Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so horrific to me how a human can can suffer for so long in this existence just to be tortured in agony from old age, I really would never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the dreadful unnecessary terrible suffering of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer just to decay and die anyway. Existing to me really is only suffering, I just wish I never had to suffer at all, never existing would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake and there's just so much cruelty in this torturous existence.

I find it terrifying how a human can be enslaved in this existence for so long just to suffer even more, it truly is so cruel and painful how I cannot just have the option to simply cease existing in peace even know I'd never wish for any of this, I wish I was never burdened with this existence, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this horrific world where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know all of this was imposed. I just don't wish to suffer at all rather I wish to be unconscious free from the suffering and cruelty of this existence, to me existence itself really is the true problem and I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long, the thought of being enslaved in this existence until old age is just so unbearable, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
Only in non-existence will I be at peace and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I wish for all to finally be forgotten about for me, non-existence is the only relief for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep rather all will finally be gone instead. I personally just hope to never exist ever again, what appeals to me about ceasing to exist is that there are no disadvantages to it, all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity free from the torturous and futile burden of existing that only ever caused all this suffering all for the sake of it and I was just never meant for the burden of existing rather I'm just meant for peace and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence.

For me there could never be any peace in suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, existence itself will always be the true problem to me, it's something that just causes and brings all this suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace. I wish for the peace of never suffering ever again, I'd be so relieved to finally be free from this existence I never would had wished for where I'm just hoping and waiting to die anyway, non-existence is all I wish for and could ever do no matter what, I just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me will always be only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only being suffering, I see existence as the most cruel, futile imposition that just causes so much harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence, I personally just want peace from the suffering but of course the suffering and cruelty just continues instead with me just hoping to be gone.

It really is all so painful to me and there's just so much pain in existing, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently so I can finally find peace from the suffering of existing, what is so dreadful to me is how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I truly would never wish for any of this rather I just want some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence I always saw as a terrible tragic mistake. To me existence itself really is the true problem, I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, existence will always be the problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering, I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, I just want to never suffer ever again, I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until all is forgotten about for me in non-existence, non-existence is the only peace for me it's all I see as positive in an existence that causes and brings so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I really was just never meant for any of this.
I really was just never meant for any of this and I just never should have suffered at all, I'll always see it as so torturous and futile to suffer in this existence, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, it's all I hope for and all I see as positive, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering I only hope to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace from this existence I never would have chosen and was never meant for once I no longer exist.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for and I really would be so relieved to never suffer ever again in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy and I was just never meant for any of this, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence and non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it's all that could bring me any peace and to peacefully cease existing really is all I hope for. I'll always just see existing as being unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, to me existence itself will always be the true problem, it's something that just causes all this cruelty and suffering until non- existence takes away all anyway with no limit as to how much one can suffer, I really was just never meant for the futile and torturous burden of human existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish and hope to be gone, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Eternal sleep is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and could ever do no matter what, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again, dreamless eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much peace from this existence I never would have chosen. I just never wished to suffer in this existence and I never would do rather I only hope for the peace of non-existence, to permanently not exist really is all I see as desirable and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.

I just wish for an permanent sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where nothing can concern me and all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden so futile and cruel that I never would have chosen, I personally always find it so painful and dreadful to exist and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently. I wish I could just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and I'd always prefer to sleep than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence that just caused so much pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for, to be at peace for all eternity really is all I've hoped for and could ever do, I just wish for nothingness, I just want to never suffer ever again, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather existence just feels like a mistake to me and it's something I wish was never imposed more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always find it so torturous to exist.
I really will always find it so torturous to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering that only eternal non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from, existing to me really is only suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence I never would had wished for and never would have chosen. I'll always see it as a burden to exist and I find it so torturous to be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'd just never wish for this existence, to me human existence will always feel like the most cruel mistake and it's one that only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just find it so torturous to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts.

