
Oct 3, 2018
364
i miss what could have been as a child
 
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