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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

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Aug 10, 2025
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I'm 34 year old female, autistic, with a background of abuse.

I think I've done pretty well reaching the age I have considering everything I've been through.

Long story short, recently a family member had to go into hospital for surgery and it sent me spiralling into depression and escapism with video games. I'm addicted to this fantasy world. As sad as it sounds, for the first time in my life, I felt like I actually belonged somewhere. Then the realisation hits that none of it is real and I have to go back to being ME.

I'm having constant panic attacks every day, to the point where I can't leave the house. Can't even concentrate on things that bring me pleasure anymore because of racing thoughts. Doctor refuses to help even though I begged and pleaded. This is HELL.

I wish I could get MAID. I'd like to be surrounded by my Mum and Dad when I pass away peacefully. That's all I want.
 
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QueenOfSpades

QueenOfSpades

in love with geese ♥
Mar 23, 2022
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We must accept that a peaceful death is not available for us. Either we use our remaining strength and power to kill ourselves or *life* goes on.
 
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Carrot

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Feb 25, 2025
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What a world.

People can suffer so much but you must live until old age.
 
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Ligottian

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I'm all for euthanasia on demand for all adults for any reason or no reason. What a basic human right! Perhaps after a short waiting period.

I feel your pain, shampoo sniffer.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I also just wish to cease existing peacefully, it's all I want, I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have that option, I hope you find the relief you search for, I wish you the best.
 
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shampoo sniffer

shampoo sniffer

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Aug 10, 2025
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I'm all for euthanasia on demand for all adults for any reason or no reason. What a basic human right! Perhaps after a short waiting period.

The law changed recently here in the UK so that adults with terminal illnesses will be able to get euthanasia. I'm glad of that.

Just wish it was available for people with mental issues, like in the Netherlands.
 
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nothirdact

nothirdact

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Jun 23, 2025
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I'm addicted to this fantasy world. As sad as it sounds, for the first time in my life, I felt like I actually belonged somewhere. Then the realisation hits that none of it is real and I have to go back to being ME.
I relate to this. I'm also a woman on the spectrum, and it feels good to be someone else for a bit. It can be addictive.
 
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