Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Existing will always be completely undesirable to me.
No matter what existing truly will always be completely undesirable to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel and futile existence but rather I just wish for the peace of never existing again where I cannot be harmed in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me. In my case I see it as undesirable to exist under all circumstances, personally I find it a burden to wake again and have to experience anything at all, to be conscious in this existence that I see as so pointless and meaningless where I'm capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is always such a terrible tragedy to me.

I'd never wish for such and I find it so tragic how I had to suffer at all when it isn't like there were any disadvantages to never existing at all, the way I see it existence truly was so unnecessary just creating so much suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer in any way, instead I just want some peace, I just wish to be unaware for all eternity where I cannot suffer in any way. I wish for a painless death to free myself from the undesirable burden of existence and it's so painful how I cannot just have such and instead continue to suffer in this existence I never would have chosen or wished for. It terrifies me how a human can exist for so long in this reality where there is all this endless suffering just to be tortured by old age, it's all just so undesirable to me, I find it undesirable to simply exist, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

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Non-existence is always preferable to me.
No matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, I see non-existence as always preferable for me, in fact it's all I hope for and is all I see as desirable. Because after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can matter to me, all that causes one to suffer is ultimately as a result of existence and personally I find it so terrible and cruel how existence causes all this endless suffering. I just don't wish to suffer in any way and as long as one exists there is no limit as to how much they can suffer which is just terrifying to me.

I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious of this existence no matter what, I'd always prefer to painlessly not exist than to suffer for decades longer all for the sake of it in an existence I always found as so futile and unnecessary just to be tormented by old age and die anyway, personally I've only ever wished for non-existence, to me existence itself just feels like a terrible tragedy and a mistake that just brings pain and causes harm. I only hope to never exist again in my case, I only hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence. To be conscious and aware is something that always feel so dreadful and hopeless to me, I always saw existence as so undesirable in the first place, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I never became aware of something so torturous and cruel as existence but all I can hope for now is an eternal sleep to take away all the pain and suffering.

 

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Suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this cruel, torturous existence and I find it so painful how I had to suffer at all, there truly is so much pain in existing and more than anything I wish I never became aware of it all. I'll always find it such a terrible tragedy to exist and it's a tragedy that only death can bring me peace from, I just wish I could die painlessly to escape from all this suffering in this existence I never would have wished for that I never would have chosen.

It truly does feel like I've suffered so much for so long and the suffering just continues, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I could just erase my existence as all of this just feels like a mistake to me. The only relief for me could lie in never suffering again and to never suffer is all I hope for, I just want death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace, it's so painful how I've suffered so long, in fact no matter what I'll always find it so painful to exist. I was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence and it's something I'd rather avoid no matter what, I just want all to be forgotten about for me in death, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and it truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in an existence that just brought me nothing but pain, in my case I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence where I cannot suffer anymore is desirable to me.

 

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Wish for the permanency of death.
I truly do wish for the permanency of death to take away all of my suffering and finally bring me peace from this painful, torturous existence, I'd always prefer the permanency of never existing over again over the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. What appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that it's permanent, this existence will no longer be my problem and nothing can matter to me once I'm finally free from the burden of existing.

I wish for a permanent release from all suffering, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep where I cannot be harmed in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me, I was never meant for existing, I never would have chose to exist, for me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering here, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering again. I've suffered so much for so long, I'll always find it so painful to exist no matter what and I see it as such a terrible tragedy how I had to exist at all, I see existence as a mistake that just brought all this endless suffering that only death can bring me relief from. There truly is so much cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible and hopeless to me, personally I'd be so relieved to never suffer again, eternal sleep where all is forgotten about for me and I'm finally at peace is all I hope for, I only hope to never exist again but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became aware, to be conscious in this existence is a curse to me, it's something I'd never wish for but now that I do exist and suffer so much as a result, all I can hope for is the permanency of death.

 

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I was never meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for this existence and I never should have suffered in it at all, it's so painful how I had to suffer in this existence and I personally suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chosen, for me existence really just is too painful, too cruel and too torturous. I find it so terrible how existence brings all this suffering and just torments existing beings in existences so futile until they die anyway, to me existence just feels like a mistake, it just feels like such a horrific tragedy that just caused all this harm and I was never meant for this, to me human existence was always a deeply undesirable burden to me that I'd always prefer to forget about.

