Ironweed
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- Nov 9, 2019
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Oreo is a Tabby breed, recognised it by the M shape on the forehead. Here is an explanation >View attachment 126796
These are my babies :)
TL: Oscar she's an outdoor cat that started coming around and now I claim her. I'm not sure of her breed
TR: Tank my 165lb little purse dog :) he's a boy and a rottie
BL: Onyx she was found underneath a portable classroom at the HS near my house and she's a russian blue
BR: Newest edition Oreo that I just got yesterday :) he's shy but very playful. I know he's half maine coon but not sure about the other half
Aww you guys are twinning! Chester is adorable <3His name's Chester and the little dude thinks the world is his chew toy
We also used to have the same haircut
I'm so sorry... Ellie sounds like a wonderful dog. I know puppies are so much work and I can't imagine how hard it must be when you are still mourning your sweet old girl. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed. I hope the pup settles down and things get easier for you.I'm doing really bad...
This is my precious Ellie. My bestest girl. My shotgun rider. My sweet Ellie Maye. I've had her almost half my life, 15 years. I lost her this past Jan 14th.
Thank you for your kind words. I had covid for a week and was sleeping on the couch so my husband wouldn't get sick. Then the foster mom called us 3 days sooner than planned saying we needed to get the pup, while I had covid. So then it's sleeping on the couch for another week so I could watch the pup in the living room, making sure she's going out the dog door to potty and not tearing stuff up. So I was sick and exhausted, which is a HUGE trigger that makes my depression worse. I had a bit of a meltdown for a few days.Aww you guys are twinning! Chester is adorable <3
I'm so sorry... Ellie sounds like a wonderful dog. I know puppies are so much work and I can't imagine how hard it must be when you are still mourning your sweet old girl. It's understandable to feel overwhelmed. I hope the pup settles down and things get easier for you.
Cirilla is so precious! It breaks my heart that anyone could think of killing an innocent puppy just for being deaf. I'm glad she and Shanks are getting along, and things are going better for you all. Brought a smile to my face :)Her name is Cirilla, and she is a deaf, double merle, Australian shepard that's 10 weeks old. She was brought to the rescue by a vet. The shitty breeder brought her and her brother to the vet saying "someone kill these little shits cause I can't sell them", because their deaf.
I'm not doing well today. I spent a couple hundred dollars buying a cuddle clone, a stuffed animal that is supposed to look like her. I got an email that it's out for delivery.... I don't know how I feel. I know i feel like crying but im at work. Part of me doesn't want to open it. I'm afraid it will look bad and disappoint and upset me, but I'm also afraid it might be too good. I don't think I'm ready to see it yet. I might put the package in the spare room for a bit.I'm doing really bad...
This is my precious Ellie. My bestest girl. My shotgun rider. My sweet Ellie Maye. I've had her almost half my life, 15 years. I lost her this past Jan 14th. She has been paralyzed the last 3 years due to horrible bridging spondylosis, but the end came because of mast cell cancer. She had a baseball sized tumor on her neck, and it had spread internally to her spleen. Surgical removal and palladia and prednisone were all in vain. I miss her dearly. She's been my sole reason for existence for so long. To say I am lost and devastated is an understatement. To think that I will never again get to hold her sweet face and kiss her forehead, or pet her beautiful red curly hair, or have her give me gentle kisses on my cheek, it's too much to bear. I miss her so bad, it hurts so much. Oh my god it hurts so much.
I've been so lost. On my days off when my husband has to work, me and his dog just sit on the couch and stare into space or sleep. His dog Shanks (after red haired shanks from one piece) has been sad too. He's always had his auntie Ellie. He's 7 but still has lots of play. He was devastated when Ellie became paralyzed and could no longer play.
Well I mistakenly made the decision that for Shanks wellbeing that I needed to get another dog. My heart isn't ready, but I thought it would be in his best interest to have a friend and playmate. We rescued a deaf, double merle, australian shepard puppy 2 days ago. She's absolutely precious and sweet, and Shanks has loved playing with her. I haven't seen him this active in a long time.
Now please don't hate me and think poorly of me, but I regret getting her so much. I asked my husband if we could tell the rescue that we would rather foster her until she found new parents but he got very upset with me. I'm just so overwhelmed. It's all just too much. I was already struggling really bad before I lost Ellie. Then the pain of loosing her, I haven't hardly slept. I got covid a few days ago so I've been sleeping on the couch so I don't make my husband sick. This puppy requires a bit extra due to being deaf and some emotional trauma so shes kept me up most every night. I feel so bad right now, inside and out, and I'm just so tired. I feel like I am perpetually tired. This puppy is so sweet and precious and I want her to have the happy, healthy life she deserves, but I just don't feel like I have it in me to do so. I actually told my husband that but he said he would do it all, but now that just makes me feel even worse about it. I know I'm terrible for feeling this way. I'm not a monster, of course I show her love and snuggles when she asks, but I'm just so tired and overwhelmed. I love the little girl, but I don't love her the way i did my Ellie, and I feel like such a horrible person for it. I'm just so tired and overwhelmed. Everything is just too much right now and I feel like I'm really loosing it. I wish so badly I could just end everything right now, I want this all to be over. But I can't do that to my husband, for some reason the man loves me, so I'm obligated to stay.
Sorry to rant so much. I'm just really not ok right now. Please don't hate me everyone.
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