Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
The fact that existence is this way is certainly a reason as to why I only hope and wish for death, I just wish to cease existing as only then am I unable to suffer, I truly was never meant for the terrible cruelty of existing where there is all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it that just torments existing beings. It's just so cruel to me how existence brings all this suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tormented, to me existence itself truly is such a horrific tragedy that causes endless amounts of harm, I'd never wish for existence but rather I just wish to never suffer again.

I wish to be permanently safe from all cruelty and harm in this existence I saw as a mistake in the first place, existence is just too cruel, too painful and too torturous and I find it so tragic how I had to suffer at all, it's a tragedy how I was forced into this reality where there is all this suffering that is all completely unnecessary, I'm always wishing to erase my existence like I never suffered at all. I just wish for death to bring me peace from all this cruelty and suffering and it just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just painlessly die in peace to escape from this existence I never would have chose that only ever caused me to suffer, there's just so much cruelty in existing it's so horrifying and the agony of existence truly is endless, I wish to just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all but really I wish I never existed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for the absence of all suffering.
All I personally hope for is the absence of all suffering, I wish to just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, I have no interest in suffering in this cruel, torturous existence and see nothing desirable about prolonging the suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented, rather I just wish to never suffer again. I wish for eternal nothingness where there is no more pain, no more suffering and I cannot be harmed in any way, ceasing to exist truly would solve everything for me as it would take away what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself.

I'd never wish for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence rather all I hope for is some peace and for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering again, I'm always so tired of existing and I find it so painful how I cannot just peacefully die to escape from all the suffering in this existence I was never meant for that only just caused me pain. It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for the absence of suffering, to me existence will always be the most terrible tragedy, existence truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me, in an existence so cruel and painful the only relief for me really could only ever lie in non-existence, I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again but of course I never should have suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from the burden of existence.
All I wish and hope for is peace from the burden of existence, it feels like I've suffered for so long and I'm always so tired of it, non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable to me, I find it painful to simply be conscious and aware in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering. I really was never meant to exist but rather I'm only meant for nothingness, all I hope is for death to bring me peace, I only wish to never suffer ever again.

No matter what I'll always find it so burdensome to suffer in this existence, to me it's such a dreadful, torturous burden to have to wake again in this existence that I saw as completely unnecessary and have to suffer so much as a result and what really terrifies me is how the suffering in this existence can continue for way longer just causing way worse torture and agony as a result, I just wish to painlessly die so I can finally find peace from this burden, no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist.

I just want to be permanently unable to suffer, for me experiencing existence is just something that brings me pain and I find it to be deeply undesirable. It's just so cruel to me how there's all this suffering for the sake of it yet I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know I never would wish to be burdened with this existence, all I hope for is nothingness where all is gone and forgotten about for me, peace for me could only lie in never suffering again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that sounds ideal to me.
It truly is all that does sound ideal to me as all I hope and wish for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, I just wish to cease existing permanently and finally be at peace from this cruel, futile existence that just caused me to suffer and I always saw as such a terrible tragedy. In this existence so torturous and pointless where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it death truly is the only relief for me, peace for me could only lie in never existing again.

I'd always prefer to die as only then am I at peace from the terrible cruelty and torment of existence but of course I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I never became conscious in the first place and I just find it so painful and horrible how even know I was forced into this existence that just caused me to suffer I cannot simply just have a death like never waking again as all I see as desirable is ceasing to exist.

I just wish for peace from this existence that brought me pain and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist, as long as I'm burdened with this existence I'll always and only be hoping and wishing to be gone. I'll always wish for non-existence no matter what, I was never meant to suffer in this existence and suffering in this existence will always be something deeply undesirable to me. Personally I just wish for non-existence, it's all I see as ideal, I'd rather escape from suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me.
It truly would and that's why I only hope and wish to die, if I no longer exist then I cannot suffer anymore and to never suffer again is all I see as desirable, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me. Ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as it takes away what I ultimately see as the true problem which is existence itself and to me existence truly is the most horrific, terrible tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering and torment. No matter what I'd never wish for the burden of being conscious in this existence, I'd never wish to be burdened with this existence where I'm capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined to suffer way more unbearably just to decay and die anyway.

