Would a certain amount of money make you change your mind about CTB? For those, who don’t think so.. why?

[Johnny99]

A lot of my current issues in life are just because I don't have the money to improve my skills or market myself well, nor the connections/networking to start my career.

But can't this be a temporary situation? I would never ctb if there is a chance it changes some day. And the world changes very fast now. But I kinda feel the train went already for me (I am 44 already).

 

[WatchmeBurn]

But can't this be a temporary situation? I would never ctb if there is a chance it changes some day. And the world changes very fast now. But I kinda feel the train went already for me (I am 44 already).

I don't think so. I don't have the skills to achieve my ambitions and I'm too mentally ill to be able to network and socialise properly. I am 24 (almost 25) and I feel like I'm running out of time.

I'm not planning on killing myself until my parents die (maybe 10-15+ years) so I am going to try my best until then but it's hard to get through the days at the moment and I don't know if I'll last that long.

I'm just not good enough. Not smart enough, not charismatic enough, not disciplined enough, etc etc.

Certainly I'll never have the money to bankroll myself into relevance. I can't even get minimum wage jobs atm as I'm too autistic/anxious to get hired anywhere.

 

[Darkover]

no amount of money could fix me there no treatment on the plant that can fix a brain injury, if i had money i would use it to escape this hellhole