Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from suffering.
All I personally have ever hoped for is peace from suffering, I only wish to never suffer in this existence ever again and the fact that I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep brings me so much pain. To me there's just so much cruelty in how I simply cannot just peacefully die as all I hope for is peace from this cruel, torturous existence I was never meant for that I never would have chose, for me not existing will always be preferable no matter what as after all if I'm dead then I cannot suffer in any way, I've suffered so much for so long but really I wish I never suffered in the first place, I wish I never became aware of existence.

I see it as such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this futile and meaningless existence I always saw as so unnecessary and never would have wished for, to me existence truly does create nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it. Only death can bring me peace from all this suffering, in fact ceasing to exist would be the only relief for me, only ceasing to exist can solve what I see as ultimately being the true problem which is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for some peace. I'll only ever wish for non-existence where all is finally gone for me, I just want peace from all cruelty, pain and suffering and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally no longer my problem, for me personally peace truly has been all I've ever wished and hoped for, I only wish to be free from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Seeing existence as completely undesirable.
I'll personally always see existence as completely undesirable and I'd never wish to exist under any circumstances, I wish this existence was never imposed in the first place, to me existence truly will always be the most cruel, harmful imposition that just causes endless amounts of suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence but rather I just wish for the peace of never suffering again.

Personally I find it such a tiring, unnecessary burden to be conscious at all, I'll always find it so burdensome to have to wake again and suffer in this existence and I just don't see value to prolonging the suffering, rather I just wish to be permanently unable to suffer at all. I personally could never see any point and benefit to existence rather it just feels like a terrible, futile mistake to me that just causes suffering all for the sake of it all while one is destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway. Suffering in this existence will always be deeply undesirable to me and I truly was never meant for any of this, as long as I've existed I really have only ever hoped and wished for nothingness, only non-existence could ever be desirable to me. I suffer simply from existing and I'm so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have wished for and never would have chose but of course the suffering just continues instead, it always feels so cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking again even know I'd never wish to exist, the thought of suffering until old age is so terrifying to me, it's something I'd never wish for and will always see as so undesirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death would be the only relief for me.
No matter what death truly would be the only relief for me and it's all I wish for, all I wish for is an eternal, dreamless sleep to bring me peace from all the suffering and cruelty in this existence I always saw as so deeply undesirable that brought me nothing but pain. Human existence just feels like a terrible, painful mistake to me and more than anything I wish I was never forced into it but now that I suffer and have suffered for so long all I can hope for is death.

I only wish for non-existence where all is finally forgotten about for me and I cannot suffer in any way, death truly would be the only relief for me as after all existence itself is the source of all suffering and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, I see existence itself as such a horrific tragedy that just brings so much harm torturing and tormenting existing beings until they die anyway. Personally I could never see any value in all this suffering rather I'd prefer not to suffer at all, I don't wish to suffer in any way which is why death truly would be the only relief for me as I believe it to be the permanent absence of all suffering where all is gone for me and to never suffer again is all I hope for, I've suffered for so long in this existence I was never meant for and as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish to be gone, in an existence so cruel and torturous where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel death truly would be the only peace and relief for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish for a painless way.
All I hope and wish for is a painless way to be free from all the suffering, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all, existence is just too cruel, too painful and so futile, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it tormenting existing beings. Personally I'd be relieved to die, I'd be relieved to never suffer again, all I wish for is to be unable to experience anything at all, existence to me just feels like such a terrible tragedy, a mistake ultimately responsible for all this suffering and torment. Only death can solve everything for me and bring me peace, I only wish for a painless way to be at peace as after all if I don't exist then I cannot suffer and all is gone for me.

I wish for this existence to be forgotten about, nothing could make me wish to suffer in this meaningless pointless existence where there is all this cruelty, there's so much cruelty in existing and it's certainly why death is all I hope for and why I only wish for a painless way as I want the cruelty of existence to be no longer my concern, I want to be unable to suffer and unable to be harmed in this torturous, pointless existence. I hope to be non-existent but of course I wish I could just erase my existence, something so terrible and cruel as existence would be best forgotten about for me, I see no value in all this suffering and cruelty rather it's something I wish to be at peace from, human existence was always something deeply undesirable to me that just caused me to suffer that I was never meant for, all I hope and wish for is a painless way to be eternally free from it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for an eternal sleep.
Eternal, dreamless sleep really is all I've ever wished and hoped for, I'd never want to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, death truly is always preferable for me than all the terrible cruelty and suffering this existence causes. I'd always prefer to sleep eternally but of course I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered at all, I wish all could be gone for me, I wish for nothingness but sadly I suffer instead and the suffering just continues and I'm always so tired of it all.

