
Lady Laudanum
Here for a bad time, not a long time
- May 9, 2024
- 864
I was doing whippets at a party and got a bit carried away. Ooooooops
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Well I managed to get a test and it turns out I have had Covid all along. Again. I didn't even go to the local anime convention where they removed their mask and vaccination mandates but I probably met with people who had.My throat was sore all day yesterday and it's even worse today but I don't feel any sort of fever so I don't think I'm sick. It feels like I wore out my voice somehow but I don't remember doing anything that would cause this much pain. I've been trying to numb it with cough drops but even the super strong ones aren't enough.
Profound loneliness and sadness that gets worse every day. I find no joy in anything anymore. My boyfriend doesn't care that I cry myself to sleep every night. He blames me for everything and makes me feel so alone. I desperately sneed to be held but no one cares enough. I've posted so many things that clearly show I'm suffering and no one checks on me. I want to go tonight but have no way of doing so. I want to sneak out of this house and end it all finally. F*ck the plans, I can't wait anymore. I wish I had a quick and gentle way of taking my last breaths tonight.I feel empty. Like if you slice me open, you'll find nothing there. Just black emptiness. I go through life mechanically, and it's like every emotion I feel is fake. Like they're really just at the surface. Beneath, there's nothing. It's weird. I know what to feel but I don't feel it.
I'm hurting and because of that, I end up hurting others. I don't want to cause pain anymore. I don't want to feel pain anymore. I just want it all to end.