Random thoughts

[15dec]

Study now or study tomorrow, I'd rather just drop out tbh

 

[Donewith_]

i am in my final stage. iam helpless.why do you still want to torture me? i never had anyone to lean upon their shoulder when i cry. i dont know my suffering and i matter. iam not asking any favour, i have sorted out some way how to leave. stop causing me suffering and let me die peacefully. let the things happen which will lead to ,my death. dont stop

 

[lost illusions]

There's something I want so badly but I have no idea how to achieve it

What's that?

 

[stellabelle]

What's that?

To go somewhere else

 

[lost illusions]

To go somewhere else

Like?

 

[stellabelle]

Like?

Somewhere with painted deserts

 

[lost illusions]

Somewhere with painted deserts

Nevada close to lake Tahoe

 

[CJM]

It's 4:17am and its still stupidly hot. Been such a warm summer.

 

[Redt2go]

It's 4:17am and its still stupidly hot. Been such a warm summer.

Crazy you have summer we have winter here

 

[CJM]

Crazy you have summer we have winter here

That southern hemisphere thing.

Dec-Jan-Feb is our summer.

Growing up I used to get jealous of US Christmas movies with all that pretty snow and wacky sweatshirts. Over here it's melt on Xmas day and have a BBQ.

 

[Redt2go]

Selling all of my textbooks today. Things feel so surreal and final. My stomach hurts :(

 

[mattwitt]

Selling all of my textbooks today. Things feel so surreal and final. My stomach hurts :(

In the past couple of months I sold my stereo system, movie collection and some jewelry

 

[Redt2go]

In the past couple of months I sold my stereo system, movie collection and some jewelry

:( How did you feel ?

 

[mattwitt]

:( How did you feel ?

I felt good/relieved because it's the last of the stuff I've been trying to get rid of. I'm glad I got some money for the stuff although not even remotely close to what I paid for everything.

 

[Redt2go]

I felt good/relieved because it's the last of the stuff I've been trying to get rid of. I'm glad I got some money for the stuff although not even remotely close to what I paid for everything.

Yeah that's how I felt, I just donated a $200 sad lamp...

 

[waived]

I have to go somewhere and my mp3 player isn't charged.

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

Today sucked. I was feeling great for the past few days, now I've crashed and am right back where I was before. Simply terrific. I knew the happiness was an illusion. Hopefully my DMSO will hurry up and get here; it's late, as most of my packages usually are. It'd be so much easier if I could hire a hitman to put three bullets in the back of my head...

 

[Dead Meat]

Life is just so unfair and cruel,been suffering this shit storm of a Life to long.
I never wanted to be here in the first place.

 

[sólstafir]

just don't want anything from life anymore. anything.

 

[Redt2go]

just don't want anything from life anymore. anything.

Was thinking about this today.... No amount of money, no person, no situation could make me stay at this point

 

[lost illusions]

It's 4:17am and its still stupidly hot. Been such a warm summer.

It's 4:17am and its still stupidly hot. Been such a warm summer.

 

[lost illusions]

It's 5 degrees f

 

[sólstafir]

Was thinking about this today.... No amount of money, no person, no situation could make me stay at this point

Yup.

 

[Redt2go]

I've probably said this before but being around other people my age depresses me lately. Reminds of how much I'm missing out in

 

[stellabelle]

Nevada close to lake Tahoe

Been there, done that
Just a little further south

 

[stellabelle]

It's 5 degrees f

Ugh gross! I hate the cold like that

 

[lost illusions]

I've probably said this before but being around other people my age depresses me lately. Reminds of how much I'm missing out in

Same

 

[lost illusions]

Has anyone else found something they needed in their childhood later in life but were too messed up to change anything?

 

[Redt2go]

Things like this make me reconsider then I see that my reason for ctb is still valid and feel reassured

 

[lost illusions]

Things like this make me reconsider then I see that my reason for ctb is still valid and feel reassuredView attachment 7205

Nice

But I'm not in my 20s anymore lol