I find it deeply undesirable to exist and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I find it so dreadful how I was forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering, I'd always prefer to stay permanently unconscious of this existence and as long as I exist I'll only ever wish for non-existence. I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where this torturous existence is finally all forgotten, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I exist in this reality where suffering is seen as to force and prolong no matter what even know this existence was so tragically imposed, I'd just never wish for any of this and I really will always find it so torturous to exist, nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is always preferable for me.
It really is always preferable for me and is all I wish for, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where finally all is forgotten, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence with no limit as to how much agony I can feel just to face the torture of old age. It's just horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long in this existence and I'll always see it as the most futile, torturous burden to exist, I wish I could just simply choose to cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again as non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could do no matter what.

I just wish for this harmful, torturous existence to be all gone and forgotten about, I just find it so dreadful to exist and always will do, existence for me could never be worth it and I always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'll personally always see existence as a mistake and it's one that just causes problems there were never a need for and so much cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it. It's all just so terrible to me and painful, I really would always prefer to not exist and non-existence is all I personally see as positive, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the burden of existence and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I just want some peace and the peace of non-existence really would solve everything for me, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
It really would solve everything for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and no matter what I'd always prefer to forget about this existence, I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd always prefer to not exist, non-existence solves all problems for me there were never a need for at all in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

For me personally non-existence truly is all that's positive and is all I could hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again, I just want some peace from all the suffering and cruelty of existing where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again and the only relief for me really could lie in non-existence, what I personally see as the true problem is existence itself and it's a problem only non-existence can bring me peace from and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence. To me existence really is the most futile, torturous burden that just causes all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so terrible to me and more than anything I wish I never suffered at all, I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to fall into an permanent sleep as eternal sleep really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this existence I never would have chosen, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd always prefer to be unaware of this existence.
I truly would always prefer to be unaware of this existence and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I see it as something so dreadful and terrible to be forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty and no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope for non-existence instead and I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just causes all this suffering but more than anything I wish I never suffered at all. In an existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it only never existing could ever be true perfection for me but now I suffer so much as a result of this futile, torturous existence I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me.

For me peace could only lie in being unconscious for all eternity with this existence no longer my problem with no more suffering, no more cruelty, I really was never meant for any of this and I just wish I stayed unaware of this existence, I always find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer even know there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all. More than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall into an permanent sleep so I can finally be free from this existence that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and to me existing really is only suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I personally see as desirable.
It's all that's desirable for me and is all I could wish for, I just want to never suffer in this torturous, futile existence ever again and I'd be so relieved to finally cease existing, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is gone for me, only non-existence could ever be positive for me no matter what.

Only eternal sleep could personally bring me the relief I search for from this existence I always saw as a mistake and to me existing really is only just suffering, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, I just want to fall asleep permanently, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it just to decay and be tortured by old age. It's so horrible to me how there's all this cruelty and torture in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only wish for non-existence instead, I just wish for an eternal sleep where finally I cannot suffer and I'm no longer enslaved in this existence I never would had wished for and nothing would make me wish for the suffering of existing rather I just hope for some peace instead and peace for me could only lie in eternal nothingness. I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, to me existence itself will always be the ultimate problem and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I'm always so tired of suffering in this unnecessary, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd prefer to not suffer than prolong suffering.
I personally truly would always prefer to not suffer than prolong the suffering of existing, I just don't see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence at all rather I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and it feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently as I just don't want to suffer. I just wish for eternal nothingness instead where all is forgotten about, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity with this existence finally no longer my problem, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there is no disadvantages to not existing yet there is no limit as to how unbearable this existence can get that just leads to decay and death anyway.