I only want non-existence in my case, I only hope to never exist again where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence that just brought pain and caused so much harm, torturing and tormenting existing beings as a result. Personally I just hope for the absence of all pain and suffering, I just want death to take away all my suffering, for me ceasing to exist really would solve everything, it'd be a permanent solution to bring me peace from all the cruelty and torment in this existence I always saw as so pointless and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just die peacefully to prevent all my suffering, being able to just die would be suffering prevention for me and all I hope is to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering.
There really is so much suffering in existing and that is why I only wish for death, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me, personally I see no point and value to suffering in this existence. And what is so horrific to me is how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, to be conscious in this existence really is a terrible, torturous curse to me, it's something I'd never wish for, I just find it so tragic how existence creates all this pain, suffering and problems there was never a need for tormenting existing beings so immensely as a result. I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as it's the source of all suffering, it's something I'd rather avoid no matter what as if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can matter to me and I cannot be harmed in any way, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering.

In an existence so cruel where there is all this endless suffering death truly would be the only relief for me, I personally just want peace from all the pain, I'd never wish for the terrible cruelty of suffering in this existence, I'll always find it dreadful to exist no matter what. I'll always and only wish for non-existence where I'm finally free from all suffering, to me existing will always feel like nothing but suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, meaningless existence that just causes so much harm, I'm not meant for existence, I'm not meant to suffer at all rather I'm only meant to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing for a painless way.
I'm always wishing for a painless way to just die in peace as I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence that just brought me so much suffering, in fact death truly has been all I've ever wished for. I'm not meant for the futile burden of existing as a human and it's something deeply undesirable to me as well, all I wish for is to be permanently unconscious unable to suffer in any way, all that could bring me any peace is to never suffer ever again.

It just feels so horrible to me how painless death is inaccessible for me as non-existence is all I've ever wished for, I just don't have any interest in suffering in this existence rather such is something that feels so hopeless to me, I'll always see existence as a mistake and it terrifies me how the suffering this existence causes can continue for so long. I just want peace from all the pain this existence brings, it's something so torturous to be trapped in this existence and as long as I exist here I truly will only ever hope to be gone, the only relief for me could lie in death taking away all of my suffering. All I ever hope for is an dreamless eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering and the fact that even trying to die can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering truly is so horrific to me, personally I'd never wish for this existence, I'd rather not suffer at all than prolong all this pointless, unnecessary suffering just to end up tortured way more and die anyway, to me existing really just is pain and suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death will always be all I wish for no matter what.
I'll always and only wish for death no matter what, it's all I'll ever hope for, I only wish to be at peace from this terrible, torturous existence that is so incredibly cruel. To me existence itself will always be the most horrific tragedy, it's just so tragic to me how there's all this cruelty and torment all for the sake of it which is why I only hope for death but of course more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence I wish I never became conscious and aware. To be conscious is something so painful to me, it's a burden to be forced into this existence and have to experience anything at all and yet even know existence is this way and it's something deeply undesirable to me I cannot just painlessly cease existing which is so horrible, it just feels so cruel to me how I was forced to suffer yet cannot just choose to free myself from such suffering even know existing just leads to more suffering all for the sake of it the longer I stay here.

Death truly is all I hope and wish for, I wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering, to me existence means suffering and I only wish to never suffer again, I'd always prefer to die than to be tortured and tormented in this existence and what is so terrible is how there is no limit as to how unbearable this can all get. Death truly would be the only relief for me in an existence so painful and so cruel that just causes all this suffering, the pain of existing is very real and it's something I'd never wish for no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to get old.
No matter what I'd never wish to get old and the thought of being trapped in this existence suffering until old age is so terrifying to me personally, it's so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face such extreme agony and torture, personally I just wish for non-existence. I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, to me human existence is a terrible, torturous mistake I see it as a tragedy to be forced into this existence in the first place and have to suffer so much as a result even know to me it's all so futile and unnecessary anyway.

