Introduce yourself

[Artificial-Angel]

22 nb transfem. My life has pretty much has been set up for failure. Everytime I think "it will be better if I do x" and I do it it's always a different shade of worse. I'm tired of the cycle, I want it to end. Noone has ever been there for me. Will ctb if it stays like this or gets worse. The latter will probably happen, It does not surprise me.

Interests include: video games(fighting games and fps games in particular), skatebording, fashion, and music.

 

[Pale_Rider]

Hi. I picked the name pale ride as I have rode a trail of death. Not sure what to say. Suicide is always on my mind, but I'm not close. I'm not close. Because idk what comes next, and I feel like people would be happy I ctb. I don't want to give them the satisfaction, but I realize if I ctb none of that will matter anymore.
Mayne there are just some heavy emotions attached to my past attempts that I still can't shake. Idk why I can't just let it go. I spend a lot of time looking onto darkness.

 

[sleepy_redcar]

Well, some of it is published on the 'net, but I'm not too sure about publicly linking you to it -- my friends would know what my account is and would be able to ID me. I'd PM you if I could, but it seems like my post count is too low for that?

I appreciate the interest, though!

Sorry for the out of the blue question, but I also struggling with PM people, why is that?

 

[goodlifesurfaceskim]

Hello, thanks for this community. I am lost now more than ever. But I look forward to a merciful death. Currently residing in fear I hope to gain courage so that a meaningful death can be achieved in an orderly, timely manner. Praying for assisted dying to become available widely. I don't know who I am so I'm not sure any kind of relationship can be procured here. But I love that community is available for people like me who have resorted to these shadows of isolation.

 

[INYGTRMTFMO]

Hello, glad to see that this space is here! I was saddened to see the subreddit go down but somehow was not made aware that the forum exists until last night.

My username is the first letters of the words in a song lyric I really like, "I need your grace to remind me to find my own" from "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol. I know it's a bit of a finger-full, so you can call me "Grace" for short (which is not my real name nor a name that anyone has ever used for me in real life :3 ).

I'm in my early 30s and have had suicidal depression since I was 12. Yay. Halfway attempted to give myself a forever neck massage with a scarf and a bedpost when I was in college but backed out because that might traumatize the roommates. That's the hard part of ctb for me--it tends to be traumatic to those around the person, and I'm blessed to have a lot of people around me.

I'm nonbinary but in a "meh" way; I'm AFAB and not very successful at presenting as anything else despite my general apathy towards presenting as anything at all. I'm a mom to a lovely and lively two year old, who is my major reason for not ctb despite generally feeling like I'm not great at "life". I live in the Deep South of the U.S. and work in disability services. I'm AuDHD and hard of hearing. My hobbies include pony beads, cozy games, ASMR, and drinking enough coffee to almost be a ctb in and of itself.



Anyway, thank you for allowing this space to exist. I love you all and wish you all the best!

 

[Griever]

Hi everyone, I'm Griever. Looking forward to connecting with you all!

 

[WastedPottential]

Howdy, I'd not like to discuss my actual name, but you can call me WastedPottential or WW. If you'd like to call me by my actual name, Call me Broken.

I'm 20F from Canada. I used to be in college for a Computer Science-related degree, but burnout, surgery, and other factors mean I may drop out, switch courses, or take CBT before I go back. I still like discussing it, though.

I generally like Nintendo-related stuff, and have always been a fan of Life Sims and Visual Novels/Management games.

Even though I quite suck at it and I'm not proficient, I love writing, drawing and generally creating things.

I look forward to connecting or reconnecting with you all!

 

[SleepyTransit]

Salut, my name is SleepyTransit on here and only here. I am on the spectrum (diagnosis of Aspbergers) & speak 2 languages (English & French) with French being my mother tounge. Originating from Québec, Canada you can see where I get 2 languages part of my life... anyways I work as a tradesman for a living as part of my share of being a corporate slave. I do enjoy transit photography as it help keeps thing off my mind and forget about the shitty life i am in.

 

[0007000]

Greetings. I found this place after searching for information regarding the inert gas method. Have had a great time lurking around, finding lots of valuable information which I am grateful for.

