disabledandhopeless
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- Mar 1, 2020
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Yes me too. I feel quite lost and directionless. I can't stand it. A big hug to you, from me.Yes I do find myself crying.
Mostly because I can't believe my life turned out like this.
Maybe I was just delusional but I never thought it would be like this.
Yes I've been there too, when I was on quetiapine. No emotions whatsoever. Even had bad Anhedonia. Which also scared me. I felt like an automaton.My medications have rendered me physically unable to cry. I could feel like the absolute worst shit right now(I've been in a very low depressive state for the past month) and my brain would know and recognize the anguish, but it's still not enough to cry.
It's like my meds have built a soundproof glass case for my emotions(ha, Anchorman, anyone?) and no matter how hard I yell inside, my outside still looks like: :\ . Sometimes if I try really, really hard I get some tears out and it brings a bit of a relief. Almost feels like a treat at that point.
I can't believe I'm typing this out, but I actually miss having a good cry.
Today I've stopped crying and I feel brain dead and numb. It's weird. Hugs from me to you.I don't even feel anything anymore tbh
Thats terrible.My medications have rendered me physically unable to cry. I could feel like the absolute worst shit right now(I've been in a very low depressive state for the past month) and my brain would know and recognize the anguish, but it's still not enough to cry.
It's like my meds have built a soundproof glass case for my emotions(ha, Anchorman, anyone?) and no matter how hard I yell inside, my outside still looks like: :\ . Sometimes if I try really, really hard I get some tears out and it brings a bit of a relief. Almost feels like a treat at that point.
I can't believe I'm typing this out, but I actually miss having a good cry.
Me too.Yes I do find myself crying.
Mostly because I can't believe my life turned out like this.
Maybe I was just delusional but I never thought it would be like this.
I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.Hi guys.
Lately I just can't stop crying. Like real racking sobbing and other times it's a sadness that causes tears to run from my eyes, but I'm not making a sobbing sound. It's just no sound at all.
Does anybody have this?
Yes I've had long periods of anhedonia as well. It's awful! I'm here if you need a chat.I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.
I know what you mean! I'm the same at the moment. If you need someone to chat to, I'm here. Hugs to you.I cry nearly every day.
I'm here for you. Hugs!Well.. Today its my turn i guess. Such an overkill of all kind of emotions, my brain is such a mess. I feel so horribly alone right now i keep tearing up.
Sometimes even I just want to crawl away next to someone who's assuring me tomorrow will be better...
It will get better..... hang in there.I'm here for you. Hugs!
Welcome hunnyThanks sweetie
Yes I like walking! It helps me process things. I like the exercise aspects of walking too!
Thank you for the advice! I will try some of these things. I appreciate it. I mean, what have I got to lose.
Thanks once again! You are an angel xxxx
@Desky
I think there's a point to life, just not mine. I failed at everything I wanted to do and I don't have the energy anymore to keep trying things to see what takes off. I'm completely broken. The person I wanted to be has died, and I cry for her.
I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.
I really wanna give you a big hug right now. My heart goes out to you.And back again. My mom and her partner think 170 euros a month is more important than me. Apparently I'm depressing everyone also. So.. They asked me to go.
I was really holding on, depression or not... But now i feel lower then I've ever felt in my life...
So.. Hi again crying fits.