
shampoo sniffer
New Member
- Aug 10, 2025
- 3
I'm 34 year old female, autistic, with a background of abuse.
I think I've done pretty well reaching the age I have considering everything I've been through.
Long story short, recently a family member had to go into hospital for surgery and it sent me spiralling into depression and escapism with video games. I'm addicted to this fantasy world. As sad as it sounds, for the first time in my life, I felt like I actually belonged somewhere. Then the realisation hits that none of it is real and I have to go back to being ME.
I'm having constant panic attacks every day, to the point where I can't leave the house. Can't even concentrate on things that bring me pleasure anymore because of racing thoughts. Doctor refuses to help even though I begged and pleaded. This is HELL.
I wish I could get MAID. I'd like to be surrounded by my Mum and Dad when I pass away peacefully. That's all I want.
I think I've done pretty well reaching the age I have considering everything I've been through.
Long story short, recently a family member had to go into hospital for surgery and it sent me spiralling into depression and escapism with video games. I'm addicted to this fantasy world. As sad as it sounds, for the first time in my life, I felt like I actually belonged somewhere. Then the realisation hits that none of it is real and I have to go back to being ME.
I'm having constant panic attacks every day, to the point where I can't leave the house. Can't even concentrate on things that bring me pleasure anymore because of racing thoughts. Doctor refuses to help even though I begged and pleaded. This is HELL.
I wish I could get MAID. I'd like to be surrounded by my Mum and Dad when I pass away peacefully. That's all I want.