I wish I could just erase my existence so I finally cannot suffer anymore, under no circumstances would I ever wish for the cruelty and futility of existence but rather I just wish for nothingness, I was never meant to exist, I was never meant to think or feel at all, I simply don't wish to experience anything rather I just wish to be at true permanent peace for all eternity where I cannot be harmed and cannot suffer in any way. Only non-existence can bring me peace from an existence so cruel that I was never meant from, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence but rather I just wish I could eternally fall asleep and forget about it all, personally I'd be so relieved to never suffer again, I suffer simply from existing and it always feels so painful to exist, it's agonising how I cannot just choose to simply die to finally escape from all this suffering, I only wish to never suffer, never feel any pain, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me.

 

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Always wishing to die.
I'm always wishing to die, in an existence so cruel, torturous and futile where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel death truly is the only peace for me, I've only ever hoped for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way, for me peace truly could only lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep. As long as I exist I'll always wish to be gone no matter what, in fact it's all I've ever wished and hoped for, I just want to never suffer ever again and for me existence feels like nothing but suffering. For me personally death could truly only ever be something positive as I believe it to simply be nothingness and to be permanently unconscious for all eternity is all I hope for, to me it'll always be so burdensome and hopeless to simply exist, I see existence as the most tragic, unnecessary mistake that just creates pain and problems there was never a need for tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it.

I've never wished for existence, in fact I find it to be deeply undesirable in every way, I'd never wish for the pain and suffering this existence causes rather I just wish to never wake again and forget about it all, I'm always so tired and it's the kind of tiredness that only death can take away for me. I'd never wish to exist but rather I'd always prefer to avoid existence and all the endless harm and cruelty it causes no matter what, existence truly did cause me nothing but pain which is why I'm always wishing to die, I only hope to never suffer again, I've suffered so much for so long.

 

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Only wish for painless way.
All I hope and wish for is a painless way to be free from all suffering in this painful, torturous existence, it just feels so cruel to me how I cannot have such and instead just continue to suffer instead. I only hope to never wake again, all I wish is for death to take away all the suffering, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather for me I see existence as something best avoided no matter what, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer for decades longer in this existence I never would have chosen or wished for just to be tormented by old age, in fact the thought of such terrifies me.

I only hope for a painless death as I just don't want to suffer in any way and in this existence there is no limit as to how much one can suffer, instead of all this suffering and cruelty I just wish for nothingness, I only want to be permanently at peace, it's just agonising how I cannot just painlessly die even know I was forced into this existence I was never meant for. In fact I see existence itself as the true problem as it's the source of all suffering, I find it horrific how existence causes endless amounts of harm torturing existing beings until they die anyway, for me death is the only relief in an existence so cruel, I just wish to never exist again, only in non-existence will I be at peace, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence that just brought me so much pain, I'll always feel so tired no matter what, all I hope and wish for is to be gone.

 

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Existence to me is the most horrific, terrible tragedy.
To me existence truly is the most horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm, tormenting existing beings so unnecessarily all for the sake of it, I'll always find it so painful and torturous to exist and more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence. I wish I stayed permanently unaware instead, I'd never wish to exist and personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence so cruel where there is all this pain and torment rather I just wish for some peace, to me existence itself is the true problem.

I only hope for non-existence where the cruelty and futility of existence is no longer my concern and I'm finally at peace from this tragedy, I'll always see it as such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence and it's a tragedy that only death can bring me peace from, personally I'd be relieved to never suffer again but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. Existence just feels like a mistake for me and there's so much pain in how I suffered so much all because I was forced into this existence, I'll always find it so painful to exist and it's pain that only death can take away for me, I just never want to suffer again, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I'm always so tired, I just want an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and pain, for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence where I'm finally at peace from this terrible tragedy.

 

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Just wanting to sleep.
All I hope and wish for is to sleep, I always find it so tiring being awake and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that just brought me so much pain, for me non-existence is always preferable no matter what, it's all I see as desirable. All I hope and wish for is the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where I cannot be harmed in any way and all is finally forgotten about for me.