Personally I truly have always felt so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for that just brought me so much pain, I only wish for an eternal sleep to take away all the suffering and bring me peace from this existence, I just wish for some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again. I'd never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of suffering in this existence that I never would have chose, to me existence truly is just a terrible tragic mistake, I wish to just fall asleep eternally and forget about it all, in an existence so futile and painful that just torments existing beings all for the sake of it eternal sleep truly would be the only relief for me. I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, there's so much pain in how I had to suffer in this existence, as long as I exist all I'll ever hope and wish for is to be gone, I'll only wish for the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is the only peace for me.
No matter what only death could truly ever bring me peace, I only hope for peace from this cruel, painful existence that just caused me to suffer and brought me nothing but pain. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I hope and wish is for death to take away all the suffering for me and finally bring me peace from this existence I never would have chose that I was never meant for. As long as I exist I'll always and only hope for death, I really have only ever wished for peace, to me existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy that served no purpose but to torment existing beings.

I only hope for death as only then will I be unable to suffer, only then will I no longer be burdened with this existence, all I wish for is the cruel, futile burden of existence to no longer be my problem, I've always found it so painful and torturous to exist which is why death truly is the only peace for me. I see existence itself as the true problem and I really was never meant for any of this, I was never meant for all this terrible cruelty and endless suffering that just tortures and torments existing beings and the suffering just continues, no matter what only non-existence could be desirable to me, only ceasing to exist can bring me peace, there's just so much pain in existing which is why death truly would be the only relief for me, I just don't want to suffer in any way, I just want to be free from all suffering which is why I only hope for true, eternal peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I'd never wish to exist, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, meaningless existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence truly is the most horrific, terrible tragedy. I'd always prefer death over all this suffering and cruelty, I'd never wish to exist and it brings me so much pain to suffer in this existence, as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish to never exist again, I only hope for peace from all the suffering, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered, I'm always wishing to erase my existence so it's like I was never forced here at all.

To me existence is such a torturous, futile imposistion that only death can bring me peace from, I'd never wish for any of this but rather I just want nothingness, I just wish for the permanent absence of all suffering and harm, under no circumstances would I wish to suffer in this existence and I find it such a terrible tragedy how I had to exist at all even know there were never any disadvantages to not existing at all. But now I do exist and suffer so much all I can hope for is permanent non-existence, I only hope to never suffer again, I only hope for peace from the cruel burden of existing as a human, to be conscious in this existence is something deeply undesirable to me that just causes so much pain and brings suffering, I've never wished to exist and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is something so horrific.
It truly is something so horrific to me, I see existence as the most horrific terrible tragedy ultimately responsible for causing endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, to be conscious in this existence is something so terrible to me. I find it to be such a cruel, torturous burden to be forced into this existence and I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer as long as they exist, the fact that one is capable of feeling pain and being tormented to unlimited extents all for the sake of it is enough on it's own to make me wish for death.

To me existence itself truly is just an unnecessary harm, it just harms existing beings, torturing and tormenting them until they die anyway and what terrifies me is how this existence could potentially continue for decades longer causing way more unbearable suffering as a result. Personally I'd never wish for the cruelty and torment of existence and I wish this existence was never imposed more than anything, I'd never wish for the burden of suffering in this existence no matter what, to me existence itself really is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings. I just find it so undesirable to have to exist at all, the way I see it all of this was so unnecessary as well, existence just caused so much pain and problems there was never a need for bringing all this suffering that was always so meaningless and unnecessary to me even know there were no disadvantages to never existing at all, I find it so painful how I was forced into this existence just to suffer so unnecessarily, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death truly is all that's inevitable anyway.
Personally I just find it so cruel and horrible how I cannot just have the option to just painlessly die in peace even know death truly is all that's inevitable anyway, the way I see it existing is just waiting around to die and personally I'd prefer to die sooner to escape from unnecessary suffering. I see it as all so meaningless anyway with there being no disadvantages to being permanently unconscious yet no limit as to how much one can suffer in this cruel, torturous existence which just brings all this pain all for the sake of it, I just don't see value to prolonging suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented just to die anyway, the thought of being trapped in this existence just decaying and deteriorating just to die in agony from old age is terrifying to me personally.

