EvisceratedJester
|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
- Oct 21, 2023
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He took himself off the transplant waiting list and claims that he can't put himself back on it again, meaning that his is going to fucking die! I can't wrap my around why he would so this to himself! Like why?! A part of me wants to threaten suicide against him. This isn't anything new and I've never acted on those urges before, but this time I'm actually considering doing it for the sake of trying to get him to at least attempt to put himself back on the waiting list. I know it is wrong and selfish and, thankfully, I'm too much of a coward to act on those urges, but I don't want him to die. I love him too much! I mesdage him at least once a die! I don't want him to he gone! Why would he do this! I am so upset right adn I don't know what to to! I hate this so much! I don't want him to die! I don't want him to fie I don't want him to die! Why would he do this to himself! I still don't get it! He keeps on talking about having too much to do and whatnot but I don't get how that explains him screwing himself over like this! I don't fucking get it! I don't know what to do
Edit: he says it's not worth it and rhat he would rather just die. I know that it's hypocritical of me to be upset with his decision since it is his body at the end of day, but I hate it so much. I don't want him to go. Messaging him is one of those little highlights of my day and knowing that I might not be able tk do that one day makes me upset. I don't want him to go.
Edit: he says it's not worth it and rhat he would rather just die. I know that it's hypocritical of me to be upset with his decision since it is his body at the end of day, but I hate it so much. I don't want him to go. Messaging him is one of those little highlights of my day and knowing that I might not be able tk do that one day makes me upset. I don't want him to go.
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