Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

All I wish and hope for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace in an eternal sleep where this existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone, all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long, all I want is to never exist ever again.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes and brings so much pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful existence rather all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so futile that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I just hope to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep will I be at peace.
I really will only be at peace in eternal sleep and as long as I exist I really will just hope and wish to never wake ever again, there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this terrible, torturous existence.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep where finally I can be at peace with this existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and cruel and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from suffering I search for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, it's one so cruel, terrible and dreadful that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway. I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, all I want is to be gone from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is cause suffering.
All that existence does is just cause so much pain and suffering and it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me, I wish I never had to exist more than anything but of course all the suffering continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, I wish to just erase this existence.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I'd just never wish to exist no matter what and I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, all I want is to not exist. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, all I want is for all to be gone for me in the peace of non-existence.