I'd never wish for such immense cruelty and suffering no matter what rather I wish I never suffered at all more than anything, only non-existence is desirable to me and is all that can bring me peace from the burden of existing, in fact ceasing to exist would solve everything for me, I'd personally rather prevent suffering, all I hope for is to never suffer again. To me there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just painlessly escape from this existence on my own terms even know existing is just so futile to me, it just causes suffering until death comes anyway, I wish I could just fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all as I'm so tired of suffering, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish to be gone, I wish for the absence of all suffering, for me eternal nothingness is always preferable to the pain this existence brings.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is the problem.
No matter what I'll always see existence as the problem, it's something so cruel, torturous and terrible that just causes and creates suffering all for the sake of it, the way I see it to exist means to suffer and to die means to never suffer again, I only hope for the absence of all suffering, cruelty and torment, I only hope to be free from all pain and suffering in this existence I always saw as a terrible, tragic mistake.

To me human existence is something so undesirable, something so harmful that I was never meant for, I don't belong in existence but rather I only hope for death, I hope to never suffer again and the suffering will only go away once I die, only in non-existence will there be no more suffering, only in non-existence will I be free from the burden of existing and I'll always see it as a burden to exist no matter what. As long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death as I was never meant to exist in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and torment, I was never meant for the torment of suffering in this existence. To me existence itself is the problem as it's the source of all suffering, it just tortures and torments existing beings until they decay and die anyway with all finally gone for them and the end of existence is all I've ever personally hoped for, no more pain and no more suffering, I wish for death to solve everything for me and take away what has tormented me and caused me to suffer for so long, I'll always suffer as long as I exist, to me existence feels like nothing but suffering and I'm always so tired of it, it's tiredness that only death can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be gone for me.
All I hope and wish is for all to be gone for me, I wish to never suffer in this existence ever again, I wish to never experience anything at all. In an existence so cruel, futile and torturous where there is all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it death truly is all that can bring me peace, all I hope and wish for is to be permanently unaware. I wish to never exist again, to me being conscious is such a painful burden that just brings suffering, I see human existence as the most terrible mistake, it's something so undesirable and harmful that just brings so much pain. I just wish for all to be gone for me, I was never meant for something as burdensome as existence that just tortures and torments existing beings until death takes away all for them anyway, I just wish to never wake again, I wish for all to be forgotten about for me, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that I was never meant for, personally I just want nothingness instead of all this suffering and cruelty.

I'd always prefer to die and death is all I wish for, the only relief for me could only lie in never suffering again where finally I can be at peace, ceasing to exist would solve all for me as without existence I cannot suffer and cannot be harmed in any way but really I wish I could erase my existence. I want it to be like I never suffered, I want it to be like I never became aware, nothing could make me wish for the terrible torturous burden of human existence rather I'd prefer to avoid such no matter what, consciousness is a curse to me that only ever caused me to suffer, I want all to be gone for me I wish to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only death can solve everything for me.
No matter what only death truly can solve everything for me, only death can bring me peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence that just brought me pain that I never would have wished for. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's the kind of tiredness that only ceasing to exist can take away for me, existence is just too cruel, too painful and torturous to me, I truly was never meant for any of this and that's why I only wish for death as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer and without existence there is no suffering, ceasing to exist would remove the source of all suffering for me and finally bring me peace.

For me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented, I'd never wish for the torment of suffering in this existence rather I only hope and wish for death, I wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep to solve everything for me. I'd always prefer to not exist, death is always preferable for me than suffering for potentially decades longer in this existence I always saw as so unnecessary that just created pain there was never a need for. To me existence truly was always the most horrific, terrible tragedy and it's one that only death bring me relief from, what I ultimately see as the true problem is existence itself which is why I only hope and wish for the absence of it, I wish to never suffer ever again, I wish to be permanently incapable of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I never would have chose but of course the suffering just continues.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hope and wish for a painless way.
All I truly hope and wish for is a painless way to be free from this cruel, torturous existence, I only hope for peace from all the suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead and I'm trapped in this existence as a result, only non-existence is desirable to me and I'd always prefer to die but really I never should have suffered at all. Existence just feels like the most terrible, torturous mistake to me and I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence which is why I only hope for a painless way, I only hope for a painless death to bring me permanent peace and safety from all harm and suffering in an existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