Personally I just wish to never suffer again, I see existence as something so cruel and painful, it just feels so horrible how I cannot just die painlessly even know I'd never wish to prolong this suffering for decades longer just to be tormented way more decaying and deteriorating. I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence, to exist as a human burdened with this meaningless existence destined to decay and be tortured by old age capable of suffering to unlimited amounts is something I'd never wish for under any circumstance. All I wish and hope for is to not exist, I just feel so much dread for what lies ahead, existence itself really is the true problem to me, I see existence itself as such a horrific tragedy that just causes endless amounts of suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it, I just want the peace of never existing again, no matter what existing to me will always feel like nothing but suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten about for me.
All I wish is for all to be forgotten about for me, all I wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where this existence is all gone and finally I can find some peace instead. For me peace truly could only ever lie in non-existence where I cannot suffer anymore and I cannot be harmed in any way, all I see is desirable is never suffering again, I've suffered so much for so long and the fact that I continue to suffer in this existence brings me so much pain.

In fact to me existing truly is nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it all, I just wish I could never wake again, I'm always and only hoping for death to take away all my suffering, to me existence truly is the most cruel, horrific tragedy that just torments and tortures existing beings and that's certainly why I just wish for non-existence. I only hope to be permanently unconscious where the cruelty and futility of existence is no longer my problem and instead I'm at peace, I'd never wish for the torturous and pointless burden of existing as a human rather I'd prefer to die and forget about such no matter what. All I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I wish for my existence to be erased, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence like I never suffered at all as I'm always so tired of suffering, I never wished to suffer in this existence and I never should have existed at all, the fact that I exist and have to suffer so much as a result truly is such a terrible tragedy.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've only ever wished for death.
I personally truly only have ever wished for death, all I hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, there really is so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can take away for me. I really would always prefer to die no matter what as after all only in death am I unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in any way, I have no interest in something as cruel and futile as existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering. I just wish for death to bring me peace, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'll suffer until I die, I've only ever hoped for death as I'm just not meant to suffer in this existence, I'm not meant for all the cruelty and torment this existence causes but rather I'm just meant to never exist again.

I'd always prefer to die but of course I never should have existed at all, I wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence in the first place, I'm always hoping and wishing to be gone, only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me. In an existence so cruel, painful and torturous that just causes so much suffering death truly would be the only relief for me,I only hope to sleep, I only hope to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me peace from all pointless suffering in this existence I never would have chose.

 

[Flippintogo]

Empty and hopeless. Fearful. Alone. That's how I feel

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer death.
No matter what I truly always would prefer death, I'd prefer to die over all this pointless, meaningless suffering in this existence I just saw as a terrible tragic mistake in the first place. I'd prefer to die as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer in any way and all will finally be gone for me, personally I'll always find it so dreadful and painful to exist, I see it as a burden to be forced into existence at all and have to suffer so much as a result of it.

Personally I just don't have any interest in the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human where there is all this cruelty all for the sake of it and I just don't see anything desirable about prolonging suffering either rather I'd just prefer to not exist, I'd always prefer peace over all this pain and suffering. It terrifies me how one can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, to me existence truly is the most terrible, horrific tragedy, existence is something I'd never wish for and as long as I exist I truly will only ever hope and wish for death. Wanting to not exist is really all I know, in an existence so painful and cruel death truly would be the only relief for me, all I hope for is to finally fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm free from all suffering and harm in an existence that just caused so much pain, in my case I simply don't wish to experience anything at all, I don't see any point and value to suffering in this existence rather I only hope to never suffer ever again, existence truly has only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to exist.
No matter what I'd never wish to exist and I'll only wish for death no matter what, I just personally don't see any value to being conscious and aware suffering in this meaningless, torturous existence just waiting to die anyway rather I just wish to not exist I only hope for the absence of all suffering and harm where all is finally forgotten about and there is peace from the pain and torment of existence. I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence at all, the amount of suffering this existence causes truly is endless and beyond comprehension, it's certainly a reason as to why I'd never wish to exist as I just don't wish to suffer in any way but rather I just want some peace instead.

