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ClownWorld2023

Arcanist
Sep 18, 2023
457
It's just a reference to the current state of the world, but I suppose you could've already deduced that.

I'm just missing an accompanying profile picture.
Maybe if I have time I can try to make one.
 
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TransilvanianHunger

TransilvanianHunger

Grave with a view...
Jan 22, 2023
363
Transilvanian Hunger is a fantastic Darkthrone album, and it's what I was listening to when I created my account.
 
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water bunny

water bunny

I’m getting on the bus to the other world
Oct 20, 2023
22
Ame mean rain in japanese, I love the Japanese culture and I also love the rain lol. And that's also the name of a character made by my favorite singer "tuyu".
Another tuyu fan?!! It's really nice to know there's other tuyu enjoyers in this forum
 
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rileywatson

Member
Oct 19, 2023
73
I used one of those random name generators on the internet. I picked this particular one over the others because it reminds me of one of my close friends.
 
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NeedAnEscape

NeedAnEscape

awaiting the end
Oct 16, 2023
265
I need an escape from a world filled with people that do not understand what I am going through. This forum is my escape.
 
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I Can't Say

I Can't Say

Member
Oct 21, 2023
80
"I Can't Say" is such a useful way to deflect questions. There are a lot of reasons why I might not want to say, and I don't have to pick one. But there's an interesting semantic ambiguity. "What's wrong?" "I can't say." I can't put the wrong thing into words? Or the wrong thing is the fact that I can't. I feel like the root of a lot of my problems is that I Can't Say.
What can't I say? Obviously, I can't answer that. A lot of things.
Why can't I say it? A lot of reasons. I don't know, or I want to avoid conflict, or the question doesn't even make sense to me, or the answer would just hurt too much.

It's also a Warhammer reference: the speaker is in a chaos cult and would probably end up as demon chow for answering.
 
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BlackMoon

BlackMoon

Peace-seeker
Oct 30, 2023
190
Mostly in reference to the poem in my signature.
 
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ben_

ben_

I'm Ben.
Oct 31, 2023
60
It means nothing. I've literally generated a bunch of random names with BitWarden and chosen the least dumb one, skipping those like Scam1057, Vagueness9220, Spoilage3940, Crouch1416, Rupture1065, ...

But I want to rename myself to Ben when I'm able to. He only appears for couple minutes in the movie (Blue Velvet by David Lynch), yet it's my favorite scene (and favorite song). I guess I love his freakish but classy character.
 
Nortu

Nortu

Longing for an ending
Apr 7, 2023
88
Its a sort of play on how to write «(I) Wonder when» in my language. Sounded cute so I just went for it
 
penguinl0v3s

penguinl0v3s

Wait for Me 💙
Nov 1, 2023
798
Mine's a tribute to the suicidal person that I unwisely developed feelings for. I fall too easily. He's dead now.
 
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daze

daze

Waiting for a sign
Nov 11, 2023
15
I find it hard to think sometimes because of brain fog, so i spent a lot of my time in a daze. That's why its my username
 
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Penquinman

Member
Nov 22, 2023
11
I like penquins and I'm a man. That's deep, I know.
 
Blackpepperpancake

Blackpepperpancake

Help me to breathe
Nov 22, 2023
55
It was what I ate to pity my life when I was 15, it had struck me since then, at first I set it to pancakewithblackpepper but it's too long so I shortened it to this one.
 
Leavesfromthevine

Leavesfromthevine

Untreated Trauma
Nov 23, 2023
339
It's the scene that makes me cry still. Knowing no one will ever feel that way about me. Uncle Iroh is who I aspire to be like while I'm still here.
 
Rhizomorph1

Rhizomorph1

Psychology (B.A.) & Substance Use Researcher
Oct 24, 2023
627
It's the scene that makes me cry still. Knowing no one will ever feel that way about me. Uncle Iroh is who I aspire to be like while I'm still here.
RIP Mako (the singer/voice actor for Iroh). That song was simultaneously a tribute to him as he was dying from cancer

My username refers to a type of mycelial growth because I like to grow magic mushrooms :)
 
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monk-in-hell

Member
Oct 23, 2023
40
I set everything on fire and Im burning but I try to stay calm
 
SpiritualDeath

SpiritualDeath

I return to the raiding shadows of death.
Sep 9, 2023
211

It's the name of this beautiful song!
 
leloyon

leloyon

I'll see you in the Wired.
Feb 4, 2023
1,114
Le Loyon, a supposed "cryptid" from Switzerland.
In reality, I think it was just someone who felt comfortable dressing how they did and enjoyed taking walks.
I relate to the few things known about them. Hell, especially the demonisation from the press and local community, despite doing nothing wrong.
 
pointblank

pointblank

OTW to CTB
Dec 12, 2024
76
It is reflective of my headspace: *bang!*
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
10,069
It's from Star Wars: Return of the Jedi. Yoda says it:

'Soon will I rest, yes, forever sleep. Earned it I have.'

I've always thought it was a gentle way to look at death- a well deserved rest after all this life.
 
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Namelesa

Namelesa

Trapped in this Suffering
Sep 21, 2024
234
my name is just Nameless but replace the last letter with an A to make it sound more feminine.
 
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Punpun Onodera

Punpun Onodera

Goodnight Punpun!
Oct 23, 2023
110
Mine is the main character of my favorite manga
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,323
I just wish to die.

Honestly, the more accurate username should be "ijustwishtobedead" but I didn't really fully consider the distinction between dying and death back then. Also, I didn't use any spaces because I didn't know that I could.
 
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deepsweetdiver

deepsweetdiver

Member
Dec 10, 2024
14
Its a little tribute to my first ctb attempt, I tried drowning and that would be my final, peaceful, sweet dive.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
449
Very old internet identity, I don't think any would recognize it as me or even remember. And if they do, it's good to see you again old friend, sorry we both ended up here somehow.
 
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dOm!n!K

dOm!n!K

Skinwalker
Nov 28, 2023
13
Mine is a fun reference to one of my comfort movies - Sala samobójców (Suicide room). The main character goes by 'dOm!n!K' in VRchatlike online site Create Yourself.
 
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lamy2006

lamy2006

Member
Nov 22, 2024
30
I really like fountain pens.
Lamy is a brand who makes pens and ink.
My first fountain pen was a Lamy Safari.
 
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avalokitesvara

avalokitesvara

bodhisattva
Nov 28, 2024
222
bodhisattva of infinite compassion, regarder of the cries of the world, always-returner, never resting until all sentient beings are saved
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
174
I spent 20 years working to build a life of serenity with my wife and daughters, but it all was shattered this year by mental illness and divorce.
 
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