Since I was a teenager I've had this overwhelming sense that someday I was going to take myself out. It's an inevitability. Now I am 38 and still here, which is hard to believe, but the thought and desire to go by my own hand has never left. Over the past several months I've gathered the supplies for various different methods, never know when the urge will strike. Unmarried, no kids, no desire for such things. Strongly suspect I've got a personality disorder like schizoid or something. And/or C-PTSD, as I was emotionally neglected as a child. I spend my time alone, listening to music, hanging out with my dog, little bit of video games, and reading books, mostly about suicide, pessimism, antinatalism. Couple of my favorites are Every Cradle is a Grave by Sarah Perry and Tractatus Logico-Suicidalis by Hermann Burger. Not much else to say really, cheers

 

[RibbonAmia]

Hi, my name is Amia. I can speak both English and Spanish. I'll try interacting here and there but I mostly lurk. I found out of this website by someone mentioning it on Quora, and was browsing without an account for maybe about a year until decided to actually join it yesterday.
I like Vocaloid music, especially Maretu's music. Though I can listen to other things too! Just that I've been looping Maretu for the past couple of weeks, is all.
I also like cats, and fashion. I'm more of a fan of cute fashion, such as lolita clothing, however I have yet to buy any dresses to wear. For now, I just wear bags or just things with ribbons. I am aware I can just make my own dress, but I don't know how to sew yet. Maybe one day I'll gather up the motivation to actually learn how to do so, and perhaps make a pretty dress.
I have heard that you need to have a specific amount of posts to be able to PM people on this site, so if I unlock that, if you would like to talk or be friends, you can.
I hope you have a nice day, whoever is reading this!! :)

 

[onelastsnack]

Hi everyone!

You can call me Q. I go by she/her. I'm almost 19 and I am here because I honestly don't really have anywhere else to go. I love indulging in the arts. I love creating with all sorts of media and tools. I love animanga! (heh) I also love to play HSR. I don't really have any prospects for my future. I've kind of lost any sort of motivation to do anything with my life so I can admit that I'm kind of a bum.

I do have some friends but they're more like passing acquaintances than actual friends. I can be spontaneous sometimes. I'm quite energetic over text because it's what I'm most used to. I grew up with severe social anxiety but I've almost overcome it! I don't have any issues with socializing anymore but I am a little shy sometimes.

 

[mourningyesterday]

hi guys thanks for approve,
mid 20's living with a rare neurological condition that has chipped away at me and took everything i ever enjoyed abt life.

probs do a longer post soon of my story when in the right frame of mind :)

 

[witheringwithgrace]

Hey everyone, I've been on here for a while now, always read a lot, now I thought i might introduce myself.
You can call me Grace, as I wish to die with Grace. Not by feeling utterly shattered, but dying with a free will, a mind that's at peace, and without having suffered an insufferable amount of agonizing years on this earth.
I'm heavily mentally ill, suffering from various disorders. And quite frankly, I don't see myself fit for the ordinary life that I am supposed to have.
When I am feeling well, i love writing stories and poetry and listening to Music, especially nineties- alternative/rock & grunge.
I'm looking forward to interacting with y'all.

 

[doctordetritus]

Hi welshspider 54m, looking for like minded people who think about death all the time, but doesn't want to ctb.
I enjoy cooking and chilling, talking shit about anything and everything.
If anyone's interested then drop me a line
Cheers

"I enjoy cooking and chilling, talking shit about anything and everything." i read this too fast and thought you wrote "i enjoy taking a shit!" i clearly need more coffee.

 

[rxk39]

I've been here for a bit now but only just started to interact/do more than lurking. You can call me RK. I'm from Canada, I can go by she/her, and I'm a lesbian. I like drawing, listening to music, and watching movies. I've been suicidal for longer in my life than not, and I'm just happy to be here with community of people who understand how hard it is to get through each day.

 

[LetMeOut67]

Hello.
Nice to be accepted!
I'm male , 57, and in the UK, struggled decades with serious depression and anxiety. Things have got much worse recently for one reason and another. I believe the planet has become a hellscape and that life is a fate worse than death for an increasing number of people. I believe my life would be easier if I knew I had an always available , easy , painless , quick method of exit. I'm probably autistic and I'm running out of energy.
Nobody asks to be dragged into this hell and they shouldn't be expected to remain if their life is intolerable.

I like music of all kinds but especially punk and 80s alternative.

 

[BPDtgirl]

hi everyone

i'm a trans sex worker with BPD. i know right, really drew the short straw on the life lottery. trying to waste my time and ride out a low period with video games and walking my dog. he's kinda the only thing that's kept me from doing it right now. guess i'm here because knowing i can end it offers me some sense of control

i read a few days ago that 1 in 10 BPD diagnoses end in suicide and 80% of us attempt. so i'm not shocked i'm here.