Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me is always just waiting for death.
It truly is just waiting to die to me as after all, all will eventually disappear into nothingness no matter what with no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous existence, in this existence where there's all this suffering all for the sake of it the only relief for me could lie in non-existence.

I'd just personally always prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and to me existing really is only suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and it's all so terrible and dreadful to me, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist, only non-existence where all is finally gone and forgotten could ever be desirable to me, I'd never wish for any of this suffering and I wish I never suffered more than anything. I wish this existence where I'm just waiting to not exist suffering all for the sake of it was just never imposed and I'll always see existence as the most harmful imposition that causes all this pain and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, for me non-existence really is the only peace, it's all I'll hope for, it's all I'll ever see as desirable, I'm just always so tired of suffering in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist ever again with no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wish for no more suffering.
No matter what all I could ever hope and wish for is no more suffering, I just wish for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where I cannot suffer in any way and all is finally gone and forgotten and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence of unnecessary suffering just hoping and waiting to not exist.

In this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for, I just want to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering of this torturous unnecessary existence just continues and more than anything I wish I was never forced to suffer, I just never should had been burdened with this existence but now I suffer and have done for so long all I can hope for is no more suffering. I just want to fall asleep permanently and never suffer ever again, existence really just is so painful, so dreadful and so torturous and I personally suffer simply from existing, I'm always so tired of suffering in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to sleep permanently, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I can see as desirable, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, only eternal non-existence can bring me the peace I search for and to never suffer ever again is all I could hope for, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for the torturous burden of existence.
No matter what I really would never wish for the torturous and futile burden of existence rather I only hope to not exist, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where finally all is gone and this existence is no longer my problem.

I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I'd just never wish for any of this suffering and I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence had to be imposed even know there was never a need for any of this, to me existence really is something so unnecessary and I find it so dreadful how there's all this suffering in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel. I'll always see existing as being only suffering and I personally suffer just from being conscious in this existence, simply just existing really is enough to make me wish to not exist, I just wish for this cruel deeply undesirable existence to be all gone and forgotten for me and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful guaranteed death is so harmfully denied for me even know this existence was so tragically imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result. I'll just always see it as so harmful to exist, existence to me is a burden only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from and as long as I exist I'll only hope for no more pain and no more suffering, I'll just always find it so torturous to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence I just never would had chosen no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for non-existence.
No matter what I really could only ever hope and wish for non-existence, for me non-existence really is all that's positive, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where all is finally forgotten and this cruel, torturous existence is no longer my problem.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I wish for is the peace of eternal dreamless sleep where all is gone and this existence is no longer my concern, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence and more than anything I just wish this existence was never imposed, I just wish I was never forced to suffer in this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and for me existence really is the problem which is why I'll only hope for non-existence. I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'll always find it so dreadful to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and it's the most torturous burden that only ceasing to exist can bring me peace and relief from. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering of existing just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, I really am just always so tired of suffering and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the relief I search for from the suffering in this torturous, futile existence I just never would had chosen and never would wish for, I only wish to not exist, I just hope for peace.