To me existence itself really is such a terrible tragedy, I see it as the true problem and source of all suffering, I'd never wish for any of this and I find existence to be deeply undesirable in general, personally I could never see value in suffering in this cruel existence rather the cruelty and futility of existnce is something I'd prefer to avoid. I find it painful to simply exist and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, non-existence truly is all I wish for, I just wish for peace from all the suffering, in my case wanting death really is all I know, in an existence so cruel and pointless where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it death truly would be the only relief for me, I just hope and wish to never wake again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for existence.
I truly was never meant to exist and I really never should have suffered in this existence at all it's always been so painful and torturous having to wake again and suffer so much as a result, I truly was never meant for any of this suffering and cruelty. I just find it tragic how I had to exist at all, existing in the first place will always feel so dreadful and terrible to me no matter what, I just find it a tragedy how even know I couldn't suffer from never existing at all I was forced into this reality where there all this suffering all for the sake of it. I wish I never existed more than anything and there's just so much pain in how I did, death really is all that can bring me any peace and relief from this existence I was never meant for, existence is just too cruel and just the cruelty of existing is enough to make me wish for death.

I truly was never meant for any of this terrible suffering which is why I only hope and wish for death, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to take away all the pain, existing truly has always felt like a burden to me and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I find it tiring to simply exist. The fact that I cannot just painlessly die to escape from all this suffering always feels so horrible to me, I just wish for a death like never waking again so I can finally find peace from this existence I was never meant for.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll suffer as long as I exist.
I personally really will always suffer as long as I exist in fact to me existing really does feel like nothing but suffering and I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel, painful existence. To be conscious and aware is something so torturous and futile to me that only ever causes me to suffer, I'll never wish for the burden of human existence no matter what but rather I only wish to never exist again, I wish to be permanently unconscious incapable of suffering, to me existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragedy, in fact existing feels like nothing but suffering to me and I'll suffer as long as I exist.

I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist, it's so dreadful to me how existence just causes all this suffering all for the sake of it just torturing and tormenting existing beings as a result, I'd always prefer to die and I only wish to never exist again, existence really is too cruel and all I hope for is peace from all the cruelty and suffering. Death truly is all I wish for, I've only ever hoped to never suffer again, I've always found existing to be deeply undesirable in evey way and I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this existence rather I just wish to never suffer. I wish for permanent non-existence where this cruel, torturous existence is finally no longer my concern and nothing can matter to me anymore, I was never meant for any of this suffering and I never should have suffered at all, I'll always suffer as long as I exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I see no value in prolonging the suffering.
I truly do see no value in it and instead I see all suffering as meaningless, unnecessary and best avoided, it just feels so cruel to me how even know death is all that's inevitable anyway with me just waiting and wishing for death I cannot just have the option to die painlessly, all I hope for is a painless death to bring me peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing.
I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, only never suffering is ideal to me, the way I see it existence truly does feel like a mistake that brings so much suffering, torment and pain all for the sake of it, there are no disadvantages to never existing at all yet there is unlimited potential to suffer in this existence that served no function but to torment existing beings in existences so futile until they cease existing anyway.

I just don't see any point and value to this and I just don't believe existence to be desirable at all, death truly is all I hope for as I believe it to simply be non-existence where I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way. I never would have wished for existence, I was never meant for it and only hope to never suffer again, I only wish for the absence of all pain and suffering, simply just existing is a burden for me and in my case the only relief could lie in being permanently unconscious, I only hope to be non-existent but of course the suffering just continues instead which just brings me so much pain, I'll always find it so painful to exist no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is a tragedy.
I'll personally always see existence itself as the most terrible, horrific tragedy no matter what that just causes endless amounts of suffering, it's just so cruel to me how existence has brought all this pain all for the sake of it that has just tormented existing beings all throughout history. All I wish and hope for is peace from all the cruelty and suffering, I was never meant for any of this and I just don't find it desirable to exist in general, to me existence truly was just a burden that was so tragically forced and only ever caused me to suffer and it's a burden that only death can bring me peace from, I'd never wish for this existence no matter what, in fact to me existence itself is the true problem as it's the ultimate source of all suffering.