I really would just never wish for any of this, I see existing as so futile, so unnecessary, non-existence really is all that's desirable to me and I could just never see value and point to prolonging suffering rather I wish I never suffered at all, I wish this cruel, harmful existence was never imposed at all, I really do always suffer so much from the imposition of existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again. Only non-existence could ever bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence I never would have chose, non-existence really would solve everything for me and is all I personally see as positive, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and I'd always prefer to just not suffer at all, nothing would make me wish for any of this, I just want to sleep permanently instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I truly am always so tired of it all, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is peace from all the cruelty and suffering, I wish I could just choose to not exist and finally be at peace but of course the suffering in this torturous, harmful existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen just continues. I always suffer so much from how peaceful death is denied for me, I'd just always prefer the peace of non-existence over suffering so unnecessarily in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die.

It's just suffering all for the sake of it and I'm always so tired of it all, I've always felt so tired of suffering in this cruel existence I was never meant for and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I could ever wish and hope for is to not exist, non-existence would solve everything for me and is all I personally see as positive in this existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering. I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, no matter what I really will always see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I just want peace from it all, permanent non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me, I'm just so tired of suffering and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much cruelty in existing.
There really is so much cruelty in existing, it's all so painful and dreadful to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist, in an existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering permanent non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace from the cruelty and torture of existing where existing beings suffer so much with no limit as to how much agony they can feel. It really is all just so terrible to me, I personally just see existence as an abomination, I see it as the most tragic mistake that causes all this cruelty and harm until non-existence takes away all anyway and I truly would never would wish for any of this, I see existence itself as the true problem which is why I'll always hope and wish for death no matter what.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and I can rest, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this existence where there is all this cruelty and suffering, I wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything. I find it so dreadful how I was forced to suffer so unnecessarily just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and non-existence really is all I could hope for. I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality capable of suffering to unlimited extents rather all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just choose to painlessly cease existing and finally be free from this harmful, torturous existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never having any interest in existing.
No matter what I could never have any interest in existing and I see it as so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I always have done and always will do, I'd just never wish for any of this under any circumstances but rather all I hope for is non-existence. Only non-existence could ever be desirable for me as only then will I be free from the cruel, futile burden of existence where all is finally gone and forgotten about for me and I'd just never wish for the burden of existence, I've never wished for any of this and I really would always prefer to sleep permanently no matter what.

I could just never see any point, value and benefit to existing rather to me existing really is only suffering and I've just never had any interest in it rather I'd just prefer non-existence, I only wish for nothingness and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with all finally gone for me, I really was just never meant for any of this as well and I'd just never wish to exist. Non-existence is always preferable for me than being burdened with this futile existence just destined to decay and die anyway, nothing would make me wish for this existence of unnecessary suffering rather I just want peace, I'll always find it so cruel how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know this existence was imposed and I've just never had any interest in it, to me existence could never be a desirable state, I see it as a mistake that just causes so much harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I could erase my existence.
I truly wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I want it to be like I never suffered in this futile, torturous existence at all, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the burden of existing rather I just want to never exist ever again, all I see as desirable is being unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering.

Existence to me really is deeply undesirable in every way and I was just never meant for any of this, I'll always wish to erase my existence, I just want all to be finally all gone for me but of course the suffering of existing just continues, being able to erase my existence would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace, it's all I hope for as I really never should had been forced to exist at all. To me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic mistake, there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I want is to erase my existence, I just want peace from this existence that was so tragically imposed and I'll only be at peace once I never suffer ever again. I really was just never meant for the suffering of existing and I'd just never wish for it at all, existence itself really is the true problem to me that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for at all, it's all just so dreadful to me and so unnecessary, as long as I exist I truly will just hope to be gone, I wish for all to finally be forgotten for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Needing peace.
The peace of non-existence is all I've ever hoped and wished for, I need the option to just fall asleep permanently, all I need is true permanent peace from this existence, I could never see any peace in the torturous burden of human existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and I find it so horrific how a human can suffer for so long just to be tortured in agony by old age, I really would never wish for any of this rather I only wish for non-existence.

I wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me with this existence finally all forgotten about, I'd just never wish to exist and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing, non-existence really is preferable for me than suffering in this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, for me peace really could only lie in never suffering ever again, I just want to finally forget about this existence that only ever caused me to suffer. I'd be so relieved to finally fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, non-existence really is all that's positive for me and is all I could see as desirable, I just wish for no more cruelty, no more suffering, I just want to rest instead, existence really was never worth it for me rather it's just something I only want peace from, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity where nothing can concern me, nothing would make me wish for any of this no matter what rather all I want is some peace.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to die as a result of existence.
My wish to not exist truly is a result of existence and I'd just always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer in this cruel, futile existence, non-existence really is always preferable to me and is all I hope for, I wish to not exist as a result of being burdened with this existence and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence. I personally see nothing desirable about existing at all rather existing to me is always a burden and it's one I wish was never imposed, I just wish that more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone.

Non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, existence itself is always the ultimate problem to me which is why I'll always wish for death no matter what, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this torturous existence just continues and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to die peacefully with no risks of it going wrong and leading to worse suffering. All hope for is non-existence and my wish to die is a result of existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and there is no more suffering, I truly never should have suffered in this existence, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[Rational man]

Wish to die as a result of existence.
My wish to not exist truly is a result of existence and I'd just always prefer to permanently cease existing than suffer in this cruel, futile existence, non-existence really is always preferable to me and is all I hope for, I wish to not exist as a result of being burdened with this existence and I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence. I personally see nothing desirable about existing at all rather existing to me is always a burden and it's one I wish was never imposed, I just wish that more than anything I wish I was never forced into this existence of unnecessary suffering and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone.

Non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, existence itself is always the ultimate problem to me which is why I'll always wish for death no matter what, I just hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this torturous existence just continues and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to die peacefully with no risks of it going wrong and leading to worse suffering. All hope for is non-existence and my wish to die is a result of existence, as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, I only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and there is no more suffering, I truly never should have suffered in this existence, I suffer just from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

Very profound feelings. Just to add, I believe that cessation is not a state of being. Only in life do we feel existence in the form of being. Therefore after cessation and depending on beliefs of the hereafter, we stop being. Non -existence cannot be experienced in the true sense of all- being. We live and then we cease, each and everyone is guaranteed the processw of eventual impermanence...at least its how I think.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing with no limit as to how much one can suffer, it truly is all just so cruel and terrible to me and I'd just never wish for any of this, I really was just never meant for this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering that was so tragically imposed but rather I never should have suffered at all. I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake but now I suffer and have done for so long all I can hope for is to never exist ever again, I just want some peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing where existing beings suffer so much all for the sake of it until non-existence takes away all anyway.

To me existing really is just only suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from, all I wish for is the relief of an eternal sleep where finally all is gone and nothing can concern me, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there's no suffering in the peace of non-existence and to be permanently safe from suffering really is all I see as desirable. I'd just never wish for the torturous, futile burden of human existence that just causes and brings all this suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again, for me non-existence truly is all that's positive, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence that just causes all this suffering, I truly would never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is only suffering to me.
It really is only suffering to me and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous existence rather I only hope for non-existence, I only wish for peace, I just want this existence to be all gone and forgotten for me, no matter what I'll always see it as so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence.

For me existence itself is the true problem and it's just something I'd never wish for that I just hope for permanent relief from, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, all I wish for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten. I wish I could just choose to permanently stop suffering, I'd just never wish for the burden of human existence rather all I hope for is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence of suffering all for the sake of it. I personally just want to never suffer ever again and to me existing truly is only suffering, I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, torturous existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me any peace from, no matter what I'll always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents, I really would prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just waiting for death anyway and I'll always just see existing as waiting to die.

