Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as only suffering.
No matter what I'll always see existing as only suffering and I suffer just from being conscious in this futile, torturous existence just hoping and waiting to not exist and I'll always see existing as just waiting to not exist, it's dreadful unnecessary suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it.

I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I never should had been burdened with this torturous existence of suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, to me existence truly is the most harmful, cruel abomination that just causes and brings all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer. I just find it so deeply undesirable to exist and always will do no matter what, for me the only peace really could lie in non-existence where finally all is forgotten and nothing can concern me and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be burdened with this existence. To me existence really is the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me any relief from, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep where all is gone, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and to me existing truly does feel like only suffering. I suffer just from being conscious in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and it feels like I've suffered for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how peaceful death is denied for me.
I truly do always suffer from how peaceful death is so cruelly denied for me and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering which is why I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to escape from all future unnecessary suffering in this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing.

It's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only hope for non-existence, I just want to never exist ever again and it's just so terrible and dreadful to me how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, as long as I exist I'll wish for no more suffering, I wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of this torturous unnecessary existence just continues and it's all just so terrible to me, no matter what I'll always see existence itself as an unnecessary harm. To me existence really does feel like the most tragic mistake that just causes harm and suffering and I see so much cruelty in how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as I'm just so tired of suffering all for the sake of it burdened with this existence and I'll just always see it as a burden to exist, it's a burden that just causes so much pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it a burden to exist.
No matter what I'll always find it a burden to exist and it's a burden so cruel and torturous that causes all this harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just hope for peace from this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake.

I'll always just see it as a tragedy to exist, I wish this existence of cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed more than anything as I'm just always so tired of it all, I'm always so tired of this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering where I'm just hoping and waiting to cease existing anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, it's just dreadful suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing. I suffer simply from being conscious in this existence I never would had chosen and nothing would make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of an eternal sleep, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently to finally escape from the cruelty and suffering of this futile existence and there's just so much suffering in existing. I'd never wish to suffer at all and I wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything, I really will always see it as so dreadful to exist and I'd never wish for the dreadful suffering of this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, existence is just so torturous, cruel and harmful, I'll always see it as so terrible how there's all this suffering in existing.