Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Just wish I had a painless way.
I truly do just wish I had a painless way, I wish I had a painless way to permanently escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose in the first place that just caused me to suffer so much. It just feels so cruel to me how I cannot just die in peace, in an existence so torturous and painful where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel death truly would be the only relief for me. I only hope and wish for non-existence where all is forgotten about for me and I finally cannot suffer anymore, I see nothing desirable about prolonging the suffering much as possible just to end up tortured and tormented by old age.

I'd never wish for such which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just die painlessly, I also find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse torment, such happening is exactly what I fear, in fact I fear ending up in a situation of way worse suffering in general. Personally I just want the true peace of non-existence over all this cruelty and torment which to me serves no purpose but to torture existing beings all for the sake of it, I just want to painlessly escape from suffering. To me personally human existence has always been something so undesirable, it just feels like a mistake to me that just brings so much pain, I truly was never meant for existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence, I just hope and wish to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is such a cruel imposition.
I'll personally always find existence to be such a cruel, painful imposition and I see it as a tragedy how I was forced into this existence in the first place where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and wishing to be gone, I just find existing to be so undesirable in general. It just creates pain and problems there was never a need for tormenting existing beings until they die anyway in existences so futile, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I find it so painful how I was forced into existence, to me existence truly is a burden that was imposed and it's one I never would have chosen or wished for.

I truly was never meant for the cruel, painful imposistion that is existence but rather I'm only meant for non-existence, in my case non-existence really is all I hope and wish for, I'd never wish for something as incredibly cruel as existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented all while they are destined for nothing but to decay from age and die anyway. I wish I never was forced into existence especially as there are no disadvantages to never suffering at all, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish this existence was never imposed as to me existence truly is the most horrific, terrible tragedy that just caused endless amounts of suffering, there really is too much cruelty in existing and it's such that only death can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always just hoping for permanent sleep.
No matter what permanent sleep truly is all I'll wish for, personally I've only ever found comfort in death as I believe it to simply be nothingness where all is finally forgotten about for me and I cannot suffer in any way, all I hope for is to never suffer again, I've suffered so much for so long and I'm always so tired of it.

I just wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to take all my suffering away and bring me peace from this existence I never would have chose, I find existing to be so cruel, painful and just undesirable in general. I've never wished for existence and I was never meant for it either, permanent eternal sleep just sounds so peaceful to me, I just hope to never wake again where all is gone for me and I'm at peace instead of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone.

I'll always find it a burden to be conscious in this existence and have to experience anything at all, personally all I've ever hoped for is non-existence, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity. I'd never wish for the cruelty and torment of suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid such no matter what, the only relief for me could lie in eternal sleep where I'm finally unable to suffer, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again, I only hope to never wake.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering just continues.
I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence no matter what and the suffering just continues tormenting and torturing existing beings as a result, I wish I could just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all. In an existence so cruel, painful and torturous non-existence truly would be the only relief for me, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, to me existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless suffering and harm and it's something I never would have chose.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering which is why it's so painful how it continues, for me it's just so painful how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally escape from all future suffering. I've suffered so much for so long and I'll always be so tired of it all no matter what, it's tiredness that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from, I just hope and wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where I finally cannot suffer anymore and all is forgotten about for me. In my case peace could only ever lie in non-existence and to never exist again is all I'll hope for as long as I suffer in this existence, simply just existing is so tiring to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence at all, I just wish for eternal nothingness, more than anything I wish I never suffered in the first place.

 

[unknown23]

The suffering just continues.
I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence no matter what and the suffering just continues tormenting and torturing existing beings as a result, I wish I could just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all. In an existence so cruel, painful and torturous non-existence truly would be the only relief for me, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and never should have suffered at all, to me existence just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake that just causes endless suffering and harm and it's something I never would have chose.

