Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Rose Mirren]

I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.

I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.

 

[Xerxes]

Lazy and don't feel like grocery shopping at the moment.

 

[Smilla]

Overwhelming sadness and self pity

 

[15dec]

Mostly empty. Kind of sad, kind of peaceful. Tired too.

 

[Sinbad]

Overwhelming sadness and self pity

Same.

 

[blueming]

Exhausted. Want to sleep and never wake up.

 

[11Banger]

Just looking for an answer to all my problems

 

[Eden2k]

Agitated and exhausted

 

[Mixk009]

I'm really desperate to die

 

[therhydler]

Dread and disbelief. That it has come to this. It feels like my heart is being torn open every second afresh. Anger at myself that I can see no other way. And disgust

 

[Final Escape]

I feel like shit today and got little accomplished. I think I have a sleep phase disorder so in the morning it's just hell. I can't get moving or mindfuck myself into it lol! I felt so insecure today about everything it sucked. I bleached my hair and getting ready to dye some pink into it :) I guess that gave me a tiny bit of joy. Different hair to look at. I did shower, brush teeth, eat.

 

[sólstafir]

Ready to die. I can't believe I say this. It was always kinda like distant thought, but right now it feels I'm so ready. It may feel different tomorrow, but right now...ready!

 

[Rose Mirren]

Mostly empty. Kind of sad, kind of peaceful. Tired too.

I feel you. It's a disturbing kind of peace. Hard to explain.

 

[TAW122]

Numb and a bit sleepy.

 

[Rose Mirren]

I feel like shit today and got little accomplished. I think I have a sleep phase disorder so in the morning it's just hell. I can't get moving or mindfuck myself into it lol! I felt so insecure today about everything it sucked. I bleached my hair and getting ready to dye some pink into it :) I guess that gave me a tiny bit of joy. Different hair to look at. I did shower, brush teeth, eat.

Hey, congrats on showering, brushing, and eating! Also, I feel you. I looked in the mirror once and it was like I didn't look like how I felt... so I dyed my hair HAHAHA and for the first time too! It did bring happiness that lasted for quite a while. Glad you're doing something that makes you even just a tiny bit happy :)

 

[Rose Mirren]

Ready to die. I can't believe I say this. It was always kinda like distant thought, but right now it feels I'm so ready. It may feel different tomorrow, but right now...ready!

Even if you feel different tomorrow, that won't invalidate your being ready to die right now. At least being sure abt something kinda lessens the chaos, right?

 

[sólstafir]

Even if you feel different tomorrow, that won't invalidate your being ready to die right now. At least being sure abt something kinda lessens the chaos, right?

Exactly how you expressed it -'being sure about something lessens the chaos' indeed!

 

[Eren]

Paranoid and depressed

 

[Kdawg2018]

Depressed, lonely, sick, and and like rotting flesh

 

[Xerxes]

Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.

 

[MsM3talGamer]

Exhausted and fed up but I can't sleep due to fucking insomnia.

 

[ReadyasEver]

Fatigue at times, some physical pain but very manageable, and a sense of resolution.

 

[Midnight]

No joy left ... It's got to end next year for real. Darkness has nearly swallowed me whole... I don't need light at the end of the tunnel. Just eternal nothingness.

 

[Final Escape]

My pink didn't take evenly :(" but I applied it evenly. Ugh! Lol! It's a semipermanent color and I have stuff to remove it easy but I was excited for it to turn out. My hair has been my ongoing project lately lol! I'm trying to keep it light but just not bleach blond. It's a bit too light for my complexion.

 

[LivedTooLong]

Fatigue, loneliness, and a sense of doom.

 

[Final Escape]

Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.

Good job :) proud of u. I know right, when little things are a struggle u need encouragement, praise, and to be compassionate and patient with yourself.

 

[Going Home]

Violated

 

[Rose Mirren]

Yay, I got out to do grocery shopping, do laundry, and now need to find the urge to cook.

Good for you! One thing at a time!

(also why is it so easy to root for others to do well in their lives but when it's my life, I'm just... meh. hahaha)

 

[Rose Mirren]

Exhausted and fed up but I can't sleep due to fucking insomnia.

this is me rn can't remember the last time i had proper sleep

 

[Rose Mirren]

Fatigue at times, some physical pain but very manageable, and a sense of resolution.

Is this a resolution to live...? Or to die...?