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blueberrylemon8

New Member
May 28, 2024
4
Would a certain amount of money make you seriously reconsider CTB? If so how much money would that be? How would that save you?

For those who feel no amount of money can save you, why?
 
pretentioussuika

pretentioussuika

compassionate gaijin
Apr 6, 2025
71
Four million dollars. After tax, not before.

My life is ruined, and I'm in no position to fix it. Money wouldn't make me happy, but it would give me the tools to feel like i could actually do something about it. Four million dollars is roughly what a modest salary for the rest of my life until retirement adds up to. I might be persuaded for less, but four million is enough that i wouldn't exactly haggle.

I do have obligations to share that kind of money with a bunch of people, but that's something i would figure out.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
41,942
No as I personally just want some peace, I'd never wish for the torturous and futile burden of human existence that was so tragically imposed in the first place, existence to me just feels like a terrible mistake and I see existence as an abomination that just causes harm and suffering until all is finally gone in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, I personally find it so deeply undesirable to exist and I'd never wish for any of this no matter what, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all.

I find it so dreadful and terrible how this existence was even imposed even know all of this was completely unnecessary and there was never a need for any of this suffering, I find it horrific how a human can exist for so long with no limit as to how much agony they can feel just to die tortured by old age. If it's up to me I'd choose to permanently erase my existence as non-existence is all I personally see as positive, I wish it's not seen as a crime to wish to be permanently free from this existence of suffering and torture with the pain of human existence seen as to force and prolong no matter what, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I wish for.
 
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dimgobaith

Student
Jun 17, 2024
118
Though money is always useful it will never change the people and the processes that have caused the situation I'm in.
Money won't change the back biting, stirring, conspiring, vendettas and venom that have lead me to this point.
Throughout my life I have attempted to treat people well, regardless of how I have been treated. For me to cut someone out completely takes alot. There aren't many people I have done that to even if I should have.
I learnt a long time ago not to share my feelings or hopes or fears because they'll be used against you. I learnt that people will turn on you if it suits them and people will do anything if it means it saves themselves. No one is truly 100% on your side. It doesn't matter what they say or do
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
3,265
No . I would only use any additional money I can get to make my suicide method and plan more reliable and execute it as soon as possible .
 
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Johnny99

Member
Apr 2, 2025
13
100K€ and I would not need to do it. I add that I won't necessarily do it anyway, it's an option at the moment.
 
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Alrek

Alrek

Looking for some light
Apr 6, 2025
10
No, money wouldn`t help the situation - for me atleast. Money can not buy a new healthy body. It would just mean that I would spend them on new useless doctors and private hospitals. Those doctors have enough as it is.

It could benefit my family in the long run, but I would choose that over ctb if if came to a choice.
 
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deathisapanacea

Member
Mar 10, 2025
29
Even if I get a ton of money, I will first earmark a couple of million dollars towards getting a US Green Card, so that I can buy a gun and off myself. Will give away the rest to near and dear ones and do some charity. My life is wrecked because of divorce and I don't wish to unwreck it. I don't wish to lead a hedonistic life with the money. Death is so much better.
 
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Still here

Member
Feb 11, 2025
72
Though money is always useful it will never change the people and the processes that have caused the situation I'm in.
Money won't change the back biting, stirring, conspiring, vendettas and venom that have lead me to this point.
Throughout my life I have attempted to treat people well, regardless of how I have been treated. For me to cut someone out completely takes alot. There aren't many people I have done that to even if I should have.
I learnt a long time ago not to share my feelings or hopes or fears because they'll be used against you. I learnt that people will turn on you if it suits them and people will do anything if it means it saves themselves. No one is truly 100% on your side. It doesn't matter what they say or do
Bitter truth that I personally need to accept especially NO ONE IS TRULY 100%ON YOUR SIDE...
 
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divinemistress36

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,341
No , it would only delay it for a bit. I would go have fun with it then buy a private jet and crash it into the ocean
 
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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

And the sun will set for you
Feb 27, 2025
526
Yes money would make me change my mind completely. A lot of my biggest problems are being stuck in poverty and the inability to change the situation. I'm greedy so 100 million would do it lol. That would give me and my family a very comfortable life, but I'd want a lot of that money so I could also help all my family members and friends who are also struggling to get by.

I'd give a considerable chunk of that to my parents so that they could really live life to the fullest for their remaining years. They've gone above and beyond for me my entire life, always doing much more than I deserved. Nothing would make me happier than to see them truly enjoy their remaining years.
 
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billie

billie

take me back to the night we met
Mar 31, 2024
623
i would donate the money and then kill myself
 
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Tombs_in_your_eyes

Tombs_in_your_eyes

Probably crying
Oct 18, 2024
120
Unfortunately no, money can't buy family or bring back the dead. 💔
 
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tercermundista

Member
Apr 23, 2024
38
Four million dollars. After tax, not before.

