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UseItOrLoseIt

Visionary
Dec 4, 2020
2,215
I'm not exactly sure what I desire. Nothing material, that's for sure. Maybe love, but I always want to run away at the end. I'm not good at being in love. It's unnerving.

I would like to not care. That would be a good way to live. To stop trying to change everything and not care about the things I can't change.
 
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finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
142
i want to sing well lol
 
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Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
853
Finish my PhD in philosophy, do another in economics.
 
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finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
142
ill..elaborate. my boyfriend and i want to start a band. maybe this is stupid but i feel like we could do something i can be proud of. I just want to be proud of myself
 
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Molded foundation

Student
Sep 17, 2021
136
To be a fisherman.
 
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stygal

stygal

low-wage worker
Oct 29, 2020
1,732
I want to win the lottery, move away and live closer to a friend.
If none of that is possible I would want at least early retirement.

As a bonus: An exoskeleton would be cool.
 
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Shadowplay

Shadowplay

Average life non-enjoyer
Sep 11, 2021
853
ill..elaborate. my boyfriend and i want to start a band. maybe this is stupid but i feel like we could do something i can be proud of. I just want to be proud of myself
F*ck it! Just go for it. Nothing stupid about that. What kind of music?
 
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MeltedJello

MeltedJello

My brain is a liquid mess.
Aug 18, 2021
2,214
To fall in love with a girl just like me. Pretty unrealistic imo, as I don't trust people that well xD, but just maybe.
 
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Kennish

Specialist
Aug 17, 2021
379
Get rid of my OCD. But that would be a miracle
 
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WrongPlaceWrongTime

WrongPlaceWrongTime

Better never to have been
Jul 4, 2021
695
To have the energy/ambition/talent to fulfill my desires (closest I can be to realistic)
 
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finish.me

finish.me

I need you to feel this
Jul 14, 2021
142
F*ck it! Just go for it. Nothing stupid about that. What kind of music?
something new! a little bit of everything. some fucked up crossbreed between groove metal hyperpop doom metal and grindcore. something insane. youre right! i should just say fuck it and go for it
 
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feggut

feggut

Member
Sep 19, 2021
57
To live as far away from people and society as possible. Create artwork, compose music and write a book.

But too late for that now.
 
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lotus11

lotus11

Specialist
May 18, 2019
324
Just to feel loved. I don't feel that anyone in my life has ever actually loved me without an ulterior motive. I just want to feel pure love, and nothing more. The same love I feel for other people.
Same as this. I would really like romantic love. And permanently, if they leave you it doesn't count.
 
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og.

im gonna kill myself
Oct 19, 2021
56
i just wanna be successful and get my family out of poverty and make my parents happy for once
 
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needingpeace24

needingpeace24

Member
Oct 19, 2021
52
I only wanted a family with the woman I've loved for years. To be able to protect them and keep them happy. Raise good humans. Find a way to help others.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
I only wanted a family with the woman I've loved for years. To be able to protect them and keep them happy. Raise good humans. Find a way to help others.
What happened?
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
I want my bf to keep believing that I always know what I'm doing. No, wait, that would require him to never stop drinking. :ahhha:
I just don't want him to destroy his liver & die before me. :nomouth:
 
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,753
I want my bf to keep believing that I always know what I'm doing. No, wait, that would require him to never stop drinking. :ahhha:
I just don't want him to destroy his liver & die before me. :nomouth:
I'm coming 4 dat marriage, bucko.
 
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motel rooms

motel rooms

Survivor of incest. Gay. Please don't PM me.
Apr 13, 2021
7,081
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BeansOfRequirement

BeansOfRequirement

Behind the guilt was compassion
Jan 26, 2021
5,753
You better be prepared to offer something extra exotic to one of us, it ain't easy to impress jaded professional whores :sunglasses:
Bent penis isn't exotic enough? Guess I'm an incel in the gay scene, as well.
 
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needingpeace24

needingpeace24

Member
Oct 19, 2021
52
What happened?
I failed. Spent years in the relationship and now nothing. No family, no children. It's unlikely to ever happen at my age. I can remember at a younger age feeling like the possibility would always be there. Now that it's not, I'm left with an emptiness I never knew was possible.
 
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LivideLamb

LivideLamb

I'm so decaying, feeling like an ashtray
Jan 5, 2020
367
Probably, surely, to live on my own farm or cottage between green meadow and the forest.
 
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Angst Filled Fuck Up

Angst Filled Fuck Up

Visionary
Sep 9, 2018
2,985
Realistic? Thinking about going for the four-cheese pizza tonight. I've outgrown the three.
 
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Celerity

Celerity

shape without form, shade without colour
Jan 24, 2021
2,733
I failed. Spent years in the relationship and now nothing. No family, no children. It's unlikely to ever happen at my age. I can remember at a younger age feeling like the possibility would always be there. Now that it's not, I'm left with an emptiness I never knew was possible.
I'm really sorry. Life can be so disappointing.

I didn't have the same dreams as you, but I understand what it's like to have what feels like your whole worldview ripped from you. The future you counted on being there will never happen. You don't know what to do in the present without any goal to orient yourself. The past no longer makes sense because you realize all of the events you thought led somewhere led nowhere.
 
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needingpeace24

needingpeace24

Member
Oct 19, 2021
52
I'm really sorry. Life can be so disappointing.

I didn't have the same dreams as you, but I understand what it's like to have what feels like your whole worldview ripped from you. The future you counted on being there will never happen. You don't know what to do in the present without any goal to orient yourself. The past no longer makes sense because you realize all of the events you thought led somewhere led nowhere.

Thanks, but no need to be sorry. I made great mistakes on the road I've traveled so I'm certainly not a victim. Doesn't make it any easier to accept, though. Especially given that I've lost my sanity along the way.
 
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Gabby78

Member
Sep 9, 2021
11
For my 2 brothers and dad to die
 
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avoid_slow_death

avoid_slow_death

Ready to embrace the peaceful bliss of the void.
Feb 4, 2020
1,269
Have a chance at my life a couple of years ago again. I was happier, more outgoing and far more confident. Hell, I was even AMBITIOUS! A concept I had never grasped before.
 
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deleted

Warlock
Jul 31, 2020
708
I would love to have a lot of money
 
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BottomlessPit

BottomlessPit

Staring at the edge
Apr 28, 2021
423
I always liked the idea of becoming a skilled writer, but I never knew how to improve. Nowadays I'm actually regressing due to the brain fog, and the fact that I stopped reading altogether. Even my native language is slowly rotting away.
If I ever tried to recover (which is unlikely), this would be one of the first things I would try to fix.
 
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forgotten15

forgotten15

Specialist
Aug 24, 2021
332
I am not really sure because I despise life so much, that all I want is to never been born., but I think I would want someone to love me for who I am. I would just want to feel true love before I leave this world.

This is what I lacked in my life since I was a child. Even my mother who says she loves me, I actually think she loves me for egoist reasons and not for me.
 
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