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Hey Guest,
As you know, censorship around the world has been ramping up at an alarming pace. The UK and OFCOM has singled out this community and have been focusing its censorship efforts here. It takes a good amount of resources to maintain the infrastructure for our community and to resist this censorship. We would appreciate any and all donations.
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one4all
I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
- Feb 3, 2020
- 3,455
Depends on your type of music.. I like them a lot. Not to brush of Sabbath and other bands i listen to.
Welcome and i hope you enjoy!
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Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Congratulations on the thread being stickied!
Yeah, congrats! My updates/notifications are getting really random these days though.
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
There have been a few changes recently, which have been pretty good; maybe broken some stuff too.
Marchioness
Eternal sleep
- Feb 17, 2020
- 296
Cecil do you have anything strong enough to make me forget this heart pain?
KadathianStr1d3r
Shattered Mannequin
- Nov 21, 2018
- 278
I'm alone, nobody is worth talking to anymore. Should feel bad yet I preoccupy myself with other more interesting things, don't feel bad, just feel busy.
Don't be upset that you're alone, maybe the people around you aren't really worth the effort or the time to invest, they lack your interest and you know what, that's okay.
Loneliness isn't the end, it's something you can either allow it to be the end or force it to be the end to the bullshit you don't want to be in.
I worship solitary time now and I feel liberated, it feels like my brain just got bigger and my body got taller if not mightier.
You should never let the bad vibes hit you because nobody is there, please for the sake of yourself just don't, do something even if it will kill you at least it is better to die quickly with a soul full of love over a period of rot with a soul full of diseased nothingness.
Feel good everyone, I believe in you.
Don't be upset that you're alone, maybe the people around you aren't really worth the effort or the time to invest, they lack your interest and you know what, that's okay.
Loneliness isn't the end, it's something you can either allow it to be the end or force it to be the end to the bullshit you don't want to be in.
I worship solitary time now and I feel liberated, it feels like my brain just got bigger and my body got taller if not mightier.
You should never let the bad vibes hit you because nobody is there, please for the sake of yourself just don't, do something even if it will kill you at least it is better to die quickly with a soul full of love over a period of rot with a soul full of diseased nothingness.
Feel good everyone, I believe in you.
foreverbroken28
I've gone off the deep end.
- Jul 11, 2019
- 124
My reasons for CTB this year are entirely due to the fact I'm mentally ill and have screwed up most of my life to turn it around. However, I have to wait some weeks to CTB because I need to visit the doc to get antiemetics, (I found a way to get some after finding out Olanzapine is considered one. I was prescribed that after I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder awhile ago. I just need to convince the doc to prescribe me more which won't be hard..)
The hardest part about my life right now is crying everyday because people constantly remind me about how worthless I am. My family and friends don't care about me enough to communicate with me and let me know I'm worth something. Although I would still end up CTB, it fucking hurts to know you're not wanted, needed or worthy of anything.
What infuriates me though is these people would get upset and angry with you if you voiced that you felt they didn't care enough -- even though on a regular basis their actions clearly show they don't give a shit enough to communicate in a proper manner.It's even worse when someone knows you have the tools to CTB but that still isn't enough for them to get their act together, which is proof enough to me that I'm just not as worth it as they don't want to admit.
I'm ALWAYS the one reaching out, communicating, and etc with people and i'm so fucking sick of it. Now that I have my SN, I don't have to keep reaching out to these people anymore. The people here on this forum are my friends and so is the SN. The SN is my best friend.
I plan on CTB this year so I won't have to put up with this horseshit anymore after this year.
All those goodie 2shoes who judge people like us on websites who try to encourage people like me not to CTB have no idea what each individual person goes through. My family does not give a shit about me and neither do the people who claim to like me and be my friend. It's all just horseshit and lip service. So, those goodie 2 shoes should mind their own business or learn the fucking facts of everyone's individual life. There is no saving me or turning this shit around. This is it. I just can't wait to get out of here. I'm so fucking sick of being made to feel like I'm worthless and don't fucking matter.
At the end of the day, I'm just a speck of fucking dust with a brain. 1,000,000,000,000 years from now, none of us will exist from the man in the whitehouse to little old me. It's all pointless bullshit anyways. I'm so pissed off and hurt. I'm sorry.
The hardest part about my life right now is crying everyday because people constantly remind me about how worthless I am. My family and friends don't care about me enough to communicate with me and let me know I'm worth something. Although I would still end up CTB, it fucking hurts to know you're not wanted, needed or worthy of anything.