 

[FuneralCry]

As long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone.
I truly will only hope for non-existence and it's all I'll wish for no matter what, I just want to never suffer in this existence ever again and I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, to me human existence really is the most torturous, futile burden and I was just never meant for any of this, I'd never wish for any of this rather all I wish for is permanent peace instead. I just want to peacefully cease existing and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer, all that's desirable and positive to me is non-existence but of course only never suffering at all is true perfection to me, I wish I stayed permanently unaware of this existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what and I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to be tortured by old age, to me existence itself really is the problem which is why I just hope to be gone and to not exist is all I'll ever wish for. I really never should had been forced into this existence of cruelty and suffering in the first place, to me non-existence truly is the only relief, I always find it deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for any of this, I just want some peace instead, I really will just hope to be gone no matter what and non-existence really is all I could hope for, I really have only wished to not exist, I just wish for relief from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

I find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long just to face even worse suffering and torture, I'll personally always see existence as an abomination and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this futile, torturous existence just to decay and die anyway, nothing would make me wish for any of this rather I just wish to be permanently unconscious of this existence.

I just find it so dreadful how this existence was imposed at all even know there was never a need for any of this, to me existence really does just feel like a mistake that causes and brings all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for much longer. I'll always see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so harmfully denied even know I never would had wished for any of this in the first place, it's just horrible to me how I cannot just choose to permanently stop suffering with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what. To me existence itself really is the true problem and always will be and I'd just never wish for any of this, I only hope for non-existence instead, only eternal non-existence can bring me relief and peace, I just want to never suffer ever again, to me existence truly does just feel like a mistake that just causes harm and the thought of being enslaved in this existence just to die in agony from old age is really horrific to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is just an unnecessary harm
It truly is an unnecessary harm to me and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this harmful, torturous existence, I personally always see existence as an abomination a after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering torturing existing beings with no limit as to how much agony they can feel until non-existence takes away all anyway. I just see it as so harmful to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for any of this, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be enslaved in this reality where there is all this endless suffering and cruelty capable of suffering to unlimited amounts just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway.

I personally just don't want to suffer at all which is why I only hope for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me any peace from this existence that is just an unnecessary harm to me, there's just so much suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all just so terrible to me and no matter what I'll always see it as deeply undesirable to exist, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to no longer being burdened with this cruel, torturous existence. If I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way which is why to not exist is all I wish and hope for, I personally just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, to be permanently unable to suffer is all I could ever hope for, I just want peace from this existence I always saw as an unnecessary harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting to die.
To me no matter what existing truly will always just be waiting to die, it's just suffering all for the sake of it that just leads to decay and death anyway and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist, I don't see any point to existing rather I see existence as an unnecessary burden that just causes suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'll always just see existing as waiting for death and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, non-existence really is all that's desirable for me and is all that can bring me any peace.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily in this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this and I wish this existence where I'm just waiting to die was never imposed at all especially as there were never any disadvantages to never suffering at all, more than anything I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence. I'd always prefer to be unaware and unconscious of this existence, I see existence as the most futile and torturous burden and I really would just never wish for any of this, I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently even know I see existing as just waiting to die, it's just unnecessary suffering to me and I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence, non-existence really is always preferable for me than prolonging the suffering of existing, I'd rather prevent suffering through ceasing to exist.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so dreadful to exist and I'd just never wish for the futile, torturous burden of existence rather I only hope for eternal nothingness, it's just so dreadful to me how this existence of unnecessary suffering was even imposed at all and to me existence really is only suffering. I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, futile existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep, I just see existence as something so dreadful which just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

I just see nothing desirable about existing rather existence is just something I'd prefer to avoid no matter what, I just don't want to suffer at all and I always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, the thought of prolonging the suffering just to decay and be tortured by old age is just so horrific to me, I see existing as just so futile as well and unnecessary. I wish for the option to just simply cease existing in peace so I can finally escape from this existence of suffering and cruelty where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all anyway, I really do just want all to finally be forgotten for me and I'd prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, I really was never meant for this dreadful existence, non-existence really is all that could bring me the relief I search for from the suffering of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to fall asleep permanently.
To fall asleep permanently really is all I wish and hope for, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep free from all suffering and cruelty where all is finally forgotten about and finally I can rest, for me eternal non-existence truly would be the only relief, it's all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this unnecessary cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. The suffering this existence causes is endless and it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me any peace from, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again and I'd be relieved to finally be free from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, dreamless eternal sleep truly would solve everything for me and bring me so much relief.