It always feels so cruel and horrible to me how I simply cannot just painlessly free myself from this existence even know I find existing to be completely undesirable and I see it as all so futile and meaningless anyway with there being no suffering in non-existence and to never suffer again is all I wish for. Personally I just don't want to suffer at all and to me existing feels like nothing but suffering, to be conscious and aware in this existence is such a terrible, cruel burden to me and it terrifies me how it can potentially continue for so long. I'd never wish to prolong this suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented rather I just wish for the absence of all suffering, I've only ever hoped for death personally, I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just want nothingness, I wish for true permanent peace where all is finally gone for me I'm always so tired of being trapped in this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

The suffering just continues.
It truly does just continue in this existence that is so cruel and torturous to me, personally I find existence to be the most horrific, terrible tragedy that just tortures and torments existing beings and that is why I only hope for death. I see existence itself as the true problem that just brings so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and the suffering just continues, the way I see it the suffering this existence causes is endless with no limit as to how much one can be tormented.

I find it such a terrible tragedy how I was forced into this existence in the first place even know I saw it as all so meaningless and unnecessary, existence just creates suffering all for the sake of it just for one to decay and die anyway. I find it so painful to suffer in this existence there was never a need for that to me was just a mistake, I see existence as something so horrifying as after all it's the source of all suffering, it's ultimately responsible for endless amounts of torture and cruelty and it just continues. To me all that existence ever does is just cause so much harm, I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel, harmful existence that I never would have chosen that I never would have wished for, to exist will always be something deeply undesirable to me. I just want the peace of non-existence instead of all this torment and suffering, I truly was never meant to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, I only wish for the absence of all suffering but of course the suffering just continues instead and I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing for this existence to finally be forgotten about for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only ceasing to exist can solve everything for me.
No matter what ceasing to exist truly is all that could solve everything for me and bring me peace from all the cruelty and suffering in this existence I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place. In an existence so cruel and torturous death truly is the only peace and relief for me, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself as it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that torments existing beings, for me ceasing to exist would be the solution to suffering because after all without existence I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me.

I wish for all to be forgotten about for me in death, I've suffered so much for so long, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for death, I only wish for an dreamless, eternal sleep free from all suffering and harm when I cannot be tormented in this existence I always saw as so meaningless. I just want death to solve everything for me, I see it as so terrible and torturous to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, it's so horrific and painful the amount of suffering this existence so tragically causes. I'd never wish for existence but now that I exist all I can hope for is to never exist again, I only hope for peace from the terrible tragedy that is human existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it that just tortures and torments existing beings, non-existence is all I see as desirable, I'd always prefer to die no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting death to escape from the torment of existence.
All I personally hope for is to die to escape from the terrible torment and cruelty of existence, I'd always prefer to cease existing but really I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, I want it to be like I never became aware of something as torturous and painful as existence which just causes all this agony all for the sake of it, to be conscious and aware is such a terrible burden to me that only ever caused me to suffer.

I find human existence to be the most horrific tragedy, It's a tragedy that just tortures and torments those that were unfortunate enough to be forced here with no limit as to how much agony they can feel in an existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, only death can solve everything for me and take away all this suffering for me, I have no interest in prolonging the suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented just dying in agony as a result. Personally I see it as a curse to exist and that is why I only hope and wish for death, it's all I can hope for, existence will always be something deeply undesirable to me no matter what, there's just so much pain in existing and I'd never wish for the terrible torment of existence where there is all this suffering all for the sake of it. I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what and more than anything I wish I was never forced into it but now that I exist and suffer so immensely as a result all I can hope for is to never exist again, I only wish for non-existence so finally this existence is no longer my problem, I only hope for peace from the terrible cruelty and futility of existence where there is all this suffering and torment all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never meant for something as horrific as existence.
No matter what I truly could never be meant for something as horrific as existence that just tortures and torments those who unfortunate enough to suffer here but rather I'm only meant for death, I'm only meant for the peace of eternal nothingness where all is gone and forgotten about for me. To me existing means suffering and to die means to never suffer again, I'd always prefer to die as only then can nothing harm and torment me but really I wish I could erase my existence like I never suffered, I wish for all the suffering, pain and torment to be gone and for me to be at true eternal peace instead where this cruel, torturous existence is finally no longer my problem.