Personally I've only ever wished for eternal sleep, the peace of sleep is always preferable to me than suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, to simply be awake is a burden to me and it's a burden I'd never wish for that just caused me to suffer. If it's up to me I never would have wished or chosen existence, I was never meant for any of this suffering and cruelty but rather I'm only meant to be unaware for all eternity. All I hope for is peace from this existence, the only relief for me could ever lie in death as I believe it to be nothing more than an eternal sleep, I just hope and wish to sleep for all eternity where this existence is no longer my problem. For me existence itself will always be the true problem that only eternal sleep can solve, I just want death to take away all my suffering, I wish to fall asleep so finally I can find some peace, I've always and only hoped for a death like never waking again.

 

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Peace for me could only exist in never suffering again.
All I hope for and wish for is to never suffer again, I've suffered too much for too long already and I find it so painful how I had to suffer at all, more than anything I wish I never existed as I was never meant for all this suffering and cruelty but now that I suffer all I can hope for is to finally be at peace, for me peace could only ever lie in suffering again. I just wish to be unaware for all eternity where I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way with this cruel, torturous existence finally forgotten about for me, I never wish to experience anything ever again but rather I just wish to be incapable of suffering and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering.

I suffer simply from existing and I'm always so tired of suffering here, I only want the peace of never existing again, I'd never wish for the cruelty of suffering in this existence but rather to me existence is a horrific tragedy that I only wish for peace from, I just want death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace. I only hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, in fact it's all I've ever wished for, for me there could never be any peace in suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel destined to decay and deteriorate but rather I find it so painful to exist, I personally only hope for non-existence, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally be at peace.

 

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Wanting death to escape from all future suffering.
All I hope and wish for is to cease existing to escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I always saw as a horrific, terrible tragedy in the first place, to me it's so terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist. I only wish to never suffer again and all that can bring me peace is to cease existing, I just hope for death to take away all my suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, I wish for death as if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and to be incapable of suffering is all I hope for.

All I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, to me it's just so horrifying how this existence can continue for so long just for me to be tormented decaying and deteriorating from old age, I'd never wish for such but rather I just wish to never suffer again, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what in fact it's all I hope for and all I see as desirable, personally the only relief for me could lie in never suffering again. I'd always prefer to prevent my suffering than prolong it just to risk suffering way more unbearably, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just peacefully die to escape from it all, for me suicide would be suffering prevention in an existence I never would have wished for that I was never meant for, only non-existence can bring me peace.

 

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It's all so futile anyway to me.
No matter what I'll always see existence as so futile, it just creates so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it tormenting existing beings until they die anyway and all is forgotten about for them, I'll always see existence as ultimately so pointless and meaningless. In fact to me existence just feels like a terrible mistake, I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence, in fact I'd never wish to exist at all, I find it so tiring to simply exist. I find it a burden to be conscious and aware, I find it so burdensome to experience anything at all.

For me personally non-existence is always preferable as if I'm dead then I cannot suffer, cannot be harmed in any way and this pointless, futile existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway is no longer my concern, I find it a tragedy to be forced into this existence suffering so unnecessarily destined for nothing but to deteriorate and decay just to be tormented by old age. It's all just so futile to me, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how there's all this meaningless suffering in existing that serves no purpose but to torture existing beings, I just want to cease existing to finally be free from it all, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this futile existence rather I just hope for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from it all.

 

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Existence is just so cruel.
This is certainly a reason as to why I just wish to not exist as existence is just so cruel, personally I find it painful to exist, I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty of suffering in this existence. To exist in the first place is something deeply hopeless to me that I never would have chose and never would have wished for.

I'm just not meant for all this cruelty and existence is far too cruel, there is no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty of existing can get causing one to suffer so extremely as a result. Existing can very easily get way more torturous at any moment all while one is just decaying and deteriorating anyway with the agony of old age being all that's inevitable, to me personally existence just feels like a horrible, terrible mistake that just brings suffering and causes endless amounts of harm.

