Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Wishing for the permanency of non-existence.
All I wish for is permanent non-existence, a permanent solution to what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself really is what I need, I just wish for permanent peace from the suffering of existing but of course all the suffering in this cruel, torturous existence just continues. The fact that non-existence is permanent is exactly why it appeals to me, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake that just caused all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it.

Non-existence really would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone then I cannot suffer in any way and nothing can concern me, I just wish for this cruel, futile existence to be no longer my problem, I just want to forget about this existence, for me existence really is always something I'd prefer to forget about, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist. What appeals to me about non-existence is that there are no disadvantages to it, I personally just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this futile, torturous existence just continues, I wish I could just choose to never wake ever again, I'll only be at peace once I finally no longer exist and I'm unconscious for all eternity. I just want to disappear from this existence I saw as just causing suffering, existing to me really is only suffering and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, for me non-existence is all that's positive, it's all that could ever be desirable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in this torturous existence.
There truly is so much suffering in this torturous, futile existence, it really is just so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I just wish for non-existence, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten about.

I'll personally always see it as an abomination to suffer in this torturous, unnecessary existence there was never a need for and I find it so tragic how this existence of suffering and cruelty was even imposed, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just hoping and waiting to die anyway and to me existing really is just waiting for death. It's just suffering all for the sake of it and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of eternal nothingness where I'm permanently unable to suffer and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me. I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, it really is just all so cruel, there's so much cruelty in this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about it all, existence to me really was never worth it, I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

The only relief for me lies in non-existence.
No matter what the only relief for me really could only lie in non-existence and to permanently cease existing really is all I could hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I just wish for the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I cannot suffer in any way and to me existing feels like only suffering, there's just so much suffering in this cruel, torturous existence. I truly would never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only hope to not exist, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, non-existence is the only relief for me as after all there are no disadvantages to eternal sleep.

If I'm gone then I'm no longer burdened with this existence and finally nothing can concern me, I just wish for this futile, unnecessary existence to no longer be my concern, all I hope and wish for is non-existence, it's all that's ideal for me and could ever be, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced to suffer at all, to suffer in this terrible, tragic existence will always be so dreadful to me. I find it so undesirable to exist and the only relief for me could lie in non-existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[onmywaytothebusstop]

The only relief for me lies in non-existence.
No matter what the only relief for me really could only lie in non-existence and to permanently cease existing really is all I could hope for, I just want to never exist ever again, I just wish for the relief of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and I cannot suffer in any way and to me existing feels like only suffering, there's just so much suffering in this cruel, torturous existence. I truly would never wish for any of this no matter what rather I only hope to not exist, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from all unnecessary suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, non-existence is the only relief for me as after all there are no disadvantages to eternal sleep.

If I'm gone then I'm no longer burdened with this existence and finally nothing can concern me, I just wish for this futile, unnecessary existence to no longer be my concern, all I hope and wish for is non-existence, it's all that's ideal for me and could ever be, I truly was never meant for any of this and I never should have been forced to suffer at all, to suffer in this terrible, tragic existence will always be so dreadful to me. I find it so undesirable to exist and the only relief for me could lie in non-existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I'd never wish for any of this.

So relatable.
I wish i could give you a hug.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me just feels like a mistake.
It truly does feel like a mistake to me and it's one that just causes so much suffering and harm, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence, non-existence truly is always preferable for me than any of this. I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, to me existence really is a mistake and I wish I was never burdened with it more than anything.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this terrible, tragic existence, for me existence really was never worth it and I find it completely undesirable to exist in every way, all I hope for is to cease existing in peace with this existence all forgotten about for me, a painless death really is always preferable for me than suffering in this futile unnecessary existence and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this existence I always saw as a mistake. There's just so much cruelty, so much suffering in existing, it's really all just so painful to me, I'd never wish for any of this no matter what under any circumstances, I only hope for eternal non-existence instead, I just want to sleep for all eternity where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally no longer my concern and all gone, only being permanently unable to suffer could ever be desirable for me, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Finding it painful to exist.
I personally always find it painful to exist and I'd just never wish to exist no matter what, I only hope and wish for eternal non-existence instead, to be conscious in this existence is something so torturous and painful to me, there's just so much pain in existing and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again. I just want permanent peace from the pain and suffering of existing but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just wishing to be gone, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again as I find it so painful to be trapped in this existence I was never meant for that just brought me so much pain and existing to me really does feel like only suffering.

