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Kit1

Enlightened
Oct 24, 2023
1,099
Tired. Not working till the 2nd - but still have a long list of jobs to do, places to go till the 1st and just font want to do them - but have to and feeling exhausted just thinking of it
 
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Bannana

Bannana

caretaker
Mar 10, 2024
75
im so cold
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Migraine. Tired. Ought to be getting on with stuff but that ain't gonna happen today.
 
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LittleJem

Visionary
Jul 3, 2019
2,633
3 clonazepam hoping to pass out for a while.

Planning funeral guest list.

Eurgh.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Trying very hard to not SH but the urge is getting stronger.
 
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atdusk

atdusk

Member
Feb 12, 2024
32
I've spent several days in a row at home. I feel the pressure building up. It's caused by loneliness, I am sure of that. The thoughts about suicide follow.

I try to distract myself, but I would like to do something more productive instead. I am tired just from holding up.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
I feel alienated, numb, nothing makes sense.
I've spent several days in a row at home. I feel the pressure building up. It's caused by loneliness, I am sure of that. The thoughts about suicide follow.

I try to distract myself, but I would like to do something more productive instead. I am tired just from holding up.
Can relate...
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
I feel very bad. Nauseous. Stomach-ache. Exhausted. Empty.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Anxious, tired, despondent
 
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Ambivalent1

Ambivalent1

🎵 Be all, end all 🎵
Apr 17, 2023
3,279
On edge but not as much as usual even though I'm on a high dose of gabapentin. Helps anxiety
 
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Kit1

Enlightened
Oct 24, 2023
1,099
I wish I could go into a forest and scream so much that death alone can console me. I wish I could jump off Beachy Head that by the time I hit the waters, the waters will offer my dead body solace and cradle me like a mother would cradle a new born with pure love and affection. I wish I could sit on top of the mountain looking out to the sea and die of an overdose - with just peace, quiet and Mother Nature taking me away from everything.
 
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fortaptimørket

fortaptimørket

All things will end, and so will I
Aug 14, 2023
11
Alone.
First woman I've dated since I've been single, I fell hard for her. Cuddling, snuggling, we did that all weekend last week. I wished it would never end.
Alas, she didn't feel the same about me, so single and no friends yet again.
I just want someone to hold me at night to help me feel things again. I'm so tired of going weeks with no human contact.
 
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Malaria

Malaria

If I can't be my own, I'd feel better dead
Feb 24, 2024
1,085
Relieved. My dog was throwing up and I got worried about him, but he seems to be feeling better now.
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Tired but looking forward to to taking out for a walk for the first time in ages. Also feeling guilty about my MH dominating both our lives of late. Poor thing. She's been very tolerant of me, but she's a dog not a carer and deserves a bit of normality.
 
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N33dT0D13

N33dT0D13

Xe/It
Apr 2, 2023
365
Guilty. I want to be beaten to death.
 
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marchshift

marchshift

Member
Mar 15, 2024
89
I feel emotional and regretful. I really want to sleep.
 
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Hahem

Knows too much
Feb 4, 2023
87
Tired.Depressed.Cold.Apathetic.Unmotivated
 
Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Wallowing in despair and self pity
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
Endlessly sad and hurt.
 
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JaJu

JaJu

Member
Apr 3, 2024
98
Anxious and trapped, thinking about the next day of work and having to find something to pack for lunch and waking up early urrrggg a never ending cycle... please just let me sleep forever 🙏
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,007
Shameful, sad, like a loser, hurt
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Migraine. Again. And I slept funny so the muscles in my shoulders are complaining every time I move. Or don't move for too long. If it wasn't for the constant warnings against ODs on here I would be so tempted to open up every blister packet I've got as this is unbearable. And I can't even take my PRN pain meds as I'm not doing anything today and need to save them for when I have to get up and go somewhere - taking them too often can stop them working and/or cause rebound headaches! FML!
 
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etherealgoddess

etherealgoddess

perseverance is inevitable success
Dec 8, 2022
193
Hopeful. I can choose my beliefs because there is infinite good and bad, but we can only be aware of a limited number of things. Our brains tend to make generalizations and favor information that confirms our beliefs, so we can choose to be positive.
 
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moshimoshi

Apr 6, 2024
749
Deep sadness and regret, but oddly calm
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Exhausted but wide awake after a long 6/7 hours in A&E.
 
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Tired_of_myself

Tired_of_myself

Student
Jan 2, 2024
119
anxious and hopeless
 
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stupidtwink

stupidtwink

Member
Feb 6, 2023
10
i feel like im going to vomit and i have a terrible headache <3
 
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Ash

Ash

What dreams may come?
Oct 4, 2021
1,758
Another day, another migraine. Obviously not helping myself by being on my phone but 🤷
 
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