I'd never wish for any of this suffering which is why it's so painful how it continues, for me it's just so painful how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally escape from all future suffering. I've suffered so much for so long and I'll always be so tired of it all no matter what, it's tiredness that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from, I just hope and wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where I finally cannot suffer anymore and all is forgotten about for me. In my case peace could only ever lie in non-existence and to never exist again is all I'll hope for as long as I suffer in this existence, simply just existing is so tiring to me, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence at all, I just wish for eternal nothingness, more than anything I wish I never suffered in the first place.

I so relate, I can't say I fully understand as no one fully understands anyone and that would be a lie. Every night I stryto go to sleep till the early hours not because I can't sleep but because that act would be accepting the fact I'll have to do it all again. I hope I don't wake knowing I will the chances of me dying in my sleep are slim, but when I wake I just lie still not wanting to accept the reality I am still alive. If I had a guaranteed way to kill myself I would do it in an instant. But I don't want to create more pain or to injure myself or hurt others. Ideally I just want to have never existed in the first place, I just want to curl up into a tight ball and disappear, simultaneously combust. I know that won't happen but the comfort of death is so reassuring. The future the existence is so overwhelming and scary. But each day I find myself opening my eyes again. Sorry this is your rant thread.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is so cruel.
It really is so cruel which is why I just hope and wish to never suffer again, I only wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally forgotten about for me, I truly was never meant for any of this terrible cruelty rather I'm only meant for nothingness. I'm only meant to be permanently unaware, in an existence so cruel and painful where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel death truly is the only relief for me, I just want to never wake again and finally be free from all this cruelty, to me existence truly just is the most horrific, terrible tragedy and it's one that I only want peace from.

I only wish for death to take all the suffering and cruelty away, I only wish for non-existence and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, ceasing to exist is always preferable to me than suffering for decades just to be tortured and tormented by old age. I'd never wish for all the terrible cruelty of existence rather I only hope for true permanent peace where I cannot suffer, I cannot be harmed in any way and the terrible cruelty of existence is no longer my concern, it really just is all far too cruel to me and I'm always so tired of it all, I was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable to me.
No matter what I'll always see non-existence as preferable to suffering in this cruel, painful and torturous existence, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way and all is forgotten about for me yet there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I just saw as a mistake in the first place.

What I find so horrific is how this existence can continue for way longer causing way more suffering as a result, I find it horrifying how one can suffer for so long in this existence I always saw as so pointless and futile just to be tortured and tormented by old age. To me non-existence truly is always preferable to me than the cruelty and futility of existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see existence as such a harmful imposition that just causes so much pain and torments existing beings. In my case I truly do just hope for non-existence, I wish for a painless death so I can finally never suffer again, all I wish for is to be unable to suffer, I wish to never experience anything at all, to be conscious is always something so burdensome to me. I only hope for non-existence as it's the one peace for me from an existence so cruel that I never would have chose that just caused me to suffer, death truly would be the only relief for me, I'd rather prevent my suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for existence.
I truly was never meant for existence and all the suffering and cruelty it causes, personally I find it so undesirable to simply exist, for me I could never see any point and value to suffering in this existence that I always saw as so futile and pointless. To me existence truly does just feel like a terrible tragedy, it's something I'd never wish for and was never meant for, personally I suffer simply from existing and I've only ever found comfort in death as I believe it to be nothing more than an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is gone for me and I'm permanently incapable of suffering.

I just wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to take away all the pain, I truly was never meant for existence and as long as I exist I'll only and always just hope and wish to be gone, I'm always so tired of existing, I see suffering in this existence as being such a cruel, painful burden. I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness, never existing again truly has been all I've hoped for as I was never meant for any of this. Existence is just so cruel and burdensome to me, I see nothing desirable about existing at all rather to me existence just feels like a mistake that brings so much suffering, tormenting existing beings as a result until they die anyway, there really is so much pain in existing and I'm always so tired of it, I'll always find it so tiring suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
To me existing truly will be only suffering no matter what and it's just suffering all for the sake of it all of which I see as completely unnecessary serving no purpose but to torment and torture existing beings, in my case I'll suffer as long as I exist and I suffer simply from being awake. I find it a burden to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence where there is no limit as to how much pain one can feel and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, I wish to be permanently incapable of suffering, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence.

