Will you be missed?

[shironeko]

No.

Fortunately many people won't miss me. They would be happy to see me kms and gossiping around someone I once known.

Some in my family may miss my past self who already dead. So I couldn't care less.

I would only care about people who known my true self and understands my pain, who acknowledges me as a whole even though I cannot accept myself.

I would feel terrible because they really cared about me. I do not want to hurt them. Such nice persons are not deserving to feel the pain I caused.

So I don't want them to know. I don't want anyone to *miss* my true self.

But, sometimes, I would still want to be remembered. So contradictory.. why???

 

[westerly_merlin]

I think my siblings will make a song and dance about me leaving but just so they can show the rest of the world they care. (they don't care about me, just what others think about them)


My son will, but I think he will inherit the money to be able to follow his dreams and see me CTB as an enabler for him.

 

[oatmeal.n]

My partner of 2 years might, but it doesn't particularly bother me. Family, friends, and distant relatives may as well.

 

[thebox_123]

I will be missed by at least two people, my children. It's sort of hefty to talk about. I feel like such a failure. But I know they'll be alright.

 

[woofwag]

Unfortunately, yes, I will be greatly missed. It will traumatize every person in my life who knew me. Maybe it's a horrible thing to think, but I find some solace in knowing they will die eventually too. As my favorite musician Will Wood said in his song Memento Mori: the most important thing in the world, "In the fabric of time and in the vastness of space / A billion amounts to nothing in infinity's face / At most a couple generations will remember the ways in which / Your life never mattered / So, who cares if it's a waste?" We're all tiny, stupid specks of nothing who will be gone so soon it will be less than a wink in time. I'll have what fun I can until I choose to CTB, but when it really all catches up to me, all the trauma and debt and legislation sure to destroy my life, I'll try my best to not feel too guilty about it when I do.