I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, torturous existence that was completely unnecessary and I just wish this existence was never imposed, never existing truly would had saved me from so much suffering, I wish I could just fall asleep permanently and forget about it all, as long as I exist I truly will only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, only eternal sleep can take away the pain caused by existing for me. I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway, I only hope and wish to not exist and it's all I could wish for, I was just never meant for the cruelty, pain and suffering of existing, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable, I just wish for permanent relief from all suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just unnecessary suffering.
It truly is just unnecessary suffering to me and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer in this futile, torturous existence at all, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway.

I just don't see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence at all rather I just want to peacefully not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would have wished for that just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence really is the most terrible, tragic imposition that just causes all this harm and suffering and it's all just so unnecessary to me as well, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for permanent non-existence where finally all is forgotten about for me. I was just never meant for any of this as well and I never should have been forced to exist at all, to me existence really was never worth it, I wish I never suffered, nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence and I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way. I personally see nothing desirable about being conscious in this existence just waiting to die, existing to me really is the most torturous, futile burden and it's one I'd never wish for, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence that caused and brought all this suffering all for the sake of it, I just want to not exist instead, non-existence is the only peace for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much pain in existing.
There really is so much pain in existing, I personally see existence as the most torturous, futile abomination that just causes so much pain and suffering all for the sake of it and I truly would never wish for any of this no matter what, I just wish for non-existence instead, only eternal nothingness can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would have chosen. Nothing would ever make me wish for this painful existence and I'll always find it so torturous to exist, existence to me really is just an unnecessary harm that causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again.

I just want peace from this unnecessary painful existence I always saw as a mistake, for me existence truly was never worth it rather I wish I never existed, I always find it so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existence and it's suffering that only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from. I just want to never suffer ever again, the only relief for me truly could lie in ceasing to exist where this painful existence is finally all forgotten and I can be at peace, I personally just want to sleep for all eternity and I suffer so much from how the option for me to just permanently escape from the pain of existing is so harmfully denied with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what instead, I'd just never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
It really is always an abomination to me and it's one that just causes so much suffering and harm, I truly would always prefer to not exist than be conscious in this harmful existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel, to me existing really is only suffering and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from. I see existence as an abomination as after all it's the source of all suffering and ultimate cause of all that tortures existing beings responsible for causing all this endless agony, I see it as an abomination to burdened with this unnecessary existence there was never a need for suffering so unnecessarily just to be tortured in agony from old age and die anyway.

I really would always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence is all that's positive, only being non-existent is desirable for me as the way I see it to exist means to suffer so unnecessarily and to die means to never suffer ever again, all I hope and wish for is permanent peace and relief from all cruelty and suffering, I'd just never wish for the torturous abomination of existence. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem which is why I'll only wish and hope for death, I only hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of existing just continues, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally free myself from the abomination of existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway, I never should had existed at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is the only peace for me.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this cruel, futile existence, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing with this existence finally all gone and forgotten about for me. I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently as dreamless, eternal sleep really is all I hope for and could ever do no matter what, I just want this torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me to finally be no longer my problem but of course the suffering just continues instead and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

I wish I could just choose to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, for me existence really was never worth it rather it's something I just want peace from, I see it as deeply undesirable to exist in every way possible, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence rather I really would just prefer non-existence. It's the only peace for me, it's all that can bring me any relief, the only relief for me truly could only lie in eternal dreamless sleep, I just want to sleep permanently and never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I wish for and to me existing really is just only suffering, I suffer just from having to exist, I just hope to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is deeply undesirable to me.
No matter what I truly will always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence in every way, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping to be gone, I just find existing to be so undesirable in every way and I'd always prefer to not exist. Only non-existence is positive for me as only then will I be at peace from the burden of existence and I'll always see it as so burdensome to exist no matter what, for me existence is a burden that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for that only non-existence can bring me any relief from.

