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disabledandhopeless

disabledandhopeless

Enlightened
Mar 1, 2020
1,893
I cry way too easily when I talk/think about my life.
 
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nerve

fat cringey shut-in
Jun 19, 2019
1,013
I cry at least once a day. It never feels like enough. I was always a crybaby and adults would joke like "keep crying like that and you'll run out of tears!" I fuckin wish!!
 
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catmom13

My brain is broken
Apr 29, 2020
43
My medications have rendered me physically unable to cry. I could feel like the absolute worst shit right now(I've been in a very low depressive state for the past month) and my brain would know and recognize the anguish, but it's still not enough to cry.

It's like my meds have built a soundproof glass case for my emotions(ha, Anchorman, anyone?) and no matter how hard I yell inside, my outside still looks like: :\ . Sometimes if I try really, really hard I get some tears out and it brings a bit of a relief. Almost feels like a treat at that point.

I can't believe I'm typing this out, but I actually miss having a good cry.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
It got bad the more I was abusing speed pills but it calmed back down since I stopped last two days. I'm stopping before I ctb bc I can't think clearly enough to accomplish ctb. My brain feels like it's in a vice grip again. The joys of withdrawal :/
 
BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
Yes I do find myself crying.
Mostly because I can't believe my life turned out like this.

Maybe I was just delusional but I never thought it would be like this.
Yes me too. I feel quite lost and directionless. I can't stand it. A big hug to you, from me. :hug:
My medications have rendered me physically unable to cry. I could feel like the absolute worst shit right now(I've been in a very low depressive state for the past month) and my brain would know and recognize the anguish, but it's still not enough to cry.

It's like my meds have built a soundproof glass case for my emotions(ha, Anchorman, anyone?) and no matter how hard I yell inside, my outside still looks like: :\ . Sometimes if I try really, really hard I get some tears out and it brings a bit of a relief. Almost feels like a treat at that point.

I can't believe I'm typing this out, but I actually miss having a good cry.
Yes I've been there too, when I was on quetiapine. No emotions whatsoever. Even had bad Anhedonia. Which also scared me. I felt like an automaton.
 
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Eternity04

Zzzz
May 2, 2020
23
I don't even feel anything anymore tbh
 
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Sweet Release

Sweet Release

Experienced
Nov 24, 2019
252
My medications have rendered me physically unable to cry. I could feel like the absolute worst shit right now(I've been in a very low depressive state for the past month) and my brain would know and recognize the anguish, but it's still not enough to cry.

It's like my meds have built a soundproof glass case for my emotions(ha, Anchorman, anyone?) and no matter how hard I yell inside, my outside still looks like: :\ . Sometimes if I try really, really hard I get some tears out and it brings a bit of a relief. Almost feels like a treat at that point.

I can't believe I'm typing this out, but I actually miss having a good cry.
Thats terrible.
To be in pain but not able to express it or have that emotional release must be awful.
I feel for you.
 
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Isisnefert

Isisnefert

Student
Mar 17, 2020
193
[QUOTE = "Sweet Release, publicación: 723672, miembro: 12405"]
Eso es terrible.
Tener dolor pero no poder expresarlo o tener esa liberación emocional debe ser horrible.
Lo siento por ti.
[/CITAR]
Yo me he negado a tomar antidepresivos porque no te permiten llorar y sacar fuera toda la ira y la tristeza
 
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Sadkitty

Student
May 16, 2020
100
Yes I do find myself crying.
Mostly because I can't believe my life turned out like this.

Maybe I was just delusional but I never thought it would be like this.
Me too.
 
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Cashewmilk

Cashewmilk

Specialist
Mar 10, 2020
352
I can't cry anymore... it's really hard for me nowadays. I used to cry uncontrollably when I was a bit younger and more sober. But in the last 5 years or so I barely cry. I cried when my hamster died, and when I get frustrated from my sister attacking me verbally, but other than that I have no tears left. I've cried a million tears and I'm dried out, probably also due to my opiate addiction, it numbs everything.

I do choke up and get on the verge sometimes but for some reason I quickly stop it. I don't like crying infront of others even my family... it's so fake to me nobody takes it seriously.
 
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Weightoftheworld

Weightoftheworld

Let me burn.
Apr 19, 2020
258
When I'm not on medication I cry constantly.
Thanks to prozac, I cannot even cry when I really want to, even with great physical pain.
 