I see it as so burdensome to be conscious and aware tormented and tortured in this meaningless existence that to me always felt like a tragic mistake, non-existence truly is always preferable to me than all this suffering. To never suffer again really is all I hope and wish for, in an existence so futile and torturous death truly would be the only relief for me, I only wish for permanent relief from all this terrible pain and cruelty in this existence I never would have wished for at all which to me just caused so much harm in the first place. The way I see it existence truly does serve no function but to torment existing beings and cause them to suffer so extremely until death takes away all for them anyway, I'll always see existence as a tragedy, to me it's so tragic to be forced into this existence and have to suffer so extremely as a result.

 

[FuneralCry]

So terrible and painful to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it so terrible and painful to suffer in this existence, it's why I only wish for death as only then will I be unable to suffer in any way and to never suffer again is all I hope for, it's all I see as ideal, in an existence so cruel and torturous where there is all this pain all for the sake of it death truly would be the only relief for me, I only wish to never suffer again. Personally I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious and now that I do exist all I hope for is some peace, I've only ever wished for peace from the terrible pain of existing and peace for me truly could only ever lie in never existing again.

I'll always see existence as something terrible as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, personally I find existing so undesirable and I find it so terrible how I had to suffer in the first place when it isn't like I could be harmed by never existing at all. I truly was never meant for this cruel, painful existence that just torments existing beings, all I wish for is some peace, I only wish for the absence of all harm and suffering where all is finally gone for me, I'm always so tired of suffering and to me existence will always feel like nothing but suffering, I've only ever hoped for peace from the pain of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping for peace from all the pain and suffering.
All I hope for is peace from all the suffering, I truly was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence and it causes me so much pain how I suffer in this existence, I'll always see existence as such a terrible tragedy. I'd never wish for the burden of being conscious and aware suffering in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable and I'll always find it so burdensome to suffer in this existence, to me existing really is too painful and it's pain that only death can take away for me.

In my case I truly have only ever wished for peace and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish to never suffer again, to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where I'm finally unconscious for all eternity is all that could ever bring me peace, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I suffer simply from existing, to me existing will always feel like nothing but suffering and it's suffering I'd never wish for.

I see all suffering as deeply undesirable, meaningless and unnecessary serving no function but to torment existing beings, I'd never wish for existence rather it's something I only wish for eternal peace from. I'd always prefer to die as only then am I unable to be harmed and unable to suffer in any way all I hope for is safety from all suffering and cruelty but really I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, I wish I could erase my existence, I wish for all my suffering to disappear, all I wish for is peace from all the suffering in an existence I never would have chose.

 

[FuneralCry]

Feels so horrible and cruel how I cannot just die painlessly.
It always feels so horrible and cruel how I cannot just die painlessly to free myself from all the suffering this existence causes, I'm always so tired of suffering here and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never existed. I wish I was never forced into this cruel, torturous existence but now that I do exist and have done for so long all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again, I wish for peace from all the harm and suffering in this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for, personally I'd always prefer to not exist than to prolong the suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented.

Personally I only hope to never suffer again, the thought of being trapped in this existence for way longer just to face the agony of extreme old age is so horrific to me. I'd never wish for such rather I only hope and wish for death, there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just die painlessly like falling into an dreamless, eternal sleep as non-existence is all I hope for, I only wish for death to take away all my suffering, personally I truly have only ever wished for painless death. To me existence is the most torturous, painful burden that was always so pointless and unnecessary to me that I'd never wish for, I just wish to be at peace from it and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence, as long as I exist I'll always and only hope for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've suffered for so long in this existence.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long and I'm so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for, to me it'll always feel so painful and dreadful to exist no matter what, I suffer simply from existing and I find it deeply undesirable to exist at all. Existence truly was always a burden to me I never would have wished for, it's a burden so cruel and torturous that has brought me nothing but pain, I truly have suffered for far too long, I should have ceased existing a while ago but really I never should have suffered at all, I personally see it as something so terrible to suffer in the first place especially as it isn't like I could be harmed by never existing at all.