The way I see it existence truly does cause nothing but harm, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place but rather I only wish for death, I was never meant for something as horrific as existence that just brings all this suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel but rather I only hope to never exist again. I only hope for the absence of all suffering and harm, no matter what I'd always wish and hope to die as long as I suffer here and I'm so tired of suffering, only death can take away my tiredness, only death can bring me peace from the torment of existence. I truly was never meant for any of this, I was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering but rather I was only ever meant to never suffer again, I wish to be unable to suffer, unable to experience anything at all, I never should have been forced into this existence, to exist will always be deeply undesirable to me, it just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

You're in my thoughts FC, as always I wish you the utmost peace <3

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer.
And that is why it's all I hope and wish for, all I wish for is the absence of all harm and suffering where this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem and all is finally gone for me, I'm so tired of suffering and the suffering just continues, to never exist again really is all I personally hope for, I see it as something so terrible to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily all for the sake of it just hoping and wishing to be gone, no matter what only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer. Only in non-existence will the suffering go away for me with me finally at peace because after all without existence there can't be any suffering, all suffering and torment is a result of the terrible tragedy that is existence itself and I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how unbearable the cruelty and suffering of existence can get.

Personally I only wish for non-existence, it's all I see as desirable, I just wish for an eternal, dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally I'm no longer burdened with this existence, to me human existence is the most painful, harmful burden, I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality and I'd always prefer to die than prolong this suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented. I see existence as something so terrible, so harmful, to me it just feels like a curse that causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, death truly would be a relief for me, I see nothing desirable about suffering in this torturous meaningless existence that just leads to decay and death anyway, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer and to never suffer ever again is all I've personally wished for, as long as I exist I'll always hope and wish for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to get old.
Personally I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, meaningless existence with no limit as to how much agony they can feel, personally I'd prefer to die than prolong this suffering just to end up way more tortured and tormented, the thought of dying in agony from old age after all these decades of suffering and torment in this existence I always saw as so futile and unnecessary is terrifying to me personally. I'd never wish for any of the suffering this existence so cruelly brings rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious, incapable of suffering in any way, incapable of feeling any pain, to me existence is the most terrible tragedy.

I'd always prefer to avoid something so cruel, meaningless and torturous as human existence that to me serves no function but to bring and cause suffering all while one is destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, old age just sounds like extreme agony to me and I just don't wish for it, I just don't wish to suffer at all and I just don't see anything desirable about suffering rather I wish for non-existence. All that can bring me peace is to finally be free from the cruelty and torment of existence, it's just feels so horrible how I cannot just have the option of a painless death like never waking again as I'd never wish to be tortured and tormented by old age, I've suffered so much for so long already and I never wished for any of this in the first place, to me existence itself is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering after all and it's suffering that only death can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just hoping and wishing for painless way.
All I hope and wish for is a painless way to be permanently free from this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, it brings me so much pain how I cannot just die in a peaceful way so finally I can be at peace from all the cruelty and suffering in existing. A painless death truly is all that could be a relief for me but of course the suffering just continues and I continue to be trapped in this existence so cruel and torturous that I never would have chose and never would have wished for.

It's just so horrific to me how humans cannot choose to be euthanised even know there is literally no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence I always saw as so futile and meaningless that just leads to decay and death anyway. Personally I find human existence to be something deeply undesirable, I see it as a burden to have to wake again and in my case I suffer simply from existing and I'm so tired of suffering, I truly was never meant for this and non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's all I've ever hoped for. I've only ever wished to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, it's just so agonising how I cannot have the option to just die painlessly, to me existence itself truly is the most terrible tragedy, I'd always prefer to cease existing but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, it terrifies me how this existence can continue for so long, I'd personally always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented in this existence that only ever caused me pain in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting all to be forgotten about for me.
All I wish is for all to be forgotten about for me, I wish for death to take away all my suffering and finally bring me peace from the torture and torment of human existence, to me existing means suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again. I've suffered in this cruel, pointless existence for so long and the suffering just continues, I just want it to be all forgotten about for me, I'd always prefer to die but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I wish I never became conscious, to me consciousness is such a terrible, torturous curse that just causes so much pain and I just wish to die and forget about it all.