To simply be conscious in this reality is a curse to me, I've always seen it as a burden to exist and it's one I'm simply not meant for, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way and more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all, I wish I just stayed unaware instead, only never existing is truly ideal to me. But in my case nothing could ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I only hope and wish for the eternal absence of it where finally nothing can matter to me with the cruelty and futility of this existence no longer being my concern, that is what I see as true peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this cruel existence that just caused me to suffer.

 

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Wish for painless method.
I just hope to painlessly die as personally I have no interest in suffering for decades longer just to be tortured and tormented by old age, in my case prolonging suffering just to decay and deteriorate has never been something I've wished for, I don't see anything appealing about suffering so unnecessarily just to face the agony of old age.

Non-existence truly has all that's ever been desirable to me, I actually find it horrific how I cannot easily access painless death even know this existence was a burden that was imposed in the first place with this existence being so incredibly cruel and torturous. Personally it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existing can get and I just don't wish to experience anything at all anyway, rather I just want to die in peace and forget about it all.

Being unconscious for all eternity where I cannot suffer in any way and cannot experience anything at all is all I wish for, I want death to take away all this suffering in this existence I never would have chose and I find it tiring and unappealing to simply exist, there are an unlimited amount of disadvantages to existing yet none to never existing again. I'd never wish for existence as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. In fact the suffering this existence causes is endless, to me it just feels so cruel how I cannot just die painlessly to escape from all this, I wish for permanent safety from all suffering and only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.

 

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The wish for all to be forgotten about in death.
All I hope and wish for is non-existence where I'm finally free from all suffering and permanently unable to suffer, all I wish is for all to be forgotten about in death for me, it comforts me to think of eternal nothingness where nothing can matter to me and this existence is no longer my problem. For me non-existence is true peace that cannot be found in this painful, torturous existence where there is all this suffering and as long as I exist I'll suffer, the suffering will continue until all is finally forgotten about for me.

I don't wish to remember anything about this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for but rather I just wish for the peace of never existing again, I just wish for death to take away all my suffering, the only relief for me could lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all the pain is gone and all is finally forgotten instead. I'm so tired of suffering in this existence, I'll always be so tired no matter what, I've never wished for existence and was never meant to exist, I've suffered so much for so long, to never wake again is all I've hoped for. Existence is just too cruel to me, there's just too much cruelty in existing, I just wish for all to be forgotten about for me, to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering in any way is all that could bring me peace, I just wish to never suffer again, as long as I exist I'll always and only wish for non-existence.

 

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So tired of being burdened with this existence.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of being burdened with this existence, in my case I just want to sleep, I just want to rest, I wish for non-existence where I cannot suffer and cannot experience anything at all. In my case I truly was never meant to exist and I personally see existence as a terrible, tragic mistake that just causes and brings suffering, I'll always see it as a burden to exist at all and it's one so cruel and torturous that I see as just tormenting existing beings until they deteriorate and die anyway.

Personally I just don't wish to be conscious at all, I find it so tiring and a burden to simply be awake, all I hope for is to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again, only death can bring me peace from this existence I always saw as so burdensome that just brought me pain and caused me to suffer. For me existence itself is the true problem and I'd never wish for it no matter what, I find it so painful how I had to exist at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered as to me existence truly is the most futile and cruel burden. I'd always prefer to not exist as if I'm dead then I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existence can get, personally I find it so horrific how existence causes all this suffering, I see it as a burden to exist at all, only death can bring me peace from this existence that just caused me to suffer.

 

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Was never meant for existing.
In my case I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I was never meant for any of the pain this existence brings, something as cruel as existence I could never be meant for and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware instead. No matter what I never would have chosen or wished for existence, personally I see it as such a horrific, terrible tragedy to exist, I only hope for non-existence where I cannot suffer, cannot be harmed in any way with all gone for me, I wish to never suffer again, for me peace could only ever lie in an dreamless, eternal sleep.

And what feels so terrible and cruel to me is how I cannot just painlessly die even know I was never meant for any of this, for me personally something so cruel and painful as existence I'd prefer to forget about, all I hope for is the absence of all harm and suffering, simply just existing brings me so much pain and it terrifies me how this existence could continue for much longer causing way more unbearable suffering as a result. I was never meant for any of this rather I was only meant to never exist again, I only hope and wish for the peace of death, existence is just far too cruel to me, there's so much cruelty in this painful, torturous existence where existing beings suffer so immensely all for the sake of it, all I hope for is a painless death to take away all my suffering, I've suffered for so long in this existence.