My life is ruined, and I'm in no position to fix it. Money wouldn't make me happy, but it would give me the tools to feel like i could actually do something about it. Four million dollars is roughly what a modest salary for the rest of my life until retirement adds up to. I might be persuaded for less, but four million is enough that i wouldn't exactly haggle.

I do have obligations to share that kind of money with a bunch of people, but that's something i would figure out.
Same for me, and it's too late to fix everything. I was born poor and I might die even poorer because I'm an idiot... I'd have to win the lottery, and I'm not very lucky.
 
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Thomas599

Member
Jan 9, 2025
50
10 million will do just fine.
 
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Anonperson1

Member
Sep 8, 2022
54
Yea, about 3 million Euros and I wouldn't ever have to worry about work again. I've dedicated the best years of my life to helping other people, and it's taken everything from me. Ultimately, no matter what I've done for others, noone is there for me.
 
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Nobody'sHero

Nobody'sHero

Lost in the world
Mar 24, 2025
239
I won't CTB if you paypal me 10 US dollars, none of your made up currency like AUS dollars or CA dollars.
 
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Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
118
No amount of money will fix my problems. My problems are more to do with the brain. And science isn't advanced enough for what I want. And I don't think they will be in my lifetime.
 
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Gamelle

Member
Feb 21, 2025
23
No amount of money. I want to kill myself to escape my memories. Money can't undo them or rewrite my life.
 
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tomyumgoong

Member
Dec 22, 2023
41
Would a certain amount of money make you seriously reconsider CTB? If so how much money would that be? How would that save you?

For those who feel no amount of money can save you, why?
Honestly, it totally would've in the past. If I had enough to finish college, pay my medical debt, and help out my family some, I could see younger me going through with life. But nothing erases the memories of neglect and abuse from childhood and what I endured from my ex partner. I can't make it go away and it eats away at me on the inside. I went too far when I decided to stand up for myself. I feel more ostracized than ever.
 
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needwaytohell

Member
Apr 2, 2025
35
I'd hire a hitman to kill me with some insane amount of money. I'm used to simple lifestyle I'd expect anything fancy maybe occasional nice food. Probably winning once in life would make ctb'ing so much comfortable and happier.
 
CentreMid

CentreMid

Midfielder
Aug 23, 2018
511
No matter how much money I receive/don't receive, I'm still part of the rat race of life, something that I have zero desire to participate in.
 
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Johnny99

Member
Apr 2, 2025
13
No amount of money will fix my problems. My problems are more to do with the brain. And science isn't advanced enough for what I want. And I don't think they will be in my lifetime.
Just curious, what kind of science would it be that is necessary?
 
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scientificmethid

Member
Feb 12, 2024
24
Absolutely. Like $100k and nearly all of the things driving me toward CTB would be addressed. Two kids are the only thing keeping me here. I just can't get ahead on anything.
 
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Praestat_Mori

Mori praestat, quam haec pati!
May 21, 2023
12,358
After a big failure in life there's a lack of money and that's why I'm suicidal.
 
Zyntkalla

Zyntkalla

Welcome to hell on Earth
Aug 28, 2020
118
Just curious, what kind of science would it be that is necessary?
How to fix epilepsy. And not with medication. And how to grow new brain cells. Once that part of the brain is damaged or removed.
 
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Johnny99

Member
Apr 2, 2025
13
How to fix epilepsy. And not with medication. And how to grow new brain cells. Once that part of the brain is damaged or removed.
Oh ok. I had a friend with severe epilepsy and she got DBS, they installed a magnetic thing inside her head which gives brain impulses.
 
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ignorableaurochs

Member
Dec 27, 2024
67
Would a certain amount of money make you seriously reconsider CTB? If so how much money would that be? How would that save you?

For those who feel no amount of money can save you, why?
no. I've been seriously privileged in life - managed to get a good education, relatively comfortable life (even if a lot of student debt), access to a lot of mental health care through the NHS. the problem is **I am still unwell**. no matter how hard I try, for the last 15 years, I have just been fighting and losing this battle with my illness. every time I triumph a little over it eg recovering from my eating disorder, another symptom pops up eg my OCD is 100x worse than it was 10 years ago. I just can't take it any more. the problem is not life, or money, or resources. the problem is ME - I'm defective, and at this point I believe I cannot be fixed. the only thing that helped a tiny bit (after 14 diff meds) were shrooms (surprisingly dampened the chronic ideation but did not get rid of it) and adhd medication, which my psychiatrist does not even want me to take bc he disagrees with the person who prescribed it to me.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
1,738
Nope. I am done with life. Easy life, hard life, rich life, poor life. Does not matter. Living is the issue.
 
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WatchmeBurn

Student
Apr 26, 2023
110
Maybe I could bribe my way into a job/professional success and I'd get a chance to prove myself or, at least, prove beyond reasonable doubt whether I am or am not good enough. I could pay loads of money to boost a substack or something until people started subscribing. I'd give it a go if I had a large amount of money, for certain. A lot of my current issues in life are just because I don't have the money to improve my skills or market myself well, nor the connections/networking to start my career.
 
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