I personally just want to never exist ever again, only in non-existence can I find peace from this cruel, torturous existence that I see as just waiting to die anyway and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, dreamless eternal sleep truly is all that can bring me any relief. I just wish for a death like never waking again to finally bring me peace and safety from suffering and to me existing really is just only suffering, it's all just so cruel and painful, I'd be so relieved to never wake ever again, existence itself to me really is the true problem and always will be, I'd never wish for any of this suffering, I was never meant for the suffering of existing where existing beings suffer so much until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from being denied the option of painless death.
I truly do always suffer from being denied the option to die painlessly, I wish I could just choose to simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of this torturous existence just continues, it really is just all so painful to me and I find it painful to simply exist, it's pain that only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me relief from and I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again, all I personally hope for is an eternal sleep free from all suffering.

I just see so much cruelty in how painless death is so harmfully denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it truly is such a horrific world where I cannot just have the option to painlessly cease existing with no risks of it going wrong and leading to way worse torture as a result, it's just so terrifying to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing. I only hope and wish for nothingness instead which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to permanently stop suffering, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and could ever be for me no matter what, I really am always so tired of suffering in this existence that always felt like the most cruel, terrible mistake to me, there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing and I truly would never wish for any of this, I just wish for the peace of non-existence instead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that appeals to me.
It truly is all that appeals to me, all I wish for is to permanently cease existing, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep free from all harm and suffering where all is finally gone and forgotten and this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem. I really would never wish for any of this rather I just want to not exist, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all there are no disadvantages to not existing, if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way.

I personally just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in permanent non-existence, I just want to finally forget about this existence that always felt like a mistake to me, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering, I see it as something so dreadful to suffer in this futile existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts, I'm just not meant for any of this and I have no interest in it either rather all I wish for is to not exist, ceasing to exist is the way for me to find peace, relief and safety from suffering in this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for. Non-existence really is the only peace for me in an existence where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering and is all I personally see as desirable, I find it so terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured by old age, all I personally hope for is to not exist and finally forget about it all, non-existence really is all I could wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel like a mistake to me.
It truly will always do, I see existence as such a terrible, cruel mistake that just causes endless amounts of suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and no matter what I'd just prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence where I'm just waiting to die anyway, there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing. It truly is all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing, I'll always see it as something so terrible to be burdened with this existence there was never a need for capable of suffering to endless and unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone.

I personally just see existence as a mistake that causes problems there were never a need for and brings so much pain and cruelty all for the sake of it and I see it as so tragic how this existence was even imposed at all, more than anything I wish I was never forced to exist. I'll always see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the ultimate cause and source of all suffering and if it's up to me I'd choose to erase my existence so it's like I never suffered, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence I always saw as a mistake, existing to me really is just only suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could bring me peace from, non-existence truly is all I see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence I was never meant for, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to simply cease existing, the peace of non-existence would solve everything for me and is all I see as positive and desirable, I just want to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for. I really never should had existed and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist again, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering where finally this existence is no longer my problem, all I wish for is peace from the cruelty and suffering of existing, the tiredness I feel is such that only non-existence can take away for me.

All I wish for is the peace of eternal nothingness where finally all is gone for me, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to sleep permanently, existence to me really is the problem, I always see it as something so dreadful and torturous to suffer in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway. I truly am always so tired of it all and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering in this cruel, futile existence just continues, it really is all just so dreadful to me and I suffer just from existing, I really was never meant for this existence of endless cruelty and suffering and only non-existence could ever bring me any peace, as long as I exist I'll feel tired.