 

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Only wanting non-existence.
In my case I truly do just wish for non-existence, it's all I hope for and all I see as desirable, all I wish for is to be permanently unable to suffer, I personally see no value to suffering in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I simply don't wish for existence and I never would have chose it in the first place, as well as it being so burdensome to exist, I see it as a burden to be conscious experiencing anything at all when it isn't like I could suffer from not existing, I also see it as so painful to suffer in this existence and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, all the suffering being so unnecessary and futile just tormenting existing beings until they die anyway.

I just wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced into existence and what I find so cruel and terrible is how I cannot just painlessly die to finally escape from all the suffering, I just want peace from all the suffering and for me peace could only lie in never existing again, I just want non-existence to take away all my suffering. I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity where I cannot suffer in any way, for me existence was always so unnecessary, it feels like a mistake to suffer in this existence, I was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering, eternal sleep is always preferable to me than prolonging the suffering just to end up being tormented way more extremely, I always found existing to be so unnecessary as well, it's something I never would have chose.

 

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So horrific to me how trying to die can go wrong.
To me it truly is so horrific how trying to die can go wrong, leading to way worse suffering and agony as a result, I just see it as so cruel and terrible how I cannot just painlessly escape from this existence in peace, all I wish for is guaranteed, peaceful death to take away all the suffering.

All I wish for is to never wake again, I wish to sleep eternally but of course the suffering and torment just continues instead and I'm trapped in this existence I always saw as so undesirable, there truly is so much pain in how I cannot just painlessly die even know I never would have wished for or chosen existence. It's so agonising to me how I cannot have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep even know I see existence as just being pointless suffering with there being no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty of existing can get.

I'd never wish to exist but rather I just wish for nothingness instead, I'm always so tired of suffering here, I just want to sleep, I just wish to be permananently unaware of this painful, torturous existence where existing beings are tormented so unnecessarily all for no purpose. I'd never wish for existence, existence itself is what I see as the true problem, there truly is so much cruelty in existing and it always feels so cruel how I cannot just simply die in peace to escape from this existence that was imposed in the first place, under no circumstances would I wish for the torture of extreme old age, I just wish for the peace of dreamless eternal sleep instead.

 

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Only wanting peace.
In my case I truly have only ever wished for some peace, I just wish for the peace of an dreamless, eternal sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and all is gone, for me the only peace could ever lie in non-existence where all is forgotten about and I'm finally unaware of this cruel existence that just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway.

There truly is so much cruelty in existing and I was never meant for any of this which is why I just hope and wish for peace, I only wish for the peace of never suffering again where this existence is no longer my problem and I finally cannot be harmed or feel any pain. To me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy and I'm always so tired of it, I find it tiring to simply exist and just being conscious is enough to make me wish for non-existence, for me non-existence is always preferable, I only wish for the peace of eternal sleep, I'd always prefer to never exist again over all this terrible suffering and cruelty in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and pointless in the first place. I just want peace, in fact it's all I've ever wished for, I was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered at all, I find it painful to exist, I just wish death is as straightforward as choosing to never wake as I only wish for permanent peace, I only wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

 

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If it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence.
I truly would choose to erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me as all I want is peace from all the suffering and cruelty. I want all to be forgotten about for me, I find it so painful how I had to suffer in this existence, I wish I could just erase my existence and finally be free from all the pain. In my case I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always so tired of suffering here, in fact I've always felt so tired and it's tiredness that only death can take away for me.

Existence is just too cruel, too painful to me and I find it all futile anyway, I just want non-existence over all this meaningless, unnecessary suffering that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it, I was never meant to exist and never should have existed at all which is why I wish I could just erase my existence. I want to be free from all the suffering but really I wish I never suffered at all, I see existence as such a terrible tragedy that I only want peace from, I just don't wish to suffer at all but rather I just want nothingness and for me existence feels like nothing but suffering, I'm always wishing to erase my existence, I want permanent non-existence to take away my suffering, peace for me truly could only ever lie in never existing again.

