Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I'd rather prevent suffering.
I truly would always personally prefer to prevent suffering through ceasing to exist than prolong it just to suffer way more and it's just so terrible and dreadful how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing, as long as I exist I really will just hope for an eternal sleep free from all pain and suffering where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, for me non-existence really is always preferable and I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what.

I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and I see so much cruelty in how peaceful guaranteed death is so harmfully denied for me even know this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering and torture of existing rather all I hope for is to not exist, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I personally see as desirable. I'm just always so tired of suffering in this futile and torturous existence and more than anything I just wish I was never forced to exist, I'd always prefer to not exist as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer in any way, there is no suffering in an eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as a mistake is finally no longer my problem, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, I'd just prefer to prevent suffering than prolong it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just not a desirable state to me.
It truly is not a desirable state to me rather I see existence as something that just causes harm and suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be permanently free from it all, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, all I wish for is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence just continues.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is peace, I just wish for permanent relief from this existence I personally always saw as a terrible mistake, for me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me, I'll always see it as so undesirable to exist which is why I'll only hope for non-existence no matter what, simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death and only permanent non-existence can solve and take away what I personally see as the true problem. As long as I exist I'll only wish for non-existence, I'm just so tired of suffering and I wish this existence was never imposed, it's so terrible and dreadful to me how existence causes all this suffering all for the sake of it and pain there was never a need for at all and I'll just always find it so painful to suffer in this existence, I really would never wish for any of this, to me existing is only suffering and I just don't want to suffer rather all I hope for is some peace, non-existence really is all I personally see as desirable.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of suffering.
I truly am always so tired of suffering in this torturous, cruel existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I hope for is to never suffer ever again, I just want to permanently cease existing with all finally gone for me but of course the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me. I'll always find it so dreadful to exist, I always wish I could just choose to fall asleep permanently and never exist ever again but of course I continue to be trapped in this existence just hoping and wishing to be gone and as long as I exist I'll only hope for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep with no more pain and no more suffering and I just wish I never suffered at all.

For me existence truly is the problem and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is to not exist and I've only ever wished for non-existence, only eternal dreamless sleep can bring me the relief I search for from the tiredness I feel in this futile, torturous existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, existence to me really is something so deeply undesirable. I'd never wish for the suffering of this cruel existence rather all I want is to never exist ever again, I wish for no more suffering but of course the suffering of this unnecessary torturous existence just continues, it really is all so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I really am just always so tired of it all, I wish I never suffered.

 

[FuneralCry]

I just wish this existence was never imposed.
More than anything I just wish this existence of suffering all for the sake of it was never imposed and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope and wish for is to not exist, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I just find it so terrible how this existence was imposed. I wish I was never forced to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting for death anyway, never existing at all would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to decay and die anyway and I wish I never suffered, I'll always see it as a burden to exist and it's one I always wish was never imposed.

I just never should had been burdened with this existence at all, to me existence really is the problem and it's one only non-existence could ever bring me peace from, never existing really would had saved me from so much suffering in this existence where I hope and wait for death anyway, I'd just always prefer to stay permanently unconscious and unaware of this existence. I could just never see any point and value to suffering all for the sake of it in this existence rather I just want all to be forgotten for me, I wish for no more suffering and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, to suffer in this existence truly is always something so dreadful and terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing to me really is just only suffering.
It truly is only suffering to me with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I wish for is to never exist ever again, it's just so terrible to me how there's all this suffering all for the sake of it in existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist. For me non-existence really is the only peace from suffering and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to be conscious in this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and as long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all suffering.

To me existence really is just an unnecessary harm and it's one I never would had wished for and would never have chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this, I wish I was never burdened with this existence of suffering all for the sake of it and I could just never see any point, benefit and value to suffering so unnecessarily rather all I hope for is eternal sleep, I just want to painlessly cease existing with no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it so painful to suffer in this existence. To me existing truly is deeply undesirable in every way and I find it so dreadful to exist, I just wish I never suffered, nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering, cruelty and torture of this futile existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen, I just want to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence.
I really will only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this existence and as long as I exist I'll only wish to not exist, I just wish to never suffer ever again and I see it as so terrible and dreadful how there's all this suffering and cruelty in existing. For me existence itself truly is the problem which is why I only hope for non-existence, I just wish for some peace and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to painlessly cease existing and finally be free from this existence I personally always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake and I'll just always see it as so dreadful to exist.

I wish I was never forced to suffer in this torturous dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, existence to me is just something so cruel, so futile and so torturous and more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence where I'm just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death. It's all just so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in existing, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope for an eternal sleep free from all suffering where all is finally forgotten and there is no more pain and no more suffering, for me existence truly is the problem and it's one only non-existence can take away for me and bring me relief from, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I hope for is some peace, I'm just always so tired of suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Death is all that's inevitable.
It truly is all that's inevitable and eventually this torturous, futile existence will be all gone and forgotten about which is all I'll hope for, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll just always find it so terrible and dreadful to be burdened with this existence I personally always saw as the most cruel mistake. To me existing really is just waiting for death and I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence, I'd prefer to prevent the suffering of existing than prolong it just to suffer way more unbearably and there's just so much suffering in existing, existing to me really is just only suffering and it's suffering that just leads to decay and death anyway.

