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hematomatema

hematomatema

my name was lewis
Feb 29, 2024
156
You're doing it now? I hope you're certain and that it goes smoothly this time 🫂
In a couple hours, need parents to fall asleep first so will take a while haha
 
dontlook

dontlook

watch out. the gap in the door
Nov 13, 2024
196
Oh gotcha I misunderstood. Not to late to pop out for something better than tic tacs?
 
hematomatema

hematomatema

my name was lewis
Feb 29, 2024
156
Oh gotcha I misunderstood. Not to late to pop out for something better than tic tacs?
Yeah too late for that unfortunately, waiting till early morning so that I can do it without them waking up. Am hoping that the foul taste and smell of the SN last time was because I mixed it with squash last time, will just do it with water this time so it should go just fine even without something to mask the aftertaste.
 
dontlook

dontlook

watch out. the gap in the door
Nov 13, 2024
196
Yeah too late for that unfortunately, waiting till early morning so that I can do it without them waking up. Am hoping that the foul taste and smell of the SN last time was because I mixed it with squash last time, will just do it with water this time so it should go just fine even without something to mask the aftertaste.


Yeah and hopefully since it'll taste different without the squash it'll help trick your brain into not wanting to purge it immediately if it remembers the connection
 
zel

zel

Curiosity killed the cat, eh?
Oct 17, 2023
92
I'm wondering how you handle SI, if indeed you have to handle it at all. It sounds like your main problem has been taking and keeping it down, what with the taste and the reflex to vomit it and all.

Does it not frighten you - on an instinctual, primitive level - to know that what you're about to drink, or what is sitting in your stomach and entering your blood stream, will turn your blood a muddy brown and starve your organs of oxygen? The thought is so morbidly horrifying to me that I think that would be my most difficult obstacle.
 
endofline2010

endofline2010

Student
Aug 8, 2024
140
Use something that's more lethal than SN...
 
dontlook

dontlook

watch out. the gap in the door
Nov 13, 2024
196
How you doing @hematomatema ?
 
JustSomeWeirdo

JustSomeWeirdo

As the name implies.
Nov 24, 2024
117
Not calling EMS. Must go through. Either toughing it out or dying.
Just vomited a lot. Attempt presumably unsuccessful but I don't know. Vomit smells like nitrite. A lot. I don't know what to do
Heard it taste like shit. Did it taste bad?
 
waistcoat

waistcoat

wow, i have a lot of people to disappoint :o
Aug 10, 2024
189
Hey @hematomatema - are you still with us?
 
E.T

E.T

silver tongue devil
Jul 22, 2024
88
I hope you found the peace you were looking for, and if you're still here, I hope you are not in any pain. @hematomatema
 
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