And what is so terrible to me is how I cannot just have the option to easily die in peace even know I never would have chose any of this suffering and existence just causes endless amounts of it, I'll always find existence as such a terrible tragedy that I only want permanent relief from. I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence, the way I see it existence truly does cause so much harm, it just creates pain and problems that were all futile, unnecessary and was never a need for, in fact to me existence itself will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering, as long as I exist I'll always and only hope to never exist again, I only wish for non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence has been all I've ever hoped for.
It truly has been, I've only ever wished for non-existence and it's all I've ever found comfort in as I believe death to simply be an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering. Personally I could never see anything desirable about prolonging the suffering just to end up in a situation of way more unbearable torment, rather I just hope to never exist again, eternal non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

Under no circumstances would I wish to suffer for decades longer just to end up tortured and tormented by old age rather I just wish for the absence of suffering, I wish for peace from all the suffering, as long as I'll exist I'll always and only hope for non-existence, in an existence so cruel and torturous where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer the only relief for me could lie in never existing again. Only eternal sleep can bring me peace from all the suffering and cruelty, I'd never wish for existence and I've already suffered so much for so long, I find it a burden to suffer in this existence. I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence, it feels like I've suffered for so long already and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for way longer, non-existence truly is all I will ever wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist for me would prevent all the suffering.
For me ceasing to exist truly would be suffering prevention, it'd prevent all my suffering in this existence I never would have chose that just brought me so much pain. To me existing truly is just waiting to die anyway with death being all that's inevitable so ceasing to exist would save me from potentially decades longer of pointless suffering where I suffer so unnecessarily just hoping to be gone with no limit as to how much agony I can feel destined for nothing but to decay and be tormented by old age and this is why I find it so painful how I cannot just painlessly die in peace as non-existence truly is all I hope for.

I'd always prefer to not exist over suffering in this existence, it terrifies me how a human can potentially exist for so long, personally I'd rather suffer for as little as possible, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'd never wish to prolong the suffering just to end up being tormented way more. Personally I just don't see existing as desirable in general rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, in my case I truly have just wished for non-existence, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer. For me the only peace really could lie in never existing again, having access to a painless method to die would bring me relief from this existence that only caused me to suffer, in fact it'd solve everything for me, in an existence so cruel, painful and torturous non-existence truly is all I hope for, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I was never forced into existence.
More than anything I wish I was never forced into existence, I wish I was never forced into this reality where there is all this suffering and cruelty. Existence truly is too cruel and there's so much pain in how I had to suffer in this futile, torturous existence at all where I'm always wishing and hoping to be gone, to be conscious in this reality is a curse to me. I'd never wish for the burden of existence and I'll always find it a burden to exist no matter what and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony I can feel, to me existence truly is just pain and torment all for the sake of it.

To me existence just feels like a mistake, It just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway and I'd always prefer non-existence over all this terrible cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence, I've suffered so much for so long which is why all I hope for now is peace from all the suffering. I just wish for death to bring me peace from this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chosen, to be forced into existence will always be something so terrible and dreadful to me that feels deeply hopeless. I'd never wish for such but rather more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I just stayed eternally unaware instead but now that I do exist all I can hope for is to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Still just hoping for eternal sleep.
Eternal sleep truly is all I hope and wish for but sadly the suffering just continues instead, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, the pain of existing truly is never something I'd wish for, but rather I just wish for dreamless, eternal sleep where I finally cannot suffer anymore and all is forgotten about for me. I was never meant to exist, I never should have existed, to me existence just feels like a painful, torturous mistake, I'd never wish for the cruelty and torment of suffering in this existence but rather I just hope to sleep eternally.