I wish to remember nothing about this existence that only ever brought me suffering and caused me to suffer all for the sake of it, I truly was never meant for any of this which is why I just want all to be forgotten about for me, I'm so tired of suffering in this existence I just saw as a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place. I just don't wish to experience anything at all rather I just wish and hope for the absence of existence where all is finally gone for me, I see existence itself as the problem, it's something that just tortures and torments existing beings, I just want to forget about it all, I want all the suffering to be forgotten about for me, I wish for this cruel, torturous existence to disappear into nothingness so finally I can be at peace with no more pain, no more suffering, to never suffer again is all I hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for dreamless, eternal sleep.
No matter what all I could ever hope and wish for is dreamless, eternal sleep where finally all the suffering is gone and I'm free from this cruel, torturous existence, all I hope for is a death like never waking again to bring me peace from all the torment and suffering and I'm so tired of suffering. I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have existed at all, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this existence, I wish I never became conscious but now that I suffer in this existence I always saw as such a terrible tragedy all I can hope for is some sleep.

For me existing means suffering and I just wish to never suffer again, no matter what I'd prefer to avoid and forget about existence, I only see non-existence as desirable where finally I cannot suffer anymore and this cruel, painful existence is no longer my problem, in my case only eternal sleep can bring me peace, for me peace could only ever lie in never suffering again but of course the suffering continues and I'll only ever wish to be free from all suffering as long as I exist. To me existing will always be nothing but suffering no matter what and it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence just for them to be tortured and tormented by old age, it horrifies me how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how unbearable the suffering can get, I just wish I could cease existing and forget about it all, it'll always feel so cruel how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and never suffer again, I just wish to sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just wanting peace from the cruelty and futility of existing.
No matter what all I'd ever wish and hope for is peace from the cruelty and futility of existing, I'm so tired of suffering in this cruel torturous existence that I never would have wished for, personally I just don't see anything desirable about the burden of existing as a human but rather such just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake to me ultimately responsible for endless amounts of suffering and I find it such a burden to have to exist and suffer so much as a result.

I find it horrific how there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel in this existence that can continue for so long, I'd never wish for this existence but rather I just wish for death, I wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing again, to me existing feels like nothing but suffering and I'll suffer as long as I exist. I'd always prefer to die as only then is this existence no longer my problem but more than anything I wish I never existed, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, to me existence truly is so terrible, cruel and painful, there's so much cruelty in how existing beings are tormented and tortured in an existence I see as so futile anyway. To me existing truly is just suffering all for the sake of it and I was never meant for the cruelty and futility of suffering in this existence, I was never meant for the torment of existing as a conscious being and as long as I exist I'll only hope and wish for peace, in fact true eternal peace is all I've ever hoped for, only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from all the suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To me existing means suffering.
No matter what existing will always mean suffering for me, existing truly does feel like nothing but suffering to me and I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence I was never meant for, the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily with the risk being there of suffering way more unbearably at any moment. I find it horrific how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer and how much agony they can feel in this existence I always saw as so futile and unnecessary anyway, personally I'd always prefer to avoid and escape from all suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as deeply undesirable that just feels like a terrible, tragic mistake to me.

Personally I'll always find it so dreadful and torturous to exist, I just wish to fall into an eternal, dreamless sleep and forget about it all, I just don't have any interest in prolonging suffering just to end up tortured and tormented by old age rather I'd prefer to prevent suffering which is why it feels so horrible how I cannot just have a death like never waking again as all I want is some peace. I just wish to never exist again, to be conscious in this existence is such a painful, futile burden to me that only ever caused me to suffer. I only hope for peace from all the suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence no matter what and the fact that I suffer instead of being at true eternal peace will always be so painful. Non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me, I only hope for the absence of all suffering where I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
The way I see it existence truly does just cause harm, it just tortures and torments existing beings until they die anyway with all finally gone for them, all that existence does is just bring suffering and cause pain all of which was completely unnecessary to me that there was never a need for. Personally I find it such a terrible tragedy to be forced into this existence and have to suffer at all, to me existence is the most cruel, harmful imposition with no limit as to how much agony one can feel all while they are destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway, in fact the way I see it the amount of suffering this existence causes is endless.

