Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[Well_Its_Time]

The cruelty of being denied painless death.
I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing to escape from this existence of unnecessary suffering is denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead even know I never would have chosen and never would have wisher for any of this, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I'd always prefer to not exist. It's horrific to me how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age, in general I find it such a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and torturous that I see no benefit to and no value to rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

I never wished to suffer in the first place and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only an eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep eternally with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse agony. I personally just want some peace from this existence of endless suffering and peace for me could only lie in non-existence, it's all I wish and hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering, I just hope for permanent relief from the torturous burden of existence, I just hope to finally forget about this existence.

I am sorry that you are going through this. You have helped a lot of people with your words. You know that I am on your boat with the suffering. Trying to somehow make each minute pass and watch the sun rise and set on each day without direction. We need you here and appreciate all that you do

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most torturous abomination.
To me existence truly is the most torturous abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, it really is all so terrible and painful to me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I wish I was never burdened with this existence that was completely unnecessary and just caused and brought so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it. I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence, for me non-existence would be the solution to suffering and is all I see as positive, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and there is no more suffering, no more cruelty, I only wish for peace from the torturous, harmful abomination of existence that has just tortured existing beings and caused so much harm.

I see it as something so terrible to be forced to suffer in this horrific reality capable of suffering to unlimited extents, the suffering this existence causes is endless and it just continues, I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, futile existence no matter what rather I just want some peace instead, existence itself really is the true problem for me and always will be no matter what and it's a problem that only non-existence can solve for me. I'll always see existence as an abomination, existence just causes so much suffering until death takes away all anyway and to be permanently unable to suffer is all I could hope for, I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that is always an abomination to me and always will be.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always preferring non-existence.
No matter what I truly would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, futile existence, the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep is all I wish and hope for, I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's a burden that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me but of course the suffering just continues with me just hoping and wishing to sleep permanently.

For me non-existence is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief from suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence, I was never meant for any of this and I never should have suffered at all, I'd always prefer to not exist as only then can nothing concern me, only then is this cruel, painful existence finally no longer my problem, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, I just want this existence to be all forgotten about for me. Non-existence truly is always preferable for me than being enslaved in this existence just to be tortured by old age with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, human existence really is just pointless suffering to me, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, existence to me really is the most terrible, horrific tragedy that just causes and brings so much pain, I really would always prefer to not exist.

 

[forsakenfrog]

I'd like to put my two cents out into the ether. I highly don't anyone would read this, which, all things considered is probably a good thing.

I think I was born wrong? Like broken ig. I mean not in two, something that's visible, but just slightly hollow in the inside. Something that's there and you know it, you think everyone has it and feels this way and maybe that's just a part of being a human. Everyone has a hole in them, they try to fill it but it never really goes away. I always disliked this about myself, my friends could move on from a slight, forget it tomorrow, but all alights on me would smudge. They would perforate, the ink would settle deep inside me. Gradually. At first, I too could ignore this ink, but smudges in the same spot, often leave marks. They don't go away. Eventually the deep ink in my skin becomes part of me. I am what you say I am if you say it often enough. I will buy into it, reinforce it, make it my identity and I will make it hurt me. This ink accumulates and it is me now. There is no ink without me, there is no me without ink. I am dirty now, and I could never be clean.


I thought other people were the same way. They're honestly not, other people trip, scrape their knee, get up and keep running. I trip, and i start to question why I'm running in the first place. Is it not better to bleed? Do I not honestly deserve this? Would it not be better to let this ink spill. I don't get up. I stay down. Life hits me with a punch, sometimes I try to get up I fight. I fight for a day, I fight well. I do not fight tomorrow. I do not fight the next day, or the day after that, not until life punches me again. I am only a one day fighter. I look at people who overcame, who saw radical change. I wonder how? How could a singular moment change a person to such a degree? I am too polluted, there is too much ink in me. There is no changing it. I am stuck, I have always been this way, I am this way, I will always be this way.