I'd just never wish to exist no matter what and I've never had any interest in existing anyway rather I just hope for non-existence, I only wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I'm finally free from all cruelty and suffering and the way I see it existence causes only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I really will only hope for non-existence and it's truly all I could wish for. I've never wished to exist, I just see no point, benefit and value to existing in general rather I see existence as a mistake that just causes harm and suffering, under no circumstances would I wish for any of this unnecessary suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering, I really was just never meant for any of this and I see existing as so futile as well, as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me was never worth it.
No matter what existence to me really could never be worth it, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence and I find it a tragedy how I was burdened with this existence of pointless suffering that there was never a need for, I find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and as long as I exist I'll only wish for the peace of non-existence, permanent non-existence truly is all that's positive and desirable for me and is all that can bring me any relief from the torturous burden of human existence where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it.

I truly would prefer to not exist and non-existence is all I wish for, I was just never meant for any of this and I never saw it as desirable to exist in the first place, nothing would ever make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just wish I never suffered at all, I wish I was never burdened with this unnecessary existence, never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in an existence that truly was never worth it for me. To me existing really is just suffering all for the sake of it and I'd just never wish for any of the suffering this existence causes and brings, only eternal non-existence could ever bring me any peace and relief, I'll only wish to not exist no matter what and non-existence is all I could hope for, nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from all the unnecessary suffering of this existence that was so tragically imposed.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me really is just an unnecessary harm.
It truly is such an unnecessary harm to me that just causes endless amounts of suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it, no matter what I'll always find it so terrible and torturous to suffer in this existence and I really would always prefer non-existence, to not exist really is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for. To me existence really does feel like the most harmful mistake that just tortures existing beings until all is forgotten about in non-existence anyway.

I'd always prefer to not exist no matter what, only permanently ceasing to exist could ever be desirable for me personally and I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then is this harmful existence finally no longer my concern and all forgotten about, I could personally just never see any point to any of this as well rather I just see existence as the most terrible, cruel harmful tragedy that just causes so much suffering all for the sake of it. Existence to me really does cause only harm, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me, non-existence is all I could hope for as only then is this harmful existence all forgotten and no longer my problem, I really would never wish for any of this rather I only hope to never suffer ever again, to me existence really does just feel like a mistake and it's one that just causes endless amounts of suffering all for the sake of it, for me non-existence truly is always preferable, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile to me.
It really is so futile to me, I see existing as just being unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, I truly would always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this futile existence, permanent non-existence truly is all that could ever be desirable for me personally no matter what.

To me existing really is just waiting to die, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence all for the sake of it rather I wish I never existed at all, never existing would had saved me from so much futile suffering in this existence I never would have chosen and would never wish for no matter what. I see existence as the most cruel, futile burden that is completely unnecessary that just leads to decay and death anyway and to not exist really is all I could hope for. I just wish to be be permanently unconscious of this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I really would never wish for any of this and all I see as desirable is to not exist, I'll always find it so futile to exist and I'd personally be relieved to never suffer ever again, non-existence truly is the only relief for me from the burden of existence and is all I can hope for. I see existing as only being suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I could just never see a point to any of this and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing in peace even know this futile existence was imposed in the first place.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing to sleep permanently.
No matter what eternal sleep truly is all I could hope and wish for, I only wish to sleep permanently, I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal, dreamless sleep over suffering in this futile, torturous existence that there was never a need for, for me eternal sleep truly is always preferable to suffering so unnecessarily in this futile existence just to be tortured by old age. I personally find it deeply undesirable to exist in every way and see existing as just being pointless suffering all for the sake of it, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, I just hope for this existence to be all forgotten for me and I'll only be at peace once this existence is no longer my problem.

