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DeadD

DeadD

King Idiot
Mar 28, 2019
46
Lately I just move between sobbing and being numb. There isn't much of an in between.
 
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mouseteeth

Member
Dec 2, 2019
65
I used to cry myself to sleep at night frequently as a teen.
These days it only comes out when I drink. Which I'm trying hard not to do, but when I slip up, I'll start cranking out the sad songs and just cry uncontrollably.
 
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Deleted member 18655

Deleted member 18655

Enlightened
Jun 4, 2020
1,422
I can cry so fast it catches me off guard. I'm doing Virtual EDMR (trauma therapy) right now. I dread the sessions because I sob uncontrollably all the way through them. And then throughout the day afterward. Thankfully, Lockdown means I'm not going anywhere or seeing anyone to care. :mmm:
 
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namelessX8

Student
Feb 22, 2019
111
No I can't cry anymore, even if I want to -- I've been on antipsychotic + antidepressant for years and now I'm not capable of crying. I dunno if this is a good or bad thing.

Oh well... it is what it is.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
After 2 months of not being able to cry, now i start crying on simplest triggers.
 
Raminiki

Raminiki

Iustitia Mortuus
Jun 12, 2020
269
Gosh yes, and it frustrates me no end. The smallest stressor can induce a cascade in me that results in emotional breakdown. I can't control the tears. The only way to stop it is to remove myself from the situation and self-isolate. Even then, I'll suffer anxiety symptoms that exhaust me for between 24 and 48 hours. I've had to leave work for this, and excuse myself out of obligations so I can recover alone.

If I let myself cry any length of time, I become so congested that I can't breathe nasally, get a sinus headache that requires ibuprofen, and my eyelids swell so much, I look disfigured, sometimes can barely see, as well as becoming photosensitive. I sometimes wonder if I'm allergic to my own tears.

The only thing that helps is using mindfulness techniques to try and hinder the anxiety reaction before it gets too bad and devolves into a panic attack. When I'm really crying, I become unable to inhale properly. It's hyperventilation punctuated by holding breath to limit the extent of the shallow, rapid gasps.

Not fun for anyone. Hugs to all who suffer uncontrollable crying.
 
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heartslikeours

heartslikeours

Member
May 12, 2020
12
I feel like I'm so close to crying but the tears are not coming out which makes me even more in pain.
 
dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
I actually get so numb during depression that I can't cry.
 
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SuicidalSymphonies

SuicidalSymphonies

I think I'll take a dirt nap.
Oct 13, 2019
1,028
Absolutely. I randomly cry all the time.. Sometimes my emotions become too much to handle and I wasn't even necessarily thinking about anything. Just sad by default.

I sometimes even do it in public, which is why I always have sunglasses on me, or to pretend I can't see by also adding my cane so that people don't interact with me.
 
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AnxietyAttack44

I just wanna go to my husband already.
Jun 5, 2020
1,092
Yes. Anything and any thought or memory put me in neverending cry mode. Hard to handle it
 
racek

racek

Member
Mar 29, 2020
47
When i have an urge for crying I do it meaningful. I mean by that i cry based on myself, not someone else.
 
du2497

du2497

Member
Mar 17, 2020
37
It's strange for me, I'll be "fine" for a few weeks, have a cry, then be "fine" again. Sometimes it's hopeless "none of this is worth it" crying, sometimes it's angry crying.
 
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Throwaway563078

Experienced
Oct 6, 2018
272
I cry way too much or i cant cry at all
 
Dead beat dad

Dead beat dad

Enlightened
Mar 5, 2019
1,030
Hi guys.
Lately I just can't stop crying. Like real racking sobbing and other times it's a sadness that causes tears to run from my eyes, but I'm not making a sobbing sound. It's just no sound at all.
Does anybody have this?
In a nutshell; yes.
Feel your pain my brother

DBD
 
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dysfunctional

dysfunctional

Arcanist
Oct 26, 2018
459
Strangely no. I'm severly depressed but completely numb. When I was manic I would cry alot more from happiness.
 

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