A good for nothing. Never good at anything. Shallow, small, tired, lazy, bad, pathetic, unworthy, ungrateful. I will die, and whenever I do, there will be no legacy left of me, except regret that I even existed in the first place. Objectively, everyone in my life would have been better off had I not existed. There is still time, I can save them from myself, from the misery that is I. I just need to be strong and fight one last time, and then there will be no fight anymore. Just ink.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is forced suffering to me.
It truly is forced suffering to me as after all this existence was so tragically imposed yet I'm denied the option to just peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I wish is for this existence to be all forgotten about for me, I just don't want to suffer at all rather I just want some peace instead, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this horrific reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what and non-existence truly is all I'll hope for, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again.

I have no interest in suffering in this existence, I see nothing desirable about the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human rather I just want to die peacefully and forget about it all, for me non-existence truly is the only peace, I just wish for peace from the forced suffering of existing where there's no acceptance towards the wish to not exist even know to me existing really is just waiting to die anyway and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what. I just want to not exist instead, I'll only be at peace once I'n finally free from this existence of pointless suffering and cruelty where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel, this existence of forced suffering really was never worth it for me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of existing.
I truly am always so tired of existing and it's tiredness that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to fall asleep eternally, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone for me. I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this torturous undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, ceasing to exist really is always preferable for me than being conscious in this existence of pointless unnecessary suffering destined to decay and die anyway.

I really was never meant for something as cruel and futile as existence and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and I always will do, I just hope to never wake ever again where all is finally forgotten about. I just want peace from all the suffering and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to choose to fall asleep eternally, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and relief, I'd never wish for existence rather I just want nothingness, I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes suffering, to me human existence really is just pointless suffering and I'd never wish for it under any circumstances, I'm always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing to suffer in this existence.
I really would never wish to suffer in this existence, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence suffering all for the sake of it under any circumstances rather I just want nothingness, I just want the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, to me existence is the most futile, cruel and torturous burden and it's one I'd never wish for. I never wished to exist and never would do instead I just want to never suffer ever again, I could personally never see any point, benefit or value to suffering in this existence rather I just want to painlessly cease existing and forget about it all, eternal non-existence truly would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much relief from this existence I always saw as the most terrible, tragic mistake.

The relief of non-existence truly is all I've hoped for, I just want some peace, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, I see existence as something so terrible, so dreadful, I see existence as an abomination that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm and I truly would never wish for any of this, I just want non-existence instead. I wouldn't wish to exist at all and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, it always feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to sleep eternally even know this existence was so tragically imposed, eternal sleep really is all I see as desirable, I'll personally always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I just want nothingness, existence itself really is the true problem to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in existing, all of it being so futile and unnecessary to me, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, futile abomination that just causes so much suffering and harm until death takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'd prefer to sleep permanently no matter what instead. To me existence really is the most terrible tragic mistake and there's just so much suffering as a result of existence, I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering tormenting existing beings all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

I really would always choose non-existence over the pointless, unnecessary suffering and cruelty of existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I'd never wish to be conscious suffering in this existence no matter what and I see existence as the most torturous burden that causes so much harm. Existence itself will always be the ultimate problem to me as after all it's the cause and source of all suffering, I just see it as something so dreadful to suffer in this existence, there's just so much suffering in existing and I just wish to be free from it all, non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this futile, undesirable existence I never would have chose and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so painful to exist.
No matter what I truly will always find it so painful to exist, I find it so painful to suffer in this torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'd always prefer to not exist, eternal non-existence where this painful existence is all forgotten about really is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep where finally this existence is all gone for me, there's just so much pain in existing and it's pain that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish is for this painful existence to be no longer my concern, non-existence is all I see as desirable and is the only peace for me as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing.

There is no suffering in never existing ever again which is all I hope for, I just wish to be permanently free from this painful existence, I just wish I was never forced to be conscious at all, I wish I was never forced into this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering, to me human existence truly is an abomination. I'll always find it something so dreadful and terrible to suffer in this existence and existing to me is only suffering, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen and it's pain that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me, I only hope and wish to permanently cease existing, I'll only be at peace once this painful existence is finally no longer my problem, I just want to sleep permanently

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I could hope for.
It truly is all I could hope for and is all that could bring me any relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it, I'll always see existence as an abomination and I find it such a terrible tragedy how the burden of existence was even imposed at all causing all this suffering as a result, I'd just never wish to exist, I was never meant for any of this and I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way possible.

