Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Fear of existence.
In my case I only wish for death as I fear existence, I see existence as something to fear as after all it's caused endless amounts of harm and agony all throughout history tormenting and torturing existing beings until death takes away all they knew anyway.
Personally I find it horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they suffer in this existence that is so incredibly cruel, I'd never wish for the cruelty of suffering in this existence rather I just hope and wish to never suffer again, to be permanently unconsious where I'm incapable of feeling any pain and being harmed at all truly is all that's desirable to me.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy ultimately responsible for all suffering and all that torments existing beings, I fear existing in this reality and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just deteriorating and decaying just to feel way worse agony. To me existence feels like a mistake and it's something I'd always and only wish to be free from, the pain this existence causes is very real, I find it horrifying how existence causes such immense suffering in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything. It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally be at peace, I see it as a curse to exist and I suffer simply from existing, to me no matter what existing will always be nothing but suffering, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily all while risking suffering way more and I fear suffering in this existence, all I hope and wish for is to never exist again where all is forgotten about for me and I'm permanently safe from all suffering and harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suicide for me would be suffering prevention.
It truly would be, for me suicide would prevent so much unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose that just brought me so much pain in the first place, all I wish for is death to take away and prevent all my suffering as I find it so terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony from old age.

I'd personally prefer to avoid such no matter what, in general I'd prefer to avoid existence, I wish I could just never wake again and forget about this existence that just caused me to suffer, being able to die painlessly would solve everything for me as after all it isn't like I could suffer from never existing again yet there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented in this cruel, painful existence. I'd personally rather prevent the suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably, it causes me so much pain how I cannot just simply die in peace so that I can finally be unable to suffer and be harmed in anyway, I only hope and wish for the eternal absence of all harm and suffering where all is finally forgotten about to me.

I'll always see existence as the most horrific tragedy, something I'd prefer to forget about no matter what, under no circumstances would I wish to exist rather I just wish to be unaware for all eternity, I wish for non-existence to prevent all future suffering in an existence I always saw as so pointless, futile, burdensome and just leads to decay and death anyway, I'd never wish for the burden of existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is so much cruelty in existing and it's such that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence but rather I just wish to never suffer again, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me in non-existence.

To me existence truly was always the most terrible, tragic mistake that just caused endless amounts of suffering and cruelty, I find it so painful how there's all this cruelty in existence with existing beings suffering so much all because they were unfortunate to exist. I'll always see existence as a curse, personally I find it a curse to be conscious suffering in this reality that is so immensely cruel where chance so senselessly determines everything where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Personally I find it so horrific how there's all this suffering for the sake of it and what is so cruel to me is how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die in peace even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place.

I'll always see it as a painful, torturous burden to suffer in this existence that to me just caused immense amounts of harm. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence just destined to decay and die anyway rather I just wish for non-existence where I'm incapable of being harmed in any way, incapable of suffering at all, I only wish to be permanently unaware of something so incredibly cruel as existence which just causes all this torment, death truly is the only relief for me, I only hope to never exist again.

 

[donwhitman]

Everytime I go to sleep I pray I won't wake up .

 

[Defenestration]

Chaque fois que je vais me coucher, je prie pour ne pas me réveiller.

Same but fail...

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for all to be forgotten about in death.
All I hope and wish is for all to be forgotten about in death for me, I wish for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much pain one can feel. Personally I'd always prefer to not exist as only then am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I could just erase my existence as all I hope is for all to be forgotten about for me.

To me existence just feels like a terrible mistake that just causes suffering and so much harm, it's a mistake that I only want permanent peace from, the only relief for me could lie in never existing again, in an existence so painful that just brought so much suffering death truly would be the only peace for me. All I wish and hope for is non-existence where I cannot suffer and all is finally forgotten about, I simply wish to be unaware for all eternity, I only hope to never suffer in this existence again and to me existing is nothing but suffering, I suffer simply from existing and no matter what I'll always find it so undesirable to exist. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of being burdened with this existence, in fact to me I'd prefer to forget about existence no matter what, I wish to just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten for me and I'm permanently incapable of suffering, in an existence that only ever caused me to suffer I only hope to forget.