I wish for eternal sleep to take all my suffering away, I've suffered for so long and it brings me so much pain how the suffering can continue for so much longer, I just want to sleep, I just wish for nothingness, only eternal sleep can bring me peace from the cruelty of suffering in this existence where there is all this pain and torment. In fact the suffering this existence causes is endless and I just wish I could fall asleep to be free from it all, peace for me could only ever lie in never existing again, I only hope and wish for eternal nothingness, I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal sleep instead of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence that just brought me pain where I'm just hoping and wishing to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel and the cruelty of existence continues tormenting and torturing existing beings as a result, personally I'd never wish for such terrible cruelty rather I just wish for permanent nothingness instead. I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is gone for me and I finally cannot suffer in any way, I'd always prefer to not exist but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all.

I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this torturous, painful existence that just creates so much pain and problems all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, existence truly just is so harmful to me, the way I see it existence just causes endless amounts of harm, I see it as such a terrible tragedy suffering in this reality at all. Rather I just hope and wish to never exist again where I'm finally free from the cruel and futile burden of existing as a human where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay, be tormented by old age and die anyway. I'd never wish for any of this suffering, I was never meant for any of this cruelty but rather I just wish for non-existence, peace for me could only lie in never suffering again, I only hope for peace from the terrible cruelty of existence, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I just saw as a mistake and I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from all the suffering.
All I hope and wish for is peace from all the suffering, I just wish to be permanently free from all the suffering, personally I find it so terrible and hopeless to suffer in this existence at all, to me existence just feels like a cruel, horrific tragedy that only death can bring me peace from. Simply being conscious is such a painful burden to me that I never would have chosen and never wished for but rather I just wish for some peace instead, I wish for the peace of never existing again.

I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty and pain all for the sake of it, I suffer so much from existing and I always feel so tired of it all, it's the kind of tiredness that only death can take away for me, in my case peace could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is forgotten about, I'd always prefer ceasing to exist over all this cruelty and suffering. I truly was never meant to exist and never should have existed at all, there's so much pain in how I have to suffer in this existence and now that the suffering continues and will do until I cease existing, non-existence truly is all I wish and hope for, as long as I exist I'll only wish for death, I only wish for some peace from all the suffering, in an existence so cruel and torturous death truly would be the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for painless way.
All I've ever hoped and wished for is a painless way to be free from all the cruelty and suffering in this terrible, torturous existence, I've suffered so much for so long and only in death will I be at peace, in an existence so painful and cruel where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

To me it's just so painful how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as all I hope for is non-existence, I'd rather prevent my suffering no matter what than prolong it just to end up in way worse agony, I see nothing desirable about suffering so unnecessarily for decades longer just to decay and deteriorate further. In fact simply being conscious and aware is deeply undesirable to me in general, it just causes and brings so much unnecessary suffering, all I hope for is a painless death to take away all my pain, death is all that's inevitable and personally I'd prefer to die sooner to escape from suffering as all I hope and wish for is to be unable to suffer. More than anything I wish I never existed at all but now I do all I can hope for is peace from the burden of existing, all that can bring me peace is to never wake again, the thought of suffering until old age is horrific to me, I'd never wish for that.

 

[FuneralCry]

Terrifying to me how a human can exist for so long.
It truly is terrifying to me how a human can suffer in this existence for so long, personally I'd prefer to prevent my suffering rather than prolong it, I'd never wish for existence at all and see it as so incredibly undesirable to exist, instead of all this cruelty and torment I just hope and wish for non-existence. I wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is gone for me, I've already suffered for long enough already and I'm always so tired of it.

I see nothing appealing about reaching an much older age just to suffer way more tormented in this meaningless existence and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for way longer, personally I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what especially as there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel, torturous existence just to be tormented by old age, existing as a conscious being is a curse to me personally. I could never see any value to the suffering and torment of human existence, I'd always prefer to not exist but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I never became aware, it's just so painful how I cannot just painlessly die in peace to escape from all the cruelty and suffering, for me suicide would be suffering prevention in an existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, I just wish for death to finally bring me peace, I'm always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wished for existence.
In my case I truly did never wish to exist, existence was always something deeply undesirable to me I never would have chosen no matter what, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a burden in the first place. I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty and torment of suffering in this existence, I'd never wish to experience anything at all, to me just being conscious and aware is a tragedy that just brings so much suffering.