I find it so burdensome to exist and it's a burden that was so unnecessary that there was never a need for, only non-existence can bring me the peace from the burden of existing I hope for, non-existence really is the only peace for me, I just hope and wish to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues with me trapped in this torturous, futile existence I never would have wished for. I never would have chosen any of this rather I just hope and wish for nothingness, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all pain and suffering where finally nothing can concern me and all is gone, I'd always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep eternally, eternal sleep truly is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me peace from this existence I personally never saw as worth it, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from being trapped in this existence.
I truly do suffer so much from being trapped in this existence I never would have chosen and never would wish for, nothing no matter what would make me wish to suffer rather I just want peace instead and it brings me so much pain how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from the cruelty and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I just find it so terrible and dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all causing all this suffering as a result, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to cease existing painlessly is denied even know this torturous, futile existence that was completely unnecessary was forced in the first place even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all. I wish there's the option to just fall asleep eternally as I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it, non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence I never would have chosen and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to never exist ever again with no risks of trying to die going wrong and leading to way worse torture and agony as a result. It's horrific to me how existence causes all this endless suffering, I see existence as an abomination that I'd always prefer to forget about, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, it's all I could hope for.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering and cruelty in this existence.
There truly is so much suffering and cruelty in this torturous existence, it's all just so dreadful and terrible to me and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all unnecessary suffering where all is finally forgotten, no matter what I certainly will always see existence itself as the problem, it's the source of all suffering and cruelty after all.

I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age, for me existence really was never worth it rather I see it as deeply undesirable to exist, I see existing as being only suffering and I just don't want to suffer at all rather all I wish for is to never exist ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this cruel, futile existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. Existence is just too cruel, existence just causes so much harm which is certainly why I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, I just want peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing, non-existence is all that appeals to me as after all there is no suffering in non-existence, there are no disadvantages to not existing rather non-existence is all I personally see as desirable. To never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, I'd never wish for this existence that just causes and brings so much unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering.
I really will only be safe from all suffering in non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from the torturous abomination and cruelty of existence as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there are no disadvantages to the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten. There cannot be any suffering in the absence of existence which is why to cease existing is all I hope for, non-existence is all that's positive for me and is all that I see as ideal, I wish to be unable to suffer and unable to feel any pain.

I'd just never wish for the torturous burden of existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in this futile, undesirable existence, it truly is all so terrible and painful, I'd always prefer to not exist and I'd never wish for existence, non-existence truly would solve everything for me and would be the solution to suffering for me. I just hope to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm unable to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I see existence as an abomination, it's something that just causes harm, I just wish I could choose to fall asleep eternally as non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally I'm safe from all suffering but of course only never suffering at all is true perfection to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I was never forced to suffer.
More than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, I wish I was never burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence really is just unnecessary suffering and cruelty, it's all just so painful and dreadful to me. I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to eternal sleep but of course only never existing is true perfection to me, I wish I never became conscious of this existence, I wish I stayed permanently unaware instead of being forced to suffer all for the sake of it even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all.

I personally just wish and hope to sleep eternally, in an existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering permanent non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace, I just wish I was never forced to suffer, I was never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence. I want it to be like I never existed, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, I find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all and I see so much cruelty in how even know this existence was forced I cannot just have a death like never waking again, all I hope and wish for is to sleep, I just wish to permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again, I could personally never see any point and value to suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wanting to not exist is all I know.
It truly is all I know, I've only ever wished for non-existence and it's all I could wish for, my wish to die is a response to being burdened with this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where I was forced to be conscious, I see it as something so dreadful to exist as a human capable of suffering to unlimited extents enslaved in this existence there was never a need for. I personally just don't wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I just wish for non-existence, to me this existence truly does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake and it's something I'd never wish for rather I just wish to not exist, non-existence is all I've hoped for and could ever do.

I just want to peacefully cease existing and finally forget about it all but of course the suffering of existing just continues instead with me just hoping and wishing to be gone, for me eternal sleep really is all that's desirable, it'd solve everything for me and save me from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I never would have chose where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway and to me existence truly is just waiting for death. I just wish I could choose to never suffer ever again as for me existence is something I'd always prefer to forget about, I was never meant for any of this cruelty and suffering rather I'm only meant for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, the fact that this existence was even imposed is such a terrible tragedy to me, I'd just never wish for any of this, I've always wished to not exist and it's all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It truly does just cause harm, it's all just so terrible and cruel to me, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful, torturous existence I always saw as completely unnecessary, existence to me will always feel like a mistake, I wish I could just choose to peacefully not exist and finally forget about it all but of course all the suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone. I only hope for non-existence, it's the only peace for me from this harmful existence that just causes endless amounts of suffering and harm until all is forgotten about in death anyway, for me existence really was never worth it rather I'd prefer to avoid it no matter what.

I really will only be at peace once I'm permanently free from this harmful existence that has just tortured existing beings with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existence really is an abomination, it's something that just causes so much suffering and harm, I wish I could just choose to painlessly not exist and finally forget about it all but of course I continue to be enslaved in this existence. I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again as I see existence as something that just causes and brings so much harm, non-existence will always be preferable for me no matter what and it's all I could wish for, for me existence is always something I'd prefer to forget about, I just want some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how existence causes all this harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only relief for me.
It truly is the only relief for me and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, I'd personally be so relieved to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again, all I wish for is this existence to finally be all gone and forgotten about but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues instead. I really will only be at peace once I no longer exist and non-existence truly is all I hope for, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep where nothing can concern me, there is no more pain, no more suffering and finally I can rest, in this existence so cruel and futile non-existence really is the only relief for me.

I just wish to never suffer in this existence ever again and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep eternally, as long as I exist I really will just hope for non-existence, I wish for this existence to finally be gone for me, I'm always so tired of existing, existing to me is only suffering and I'm just not meant for any of this. I just wish I was never forced to suffer, being conscious in this existence truly is the most torturous, painful burden to me and it's one I never would had wished for, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this, I just hope and wish to sleep eternally, only eternal sleep can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just not meant for something as cruel as existence.
I really was never meant for something as cruel as existence and I just never should have suffered in this existence at all, no matter what I really will always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable and is all I could ever wish for. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, existence itself to me really is the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I'll always wish to not exist no matter what as I was just never meant for any of this, I find it such a terrible tragedy to suffer in this existence.

To me existence will always feel like a mistake and it's one I was never meant for that I just want some peace from, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I saw as causing nothing but suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I suffer as a result of being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never exist ever again, I just want this existence to finally be all forgotten about for me but of course the suffering of existing just continues. I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I never would have chose and never was meant for, to me existence will always be an abomination and it's one that just causes so much harm, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful existence, non-existence truly is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what, I really was never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.
I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I wish and hope for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just continues, it's all just so painful and terrible. I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway, as long as I exist I'll always and only hope to sleep permanently and never suffer ever again, only eternal sleep is desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

Non-existence is all I hope for and I just see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know this existence was so tragically imposed in the first place causing all this harm and suffering as a result, I truly never would have chosen and never would have wished for any of this. I'd just always prefer non-existence, eternal sleep really would solve everything for me in this existence I see as just causing only suffering and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence, it's tiredness that only eternal dreamless sleep can take away for me. I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again and I suffer so much from being trapped in this existence, it's all just so painful to me and only non-existence can bring me relief from the pain of existing, I'd never wish for this existence under any circumstances, I just want to fall asleep eternally instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me and I suffer just from existing, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence just waiting to die anyway, I see existence as the problem, I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that just causes endless amounts of suffering, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake. To me existing really is only suffering and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, never existing would had saved me from all this suffering in this cruel existence, for me only non-existence is desirable but only never existing at all is true perfection to me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep.

I just want to forget about this existence, all that's ideal for me is being permanently unconscious, permanently unable to suffer as after all there is no suffering in non-existence, there are no disadvantages to being permanently unable to suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive as I just don't want to suffer at all, I find it deeply undesirable to exist. I personally see it as an abomination to be forced into this existence of pointless suffering and to me existing will always feel like only suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, unnecessary existence and I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing and never suffer ever again is denied, I just want to sleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
Non-existence really is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, I'd personally be so relieved to never exist ever again, I just wish for this cruel, futile existence that was so tragically imposed to finally be no longer my problem, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing and is the only relief for me.

I just wish for this existence to be no longer be my concern, what appeals to me about non-existence is that there are no disadvantages to it and I cannot suffer from the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, to me existence really is the most torturous, pointless burden that I wish I was never forced in to, to me existence itself really is the true problem as it's the source of all suffering and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way. I really was never meant for any of this suffering and I never should have suffered at all, for me existence really was never worth it rather I just want to peacefully cease existing and forget about it all, only eternal sleep is ideal for me and only eternal sleep can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself, ceasing to exist really is all that's desirable for me. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course only never suffering at all is true perfection for me, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering to escape from this existence I never would have chose and was never meant for, I just want to not exist and finally be at peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of this existence.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of this existence and all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for this futile and torturous existence to be all forgotten for me but of course I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, there's just so much cruelty in existing and to be permanently free from it all is all I could wish and hope for.

I just want to never suffer ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, futile existence I was never meant for and never would have chose, I'd just never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for nothingness, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, pointless existence just continues, all I wish and hope is for this existence to finally be all forgotten and no longer be my problem. I'd always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary suffering just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, for me non-existence truly is always preferable, it's all I could wish for, I just wish to be free from this existence of endless cruelty and unnecessary suffering where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, existing to me really does feel like only suffering and I suffer so much as a result of existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see existing as just waiting for death.
For me no matter what existing truly will always be just waiting for death as after all death is all that's inevitable and this existence will all be eventually forgotten about which is all I hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, for me all that's desirable is being permanently unconscious. I just wish to be unable to suffer, I just wish for this cruel, futile and torturous existence to be finally all forgotten about for me and I'd always prefer to forget about this existence, I'd never wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing as a conscious being destined to decay and die anyway rather I just wish for nothingness.

I just want the peace of eternal nothingness where finally I can forget about this existence I saw as just causing so much harm, existence to me really does feel like a mistake and it's one I'd never wish for that I just want permanent peace from, all I hope and wish for is to never exist ever again, I'm always so tired of suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever take away for me. I'll always see existing as just waiting to die and to die is all I could hope for, ceasing to exist really would solve everything for me as after all it removes the source of all suffering and cruelty in the first place, if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and to never suffer ever again is all I wish for, I'd just never wish for the torturous and futile burden of existing as a human, I just want eternal peace instead and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing it as deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I really will always see it as deeply undesirable to exist, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and to me existing feels like only suffering, I personally see no value, point and benefit to being burdened with this existence rather all of this just feels like like the most terrible tragic mistake to me. All I could hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from cruelty and suffering where finally I can be at peace, I find it deeply undesirable to be conscious in this existence that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, non-existence is all that's desirable for me.

I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden I've never had any interest in that I see as never worth it for me, I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I'll personally always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and just existing on it's own is enough to make me wish for death, I never wished for existence and I never would do no matter what. I just want non-existence instead, I just want to sleep for all eternity and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for, ceasing to exist would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much peace from this undesirable existence I'd never would have chosen and was never meant for, I'll always prefer to not exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

My existence is only suffering.
It truly is only suffering and I suffer simply from existing, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this futile, torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'm always so tired of this existence of unnecessary suffering, simply just being conscious is enough to make me wish for death as I just don't want to suffer at all. I only hope for peace instead, I only hope for the peace of permanent non-existence where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I just want to never exist ever again, I was never meant for any of this suffering and I'd never wish for any of this either, I just want to never suffer ever again instead of being enslaved in this torturous unnecessary existence there was never a need for that just caused and brought so much suffering.

My existence really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, I wish to just fall asleep permanently and I always suffer so much from how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so cruelly denied even know I never would have chose any of this, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing and I see existing as only being suffering. I suffer because I exist and it's suffering that only eternal nothingness could ever take away for me, for me non-existence really is preferable to the suffering and cruelty of existing where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, I just want peace from suffering and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the problem.
It truly is the problem for me, I'll always see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the ultimate source of all suffering and cruelty torturing existing beings all for the sake of it, the amount of suffering this existence causes truly is endless and no matter what I really will always see it as an abomination to exist. I'll always see existence as the most torturous unnecessary abomination that just feels like a mistake to me and I really would always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just destined to decay and die anyway, existence to me really is something so dreadful and terrible, it just causes an immense amount of harm until death takes away all anyway.

