Will/Have you set a CTB date?

[ZeroM24]

I thought about doing it many times, but when the day actually comes I notice I am just too much of a coward to actually do it, altough I want. I hate myself so much for being even too useless to kill myself properly.

Everyday when I wake up I take minutes to actually have the power to stand up from bed cause I just want to lay and die, but then I try to set a date and still cant do it...fuck this stupid survival instinct bullshit!

 

[spectraltease]

Hm, I think ctb dates are problematic because how you said, most of the times it doesn't work out on that day.
I am more a fan about doing it when it feels right, not when the calendar tells me to yk. I think when you decide to do it on a special date, your SI will be bigger day by day till its there and you manifested it in your head so much but the fear too so nothing works.

 

[Depressed2]

Hopefully before the next year,or before the spring

 

[mangotango0249]

it's happening in 6 days. I agree that if your suicidal thoughts are periodic then setting a date can cause problems. But I've been in a non stop suicidal state for about 6 months now and I also gave myself no way to opt out at last minute. Im unemployed for months now doing things I alwasys wanted to do before ctb. savings are always drained all the way and Im so excited to be done with life.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

No, I don't set a specific date or time frame. It would put too much pressure on me. It's better to have a method prepared and when the personal situation is right, we can leave.

 

[aceless_spade]

I have not. I still hold hope no matter how my progress gets crushed. That said I have set dates in the past and psych wards got in the way of that. I agree with the people above saying that a date is not great due to the pressure. I really don't think it wise to give advice but I guess if you wish to do anything, do what you believe to feel right and don't be ashamed if it fails. Basic advice, but I don't really know what more I can say.

 

[cali22♡]

Yes, after my stay at the clinic because they are my last chance

 

[Hollowman]

The day I become homeless will be my last.

 

[ZeroM24]

The day I become homeless will be my last.

Yes thats definetely something I can say 100 % too. I can barely manage to leave my house when I have to work part-time but most of the time I am unemployed, this is going on for years, and I could never survive out there on the streets and dont want to.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had the option to painlessly free myself from this existence in peace I'd be long gone, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, it just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing to escape from all unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chosen that I always saw as so undesirable. What I would fear as well is trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony, it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence.

 

[maka]

I want to do it ideally before Christmas so I don't have to spend the holidays alone again. I wanted to do it earlier, around December 1st, but I don't think my sn will arrive on time. If it does, I plan to do it as soon as I get my hands on it.

 

[CogitoMori]

My date's on Jan 3rd and I look forward to it. I get more and more motivated to prepare for it as it gets closer.

 

[YandereMikuMistress]

I personally feel like I don't need a set day to remind myself this is the time!! Because my ctb is going to come weather I try to say otherwise.

 

[-nobodyknows-]

I won't. It will happen once everything falls into place.

 

[LostLily]

I have been telling myself eventually I will do it, but because of cowardice and just lack of supplies can't find the strength to do it. Even if I did have the strength I don't have the supplies.

 

[folly_]

i have a set date, but i figure its pretty likely that something will happen during the days before that will delay me. i have set dates before and something happened all but one time (´ρ`) maybe ill just attempt it impulsively some day. wouldnt surprise me at this point

 

[affirmatice]

I don't have a set date.

I think it would bring too much pressure/anxiety.

I have a rough time frame. Which is sometime next year. Not that I'm planning concretely on dying next year. More like, if I find myself in the same position next year, it's probably gonna come about naturally.

Especially since by then, I'll have everything needed.

 

[Shrooms]

Once I accomplish all that I need/want to then it will be a set date or I'll take action when it feels right. If I'm riding a motorcycle also I might do it that way so off impulse.

 

[pandorasactor]

Yes. I plan to schedule my last post.

 

[wanttoctbnow]

I don't think I have a date at which I will ctb, rather once I have all the components necessary I will fire away

 

[resteasy3232]

For me, in 4 years will most likely be my time if I do.

 

[Forever Sleep]

I want to do it 3 days after my Dad dies. (3 day SN method.) Whether I will or not is another matter. Plus, I have no idea how long my Dad will be here for.

 

[LostLily]

Manage to get SN ordered. And I went through my calendar and picked a month that doesn't have any family or friends birthday, nor has an event that I generally want to go to.

If I'm still suicidal by September 2025 , I will do it some time in september.
Other wise SN has a shelf life of three years, as long as I don't remove it from its bag.

 

[pariah80]

Yes. December 30.

 

[snow-angel]

my previous attempts were impulsive but my next (hopefully last) I have a rough timeframe. definitely by the summer . exact dates make me panic

 

[dimgobaith]

I had one. Now I need to find a new one, I'm just not sure I want to do it anywhere near Xmas juts to make it easier on my family..I don't want to ruin it for them

 

[Red Moon]

Possibly in January I have a date, though I'm not 100% sure yet.

 

[TANETS]

not any time soon for me.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't have a set date. I really do want to plan to try and kill myself somehow but I'm immensely scared of the consequences of a failed suicide attempt (as failing a suicide attempt would make me wish that I never attempted at all) and I'm also too tired with life to plan for suicide. Life and its constant demands is successful at tiring me out to where I just don't have the energy to plan suicide yet alone set a date and actually do it

 

[LowLevelChimp]

It will be next year