Nem

Nem

Drs suck mega ass!
Sep 3, 2018
1,489
No, I cannot cry at all. I could be at a funeral and zero tears...that's a sign things are about to end I'm certain. If you can cry it's a good sign, might not feel like it but I think it is
Peace/hugs
 
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niloc

niloc

Relax — This won't hurt
May 6, 2020
68
Hi guys.
Lately I just can't stop crying. Like real racking sobbing and other times it's a sadness that causes tears to run from my eyes, but I'm not making a sobbing sound. It's just no sound at all.
Does anybody have this?
I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.
Yes I've had long periods of anhedonia as well. It's awful! I'm here if you need a chat.:hug:
 
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Walilamdzi

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Mar 21, 2019
1,700
I cry nearly every day.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,186
Well.. Today its my turn i guess. Such an overkill of all kind of emotions, my brain is such a mess. I feel so horribly alone right now i keep tearing up.

Sometimes even I just want to crawl away next to someone who's assuring me tomorrow will be better...
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
Well.. Today its my turn i guess. Such an overkill of all kind of emotions, my brain is such a mess. I feel so horribly alone right now i keep tearing up.

Sometimes even I just want to crawl away next to someone who's assuring me tomorrow will be better...
I'm here for you. Hugs! :hug:
I'm here for you. Hugs! :hug:
It will get better..... hang in there.
 
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madbananas

Wizard
Apr 29, 2020
620
I had this experience when I was at work a week after I was put on medication. Horrible. I do get quite a lot of uncontrollable bouts of crying but this was the first time at work (beginning of this year). Going to my work makes me feel better because I'm working with people who are like us.
 
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sufferingalways

sufferingalways

Avoiding flashing images, epilepsy.
Apr 26, 2020
550
Yes I like walking! It helps me process things. I like the exercise aspects of walking too!

Thank you for the advice! I will try some of these things. I appreciate it. I mean, what have I got to lose.
Thanks once again! You are an angel xxxx
:halo::halo::halo: @Desky

Hi the ice bath sounds interesting. How long do you sit in it for? I have tried sad things for crying to let out pent up frustration and pain, not always easy, other times it's embarrassing, I cry at the least thing. Or nothing.
Thank you for the advice.
I think there's a point to life, just not mine. I failed at everything I wanted to do and I don't have the energy anymore to keep trying things to see what takes off. I'm completely broken. The person I wanted to be has died, and I cry for her.

Hi, sorry to hear that. What's caused you to reach this low?
 
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Pryras

Pryras

Last hope
Feb 11, 2020
554
You mean like 5 minutes ago where i just burst into tears hearing this song? Brings back trauma that I didn't need :(

 
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sufferingalways

sufferingalways

Avoiding flashing images, epilepsy.
Apr 26, 2020
550
I wish I could actually get myself to cry. I feel that a blubbering, crumpled ball of crying might actually be cathartic for me. I simply can't do it and it frustrates me to no end.

Hi have you tried something sad on you tube? I typed something in when i had one of these moments. I needed a hard cry, felt shitty all bottled up trying to be so hard and macho, so I typed in something sad, and it helped me get the tears. Relief afterwards was huge and had me in tears again.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,186
And back again. My mom and her partner think 170 euros a month is more important than me. Apparently I'm depressing everyone also. So.. They asked me to go.

I was really holding on, depression or not... But now i feel lower then I've ever felt in my life...

So.. Hi again crying fits.
 
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JustAnotherSuicider

JustAnotherSuicider

Hoping for the best - expecting the worst
Dec 28, 2019
98
Yes, quite often recently, mostly at work, and at the uni (when it was still open). Sometimes it's hard to hide with it and I have to "escape" to bathroom to hide there and cry myself out.
 
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BlackPoppet

BlackPoppet

Wise woman and Celtic sky person
Mar 7, 2020
991
And back again. My mom and her partner think 170 euros a month is more important than me. Apparently I'm depressing everyone also. So.. They asked me to go.

I was really holding on, depression or not... But now i feel lower then I've ever felt in my life...

So.. Hi again crying fits.
I really wanna give you a big hug right now. My heart goes out to you.
 
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Myforevercharlie

Myforevercharlie

Global Mod
Feb 13, 2020
3,186
Thank you @BlackPoppet

I feel like a piece of toy
 

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