 

[FuneralCry]

Painless death would solve everything for me.
A painless death truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this painful and cruel existence where there's all this endless suffering and harm. It truly would solve everything as after all what I see as the true problem is existence itself and if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way, all my suffering is ultimately as a result of existence and as long as I exist I'll suffer, in fact to me existence truly is nothing but suffering.

I'll always see existing as so burdensome, it's such a terrible torturous burden that only death can bring me peace from, personally I see no value to being conscious and aware just waiting to die anyway capable of suffering to unlimited amounts in this existence I always saw as so futile and so unnecessary in the first place. To me existence truly does just create pain and problems there was never a need for tormenting existing beings until they die anyway, a painless death would solve everything for me as all I hope for is to be permanently unconscious unable to suffer and be harmed in any way. A painless death would save me from all future unnecessary suffering in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, I find it horrific how a human can exist for so long just to be tormented by old age and I'd never wish for such. The thought of suffering for way longer terrifies me which is why all I want is some peace, I wish for a painless death to take away all my suffering and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just die in peace and instead continue to suffer in this existence I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just want to sleep.
All I've ever hoped for and wished for is to sleep, to me it sounds so peaceful to simply sleep for all eternity where this cruel and torturous existence is all forgotten about and I cannot be harmed in any way. For me personally dreamless, eternal sleep truly has been all that's desirable, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose that just brought me so much pain.

In fact simply existing is so tiring to me, I find it deeply undesirable to have to exist at all, to me all that could be desirable is never existing again where I'm finally at peace, I never want to think, feel or experience anything at all in fact such has only ever caused me to suffer and I just don't want to suffer in any way instead I just wish for the peace of eternal sleep where I'm simply unaware. I just wish to rest, I feel like I've suffered for so long and more than anything I wish I never suffered in the first place, I find it so painful how I cannot just fall into an eternal sleep to finally escape from the terrible, torturous pain of existing, I just want to simply not exist, in fact non-existence truly has been all I've ever wished and hoped for, peace for me could only lie in never existing again, I only hope to never exist, it'd be a relief for me to never suffer in this existence again in fact it'd be the only relief.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from suffering.
To be permanently at peace from all suffering truly is all I hope and wish for, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel and torturous existence I never would have chose that just brought me so much pain, I'll always find it to be a burden to suffer in this existence and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from.

To me existence just feels like a mistake, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence just waiting to die anyway, in fact in my case I suffer simply from existing, to me existence will always be nothing but suffering no matter what and all I hope for now is peace from the hopelessness of existence where all is forgotten about for me and I cannot be harmed in any way.

I just wish for the absence of all harm and suffering, I just want some peace and for me peace could only exist in never suffering again, I just hope for death to take away all that causes me to suffer. For me personally it'd be a relief to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again as all I hope and wish for is to forget about this existence, I just wish to be permanently unaware where finally I'm free from all suffering, I'd never wish for the pain and torment of existence no matter what rather I just want peace instead, to me simply being conscious and aware leads to suffering and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I just want nothingness instead, in fact the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep has been all I've ever wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is something so horrific to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something so horrific that just causes and creates so much suffering, in fact the pain and suffering of existence is endless, I find it such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence at all especially as there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist.
Personally I only hope for non-existence where I cannot be harmed and cannot suffer in any way where all is forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what to escape from the torment of suffering in this existence. Non-existence is all that could ever be desirable to me, I only hope for the permanent absence of all suffering and harm, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I'd never wish for something as cruel and torturous as existence where there is all this pain all for the sake of it, instead I only wish to be free from this existence that just caused me to suffer, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything where there is unlimited potential for existing to get way more torturous. To me existence truly is something so horrifying, the way I see it, it just harms existing beings until they decay and die anyway, the amount of harm existence has caused truly is beyond comprehension which is why I only hope and wish to never suffer again, I just want death to take away all my suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous.