I really never should had been burdened with this existence and as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never suffer ever again, existing to me is so futile, death will take away all anyway and all will be eventually be forgotten in non-existence which is all I wish and hope for, I'd just never wish for the suffering of this torturous existence and I'll alwaya find it so dreadful to exist, for me existence really is the problem which is why I'll only hope to not exist no matter what. I'd always prefer to painlessly cease existing, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I just hope and wait for non-existence anyway, the only relief for me could lie in never existing ever again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally no longer burdened with this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all I've hoped for.
It truly is all I've hoped for and is all that can bring me any peace from the cruelty and suffering in this torturous, futile existence, for me non-existence really is all that's desirable and is the only relief for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

I'll personally always see existence as the problem and it's one only ceasing to exist can bring me peace from, I just want all to finally be gone and forgotten for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I'd just never wish for this existence of suffering all for the sake of it where I'm just waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die. It's all just so dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll only wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I've suffered so much for so long and I'll always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, for me existence itself really is the true problem which is why I'll only hope to not exist no matter what. I'm just so tired of being trapped in this torturous existence suffering all for the sake of it just waiting and hoping to be gone, I just wish for peace from all the suffering, I just wish to be unconscious for all eternity, I'm just always so tired of suffering so unnecessarily in this existence I just never would had wished for and never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather all I hope for is the peace of eternal sleep.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this existence.
I really would never wish for the suffering and cruelty of this futile, torturous existence rather all I hope for is to not exist, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, to me existence truly is the problem and I find it so deeply undesirable to be burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die.

It's just terrible unnecessary suffering all for the sake of it and I just never wished to exist and as long as I exist I'll only hope for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering and there's just so much suffering in this existence I personally always saw as a mistake and I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist, to me existence truly is the problem and it's one I'd just never wish for that only non-existence can bring me relief from, I just wish I was never forced to suffer more than anything and nothing would ever make me wish for any of this rather I just hope for peace. I just want to never exist ever again, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I personally see as desirable, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence more than anything and I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer so unnecessarily in this existence, I just hope for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this existence that just causes and brings all this suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as an unnecessary harm.
No matter what I'll always see existence as an unnecessary harm and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous and futile existence rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again, only in non-existence will I be free from this harmful existence that I never would had chosen. I'll just always see existence as the most terrible mistake, I just wish and hope for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence where all is finally gone and nothing can concern me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering, I wish for this existence I never would had chosen to finally be all forgotten for me.

I'll always see existence as the problem and the way I see it existence itself truly is an abomination that just causes so much harm and suffering until all is gone in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence truly is all that's desirable and is the only peace for me as after all, only in non-existence will I be at peace from all suffering and finally unable to suffer. I see it as so harmful to be burdened with this existence capable of suffering to unlimited extents destined to decay and die anyway and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so dreadful and terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather I only wish and hope to not exist, I just never should had suffered in this futile, torturous existence I never would had chosen at all, I'd never wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in how the suffering is seen as to force.
No matter what I'll always see so much cruelty in how the suffering of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what with no acceptance towards the personal choice to permanently cease existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, for me non-existence truly is the only peace and relief and is all I see as desirable. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering which is why I see so much cruelty in how the suffering and torture of human existence is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, for me non-existence truly is all I could hope for and I always suffer so much from being trapped and enslaved in this existence I just never would had chosen and nothing would ever make me wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist.

I'll always see so much cruelty in how there's all this suffering in existing yet I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently as all I hope for is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more suffering and it terrifies me how a human can suffer for so long just to face way worse torture and agony and the suffering of existing really is endless, I'd just never wish for any of this rather I just wish for peace. I wish for no more pain and I'll always find it so painful and dreadful to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence just hoping and waiting to not exist anyway, I'll personally always see existence itself as the true problem and I just wish I never suffered at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I really am so tired of being burdened with this existence suffering all for the sake of it and I just wish I was never forced to suffer at all, I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to fall asleep permanently so I can finally escape from this torturous, unnecessary existence I just never would have chosen.

I'm just always so tired of it all and it's the kind of tiredness only eternal sleep can take away for me as after all if I'm gone I cannot suffer, there is no suffering in the peace of eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me, I'll always see existing as only being suffering and I just wish I never suffered, I wish I was never burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as a burden to suffer all for the sake of it in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, I'll just always see existence as the problem and it's one only non-existence can solve and take away for me. I'd just always prefer to not exist and I'd just never wish to exist at all rather all I wish for is to sleep permanently, I just wish for no more suffering, I want all to finally be forgotten for me, I'd just never wish for the burden of existence and all I hope for is some peace, I just want to never exist ever again, I'm just always so tired of being burdened with this existence I never would had chosen and would never wish for, I just wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this existence at all.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always and only wishing to sleep permanently.
No matter what all I could ever wish for is to sleep permanently, I just wish for an eternal dreamless sleep free from all harm and suffering where all is finally forgotten and there is no more pain, I'd just never wish for this painful torturous existence rather all I want is to sleep permanently, for me only non-existence could ever be desirable and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just choose to fall into an eternal sleep and never suffer ever again.

I see so much cruelty in how the option for me to just painlessly cease existing is so harnfully denied for me with the suffering and cruelty of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, I just wish I was never burdened with this existence and all I hope for is non-existence, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this cruel, futile existence rather all I hope for is nothingness, dreamless eternal sleep where nothing can concern me is all I've ever hoped for. I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always find it painful to suffer on this cruel existence, for me existence truly is the problem and simply just existing is enough to make me wish for death, I suffer just from being conscious in this torturous, unnecessary existence and it's suffering only eternal non-existence could ever bring me peace and relief from, I just want to never exist ever again and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to never wake ever again to finally escape from the cruelty and torture of existing where there is no limit as to how much one can suffer.