I find it horrific how this existence has caused such an immense amount of harm and will continue to do as long as existing beings are forced here, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and all I personally hope for is non-existence as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only in non-existence will all the suffering go away for me, existing will always feel like nothing but suffering as long as I exist which is why I'd always prefer to die. I just don't see value in suffering in this meaningless, torturous and harmful existence that to me just felt like a mistake, existence is something so terrible to me as it's the source of all suffering, it's horrifying how this existence just causes all this agony torturing existing beings all for the sake of it and it can easily get way more unbearable, personally I just wish to die and forget about this existence, to be conscious and capable of suffering to unlimited extents is a curse to me, the way I see it existence causes nothing but suffering all of which was so pointless and futile to me in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was never meant for the pain of existence.
I truly was never meant for the pain of existing and I never should have suffered in this existence at all but now that I do and the suffering just continues all I can hope for and wish for is death. In an existence so cruel, torturous and painful eternal nothingness is all that can bring me peace but really I wish I could erase my existence, death is always preferable for me than the burden of existing as a human which I always saw as deeply undesirable and just caused and brought suffering all for the sake of it, all I personally hope for is to never suffer in this existence ever again, I was never meant for any of this pain and to me existing truly is so painful.

I'll always suffer as long as I exist and there's just so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish for death, ceasing to exist truly is all that's desirable to me and the only relief for me could lie in never suffering in this existence ever again where all is finally gone and this existence is no longer my problem. I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel existence I was never meant for, personally I'm just meant for non-existence, I just don't wish to exist as well and never have done, I never belonged in this existence that just tortures and torments existing beings until they decay and die anyway, to me existence is something so terrible that I was never meant for, it just causes suffering all for the sake of it and I just don't want to suffer in any way, I just want peace instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is which is why I only hope and wish for death, there's just so much cruelty in existing and no matter what I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it but rather I just want some peace instead. I only wish for the peace of never suffering in this existence again but of course the cruelty just continues instead, I see so much cruelty in how there's the absence of a way for me to painlessly cease existing so finally I can escape from this existence I just saw as a terrible tragedy in the first place.

Personally I'd always prefer to die as only in non-existence am I unable to be harmed in any way with the cruelty of existence no longer being my concern, something as cruel and harmful as existence is something I'd prefer to be permanently unaware of no matter what. To be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts destined for nothing but to decay and die anyway is a curse to me personally, it's something so cruel that causes so much torture all for the sake of it and that is why I only wish for death. I wish for eternal sleep where I finally cannot suffer anymore and all is gone for me, death truly is the only relief for me, I'd always prefer to die and it's all I'll wish for as long as I suffer in this existence but really I wish I could just erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered at all, I was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

I've suffered for so long in this existence.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence and the suffering just continues, more than anything I wish I never suffered at all and I truly never should have been forced into this existence, to me it'll always be so terrible, dreadful and torturous to exist and it's suffering that only death can bring me relief from. Under no circumstance would I wish for the burden of suffering in this existence that to me was such a cruel, tragic mistake in the first place that only ever caused me to suffer and brought so much pain and it feels like I've suffered for far too long, to me existing will always be nothing but suffering and as long as I'm conscious I'll suffer, as long as I exist I'll only ever hope and wish to be gone.

For me existence itself will always be the true problem no matter what that only ceasing to exist can solve and bring me peace from, I just want death to take all my suffering away but of course I'm still trapped in this cruel, torturous existence that I always saw as so unnecessary in the first place just hoping and wishing for some peace. I was never meant for any of this and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just have a death like never waking again to finally escape from this existence that just caused me to suffer so much all for the sake of it. Personally I'd rather prevent suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and tormented and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so much longer with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all I personally hope for is peace from all the suffering, I've suffered for so long and all I wish for is to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I only hope to cease existing.
No matter what I could only ever hope to cease existing, existence truly is so cruel and torturous to me, I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence that I just saw as a terrible, tragic painful mistake causing endless amounts of harm, only when I cease existing will I be at peace. All I hope and wish for is to be permanently free from the futile yet so cruel burden of human existence, I just wish and hope for nothingness, I just don't wish to exist at all and I never would do no matter what but rather I just wish for death.

I wish for the eternal absence of all harm and suffering, to be conscious in this existence is a curse for me personally, it's something that just brings pain and so much suffering, in fact to me existence feels like nothing but suffering, it's suffering that just tortures and torments existing beings until death takes away all they knew anyway and the thought of suffering for so much longer is horrific to me. I find it horrifying how there is no limit as to how much one can be tormented as long as they are burdened with this existence all while they are just waiting to die anyway, personally I just wish for peace from all the suffering this existence brings and for me peace could only ever lie in never existing again, I'd always prefer to cease existing than suffer so much longer all for the sake of it just to die in agony decaying from old age, what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself and I'd never wish for it, instead I wish to be free from all suffering as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence.