Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is the most terrible tragedy.
No matter what I really will always see existence as the most terrible tragedy that just causes all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it, I really would never wish for any of this but rather I only hope for nothingness, all I wish for is to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from this existence I always personally saw as a mistake. I'd just never wish for any of this and I always suffer so much from how the option to peacefully cease existing is so cruelly denied for me with suffering seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'm always so tired of suffering in this cruel, torturous existence.

I always wish and hope to just permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering eternal sleep really is the only peace for me. I just wish to be finally free from the terrible tragedy of existence that just causes and brings all this harm and suffering all for the sake of it, for me existence itself really is the true problem and always will be, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again. I just want peace from the burden of existence and to me existence really is the most cruel, painful burden, I just wish this existence was never imposed, I wish I was never forced to suffer, I really would always prefer non-existence over suffering in this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragedy, to me existence really does just feel like a mistake that causes and brings all this harm.

 

[FuneralCry]

The peace of non-existence solves everything for me.
It truly would solve everything for me as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and no matter what I'd prefer to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only relief in this cruel, torturous existence where there is all this endless suffering. For me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all that can bring me any relief, I really will only be at peace once I'm finally free from the suffering of existing and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering, I suffer just from existing and I'll suffer until all is gone for me in non-existence.

Non-existence really is all I see as desirable, I just want this painful, cruel existence to be all gone for me, I just hope for permanent relief from this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake, I just wish for the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me. Non-existence would solve all problems for me in this existence there was never a need for that was completely unnecessary where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway and I really will always just see existing as waiting to die, I'd be so relieved to never exist again, in this existence where there's all this unnecessary suffering non-existence really is the only peace for me, all I wish for is to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer so much as a result of existing.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible tragic harmful mistake and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and for me peace could only lie in eternal sleep where all is finally gone and I cannot suffer in any way.

All I personally wish and hope for is to not exist and I'd be so relieved to be permanently free from this existence, for me non-existence truly is the only relief, I'll only be unable to suffer once I no longer exist and I'd be relieved to never exist ever again, non-existence really would solve everything for me and bring me so much peace from this existence I never would had wished for and never would had chose, I truly was never meant for any of this and I just want to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering and cruelty I wish for. I'm always so tired of suffering and I suffer as a result of existing, existence itself to me really is the problem, nothing no matter what would make me wish for the suffering and cruelty this existence so tragically brings rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, to me existing really is only suffering and I suffer just from existing, it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me peace and relief from and I'd be relieved to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I really am always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I've always felt so tired and always will do, all I personally hope for is non-existence, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'd be so relieved to be free from this existence of cruelty and unnecessary suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's tiredness only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, existence to me is just so unnecessary as well, it's just suffering all for the sake of it and I always wish to just choose to permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again.

It feels so cruel to me how I cannot just have the option to peacefully free myself from the burden of existence that was so tragically imposed and I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy, I see existence as an imposition that just causes all this cruelty, harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'm just always so tired of it all. I really was never meant for any of this, I never should have suffered in this torturous, futile existence at all, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and could ever be for me no matter what, I just want to never exist ever again, I'll always see it as a burden to exist, I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering in this existence rather I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be so dreadful to me.
No matter what existing really will always be so dreadful to me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, unnecessary torturous existence, in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, non-existence really is the only peace and relief for me and is all I could hope for, I just find it so dreadful how this existence that just caused and brought all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it was even imposed at all.

Only non-existence can bring me relief from this dreadful existence as after all if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone, to me existence really does feel like the most terrible, tragic mistake that just causes all this suffering with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, it's so horrific to me how there is no limit as to how much one can suffer in this dreadful existence. I see existence as the most futile and torturous burden that only brings suffering and I'd just never wish for any of this, non-existence really is all I see as desirable, it'd solve everything for me and finally bring me relief, I really was never meant to suffer in this existence and I never should had suffered at all, I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence that caused all this harm was even imposed at all, nothing no matter what would ever make me wish for the imposition of existence rather I just hope for nothingness, I always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to fall asleep permanently.

 

[FuneralCry]

So horrible to me how there's all this cruelty and suffering in existing.
It truly is so horrible to me how there's all this endless cruelty and suffering in existing with no limit as to how unbearable it can all get, I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it and I find it so horrific how existence causes and brings all this suffering torturing existing beings until non-existence takes away all anyway. To me existence really is the most torturous abomination that just causes all this suffering and harm, it really is just all so cruel and terrible to me and I'll always find it so undesirable to exist, to me existing really is only suffering, I see existence itself as the true problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing even know this existence of futile unnecessary suffering was imposed in the first place, I really would never wish for the cruel, torturous burden of existing as a human rather I just wish for nothingness, non-existence really is the only peace for me and is all I hope for. I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence of unnecessary suffering, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to just fall asleep permanently, eternal sleep really is all I could hope and wish for, I'd never wish to be conscious in this reality where there is all this endless cruelty and suffering, non-existence really would solve everything for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'd just never wish for any of this.
No matter what I really would just never wish for any of this, nothing would make me wish for the suffering of this torturous, futile existence rather I just hope for non-existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently.

I just find it deeply undesirable to exist in general and I'd always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence that just caused and brought all this suffering all for the sake of it just waiting to cease existing anyway, existence itself to me really is the true problem and I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer. Non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable and is all that can bring me peace from this existence I'll always see as a mistake, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything and nothing would make me wish to be burdened with this existence, to me existence itself will always be the true problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death. All I wish for is the peace of this harmful, torturous existence where all is finally forgotten and nothing can concern me, I really was never meant for the cruelty and suffering of existing and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be permanently free from it all, I just want to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I wish for from this torturous existence I never would had chosen, I only see never suffering ever again as desirable and peace for me could only lie in non-existence, I really am always so tired of it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so harmful.
It truly is so harmful, all that existence does is cause endless amounts of cruelty, suffering and harm until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and no matter what I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer all for the sake of it wishing for the peace that only eternal, dreamless sleep could ever bring me. I just wish to be permanently free from this harmful existence, I truly will always see existence as an abomination that just causes all this suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how unbearable and torturous it can all get.

For me existence itself really is the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering and harm, I'll always see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I personally just hope for the peace of permanent sleep, in an existence where there's all this suffering non-existence really is all that's desirable for me as after all in non-existence will I be unable to suffer. If I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way and to never suffer ever again really is all I wish and hope for, I just want peace from this horrific reality where there is all this endless suffering and I suffer so much from how I exist in this reality where the torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I'd just never wish to be conscious in this existence rather I only wish for non-existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just not meant for the suffering of this torturous existence.
I really am just not meant for the suffering of this futile, torturous existence and I'd prefer to not exist no matter what, existence is just something so cruel, so painful and undesirable to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I never should had suffered at all and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want to fall asleep permanently.

The only relief for me really could only lie in an eternal sleep where all is forgotten, existence really is the problem for me and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it, the fact that this existence that caused all this suffering and harm was even imposed truly is the most terrible tragedy to me, existence will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one that only eternal nothingness can bring me any peace from. Under no circumstances would I wish to exist and I always suffer so much from how the option to simply cease existing is so harmfully denied for me with suffering seen as to force no matter what. I'd personally rather not suffer at all than prolong the suffering in this existence I was just never meant for and would never wish for, as long as I exist I really will just wish to fall asleep permanently, only eternal sleep can bring me any relief from this existence that just caused all this suffering all for the sake of it, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, it's all I wish for, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for nothingness.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace.
For me peace truly could only ever lie in non-existence and only in non-existence will I be at peace as after all, only then will this cruel, torturous existence finally be no longer my problem and all gone and forgotten about, for me existence really could never be worth it rather I see it as so deeply undesirable to exist and always will do no matter what. I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again where finally I can forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

Permanent non-existence really is all that can bring me the peace I search for as after all, only in non-existence will I be unable to suffer, only then will this existence finally be no longer my problem and all gone for me, all I personally hope for is to be unconscious for all eternity incapable of suffering, I really was just never meant for the suffering and cruelty of existing and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again. Only permanent non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would had chosen, I just want to fall asleep permanently, I really was never meant for any of this, for me non-existence really is all that's ideal and desirable and I'd be relieved to no longer suffer in this existence, I'll always see existing as only being suffering no matter what and I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again, I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

The cruelty of painless methods being denied.
I always see so much cruelty in how painless ways for me to be permanently free from this futile, torturous existence are denied, all I wish for is to sleep permanently, non-existence is all that's positive for me which is why I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, in this existence where there's all this endless cruelty and suffering dreamless eternal sleep really is all that's desirable for me and is all I could hope for. I just want to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again, it's just so horrific to me how existence causes all this harm and suffering yet I cannot just have an option of a peaceful, painless death to save myself from all future suffering even know I never would had wished for any of this and to me existing really is just waiting for death anyway.

Existence to me is the most cruel, unnecessary imposition and it terrifies me how it can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I see so much cruelty in how the torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, it's all just so dreadful to me and I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence. I'll always see existing as only being suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this existence, I truly would never wish for any of this, I just want nothingness instead, for me non-existence really is the only peace which is why I see so much cruelty in how the option to peacefully cease existing is denied for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so torturous to exist.
No matter what I really will always find it so torturous to exist and I'd just never wish for the suffering, torture and cruelty of existing rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, I'll always see it as the most terrible, cruel burden to be conscious in this existence just hoping to sleep permanently and to me existing truly is just waiting for death. It's just suffering all for the sake of it that there was never a need for at all and I'd alway prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous existence, I'm just so tired of being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for, I just find it so torturous to exist.

I've never had any interest in existing and I just see myself as not meant for any of this as well, I just see existing as suffering all for the sake of it, it's all just so painful, terrible and cruel to me and I'd always prefer non-existence over suffering for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and to me existing really is just waiting to die, for me non-existence truly is the only relief. It's all I see as desirable and is all I could hope for, only in non-existence will I be at peace as only then is this torturous existence no longer my concern, I really will always see existence as the problem no matter what, I'll always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this torturous, futile existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this torturous, futile existence and as long as I exist I really will just wish to never suffer ever again, all I wish for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally I can be at peace, I really will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only eternal non-existence can bring me relief from. All I wish for is to sleep permanently, I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and I'd prefer to forget about this existence no matter what, for me peace truly could only lie in never suffering ever again.

I just hope for this undesirable existence to be no longer my concern and no matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can bring me any relief from, as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence, I'm always so tired of suffering and I was just never meant for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it. For me existence itself really is the true problem and it's just something I'd never wish for, I never should had been burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to be gone, non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I can hope for and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist again.

 

[femcelloser]

Hey FC! I hope all is relatively well. Can I please ask you a question. How do you respond to your own thread like this and make them all seperate like comments? I'm replying to myself over on another thread I made for myself (like this one I guess) and it's like just adding to the original post and it makes the whole thing look gross. Is there like a setting or??

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I really am always so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, as long as I exist I really will just wish to never suffer ever again, for me existence really was never worth it rather I see it as the most cruel, torturous burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes all this suffering and harm until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'm just always so tired and I've always felt so tired of it all, I wish to just fall asleep permanently and finally be at peace and I suffer so much from how I cannot just do that.

I only hope for non-existence, for me non-existence is the only peace in this existence I never would had wished for, never would had chosen where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and as long as I exist I really will just wish to sleep permanently, I just hope for the peace of never existing ever again, I really was never meant for any of this and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, painful existence and to me existing really does feel like only suffering. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer ever again, for me existence really was never worth it and I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence, for me non-existence really is all I could hope for, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently free from this existence that always felt like a mistake to me.

 

[kosameAmagai]

whats keeping you from ctb if you dont mind me asking? sorry if its personal

 

[FuneralCry]

It's so horrific to me how a human can suffer for so long.
I just find it horrific how a human can suffer for so long in this futile, torturous existence, I just wish I could choose to permanently stop suffering and never exist ever again and to me existing just feels like only suffering, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence that just causes all this pain and suffering all for the sake of it. I'll always see it as dreadful and hopeless to exist and for me non-existence is all that's positive as what I see as the true problem is existence itself, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again and I find it so horrific how a human can exist for so long, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death.

I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, to me existence really is the most harmful abomination and I'd just never wish for any of this no matter what, I just want nothingness instead and I'll only be at peace once I'm free from this existence. It's horrific to me how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how torturous it can get just for one to be tortured by old age, existing to me really is only suffering and I'll always see existence itself as the true problem no matter what, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, the only relier for me really could only lie in non-existence where all is gone and forgotten and I'm unable to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish I could erase my existence.
I always wish I could just erase my existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this futile, torturous existence at all, I just want to simply disappear from this existence and never exist ever again, for me existence itself really is the true problem as it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I really will always see it as a burden to exist and it's a burden that just causes all of this harm with no limit as to how much agony one can feel until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway.

I'd just always prefer to not exist and non-existence really is all I could wish and hope for but of course I just want to erase my existence, being able to permanently erase my existence would solve everything for me as after all there are no disadvantages to permanent sleep, ceasing to exist really would be the only relief for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in non-existence, nothing no matter what would make me wish for this existence of endless suffering and cruelty rather I just want to not exist. I wish this existence was never imposed at all, I wish I was never forced to suffer and to me existing really does feel like only suffering, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only permanent non-existence could ever bring me relief from, I just want all to be forgotten for me, I always suffer so much from how I cannot just find peace from this cruel, painful existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I was just never meant for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it deeply undesirable to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it deeply undesirable to exist, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence and to me existing really does just feel like only suffering and nothing would make me wish to suffer in this existence, rather all I hope and wish for is non-existence. I just want to fall into an eternal sleep and finally forget about this existence I personally always saw as a mistake, existence really is just so painful, so harmful, there's just so much cruelty in existing and as well as that I just don't see it as desirable to exist rather I see existence as a burden and it's one that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it, to me existence will always be deeply undesirable and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it all.

Non-existence truly is the only peace and relief for me, I just want to fall asleep permanently and finally be free from this undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existence really is the problem, it's the ultimate cause and source of all suffering after all and I'd be relieved to finally be free from this undesirable existence, non-existence truly is the only relief for me in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway. I just want to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me relief from, all I wish for is an eternal sleep where finally this existence is all gone and forgotten, I'm always so tired of suffering in this torturous, undesirable existence.

 

[just_a_guy]

I like to play a game with your comments where I see how many of the following words I can find: torturous, suffering, burden, eternal, suffer/suffering. If it were a drinking game, it would be a reliable method of suicide

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be at peace from suffering.
I truly will only be at peace from suffering in non-existence, in an existence so cruel, torturous and futile non-existence really is the only relief for me and is all I could ever hope and wish for. I just want to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and never suffer ever again, non-existence is peace for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, I personally just hope and wish to never exist ever again and I'll only be at peace once this existence is finally all forgotten about for me.

I'd be so relieved to never exist ever again, to me existence really is the most cruel burden and as long as I exist I'll just hope to not exist, for me the only peace could ever lie in this existence finally being all gone, I just want to forget about this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake, existence to me really is the most torturous imposition and I just wish I never suffered more than anything but now I've existed for so long and suffer so much as a result all I can hope for is to fall asleep permanently. I'll only be at peace in non-existence where finally nothing can concern me, I just want some peace from this existence I was never meant for and wish I was never forced into and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for nothingness, I just wish for the relief of an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and no longer my concern.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish I was never burdened with this existence.
More than anything I just wish I was never burdened with this existence, I wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, to me existence itself really is the true problem and as long as I exist I'll only wish to be permanently free from it, I just want to never exist ever again. I see existence as the most cruel, harmful burden that just causes all this suffering and cruelty until non-existence takes away all anyway and I just see it as so futile to exist, to me existence really is so unnecessary as well and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I only hope to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again but I never should had suffered at all, I really was just never meant for something as torturous and cruel as existence that just causes all this harm and I'll always see it as so harmful to exist no matter what, I'd never wish to be conscious suffering all for the sake of it in this existence, I'll always see it as a burden to exist. I'm so tired of being burdened with this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again even know this existence was so tragically imposed and to me existence really is the most terrible tragedy, I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want to be unconscious for all eternity, all I can hope and wish for now I suffer in this existence and have done for so long is to never exist ever again, I only hope for non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only being suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only being suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this cruel, torturous existence, for me eternal sleep really is the only peace and relief and is all I could hope for, existence itself to me really is the ultimate problem, it's the cause of all suffering after all and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer ever again. I just want to fall into an permanent sleep with this existence finally all gone and forgotten for me, I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of this existence just continues and I'd just never wish for any of this.

I truly am always so tired of suffering and I wish I could erase my existence so it's like I never suffered at all, if it's up to me I'd choose to permanently stop suffering as I just don't want to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as being only suffering and it terrifies me how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I really just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, existence to me really is just something so cruel and dreadful and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just want peace from all the suffering, I just hope for non-existence, I wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally gone for me, I just want to finally forget about this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll always see it as so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I really will always see it as so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'll always prefer to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief from this existence I always saw as the most cruel mistake, existence itself to me will always be the true problem as after all it's the source of all suffering.

I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and it's suffering only ceasing to exist can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, I see it as something so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited amounts and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead. To me existing really does feel like only suffering and what terrifies me is how the suffering can continue for so long with no limit as to how unbearable it can get, I personally just want to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this futile, torturous existence is finally all forgotten and no longer my concern. Nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather I just want to fall asleep permanently, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful existence that just causes and brings all this suffering all for the sake of it until all is finally forgotten in non-existence anyway, for me existence truly is the problem, I'll always see it as so dreadful to be enslaved in this existence of unnecessary, futile suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in non-existence will I be safe from suffering.
Non-existence truly is all that can bring me the peace, relief and safety from suffering I search for which is why I only hope to not exist, all I hope for is an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally this torturous existence is all forgotten about. All I wish for is to never suffer ever again and I'd be relieved to finally sleep for all eternity, to me existence really is the most futile, torturous burden and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence just hoping and wishing to not exist anyway, to me existence itself really is the problem.

Existence is just something so cruel and painful that just causes all this harm until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and for me non-existence really is all I could see as desirable, I just want some peace from this existence I always saw as the most harmful mistake, I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and no matter what I'd just never wish for any of this. I only want to never suffer ever again, I just wish I was never enslaved in this existence, I never should had been forced to suffer and as long as I exist I'll only hope to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally asleep for all eternity incapable of suffering, nothing really would make me wish to suffer in this existence rather I just hope for non-existence, for me ceasing to exist truly is the only relief, I just want peace from the suffering of existing and to me existing feels like only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this existence and it's tiredness only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I could personally ever hope for is to not exist, I just wish to fall into an eternal dreamless sleep and finally forget about this existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake. It's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering and torture in existing and I'd just never wish for any of this, existence to me really is only suffering and I suffer just from being burdened with this existence, all I personally hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want peace from this existence and for me peace could only ever lie in non-existence.

I just want relief from this existence and I suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, all I wish is for this existence to be no longer my problem, I truly am always so tired, I'm so tired of suffering in this torturous undesirable existence and no matter what I'll always see it as so deeply undesirable to exist. To me existence could never be a desirable state rather it's something I only wish for non-existence to bring me relief from, I just want to never wake ever again and I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just peacefully cease existing is so harmfully denied as I just want to never suffer ever again, only permanent non-existence could ever bring me any relief from this existence I'm always so tired of that only ever caused me to suffer and I see existence as only being suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always hoping to never wake ever again.
To never wake ever again really is all I can hope for, I just want peace from this cruel, torturous existence I personally always saw as a mistake, no matter what I'll always see existence as the problem and it's something I only wish for permanent relief from, never waking ever again would solve everything for me and finally bring me so much relief from suffering in this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist and to me existing really is just waiting to die. It's just unnecessary cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and as long as I exist I really will just hope to sleep eternally, in this existence so cruel and torturous the only peace for me could lie in never suffering ever again.

I just want to never wake and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently, existence to me really is the problem, it's something so dreadful and torturous that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake, I just want peace from all the suffering. I've always and only ever wished to sleep permanently and for me eternal sleep truly is all that's desirable, I just want permanent relief from the burden of existence that was so tragically imposed, I'm just so tired of suffering and it's tiredness only non-existence could ever bring me any peace from, eternal sleep truly is the only peace for me, I just want to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
For me no matter what existence will always be the problem as after all it's the source of all cruelty and suffering, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this torturous, deeply undesirable existence that always felt like a mistake to me and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I hope for is nothingness, I just wish to fall into an eternal, permanent sleep and never suffer ever again.

To me existence itself really is the problem and no matter what I'd never wish for any of this and I'm always so tired of being burdened with this existence, I was just never meant for the futile and torturous burden of human existence rather I only wish for non-existence, for me non-existence really is the only peace and relief, in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering all I wish for is to never exist ever again, simply just existing is enough to make me wish to fall asleep permanently. Non-existence really is all I see as desirable and could ever do, I just want all to finally be forgotten for me, non-existence really is all that can personally bring me any peace and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence is finally no longer my problem. I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, non-existence truly is all I could wish for, I just want peace and for me peace could only lie in never existing again, only non-existence can solve what I personally see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm just never meant for any of this.
I truly am just not meant for any of this and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, I only wish and hope for non-existence instead, to me existence really is the most painful, dreadful burden and it's one I'd just never wish for that I was never meant for, I'm always so tired of this existence that is just suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. Existing to me is just so futile as well and I find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence, I really would just always prefer to not exist than be enslaved in this existence and the fact that this existence was even imposed really is the most cruel, terrible tragedy to me.

I just wish I was never forced into this unnecessary existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I really never should had suffered at all, existence to me really will always be the problem and it's one I truly was just never meant for and as long as I exist all I can hope for is peace from all the suffering, only in non-existence will all finally be gone and forgotten for me which is all I could hope for. In this existence where there's all this endless suffering eternal sleep really is the only peace for me as after all, only in eternal sleep will I be unable to suffer, only then is this existence I'm just not meant for finally no longer my problem, I see existing as only being suffering and it's suffering only ceasing to exist could ever bring me relief from, I personally just want to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence solves everything for me.
It truly does solve everything for me and would bring me so much relief from suffering in this torturous, futile existence where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway, all I hope for is permanent relief from this existence of unnecessary suffering and cruelty and I'd be relieved to never suffer in this existence ever again.

All I hope is for non-existence to bring me peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence I always saw as a mistake, nothing no matter what would make me wish for any of this rather all I wish for is the relief of never suffering ever again, non-existence would solve everything for me as after all existence itself is the cause of all suffering and problems and without existence I cannot suffer in any way, there's no suffering in the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is forgotten and finally nothing can concern me. Only non-existence could ever bring me the relief I search for from the burden of existence, non-existence really is all I see as positive in an existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I see existing as being only suffering, I suffer just from being burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an permanent sleep. I just want to never wake ever again, I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence, non-existence really would solve everything for me and save me from all future suffering in this existence I never would had chosen where I'm just hoping to not exist anyway.