 

[davidtorez]

Existence is something so horrific to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as something so horrific that just causes and creates so much suffering, in fact the pain and suffering of existence is endless, I find it such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence at all especially as there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they exist.
Personally I only hope for non-existence where I cannot be harmed and cannot suffer in any way where all is forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what to escape from the torment of suffering in this existence. Non-existence is all that could ever be desirable to me, I only hope for the permanent absence of all suffering and harm, I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings.

I'd never wish for something as cruel and torturous as existence where there is all this pain all for the sake of it, instead I only wish to be free from this existence that just caused me to suffer, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything where there is unlimited potential for existing to get way more torturous. To me existence truly is something so horrifying, the way I see it, it just harms existing beings until they decay and die anyway, the amount of harm existence has caused truly is beyond comprehension which is why I only hope and wish to never suffer again, I just want death to take away all my suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous.

I just wanted to let you know I agree with everything you say. Prevention is definitely better than cure , unfortunately noone prevented our suffering so we need to end it ourselves

 

[FuneralCry]

Only finding comfort in death.
In my case I truly have only ever found comfort in death, for me death truly would be a relief if it means I never suffer again in this cruel, painful existence that I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place. Death is the only comfort for me as I believed it to be nothing more than an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about for me and I cannot be harmed in any way.

I simply wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way, I only hope for peace from the torment of being burdened with this existence and for me existing truly was always a burden, it was one that only ever caused me to suffer that I was never meant for and in my case I truly will always suffer as long as I exist. To me existing truly is nothing but suffering which is why I only find comfort in death, I personally see no point and value to suffering in this existence just destined and waiting to die anyway rather I'd always prefer not to exist at all as if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and to never suffer is all I wish for, personally I'd never wish for existence.

I only see ceasing to exist as desirable, I just wish to be unable to experience anything at all, in an existence so torturous and futile death truly is the only comfort for me, I only wish for permanent relief from all suffering and harm which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I just wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, in fact it's all I've ever hoped for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence.
No matter what I truly will always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, I personally suffer simply from existing and there's so much pain in how I wake again instead of being permanently unaware, unable to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence.

To me existence itself will always be the true problem no matter what as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings, I find it so painful how I was forced into existence even know it isn't like I could ever be harmed by never existing at all. More than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose in the first place, I'd never wish for the cruelty and hopelessness of suffering in this existence that to me was always such a cruel, terrible and tragic mistake.

I'd always prefer to not exist as only then am I unable to suffer but more than anything I wish I never existed at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence as I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that just brought me pain, just existing is tiring to me. I find existing to be deeply undesirable and it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I'd never wish for the pain this existence causes rather I just wish for some peace instead but of course the suffering continues, to me existing will always be painful no matter what. I just want death to take away all the suffering as I simply don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just wish to never exist again, I find existing to be painful especially as there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence that can continue for so long, to me it just feels so cruel how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep to finally take away all the pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

More than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all.
I truly did wish I never suffered in this cruel, painful existence at all, there's so much pain in how I had to suffer in the first place, more than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I'd never wish for the cruelty, torment and hopelessness of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just for one to decay and die anyway, to me existence is the most terrible, horrific tragedy and it's one that causes endless amounts of suffering and I wish I never suffered at all.

To be conscious is a curse to me, I find it so painful to be burdened with this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, there really is just so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can take away for me. Personally I find it such a terrible tragedy to be forced into existence when there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, to me personally never existing truly is all that's ideal.

I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances and I find it so painful how I became aware at all, I'll always find it a burdensome to exist, a burden so cruel and torturous that only death can bring me peace from, I just wish for death to take away all my suffering as I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence. To me existence truly did cause nothing but harm in the first place, to simply exist is deeply undesirable to me, I'll always see eternal sleep as preferable as only then am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all but now I do all I hope and wish for is to never suffer again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for the cruelty of existence.
I truly was never meant for the terrible cruelty and suffering of existence rather I was only meant to never exist at all, existence is just too painful, too torturous for me, I'd always prefer to die but really I wish I could erase this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence.

To exist in the first place will always be a terrible tragedy to me no matter what, there's so much pain in how I was forced into existence and burdened with all this suffering as a result. Personally I just hope and wish for non-existence, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem, I only wish for death as only then am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way and existence truly did cause me nothing but suffering, all of which was unnecessary, I personally find it so tragic how there is all this endless suffering there was never a need for at all.

I truly was never meant for any of this and never would have chose it which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep and never feel any pain ever again. I just hope for non-existence where this cruel, torturous existence is all forgotten about for me and I can finally be at peace, for me peace could never exist in the torment of existing as a conscious being who is capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, to me existence truly did cause nothing but harm in the first place, I'd always prefer to avoid the cruelty of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting some peace.
I really do just wish for some peace and the true permanent peace of non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way where all is finally forgotten about for me really has been all I've ever wished and hoped for. I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence, I'd never wish for any of the pain this existence so tragically causes rather I just hope to never exist again, I wish for death to take away all my suffering in this existence so cruel that to me just caused so much harm in the first place.

In my case I'd never wish to remember anything about this painful, torturous existence that just caused me so much suffering rather I just wish to forget about it all I wish to never experience anything, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way, personally I see it as a curse to suffer in this existence. I'd never wish for the cruelty, futility and hopelessness of being tormented in this existence, to me existence truly is such a terrible tragedy that I only hope and wish for peace from and for me peace could only ever lie in never existing again. The only relief for me could lie in being eternally unable to suffer which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I only wish to never wake and finally be free from all the suffering, I've suffered so much and for so long, the tiredness I feel is such that only non-existence can take away.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to be gone.
I'm always wishing to be free from this cruel, painful existence I never belonged in and was never meant for, to me existence is the most horrific, terrible tragedy, I'd never wish to exist and there's so much pain in how I had to suffer in this existence at all. I really never should had existed at all, more than anything I wish I stayed permanently unaware but now all I can hope for is a permanent release from the cruelty and hopelessness of suffering in this existence.

I only hope for death to take away all the suffering, I only hope to never exist again, personally I'd be so relieved to finally be free from the torment of existence, I wish for death to finally bring me peace and for me peace could only exist in eternal sleep where nothing can matter to me, this existence is no longer my problem and I'm finally free from this burden which only ever brought me pain and no matter what I'll always find it so burdensome to exist.

It's just so painful how I became conscious in the first place and have to suffer so much as a result of it, I'm always and only wishing to be gone as after all if I no longer exist then I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way, death truly has been all I've ever hoped and wish for which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just painlessly escape from this existence. I wish for a painless death to free me from all future suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how torturous it can get but of course if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just too cruel.
It really is too cruel and that is why I only hope and wish for death, I only want to never exist again, I find it so painful to suffer in this cruel torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. And what is so horrific to me is how existing can easily get way more unbearable leading to way worse torment, personally I see nothing desirable about suffering in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything just hoping and waiting to die and to me it's all so futile anyway, I see existence as the most terrible tragedy.

I'll always see it as so tragic to suffer in this existence which just brought so much pain and tormented existing beings and now that I exist all I can hope is for death to take away all the suffering, I wish for nothing to be able to matter to me, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from all suffering and torment. To me existence really is too cruel, too painful and too torturous, all I see as desirable is never existing again, I've suffered so much for so long in this existence so cruel, I'm always so tired of existing here, it's the kind of tiredness that only death can take away for me. I only hope for death to bring me peace from all the suffering this existence so tragically causes, I'd never wish for the cruelty and hopelessness of suffering in this existence rather I only hope for permanent peace where all is forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope and wish to never exist again.
It truly is all I hope for, I only wish to never exist again where I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way with all finally forgotten about for me, I've suffered so much for so long and I find it so painful how I had to suffer at all in the first place in this existence I was never meant for that just caused me so much pain.

I only hope to never exist again where finally I'm at peace and for me peace could only ever exist in never suffering again, for me existence is just too painful, too cruel, too torturous, it's something I'd never wish for no matter what, I find it such a terrible tragedy to become conscious at all and suffer so much tormented by this existence as a result. Personally I only want to never exist again where nothing can matter to me and I'm finally free from the cruel yet so futile tragedy of existence, I'll always see it as so tragic to have to exist, I see existence itself as a tragedy that just caused endless amounts of harm and suffering which is certainly why I hope to just never exist again.

I only wish for peace from all the suffering, I only hope and wish to be permanently unable to suffer, free from the cruelty, hopelessness and torment of existence where one is just decaying and waiting to die anyway. Non-existence truly is all that can bring me peace, I only hope to never suffer again which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an dreamless, eternal sleep so I can finally escape from an existence that brought me nothing but pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just too cruel to me.
It really is far too cruel which is why I only hope for death, I see it as so horrific how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die even know existence causes such immense suffering and harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. To me human existence just feels like a torturous burden, it just feels like a terrible mistake, to me existence will always be a horrifying tragedy that just tormented existing beings as a result.

And what terrifies me is how existing can easily get much more unbearable at any moment, personally I only wish for non-existence where I'm permanently safe from all suffering, I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just wish to never exist again where all is finally be forgotten about for me, to be conscious and aware in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty is a curse to me.
I wish I could just never wake again and forget about it all, to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I suffer so much from existing, I'll always find it so painful to exist, it's so cruel how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep. It terrifies me how a human can exist for so long suffering more and more as time goes on just to end up even more tormented, I'd never wish for the cruelty, hopelessness and torment of suffering in this existence, it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing I could just erase my existence.
I truly am always wishing I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, personally I find it painful to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get, I just wish for all my suffering to be erased, I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I always found so burdensome.

For me existence truly is something best forgotten about no matter what, I wish for non-existence to take away all my suffering, I'd never wish to remember anything about the cruelty and torment of existence but rather I just wish to forget. I just wish to disappear, I wish to be permanently non-existent incapable of suffering and incapable of feeling any pain at all, the fact that I suffer in this existence truly is such a terrible tragedy, it's so painful to me how I cannot just erase this existence so I can finally never suffer again, in fact to me existence is nothing but pain.

I'd never wish to exist, only never existing again is desirable for me, I'd never wish for all this cruelty and suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake in the first place. Being able to never suffer again is all that could bring me peace, I only hope to never exist, I find it tiring and painful to simply exist, personally I'd always prefer to avoid existence no matter what and all the suffering it so tragically causes, I was never meant to exist which is why I wish to always erase my existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish and hope for painless death.
A painless death to bring me peace from all the suffering this existence so cruelly causes truly is all I wish and hope for now, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die even know existence just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering with there being no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get which is certainly a reason as to why I only hope to never exist again. To me existing is nothing but suffering and I'm so tired of suffering in this painful, torturous existence, just the fact that I exist brings me so much pain, I just wish to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer again, I only hope for permanent peace from all suffering and harm where I cannot suffer in any way, for me death truly would be a relief.

In fact it'd be the only relief for me, I'd never wish for existence and see it as such a terrible torturous burden to be conscious and experience anything at all. I wish and hope for a painless death as I'm always so tired of suffering, it terrifies me how a human can exist for so long, to me existence just feels like a curse, one so hopeless and futile that just causes pain. It's just so agonising to me how there isn't the option to simply never wake again, only non-existence is desirable for me personally, under no circumstances would I wish to exist, existence just feels like a mistake to me I'd always prefer to forget about, it's so painful how I had to exist at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering in this existence.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering in this existence, for me it's the kind of tiredness that only death can take away and bring me peace from, existence truly is too cruel, too torturous and painful to me, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence rather I only hope to never exist again. There's just so much pain in how I have to exist at all and I'm always so tired of it, I find it tiring to simply exist, all I hope and wish is for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can matter to me but of course the suffering continues instead.

I find it so painful how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep as all I hope for is to sleep, I just wish to be permanently unaware and never suffer again, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering, I'm always so tired of it all in fact I've always felt so tired. I just want peace from this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, it's just so agonising to me how despite the fact that existence causes all this pain I cannot just have the option to painlessly die so finally I can be at peace. Non-existence is all I hope for, I've suffered so much for so long and it's suffering I'd never wish for, for me the only relief could truly only ever lie in death, it'd be a relief for me to never exist again, I suffer simply from existing and I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Fear of existence.
I always feel so much dread for what lies ahead in this cruel, painful existence I never would have chose that I never wished for at all. Personally I find it so horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist, I fear what lies ahead and it truly terrifies me how the suffering this existence causes can continue for so long especially as it already feels like I've suffered for such a long time and I never wished to suffer in the first place. For me personally I'd never wish for existence and it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what which just caused me to suffer so much, I see no point and value to suffering in this existence so cruel and torturous rather I'd always prefer to not exist where all is forgotten about for me than to suffer for decades longer just to die in agony tortured and tormented by old age.

I just want eternal nothingness where I'm permanently at peace rather than all this cruelty and suffering and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep, to me existence truly is just a terrible mistake, it's just pain and suffering for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer at all. I'm always so tired of existing and no matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything, it's horrifying to me how existence causes such immense harm, in fact to me existence itself will always be the true problem as it's the source of all suffering, I'll always and only wish to not exist, I just want death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is not for me.
No matter what existing really could never be for me, I'm just not meant to suffer in this existence and I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, under no circumstance would I wish for it.
I personally see no value to suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering but as well as that I just find it so undesirable to exist in general, I find it tiring and painful to be conscious at all, I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I find existence to be so futile, pointless and unnecessary, it just causes pain and problems there was never a need for at all.

If I never existed I wouldn't be able to suffer in any way which is why I wish I never did more than anything, I'm always so tired of being trapped with my own thoughts, personally I find that just existing in general leads to suffering, to me existing means suffering so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and I find it horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer. Personally I just don't wish to think, feel or experience anything at all rather I find such to be so burdensome, I don't wish for existence as after all it's the source of all suffering and I'd never wish to suffer in this reality where chance so senselessly determines everything but rather I just wish to painlessly not exist.

I want to fall asleep and never wake again where nothing can matter to me and all is finally forgotten about for me, in my case I've only ever wished for non-existence, I've never wished to exist, I was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, existing truly is not for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep to take away all the suffering.

 

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Just wishing to sleep.
To sleep truly is all I hope and wish for, in fact all I've ever hoped for is the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where I cannot suffer in any way, nothing can matter to me and all is forgotten about for me, personally eternal sleep is all I see as desirable. I only wish to be unable to experience anything at all and the fact that I suffer in this existence instead truly is so painful, there really is so much pain in existing and for me it's pain that only death can take away. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, in fact for me existing truly is nothing but suffering, I've only ever wished for peace from it all, to me existence just feels like a mistake, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and it's a problem that only eternal sleep can solve for me.

Personally I find it so dreadful to be awake, all I hope for is to never exist and never wake again, I was never meant for this existence that just caused so much harm, I never would have chose to exist, all I've ever hoped is for eternal sleep to take the pain away and all I've ever wished for is peace from the cruelty, futility and hopelessness of existence.

I just wish to sleep, for me peace could only exist in never existing again, I'd never wish for the torment of existing as a conscious being in this reality where there's all this suffering, personally I'd never wish to suffer at all which is why it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I only wish to painlessly not exist to escape from all future unnecessary suffering.

 

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Only in non-existence am I unable to suffer.
Only once I'm no longer existing will I be unable to suffer and that is why I wish for it so much, I only hope and wish for non-existence to take away my suffering and finally bring me peace from this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake, I'd never wish for existence but rather I see it as something I'd prefer to avoid, I find it so painful how I had to suffer in this existence at all and it's pain that only death can bring me relief from.

Personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway and as long as I exist I'll always and only wish for death where I cannot suffer anymore and all is finally forgotten about for me. I only hope for true peace from the painful and torturous burden where there is all this pain all for the sake of it, for me existing truly feels like nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, only in non-existence will I be free from all suffering which is why it's all I hope for. I never want to suffer in any way rather I just wish to be permanently unaware where all is forgotten about for me and I cannot be harmed in any way, non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, it's all I've ever hoped and wished for, I'd never wish for the torment of existing, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so tragically causes, rather I just wish to be non-existent where I'm safe from all suffering and nothing can matter to me.

 

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I see existence as the most horrific terrible tragedy.
To me no matter what existence will truly always be the most horrific, terrible tragedy, one that just caused endless amounts of harm and suffering, I'd never wish for existence but rather I just hope and wish for the permanent absence of it where all is forgotten about for me. I just want death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from the terrible cruelty, there's just so much pain in existing and all I hope for is to never feel any pain ever again, all that's desirable to me is never suffering again, for me no matter what existence will always be something I'd prefer to avoid, to me existence truly is just suffering and torment all for the sake of it, to be conscious in this reality is a curse to me.

I'm so tired of existing, I never want to think or feel anything at all, I see it as so tragic to be forced into existence in the first place, I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, I'd always prefer to die especially as it isn't like I could be harmed by not existing at all. I wish for a dreamless, eternal sleep where nothing can matter to me and I'm permanently at peace from this cruel, torturous existence which just caused me to suffer, I find it so horrific how one can suffer for so long with there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence. I wish I could just eternally fall asleep and forget about it all, to me existence truly is nothing more than an horrific terrible tragedy, it feels like a mistake to exist, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, there's just so much pain in how I had to suffer in this existence.

 

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Never wish to get old.
Under no circumstances would I wish to get old, the thought of such really horrifies me, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this futile, torturous existence for decades longer just to end up tormented in agony from old age. Personally it really terrifies me how there is no limit as to how unbearable the pain of existing can get, I'd never wish for existence and it really feels like I've suffered so much for so long already, it's just so painful how I had to exist when it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all, there's so much pain in how I became conscious in this cruel existence I always saw as so burdensome in the first place.

The thought of reaching an much older age in an existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for is terrifying, just thinking about such causes me so much pain, it's so painful how despite the fact there's all this suffering and agony I cannot just have the option to permanently escape from the torment of existing. The absence of euthanasia to take away all the suffering is horrific to me as not everyone wishes to decay and deteriorate just to be tortured and tormented by old age. In my case all I wish for is to never suffer in this existence again, I'm always so tired of suffering, I just wish for non-existence so I can finally be at peace, for me ceasing to exist is all that's desirable, I'd always prefer to die than to be tormented and burdened with this existence, I find it horrifying how existence causes such immense harm and suffering.

 

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Existence just causes pain.
It truly does just cause so much pain and that is why I only hope and wish for death, to me existence is just too cruel, too painful and too torturous and what is so horrific how despite all the endless suffering this existence causes I cannot just die in peace to escape from all this. I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, I'd never wish for the cruelty and torment of existence but rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, it's just so terrible how I was burdened with this existence and as a result have to suffer so extremely, I'll always find it so hopeless and dreadful to exist, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer which is why it's all I hope and wish for.

I just want all to be forgotten about for me in death, to me it'd be a relief to fall asleep eternally and be free from the terrible torment of existing which was of course completely futile to me in the first place. Only not existing where nothing can matter to me and I cannot feel any pain for all eternity is all I see as desirable, to me existence is just a horrific, terrible tragedy that just causes suffering and I just don't want to suffer at all. Instead I just want peace from all this pain, non-existence is always preferable to me especially as there are no disadvantages to being unable to suffer yet no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence, in my case I only hope to never exist again, for me death is the only peace, I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem and I cannot suffer for all eternity.