Personally I find it a mistake to exist, to me existence itself truly is the ultimate problem, the way I see it existence truly does serve no function, it just brings suffering, it just tortures and torment existing beings until they die anyway and I just don't wish to suffer in any way, I just wish for nothingness instead. I find it tiring to simply be awake in this existence I was never meant for, all I hope for is an eternal, dreamless sleep to bring me peace from all the pain and suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I find existence to be so unnecessary as well, it just causes suffering and brings pain all for the sake of it, personally I wish for permanent safety from suffering, I only want peace from the burden of existence, as long as I exist I'll always and only wish to be gone, non-existence is all I've ever hoped for, I find it painful to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish for all to be erased for me.
I'm always wishing I could just erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I wish for my existence to disappear into nothingness with me permanently unable to suffer, I'm only hoping for non-existence and being able to eternally erase my existence would solve everything for me. I'm always so tired of it all and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me and I wish for it as more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became aware of something as painful and torturous as existence that just torments existing beings.

I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to exist and I'd never wish for the cruelty and suffering this existence causes, rather I only wish for nothingness, I only hope and wish to never suffer again, I've suffered for so long in this existence I was never meant for and I wish to erase my existence so that there is no more pain, no more suffering rather I'll be at peace with all finally forgotten about for me. I don't wish to remember anything about this existence that just caused me pain, rather I just wish to forget, I wish to be permanently unable to suffer with this existence no longer being my problem but sadly the suffering continues instead and I'm still trapped in this existence I never would have chose just hoping and wishing to be gone.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just don't wish to experience anything at all.
In my case I truly just don't wish to experience anything rather I just hope and wish for non-existence, I wish to cease existing as I find existence to be deeply undesirable in every way, I see nothing desirable about being conscious and aware having to experience anything at all rather I just see such as a terrible, torturous burden that just leads to suffering and causes so much pain. For me something as cruel, futile and painful as existence could never be worth it, I personally see no point and value to suffering in this existence rather I'd prefer to avoid such no matter what.

To me existence itself really is the true problem and I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances, only non-existence where I cannot suffer in any way is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, I only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep, I never would have chosen or wished for existence in the first place rather I just wish to never exist again and as long as I exist I'll always just wish to be gone as I simply just don't wish to experience anything. I just want nothingness instead, I'll always find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden I found so unnecessary, personally it terrifies me how I could be trapped in this existence for potentially decades longer, I'd never wish for such but rather I just wish for some peace instead and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.
And this is why non-existence truly is all I hope and wish for as I just don't want to suffer in any way, instead I only wish for the absence of all suffering where all is finally forgotten about for me and I can be at peace.

Personally I'd always prefer the peace of never existing again over the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how unbearable existing can get, I just never want to think, feel or experience anything at all ever again, existence truly has brought me nothing but suffering and I'll suffer until I'm permanently unaware, non-existence truly is all I hope for and as long as I exist I'll always and only wish to be gone.

I only hope for eternal sleep to take away all my suffering, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that nothing can matter to me and this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem, I'm always so tired of it all, personally non-existence truly is all I'll ever hope for. I see it as a curse to be forced into this reality where there is all this endless suffering, to me existence truly is the most terrible tragedy, I'd never wish to be conscious and it's painful how I became conscious in the first place even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing just feels like nothing but suffering to me.
It truly does which is why I just wish and hope for death, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence where there is all this meaningless torment and senseless cruelty all for the sake of it that just tortures existing beings. I suffer simply from existing and find it a burden to exist, I'd always and only hope to never exist again but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became aware of this existence that just brought so much pain all for the sake of it.

Personally I just don't see any point and value in suffering in this existence and the suffering just continues with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, to me existence truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't wish to suffer rather I just wish for nothingness. I only hope to never exist again where this existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone for me, to me existence feels like nothing but suffering, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I was never meant for and all I hope and wish for is to be permanently unable to suffer. I wish for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace, I only hope for peace from the cruel and torturous burden that is existence, to me existence truly is the most horrific terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'd never wish to exist no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace.
In my case some peace truly has been all I've ever hoped and wished for, I've only ever wished for the peace of non-existence where I finally cannot suffer and all is gone for me, in an existence so cruel, painful and torturous death truly would be the only relief for me. I only wish for death to bring me peace from all the suffering, I truly was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence and to suffer in this existence is something I'd never wish for no matter what rather it's something I'd prefer to avoid.

I only wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where I cannot be harmed in any way, I only wish for death to bring me peace and for me peace could only ever lie in never existing again, as long as I exist I'll always and only just be wishing to be gone, existence is just too cruel and painful to me. There's just so much pain in existing, I'm always so tired of it all and I've always felt so tired, true eternal peace really has been all I've ever wished for, I'd never wish for the cruelty and torment of suffering in this existence. I'd never wish for any of the terrible pain and torment this existence causes but rather I just wish for peace, I only wish to be unable to suffer, no matter what only non existence could ever be desirable to me personally, I never should have suffered in this existence at all and there's so much pain in how I did.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is a terrible tragedy.
To me existence truly is a terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and so much cruelty, I'd never wish for the torment of existence and it's all so futile and meaningless to me anyway, I just find it terrible how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it that just tortures existing beings, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence rather I just wish and hope to never suffer again.

I wish I was never forced into this existence more than anything, I see existence as the most harmful, cruel and painful imposition, it's so tragic to me how existence brings all this cruelty and pain, I was never meant for something as cruel as existence but rather all I'm meant for is to be permanently free from all suffering. I'm only meant to be permanently free from this terrible tragedy, to me existence feels like a mistake, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem that only non-existence can take away and solve for me, I'll always suffer as long as I exist. In fact the way I see it existing means suffering so unnecessarily all while risking experiencing way worse suffering at any moment and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I just want some peace instead, all I wish and hope for is peace from all the suffering and cruelty, existence itself will always be the true problem to me as it's the source of all suffering, I'd never wish for existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffered for so long already.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long already in this cruel, torturous existence and I'm always so tired of it as of course the suffering continues and can do for such an incredibly long time, personally I just don't see any value to suffering at all rather I just wish for the absence of suffering, I wish to be unable to suffer.

To me existence truly is such a pointless, unnecessary burden that I always found as deeply hopeless, I'll always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence which is why I only hope to never exist again, I've suffered so much for so long but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. I wish I never became aware, to be conscious in this existence is a curse to me that just leads to so much suffering, personally I find it painful and tragic how I had to suffer in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for. The way I see it existence truly does just cause so much suffering for the sake of it which I find to be so terrible, I'd never wish for existence rather I just wish for peace from all the suffering instead, I really have suffered for so long and now all I can hope for now is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, to never wake again really has been all I've ever wished for, I'm always so tired of suffering here and it's tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes endless amounts of harm
It truly does and that's why I'd prefer to not exist no matter what, I only wish to be permanently free from this painful, cruel and harmful existence where there is all this suffering. Non-existence is always preferable to me as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer, cannot be harmed in any way and all is forgotten about for me yet there is no limit as to how unbearable the torment of existence can get which is just horrific to me. Personally all I hope for is to be permanently safe from all harm and suffering, all that's desirable to me is never existing again and I find it terrifying how one can exist for so long just to be tortured and tormented by old age, the pain of existing is very real and I'd never wish for it no matter what.

I'd never wish for the pain of suffering in this reality where there is all this cruelty destined to decay and die anyway, existence truly does cause endless amounts of harm and I see it as all so futile and pointless, it's just agony all for the sake of it, torturing existing beings, personally I find it horrific how existence causes such immense suffering, to me existence itself really is the most terrible tragedy. I find it so tragic how there is all this pain and suffering, to me existence truly does serve no function but to bring suffering and cause so much harm, it's so painful how I was forced here even know it isn't like I could suffer from never existing at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence.

 

[Ferret77]

Just ignore this, this is just a thread to write down how I feel, I don't want to upset anyone, I'm just suffering
1) I'm not meant for existing
This is the way I've always felt, I'm not meant for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist, human existence has always been such a burden to me, it's a terrible and harmful burden that causes nothing but me pain. It's always been a struggle existing as a conscious being destined to suffer endlessly with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, it's just not for me, I never should have existed at all and more than anything I wish I never did.

Only the peace that non-existence can bring appeals to me, I wish to die but only never existing is true perfection, it'd be such a relief for me to die as this existence I was never meant for just torments me and I find it so hellish how painless suicide methods aren't accessible for me. if I could die painlessly I'd be long gone from this existence I was never meant for, only death can bring me peace. In my case I wouldn't want to exist under any circumstance as what I have a problem with is existence itself, I'm just not meant for it and I find it tragic how I have to exist when instead I could be at peace for all eternity, my existence is just meaningless suffering all for no reason and no purpose, I'm not meant to suffer, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness.

I feel the same way. Life just feels like constant suffering, and all I've ever wanted, was to escape from it. It's not even "wanting to die" I just want to get some long lasting relief. There's no point in living, we're all just gonna die anyway one way or another, so why does it matter so much. The only thing keeping me here is my loved ones but still. Every day is the same. I'm exhausted, lonely, depressed. Is this really all there is?

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always feel so hopeless.
No matter what to me existing will always feel so hopeless and I'd never wish for it, I find it hopeless to exist in this reality where there is all this cruelty and suffering and I just don't find it desirable to exist in general. I find it an unnecessary burden to have to think, feel and experience anything at all and it's a burden that just causes me to suffer, I'll always find it dreadful to exist especially as there is no limit as to how much agony I can feel as long as I suffer in this cruel, torturous existence that can continue for so long.

To me personally existence itself will always be the ultimate problem no matter what and I find it so hopeless how there's all this suffering yet I cannot just painlessly die in peace even know it isn't like I could suffer from not existing at all, personally I only wish to never suffer again and I'll suffer as long as I exist. In an existence that is so cruel and painful to me death truly would be the only peace, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I truly was never meant for the futile and torturous burden of human existence which just brings and causes so much suffering, non-existence truly is all I hope for. I've only wished for death and always will do as long as I suffer in this existence, I'll always find existing to be deeply hopeless, to me existing truly does feel like only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wish to painlessly cease existing.
All I hope for is a painless way to be free from all the cruelty and suffering in this painful and torturous existence, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so I can finally be at peace and prevent all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose. To me it just feels so cruel how I cannot just fall into a eternal, dreamless sleep even know was never meant for this existence that just brings so much suffering all for the sake of it leading to decay and death anyway and I always saw as completely futile. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, I only hope for non-existence so I finally cannot suffer anymore.

To never suffer again is all I hope for and I find it so horrific how trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering as a result, such happening truly is exactly what I fear, it's just so terrible and cruel to me how I cannot just painlessly escape from all the suffering, it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long, I've already suffered for long enough already, personally I'd always prefer non-existence over all this suffering. I never wished for existence and I suffer simply from existing, in an existence so cruel and painful where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer death truly would be the only relief for me, I only hope and wish for a painless death to take away all my suffering in this existence I never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping to never wake again.
I'm always just hoping to never wake again, to never wake truly is all I've ever wished for, I'd never wish for all the terrible cruelty and suffering this existence causes rather I just wish to be unaware. I wish to be at peace, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, to me existence truly is just a terrible tragedy and it's one that just caused me to suffer, I'll always find it painful to exist and it's pain that only death can take away for me.

As long as I suffer in this existence eternal sleep truly is all I'll wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer again, all that feels desirable to me is to fall into an eternal sleep and finally be free from the cruel and futile burden of existence which just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it but more than anything I wish I never suffered in the first place. I've suffered too much for too long, all I hope for is nothingness, to be conscious is a curse to me, it's something I'd never wish for, instead all I hope for is eternal sleep, I'd always prefer peace over all this suffering, I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and existence truly has brought me nothing but pain.