What infuriates me though is these people would get upset and angry with you if you voiced that you felt they didn't care enough -- even though on a regular basis their actions clearly show they don't give a shit enough to communicate in a proper manner.It's even worse when someone knows you have the tools to CTB but that still isn't enough for them to get their act together, which is proof enough to me that I'm just not as worth it as they don't want to admit.
I'm ALWAYS the one reaching out, communicating, and etc with people and i'm so fucking sick of it. Now that I have my SN, I don't have to keep reaching out to these people anymore. The people here on this forum are my friends and so is the SN. The SN is my best friend.
I plan on CTB this year so I won't have to put up with this horseshit anymore after this year.
All those goodie 2shoes who judge people like us on websites who try to encourage people like me not to CTB have no idea what each individual person goes through. My family does not give a shit about me and neither do the people who claim to like me and be my friend. It's all just horseshit and lip service. So, those goodie 2 shoes should mind their own business or learn the fucking facts of everyone's individual life. There is no saving me or turning this shit around. This is it. I just can't wait to get out of here. I'm so fucking sick of being made to feel like I'm worthless and don't fucking matter.
At the end of the day, I'm just a speck of fucking dust with a brain. 1,000,000,000,000 years from now, none of us will exist from the man in the whitehouse to little old me. It's all pointless bullshit anyways. I'm so pissed off and hurt. I'm sorry.
Hi Squidmeister! We've fallen in to a discussion of technology;) I apologize in advance!
I laughed so hard that coffee just came out my nose;)Cheap dancing girls?
Or is it Cecil in a bloody dress, for that price?
I'm so sorry that you are in such pain. This feels like the only place where other people understand that a broken heart is as painful as any other terminal illness.
Whatever you decide, you have comfort and compassion from all of us.
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Your anger comes through in your post. I don't blame you. It's horrible to feel abandoned and left to rot by the people who insisted you could reach out to them, then changed their minds when it became too much of a hassle.
They took my sense of self worth away too. I'm only now starting to feel I actually have some value again. And this time it's on my terms, not theirs.
Isittimetogonola
Kindness is a weakness to be taken advantage by al
- Oct 22, 2019
- 198
Oh no, the roof, the roof, the roof is on fire!
Or as some very posh dude with pince-nez and a silver cane casually noted as he was passing by:
Oh no, the roof is ablaze.
Everyone make your way to the nearest exist!
a.n.kirillov
velle non discitur
- Nov 17, 2019
- 1,831
one4all
I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
- Feb 3, 2020
- 3,455
Thank you Sir. Still curious about who did it and why LOL
I hope you are doing well!
Just noticed my notifications are a bit screwy too.
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https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/not-getting-reliable-notifications-on-updates.34301/
Marchioness
Eternal sleep
- Feb 17, 2020
- 296
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
Is this supposed to be "Random Thoughts but edgier"?
If so, sign me up. For the second-cheapest membership option you have.
If so, sign me up. For the second-cheapest membership option you have.
More like random drunken thoughts in a shadowy alcove with a pitcher of margaritas, a psycho robot and a possible barfight.
So yeah
So yeah
RM5998
Sack of Meat
- Sep 3, 2018
- 2,202
Then I want an extra-large Jack Daniels, 2 ice cubes only.
@not_a_robot would have liked a thread like this, I think.
@not_a_robot would have liked a thread like this, I think.
Carina
Angelic
- Dec 22, 2019
- 4,005
Cecil, get this individual a drink! First one's on the house.
I really miss the dark seedy places of the night
I really miss the dark seedy places of the night
Marchioness
Eternal sleep
- Feb 17, 2020
- 296
one4all
I'll put pennies on your eyes and it will go away.
- Feb 3, 2020
- 3,455
More like random drunken thoughts in a shadowy alcove with a pitcher of margaritas, a psycho robot and a possible barfight.
So yeah
Well that's why this place was born
Brick In The Wall
2M Or Not 2B.
- Oct 30, 2019
- 25,158
More like random drunken thoughts in a shadowy alcove with a pitcher of margaritas, a psycho robot and a possible barfight.
So yeah
foreverbroken28
I've gone off the deep end.
- Jul 11, 2019
- 124
Thanks so much for this. Yeah, the first heart break is family. Parents who treat you like crap and don't emotionally take care of their kids. They act like putting a roof over the head is enough and that's it.
I'm glad you're starting to feel your own value. Are you here wanting to CTB?
I was. Now I'm trying to survive.