I'd always prefer to cease existing than be conscious in this existence just to decay and die anyway, I see existence as such an cruel burden and it's one I was never meant for and I'm always so tired of being conscious in this existence, I just find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing no matter what rather I just wish to sleep permanently. Eternal sleep really is all that can bring me peace from this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and eternal non-existence really is all I could hope for, I've only ever wished for eternal sleep and it's all that can bring me any peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is an abomination, I wish I could just choose to permanently cease existing and finally forget about it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never being meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I really never should have been forced into this futile, torturous existence at all, as long as I exist I really will only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from this existence I was never meant for and never would have wished for. To me existence really does feel like a mistake and it's one that only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I hope for is the peace of non-existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence there was never a need for just to be tortured by old age and die anyway.

To me existing really is just cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable it can get and I'd just never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence and I was just never meant to exist at all, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to sleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where I'm finally free from all the suffering in this cruel, harmful existence I was never meant for. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to painlessly cease existing, as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from the suffering, I just want all to be forgotten about for me, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered as I really was just never meant for any of this and I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be safe from suffering in non-existence.
I truly will only be safe from suffering in non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake as after all only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer. There cannot be any suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'd prefer to forget about this existence, I just want permanent relief from this harmful, torturous existence and to me existing feels like only suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get.

It really is just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for nothingness, only in non-existence will I be safe from all suffering in this existence that just causes all this harm and cruelty, it's horrific to me how existence causes all this endless suffering, I see it as an abomination to suffer in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and I find it so dreadful how this existence was even imposed at all, no matter what I'd prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence. I'd just never wish for any of this, more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I'd just never wish to be conscious of this existence rather I'd always prefer to be unaware incapable of suffering, this existence will always be completely undesirable to me, I see existence itself as the ultimate problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and cruelty and it's a problem only non-existence could ever bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

I was just never meant for any of this.
I truly was never meant for any of this and I really never should have suffered in this existence at all, to exist will always be an abomination to me and I see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake that just causes so much suffering until non-existence takes all away and I really was just never meant to suffer, I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist as well and it's suffering that only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from.

I only hope to not exist as after all only in non-existence am I unable to suffer, there's no pain, no suffering in non-existence instead this existence is finally all gone and forgotten which is all I hope for, I just wish for permanent peace from this existence I was never meant for, never would have chosen and would never wish for no matter what, for me existence really could never be worth it and I see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to die anyway. I'd always prefer to not exist than be conscious suffering in this torturous existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, it's all just so terrible and painful to me, non-existence truly is all I could hope for and I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from this existence I was never meant for that only ever caused me so much pain and the pain and suffering of existing truly is endless, only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for peace.
Peace from this existence truly is all I could hope and wish for, I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, existence is just so torturous and futile to me and always will be no matter what. I was just never meant for this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty and as long as I exist I'll only wish for some peace, non-existence truly is all I personally see as desirable and is all I hope for, I'd always prefer to be permanently unconscious than suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this cruel, torturous existence just hoping to sleep permanently, for me eternal sleep really is always preferable to being trapped in this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to save myself from so much suffering in this existence I never would have chosen. I just want to peacefully cease existing and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally gone, forgotten and no longer my problem, I always suffer so much from being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just wish for the relief of never suffering ever again where finally I can be at peace, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, I wish to be unable to suffer, I just wish for the peace of never existing ever again, I'll always find it so dreadful and futile to suffer in this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
Non-existence really is always preferable for me and is all I could ever hope for, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence just to decay from age and die anyway, the thought of suffering for so much longer just to reach old age is really horrific and unbearable to me. I'd just never wish for that rather I just wish for eternal sleep instead, to me human existence just feels like a mistake, I see it as pointless suffering and it really was never worth it for me, I'd just never wish for the cruelty and suffering of existing no matter what and I'd always prefer to not exist, peaceful non-existence would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way.