I'd always prefer to not exist, to me existence itself will always be the problem, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and to permanently cease existing really is all I hope for, I just wish for permanent relief and peace from all suffering where all is finally forgotten. I just want to forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible, cruel tragic mistake and I really will only be at peace once I never suffer ever again, I just hope and wish to be unconscious of this existence, to me existing really is only suffering, I see existence as the problem and I suffer just from existing, I really would never wish for the torturous, futile burden of existing rather I just wish for nothingness, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from this existence I always saw as the problem.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence was never worth it for me.
It truly was never worth it for me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence no matter what rather I just wish for nothingness, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and this existence is finally gone, existence could never be worth it for me rather I see existence as the problem, existence is something so cruel and terrible to me as after all it's the source of all suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again.

I just wish for this existence to be all gone for me, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I'd just never wish for the torturous, futile burden of existing as a human, to me existence really does feel like a mistake and it's something I'd rather avoid that I just want permanent peace from and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for. I just want to sleep eternally with this existence finally all forgotten about, as long as I exist I truly will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I was just never meant for any of this and I'm always so tired of suffering, the peace of non-existence really has been all I've hoped for and is all that can bring me any relief from this existence that really was never worth it for me, I'd just never wish for this existence of unnecessary cruelty and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much harm.
It truly does just cause so much harm and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, it really is all just so cruel and terrible to me, I'll always see existence as the most torturous abomination and the fact that this existence was imposed even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all really is the most terrible tragedy to me. All I personally hope for is to sleep for all eternity and never suffer ever again, I just wish to be unconscious of this existence and permanently unable to suffer but of course the suffering and cruelty of existence just continues torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd prefer to not exist no matter what, non-existence really is always preferable for me than suffering for the sake of it trapped in this existence just waiting to not exist anyway.

To me existing really is just waiting to die and I really only hope to cease existing, I'd be relieved to be free from this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd never wish to be conscious in this existence and I suffer so much from being burdened with this harmful existence. For me non-existence truly is the only peace and is all I could hope and wish for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and it's one that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any relief from, existence itself will always be the true problem to me no matter what as after all it's the source of all harm and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, all I personally hope for is to painlessly cease existing and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of existing just continues. I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist no matter what and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I just wish I could have the option to choose to sleep permanently as the peace of non-existence really is always preferable for me than suffering in this futile, cruel existence just waiting to die anyway.

I'd prefer the peace of never suffering ever again over being burdened with this existence that there was never even a need for at all just destined to decay and die anyway with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I personally find it so tiring and painful to be conscious burdened with this existence I was never meant for. I never should have been forced to suffer in this existence and I wish I never suffered more than anything, to me human existence truly is just pointless unnecessary suffering and I really would never wish for any of this, I just want to not exist instead. Non-existence truly is all that's desirable for me and is the only peace for me from this existence I never would have chosen that I never would have wished for, I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from the cruelty and suffering of this existence I never would have chosen and never would have wished for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wish to erase my existence.
I always hope and wish to erase my existence, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all as all I hope for is to finally disappear from this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, I just want this existence to be all gone and no longer my problem but of course all the suffering of existing just continues instead with me trapped in this existence just hoping for the peace of an eternal nothingness where all is finally forgotten. Being able to erase my existence really would solve everything for me and save me from so much unnecessary suffering, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course I never should have been forced to suffer at all, for me true perfection could only lie in never suffering.

I see it as something so dreadful and terrible to be burdened with this existence there was never a need for that just caused endless amounts of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just wish for nothingness, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem. I see existence as an abomination that just causes so much harm and I'd just always prefer to not exist, non-existence is all I personally see as desirable. I've only ever wished for some peace and it's all I could wish for no matter what, I just want to finally forget about this existence of cruelty and suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway, my existence would be best erased as if I'm gone then finally I'll be at peace, I just want to never suffer ever again.