 

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Fear of existence.
For me personally I wish to cease existing as it's the one escape from an existence so cruel and torturous where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence itself is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that causes existing beings to suffer. To me existence will always be a terrible, horrific tragedy and for me suffering in this existence is something to fear, it terrifies me how this existence can continue for so long just for one to decay and deteriorate tormented by old age.

I find it terrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist, the way I see it existence truly does just cause so much harm, in fact the harm this existence causes is endless and under no circumstances would I wish for existence rather I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what. I wish for non-existence as only then am I unable to suffer and be unable to be harmed in any way, I just wish to be safe from all suffering where all is finally forgotten about for me, I'll always find it so painful to exist no matter what and it's pain that only death can take away for me, all I feel is dread for what lies ahead. To me it's just so cruel how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it, I just wish I could fall asleep eternally to finally escape from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, as long as I exist I'll always and only wish for death.

 

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Existence is just too cruel to me.
It really is too cruel to me, I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty of suffering in this existence and what is so painful is how existing can very easily get more unbearable causing way more agony as a result, personally I'll always see it as so terrible and hopeless to exist, I only wish and hope for non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way and all is forgotten about for me.

I was never meant for something as cruel, torturous and painful as existence where existing beings suffer so unnecessarily just to be tormented by old age, simply being conscious is such a terrible burden to me, it's something I'd rather avoid no matter what.

I wish for death as only then is this existence no longer my problem with me finally unable to be harmed in any way and to me existence just causes endless amounts of harm, torturing and tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it, personally I just want peace instead of this cruelty. I was never meant for the terrible cruelty of existing where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it, rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious, I just want some peace from this existence I never would have chose and for me peace could ony ever lie in never suffering again. All I want is to never suffer, I've suffered so much for so long, personally I find it so agonising how I cannot just die painlessly even know existence is just so cruel, there's too much cruelty in existing, non-existence truly is all I hope for and see as desirable, I'm always so tired of existing here.

 

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Just hoping to fall asleep eternally.
All I hope and wish for is eternal sleep, I've suffered too much for far too long, in my case I've only ever hoped to sleep, I've only ever hoped to rest, I just wish for non-existence to finally take away all the suffering and cruelty and finally bring me peace. For me true peace could only ever exist in an dreamless, eternal sleep where all is forgotten about for me, in an existence so cruel and painful where there's all this endless suffering eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable, I just wish to never suffer again, I was never meant for existence and find it so painful to exist.

To me existence was always a terrible tragic mistake that just caused and brought pain, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's the kind of tired that only eternal sleep can take away for me. I'd always prefer to sleep eternally no matter what as only then am I unable to suffer but really more than anything I wish I never suffered at all and it causes me so much pain how I cannot just fall asleep permanently to escape from this existence I never would have chose. Eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me peace, all I wish for is to never suffer again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence so unnecessarily just waiting to die anyway rather I just want to fall asleep eternally and forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence can I find peace.
For me peace could truly only ever lie in non-existence, I just want to never suffer again, I just wish for non-existence to take away all the cruelty and suffering for me in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, personally I find it so painful but also so undesirable to exist, I'd never wish for the futile, torturous and cruel burden of existing as a human where there is all this endless suffering and torment all for the sake of it that just tortures existing beings until they die anyway. Personally I only hope and wish for non-existence as only then am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, I just wish to be permanently free from all pain and suffering, to me existence truly is the most horrific tragedy and it's something I've never wished for.

I've always and only just wished for some peace and for me peace could truly only ever lie in never existing again, for me there's no peace in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just to decay, be tormented by old age and die anyway in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Personally I'd prefer to avoid existence no matter what, to me existence is something so terrible and painful that I only wish for true permanent peace from and for me peace could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten about for me and I finally cannot suffer in any way, death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope and wish for non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping to never suffer again.
All I hope and wish for is to never suffer again, I've suffered so much for so long and all I hope is for death to finally take all the suffering away and bring me peace from this existence I never would have chosen. For me personally death would be a relief, in fact it'd be the only relief for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this painful, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty where existing beings are tormented so much. To me existence just feels like a mistake and it's terrifying to me how this existence can continue for so long with no limit as to how much one can suffer, in fact to me existence feels like nothing but suffering.

I suffer simply from existing which is why I wish and hope for eternal sleep to bring me peace, I only hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, for me non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable no matter what, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness that only death can bring me relief from. To never exist again truly is all that can bring me peace, I just hope to never suffer again which is why it's so painful how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally bring me relief, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer for decades longer just to be tortured and tormented by old age, I just want non-existence instead of all this cruelty, to me existence really is far too cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing no point and value to existence.
Personally I could never see any point and value to suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just to end up tormented by old age, rather such is something I'd never wish for and prefer to avoid no matter what, I just find existence to be such a horrific tragedy that to me serves no function and purpose but to torment existing beings until they die anyway. There truly is so much cruelty in existing and it's such that only non-existence can bring me relief from, the way I see it existence just causes harm, it causes existing beings to suffer so unnecessarily with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, to me it just feels like a mistake to exist, to simply be conscious at all is a burden for me and all I've ever hoped for is to never wake again.

I personally just don't see value to the terrible suffering and cruelty this existence causes rather I'd prefer to not suffer at all, non-existence is always preferable to me especially as there are no disadvantages to being permanently unaware yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get. I just find it so horrific how existence causes all this endless suffering, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, it's the ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I just want to be at peace for all eternity instead but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that was imposed, I'd never wish for the pain this existence brings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wishing to disappear.
All I've hoped and wished for is to disappear from this cruel, torturous existence that just brought me pain, I've always wished I could just erase my existence so it's like I've never suffered at all, I want no more pain, no more suffering. I just want some peace instead and for me peace could only ever never lie in existing, personally I find it a burden to have to exist at all, I find existence to be a terrible tragedy that was deeply unnecessary that I was never meant for, all I wish is for eternal nothingness to take away all my suffering, I just want to disappear, I've suffered so much for so long and really I never should have suffered at all.

I find it so painful to exist and I suffer so much from how I feel so trapped here and the suffering just continues, I wish this existence could just disappear into nothingness where finally I'm at peace and cannot suffer in any way. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel, rather I just wish for permanent eternal peace where all is forgotten about for me, nothing can matter to me and I'm finally free from all the pain. I only hope for eternal nothingness, I've only ever wished to disappear in my case, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me, under no circumstances would I ever wish for existence, I just want peace from all the suffering instead, I'll always find it deeply hopeless to suffer in this existence so cruel that just torments existing beings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of it all, and for me it's the kind of tiredness that only eternal sleep can take away, I find it tiring to simply exist, in fact I've always felt so tired, I've only ever wished to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again.

For me existing truly is so painful, I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty and torment of existence but in general I just find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes but rather I just wish for true, eternal peace instead where nothing can matter to me, I cannot suffer anymore and this existence is no longer my problem. Personally I only hope and wish to be permanently unconscious free from all suffering in this existence I never would have chose, just being awake is so tiring to me, all I hope is to never wake again.

I just wish for eternal sleep, I've always been so tired of it all as I'm just not meant for existence as well and never should have existed at all, I don't wish to be conscious, don't wish to experience anything at all but rather I just want nothingness. I want all to be forgotten about for me, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I've suffered so much for so long and it brings me so much pain how the suffering can continue for way longer, all I wish for is a death like never waking again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping for eternal non-existence.
Non-existence truly has been all I've ever hoped for as I'm just not meant for the terrible cruelty and suffering that existence causes, personally I find it so painful to exist and it's just horrific to me how there's no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get. All I personally wish and hope for is an eternal sleep to take away all the pain, I only see never suffering again as desirable, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence I always saw as so futile in the first place, non-existence truly is always preferable to me, I'd always prefer to not exist than to suffer for decades longer just to be tortured and tormented by old age.

In fact the thought of suffering for so long truly terrifies me, I'd never wish for that but rather I just want true permanent peace instead where I cannot suffer in any way and I'm permanently unaware of the terrible tragedy that is existence. I hope for non-existence but more than anything I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous existence at all, I wish I just stayed permanently unaware and eternally unable to suffer instead, to me existence just feels like a terrible, cruel mistake that just causes endless amounts of harm, tormenting existing beings. All I hope for is the permanent absence of existence, I only hope to never wake again, only in death will the suffering go away and finally I'll be at peace.