There's no suffering in eternal non-existence which is what I personally see as ideal, I just want to never exist ever again, I'd just never wish for this painful, torturous existence that just causes an immense amount of harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until non-existence takes away all anyway. I personally just want to sleep for all eternity, eternal sleep really is the only relief for me and I suffer so much from how we exist in this reality where unnecessary suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was imposed in the first place, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer until old age, I just don't see any point, benefit or value to existing in general rather I see existence as an abomination and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

The wish to never suffer ever again.
All I could ever hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake that just causes all this suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway, I truly would always prefer to forget about this existence but of course I continue to suffer wishing and hoping for the peace that only eternal nothingness can bring me. I personally really will always see it as so torturous to exist, to me existing is the most futile, undesirable burden that just causes so much suffering and harm until all is gone in death anyway and under no circumstances would I wish to exist.

I'd never wish to suffer in this existence rather I just want to sleep permanently, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I'm just waiting for death anyway and to me existing truly is just waiting to die, I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this existence I never would had wished for and never would have chosen. I just wish to be non-existent, I'd always prefer the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep over suffering in this existence that there was never a need for and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence no matter what, it's tiredness that only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, I truly would just never wish for any of this suffering and I'll always see it as as so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this existence, I just hope for the peace of never existing ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, the way I see it all that existence does is just cause so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this cruel, painful existence and it's suffering that only eternal non-existence can take away for me. All I hope for is to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this harmful existence and I see it as so harmful to exist as after all there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel as long as they are enslaved in this existence there was never a need for that I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

There's just so much cruelty and suffering in this existence, it's all so painful to me and I really would just never wish for any of this no matter what rather I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence certainly is always preferable for me than suffering all for the sake of it in this harmful existence that I see as completely unnecessary and to me existing really is just pointless suffering. It's all just so painful and terrible to me, I'll always see existence itself as the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, there cannot be any suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep which is why it's all I hope for, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, it's just so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to permanently cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from existing.
I truly do suffer from existing and to me existence itself really does feel like only suffering, it's all just so dreadful and painful to me, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I was never meant for that was always completely unnecessary to me, I'll always just see existing as being suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for, I see it as something so dreadful to be forced to suffer in this existence that was always a mistake to me.

For me existence truly could never be worth it, I'd just never wish for any of the suffering and cruelty of existing rather I'd just prefer to not exist, non-existence truly is all that's desirable to me as I just don't want to suffer at all, I just want peace instead, I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this completely unnecessary existence that was so tragically imposed, no matter what I'll only hope for non-existence. I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing and I always suffer just from existing, to me existing really is just only suffering and I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything. As long as I exist I'll only ever hope to never wake again as I just want some peace and only ceasing to exist can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I never would have chose, I truly was never meant to suffer in this existence, I just want to never suffer ever again, existence itself truly is the ultimate problem for me and is something I'd never wish for, only non-existence could ever bring me any relief from suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd be relieved to never exist ever again.
I truly would be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, non-existence truly is all that's positive for me, it's all I could ever hope for and is all that can bring me any relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd be relieved for this existence to be no longer my problem.

All I hope for is permanent peace from the burden of existence but of course the suffering of existing just continues, it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know non-existence really would solve everything for me and this existence was imposed in the first place, I truly would always prefer to not exist and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again truly would be a relief for me, it's all I'll ever hope for and could wish for no matter what. I'd never wish to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence all for the sake of it just to be tortured by old age with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I personally just want to forget about this existence, for me peace really could only ever lie in being permanently unconscious and incapable of suffering, I'd never wish to suffer in this existence and more than anything I wish this existence was never imposed, I'll always see existence as the most cruel, torturous imposition that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it, I'd be relieved to be free from all this.

 

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Never existing would had saved me from suffering.
Never existing at all truly would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I find it the most terrible, cruel harmful tragedy how this existence there was never a need for was even imposed at all, it's just so tragic how all of this suffering could had been prevented if I was never forced into existence. I'd always prefer to not exist but only never existing could ever be true perfection for me, I'd always prefer to stay unaware and unconscious of this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish I was never burdened with this cruel, futile existence there was never a need for at all.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from all the suffering, I just want true permanent peace from this existence that is an abomination to me, I could personally never see any benefit to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to finally be forgotten about for me, I see human existence as just unnecessary cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel all while they are just waiting to die anyway. I've never wished for any of this and I was never meant for it either, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just wish to be non-existent, only eternal nothingness can bring me the peace I search for from this torturous existence that always felt like a mistake to me but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting to die.
No matter what I really will always see existing as just waiting to die, that's all it is to me as after all eventually all will be forgotten about in non-existence no matter what and if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is all I hope for. I just want to finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most cruel and harmful mistake, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's something I see as deeply undesirable in every way, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence and to me existing is just waiting to die.

