Will you be missed?

[sweetcreep]

my parents will. they love and care for me and i know my death will be a shock to them. the guilt that i could destroy them by killing myself is one thing that's paused my hand many times. maybe some other family members, but they'll most likely miss the memories of me when i was a child. i don't talk very much with anyone at all anymore, so i don't really have friends. the one friend i have will miss me, but i'm sure after a while he'll forget and move on like everyone else has. he mostly keeps me around because i'm useful to him i think, we don't have much in common besides our mental struggles.

honestly, i don't want to be remembered. if i could erase all evidence of my existence, i would. i hope everyone forgets about me and no one cries for me

 

[closetoyou]

i got like one friend i actually hang out who would care but it prolly wouldn't bother him that much - he'd be fine in a week lol. my sister would probably be fucked up from it though

im not close to my dad and brother but it'd probably unnerve them, maybe not initially but over time.

reason i dont want a funeral - itd be like two people who actually knew me lmao

 

[claracatchingthebus]

No

 

[tlsrn]

Do you want to be missed?

No

Are you leaving anyone behind?

No

How do you feel about it?

Nothing. I don't feel anything anymore .

 

[superbfrawg]

I hate that i will be missed, i hate that i have a family that loves me and im still so messed up, sometimes i wish they hated me so that i could CTB with a clear conscience, it worries me thinking about how they will feel when i ctb

 

[Kos]

I don't have anyone out there for me anymore. It's just me in this world now. Whatever comes after feels much better than what's left in this world.

 

[NonEssential]

It's unfortunate, but my death would hurt my family members a lot.

I hate that i will be missed, i hate that i have a family that loves me and im still so messed up, sometimes i wish they hated me so that i could CTB with a clear conscience, it worries me thinking about how they will feel when i ctb

same.

 

[Eriktf]

im not sure

i a little contact with people but only a few
im on god terms with most people but do they care? idk
i can image close family and 2-3 outside that will care/grief but not more then "someone they know died" we all care to an extent when someone we know die but im not a big part of anyone life so i dont think they will "care" for to long

 

[Dark Moon]

Just the family that would miss me; I had one friend that moved to another country, he would probably be sad if he found out but just move on and forget about me regardless and I'm not bothered about being missed or not.

 

[whywere]

No one will ever miss me, no one ever knew me. Even the cat hates me. I'm entirely alone in the entire world. And I don't give a fuck.

Well I DO care about you a lot. I also have no family nor friends, however I have you and so many others here, and you have me and I bet so many others also.

That is the biggest aspect of this site is caring and loving each other on here and you are NOT alone, nope never!

There may be distance between us, BUT caring and kindness transends everything.

Huge hugs and lovely sunny blue skies to you, my awesome friend.

Walter

 

[deep-sleeper]

I think I will be missed in some ways, but I am also a burden to everyone around me, so I am better off dead

 

[batmanreal]

not really

 

[slowdance]

I keep going back and forth about whether anyone will actually miss me or just resent that I made them contemplate their own mortality and force them to attend a funeral. If I will be missed then they can use the coping skills they've been trying to force on me to get over it. Or they can kill themselves too. It's not my problem.

 

[Tord]

I don't know, and I don't really care to be honest.

No matter if 0 or 1000 people miss me when I am dead, I'd be too dead to witness that anyway.

 

[Irisse]

My family will definitely miss me as they do love me, but they will never be enough of a reason to stay because some of their actions directly lead me to my doom. I only have one friend and several acquaintances but they will forget about me fast. I wish no one missed me tbh, it would make ctb much easier.

 

[Tulsa Sam 52]

I will be 73 on Friday. I have no one left in the world. The nursing home is holding my wife hostage. Elder Crime is such a tradition in PA no one even wants to investigate it. I can't stand watching her rot away so the nursing home can leach off her social security check. I will be out in the street in a few weeks myself. My wife will wonder what happened to me, but I have done all I can do to free her. I will be waiting for her in the next world. Otherwise no one cares if I live or die and there is not one wretched thing I will miss from here. Not that anyone would miss me, but I say "Don't feel sorry for me. I am out of here and you are still stuck on this horrible mud ball. Which of us is better off?"

 

[Incompatible-444]

I'll definitely be missed which makes this whole thing harder. I keep going back and forth between CTB or not. I was so assured last night but today I keep waivering on and off like I either just want to do it now or never at all. My children will miss me, my family will miss be, my soon to be ex wife might miss me but I'm not sure. Like a lot of people on this thread, I wish I could just disappear without any impact on anyone else's life. I want my actions to take me and only me out, I don't want to hurt anyone by wanting an escape from all the pain.

I'm tired man, I'm just tired.