I really have only ever hoped and wished for death and I always will do as long as I suffer here, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and cruelty, and peace for me could only ever lie in never existing again. I'll personally never see any value in prolonging this suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented all for the sake of it rather I just wish to be unable to suffer at all, I wish for the absence of all harm and suffering. It brings me so much pain and feels so horrible how I cannot just have the option to painlessly die to finally escape from an existence I've suffered for way too long in, I never should have existed at all and it really terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so much longer, in an existence so cruel and painful where there is all this unnecessary suffering that just torments existing beings death truly would be the only relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just want peace from all the suffering.
All I wish and hope for is peace from all the suffering in this cruel, torturous existence, more than anything I wish I never existed at all, no matter what existing will always feel so hopeless and undesirable to me, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain that only death can bring me relief from. I just hope to never suffer ever again, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence rather I just hope and wish for some peace, I just want to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and finally be at peace.

I truly was never meant to exist and I never should have suffered in this existence and now that the suffering continues all I wish for is to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, I've suffered so much for too long and it just feels so horrible to me how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal sleep. I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence at all. I never should have existed and the thought of suffering here until old age is absolutely terrifying to me, I just find existing to be deeply undesirable in general, I have no interest in suffering in this existence that I was never meant for in the first place but rather I just want peace from the suffering, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem, I see no value in being conscious and aware suffering in this torturous and meaningless existence just hoping and wishing to be gone rather I just want some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding existing to be undesirable in general.
In my case I find existing to be so deeply undesirable in general, I'd never wish to exist but rather I only hope and wish for death, I just don't see value in being conscious and aware at all rather such is just a terrible, torturous burden to me that just causes so much suffering, personally I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way. There are no disadvantages to not existing yet no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence I always saw as so futile and meaningless in the first place, personally I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just wish for nothingness.

I truly was never meant for any of this and I find it tiring to simply exist, to me existence really does just cause so harm, I see existence as such a terrible, tragic mistake, I just don't see anything appealing about prolonging this existence just to end up suffering way more in situations of way worse torture, to me existence is just so cruel, it just creates pain and problems there was never a need for and I'd never wish for this under any circumstances.

Rather I just wish for permanent eternal nothingness where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me, I only wish to be unconscious where I'm finally safe from all suffering and cruelty. I just find it dreadful to exist in general, being conscious in this existence truly has never been something appealing to me but rather I just wish to rest, I just want peace from all the suffering, the thought of suffering for way longer in this existence I never would have chose is so terrifying to me, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me no matter what, it's all I've hoped for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never belonged in this existence.
I truly did never belong in this existence, I was never meant for something as cruel and torturous as existence and I find it painful to simply exist, personally I find existence to be completely hopeless, existence itself is the true problem for me, it's something that just causes so much pain and torment all for the sake of it. I'd never wish for the burden of existing as a conscious being trapped in this existence just hoping and waiting to die anyway. I really did never belong in this reality where there is all this cruelty and suffering, human existence just feels like a mistake to me, it's something deeply undesirable that I'd never wish for, rather I just hope for the absence of existence, I wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering.

I was never meant for any of this, I was never meant to be burdened with this existence and I never should have suffered at all, only death can bring me relief from the burden of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never suffer again. I'm always so tired of suffering in this meaningless torturous existence, I just wish for all the suffering to be gone for me, in an existence so cruel and burdensome where I'm trapped with my thoughts forced to be conscious death truly would be the only relief for me, as long as I exist I'll always and only hope and wish for death. I wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again where I'm permanently free from this existence I never belonged in, I just wish to be unconscious incapable of suffering in this existence I was never meant for.

 

[Leiot]

Venting is good. It gets stuff out where you can deal with it.

Personally, IMHO, you don't feel at peace when you're dead. You don't feel anything. I felt at peace after I took all that oxy and was waiting. It was the best feeling I've ever had but it was temporary.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
No matter what I'll always be so tired of suffering and it's the kind of tiredness that only death can take away for me, I truly was never meant to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence but now that I do all I can hope for is to never exist again, non-existence truly is all that's ideal and desirable to me personally, I only wish to never suffer again, I find it so painful to be conscious, I see it as such a terrible tragedy to exist and be capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts as a result.

For me existence could never be worth it, I see no value in all this cruelty, torment and suffering rather I just wish to die and forget about it all, non-existence solves everything for me as after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way and to be eternally unable to suffer is all I hope for. There are no disadvantages to being unable to think or feel yet no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence that I always saw as so futile in the first place, I'd never wish for existence but rather I just wish for the absence of it.

I find it tiring to simply exist and I've always felt so tired, human existence is such a cruel, torturous burden to me, one that just causes so much harm and torment, torturing existing beings until they can no longer experience anything at all. Death is the only relief for me in an existence I've always felt so tired of, to me existence means suffering and to die means to never suffer again, I'll always be so tired of suffering in this reality, I'll be tired and hoping and wishing to die until all is gone for me anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to peacefully cease existing.
To cease existing in peace truly is all I ever hope and wish for, I'll always see it as so undesirable to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal, dreamless sleep so I can finally escape from all the cruelty and torment in this existence I never would have wished for. No matter what I'd only wish for non-existence, I'd always prefer to die as after all only in death am I unable to suffer and to never suffer again is all I hope for but of course the suffering continues.

It's just so cruel and horrible to me how I cannot just painlessly die even know there are no disadvantages to never existing again yet no limit as to how unbearable the torture and agony of existing can get, death is always preferable for me but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I wish I never became aware of the terrible tragedy of existence that just torments existing beings. Personally I could never see existence as desirable but rather to me it's an futile, unnecessary burden that just causes so much harm all for the sake of it, all I wish and hope for is to be permanently unconscious, I'm always hoping to peacefully cease existing and always will do no matter what, only never suffering again can bring me peace. I only wish for true permanent peace from the cruelty of existence, I'd never wish for this existence no matter what but rather I only wish for the absence of it, peace for me could only ever lie in an eternal, dreamless sleep where all is forgotten about for me and this existence is finally no longer my problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting for all to be forgotten about for me.
It truly is all I hope and wish for, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me in death, all I wish for is to never be able to suffer ever again, I'm so tired of suffering, I've suffered for so long, to suffer in this existence will always be something so undesirable to me. I just wish to be permanently unconscious where this cruel and torturous existence is no longer my concern, for me peace truly could only ever lie in never suffering again, in an existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering death truly would be the only relief for me.

I'll always find it so painful and dreadful to exist, for me existing will always be only suffering no matter what and I'm just so tired of it, in fact the tiredness I feel is such that only death can take away for me and bring me peace from, to me existence truly was always the most futile, torturous burden and it's one that brought me nothing but pain, I just want it all to be forgotten about for me.

I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep where the pain is finally gone and I can be at peace, all I hope for is peace from all the suffering, I just want to never exist ever again, I'd always prefer to die. In fact ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer but more than anything I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered at all, existence always felt like such a terrible mistake to me, it's something I'd never wish for but rather I only wish for nothingness, I only wish for peace from this existence that I was never meant for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death would be the only peace for me.
In an existence so cruel and torturous where there is all this endless suffering death truly would be the only peace for me, I only hope to never exist again but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all and there's so much pain in how I was forced into this existence I was never meant for that only ever caused me to suffer, for me personally all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again.

I just wouldn't wish for existence under any circumstance rather existence just feels like such a terrible, tragic mistake to me that just causes suffering and is so immensely cruel. I personally just I don't see any value to suffering in this pointless, meaningless existence just waiting to die anyway rather such is so burdensome to me and just brings me pain, in an existence where there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented and tortured non-existence truly would be the only relief for me.

I just find existence to be so unnecessary as well and it's something I never would have chosen rather I just wish for the absence of existence, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone for me and this existence is no longer my problem. All I've personally ever hoped for is some peace, I only wish for peace from the cruelty and futility of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious and permanently unable to suffer, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's suffering only death can take away for me.