I'd personally always prefer to prevent unnecessary suffering than prolong it just to end up way more tortured and what terrifies me is how there is no limit as to how unbearable the agony of existing can get, I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to face the extreme torture of old age and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know to me existing really is just waiting to die and I always suffer so much from waiting to cease existing in this existence I never would have wished for. I wish this existence was never imposed at all, no matter what I'd prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it and existing really is just only suffering to me, I suffer just from being conscious in this existence and as long as I exist I truly will only hope to be gone, non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering and it's the kind of tiredness that only dreamless eternal sleep can take away for me, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake ever again, I just want to sleep permanently with this futile, torturous existence finally all gone and forgotten. I'd always prefer to forget about this existence no matter what but of course all the suffering just continues with me just hoping to be gone, I've personally always felt so tired and I find it tiring to suffer in this existence I was never meant for and never would have chosen, I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing, I'd always prefer to be non-existent no matter what.

I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally I'm unable to suffer and nothing can concern me, I'd personally never wish for this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'm always so tired of suffering, I really was never meant for any of this and I just never should have been forced to suffer at all. I wish I could just fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, only eternal sleep can bring me the peace I search for from this existence and I'd be so relieved to finally fall asleep permanently, I'm just so tired of suffering in this existence and I've always felt so tired, I'd just personally never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep eternally, I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as eternal sleep truly is all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence can I be at peace.
Non-existence truly is the only peace for me and is all that can bring me the peace I search for from this futile, torturous existence, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence I always saw as the most cruel, tragic mistake and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence there was never a need for.

I'd personally be so relieved to never suffer ever again, peace for me could only lie in non-existence as after all there are no disadvantages to permanent sleep, I cannot suffer from the peace of non-existence rather all is finally gone and forgotten about instead and I really would prefer to not exist, non-existence really is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering. To me existing really is just waiting to die, that's all it could ever be for me as after all, all will be forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd always prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it just to suffer way more, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering in existing and I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist no matter what, nothing really would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have chosen and would never have wished for, I personally just want some peace instead and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peaceful death would solve everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where this torturous existence is finally all forgotten about, I really would always prefer to not exist no matter what and to not exist really is all I could hope for. I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again, I just want to finally forget about this existence, peaceful death would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in non-existence which is what I personally see as ideal, I just want to never exist ever again.

Ceasing to exist solves all the problems for me there were never a need for at all and anyway non-existence is all that could ever be positive for me, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence is no longer my problem and I'm no longer burdened with this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd just personally never wish for the abomination of existence rather I just hope for all to finally be gone for me. I'll always see it as so dreadful, futile and torturous to suffer in this existence, I just wish for the peace of non-existence to finally solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would have wished for, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to never suffer ever again, I just wish for permanent peace from all suffering and cruelty.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is only suffering.
It truly is just only suffering to me and I suffer simply from existing, no matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence, I see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes and brings so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. It really is all so terrible to me, non-existence really is all that can bring me any relief from the suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll only wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I just wish for the peace of permanent sleep where finally I'm unable to suffer in any way and nothing can concern me, I'd personally always prefer to forget about this existence.

I just want permanent relief from this existence that is only suffering to me, the way I see it existence just causes so much harm and suffering all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway, it's all just so cruel to me and there's so much cruelty in existing, I see it as so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited extents just waiting to die anyway. To me existing really is just only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering that only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that only ever caused me to suffer, to me existence truly is the most cruel, unnecessary burden and it's one I never would have chosen, I'd never wish to suffer at all.