Story This is my goodbye

[sneakyninjapantalon]

Hey all,

My original plan was to go for Jan 4, but I really can't take it anymore so I'll cut it short for after the New Years. My last meal was 1 hour ago, so my fasting starts now and I'll take my SN in the morning (I'm in the EU).

This place has been super helpful to me and even though I haven't been the most active member I wanted to thank you all and wish you best of luck.
For me this is the end of the road and I wish I could be different. I have a loving family and the best girlfriend in the world but my real self is shit for everyone and only knows destruction, so before I take others with me I'm leaving them behind.

Starts 7pm (now): fasting

 

[jessisme]

Thank you for writing to us here. I'm glad this community could be a place of support for you. It's a difficult decision to make but I hope that whatever course you take results in a sense of peace for you. Hugs.

 

[FuneralCry]

Your feelings of wishing to be gone are understandable, I hope that you find the freedom that you are looking for, best of luck.

 

[DarkRose]

Hey all,

My original plan was to go for Jan 4, but I really can't take it anymore so I'll cut it short for after the New Years. My last meal was 1 hour ago, so my fasting starts now and I'll take my SN in the morning (I'm in the EU).

This place has been super helpful to me and even though I haven't been the most active member I wanted to thank you all and wish you best of luck.
For me this is the end of the road and I wish I could be different. I have a loving family and the best girlfriend in the world but my real self is shit for everyone and only knows destruction, so before I take others with me I'm leaving them behind.

Starts 7pm (now): fasting

I'm happy SS helped you and I hope you find the peace you're looking for!

 

[Forever Sleep]

I hope you have a peaceful journey and find freedom from your suffering.

 

[Outandproud]

This time of the year is so hard. Im so sorry good luck. If u change ur mind we will be here.

 

[Fulminare]

Have a safe journey.

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

This time of the year is so hard. Im so sorry good luck. If u change ur mind we will be here.

Thank you, you're so kind. Hopefully there will be no change of mind or plans and it'll all end in a few hours.

 

[tiredone]

Have a peacefull evening and journey.

 

[theboy]

Peace

 

[Wannagonow]

Have a successful, painless and peaceful journey.

 

[Miss Anthropy]

I wish you all of the best

 

[Outandproud]

Thank you, you're so kind. Hopefully there will be no change of mind or plans and it'll all end in a few hours.

What are u gonna do tonight? Chill in your room, watch a movie, sleep?

 

[Per Ardua Ad Astra]

Per ardua ad astra

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

What are u gonna do tonight? Chill in your room, watch a movie, sleep?

I was supposed to go to a NY party that I cancelled coz I can't stand it. Watching friends, chilling, and waiting for the time to come.

 

[Outandproud]

I was supposed to go to a NY party that I cancelled coz I can't stand it. Watching friends, chilling, and waiting for the time to come.

Friends the series? So you are a 90s kid uh, thats cool i would go to a new year party just to eat something tasty lol I bought some fish and burgers to cook 4 myself and the cats but im a terrible cooker so i'll give it my best shot. Then i'll cry a little and go to sleep early
I like your username btw

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

Friends the series? So you are a 90s kid uh, thats cool i would go to a new year party just to eat something tasty lol I bought some fish and burgers to cook 4 myself and the cats but im a terrible cooker so i'll give it my best shot. Then i'll cry a little and go to sleep early
I like your username btw

Yup, totally a 90's kid, in my mid thirties rn. Haha I hope the burgers turn out to be fine :)
I don't think I'm gonna sleep, I'll wait to "change year" with my beloved girlfriend, then she'll go to the party and I'll drive to the place I'll take my SN. I'd do it at home but I don't want her to be the one who finds me.

 

[spectraltease]

Hey all,

My original plan was to go for Jan 4, but I really can't take it anymore so I'll cut it short for after the New Years. My last meal was 1 hour ago, so my fasting starts now and I'll take my SN in the morning (I'm in the EU).

This place has been super helpful to me and even though I haven't been the most active member I wanted to thank you all and wish you best of luck.
For me this is the end of the road and I wish I could be different. I have a loving family and the best girlfriend in the world but my real self is shit for everyone and only knows destruction, so before I take others with me I'm leaving them behind.

Starts 7pm (now): fasting

Good luck man

 

[almostoutofhere]

Good luck to you, hope you achieve success . Keep us updated

 

[Enemy of Evolution]

I am sorry to ask this. But if it's possible then can you please share your experience of drinking SN. The pain or lack of pain after drinking it. The time it took to effect you. The dose you had taken.

I am sorry I am asking for alot. I was just trying to get more information so that I can defeat my survival instinct.

Have a peaceful journey dear. Bye.

 

[Raven2]

I hope everything works out as you wish. Sending love and light your way.

 

[LookingOverTheEdge]

I wish you the best, whatever you decide.
From another 90's Kid :)

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

New year's here, just changed it with my girlfriend and now I'll patiently wait for her to leave for the party in order to proceed.
I really appreciate all the love I'm getting, I really wish I had done differently and I could be a different man, able to keep going.
3-4 hours away from my CTB now. I'll send some photos and details as soon as I'm ready.

 

[time2fly]

New year's here, just changed it with my girlfriend and now I'll patiently wait for her to leave for the party in order to proceed.
I really appreciate all the love I'm getting, I really wish I had done differently and I could be a different man, able to keep going.
3-4 hours away from my CTB now. I'll send some photos and details as soon as I'm ready.

I'm planning on drinking my SN tonight too in around 12 hours. Best of luck to you.

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

I'm planning on drinking my SN tonight too in around 12 hours. Best of luck to you.

Best of luck. Wish you for everything to go as planned

 

[lilin]

I wish you peace

 

[spacehardware]

Wishing you all the best for the morning. Sorry the world has been cruel to you. You aren't alone in this.

 

[tilly17]

I'm planning on drinking my SN tonight too in around 12 hours. Best of luck to you.

Sending comfort and prayers.
Any communication you can offer if possible for those of us following you in this journey would be appreciated if you feel
Able to do so. My heart aches for you. And really wish it didn't come down to this.

 

[sneakyninjapantalon]

Update:
About 3 hours left now. As soon as my girl leaves for the party I'm also going to leave our place and go to my CTB place. It's about an hour drive, so before leaving I'll take the ibuprofen and then I'll have 1 hour or so to prepare there. Much love

 

[almostoutofhere]

I wish I could do the same tonight. I was planning on doing it before New Years but si was too strong with hanging so now I'm waiting on SN. Just a couple more weeks. I'm desperate.