Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

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Never wanting to exist.
No matter what I really would never want to exist and I'd just never wish for this cruel, torturous existence where there's no limit as to how much agony one can feel.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the cruelty and suffering of existing just continues and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

All I wish and hope for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again and I'll only be at peace in an eternal sleep where this existence I just always saw as a mistake is finally all gone, all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long, all I want is to never exist ever again.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes and brings so much pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for, I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful existence rather all I want is to never wake again, only non-existence can solve everything for me in this existence so futile that I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, I just hope to never suffer ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only in eternal sleep will I be at peace.
I really will only be at peace in eternal sleep and as long as I exist I really will just hope and wish to never wake ever again, there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this terrible, torturous existence.

I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep where finally I can be at peace with this existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful and cruel and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief from suffering I search for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I'll always see it as an abomination to exist, it's one so cruel, terrible and dreadful that just causes endless amounts of harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway. I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, all I want is to be gone from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is cause suffering.
All that existence does is just cause so much pain and suffering and it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me, I wish I never had to exist more than anything but of course all the suffering continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, I wish to just erase this existence.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for peace from all the suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I'd just never wish to exist no matter what and I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

For me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long and I'd never wish to suffer in this existence, all I want is to not exist. I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering just continues and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, all I want is for all to be gone for me in the peace of non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered for so long.
It truly does feel like I've suffered for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen and I'd just never wish for the pain, suffering and cruelty of this futile torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and bring me the relief from this torturous, cruel and futile existence I search for.

I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want to never suffer again and it just feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for, all I want is to not exist. I just wish for permanent peace from the pain and suffering of this futile, dreadful existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is some peace from it all.

 

[FuneralCry]

All I wish for is non-existence.
No matter what all I could hope for is non-existence, I just wish for peace, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence just continues and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer conscious and no longer burdened with this existence, I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this deeply undesirable, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this suffering and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want the peace of an eternal sleep with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence to me is always just an unnecessary harm.
I truly will always see existence as an unnecessary harm and I'll always find it so harmful, cruel and torturous to exist and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so dreadful and I'd never wish to exist rather all I hope for is to cease existing.

I just wish for an eternal sleep where nothing can concern me and this existence I always saw as such a terrible mistake is all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist.

Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful and painful and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist and I'll only be at peace in dreamless eternal sleep where finally nothing can concern me and I just suffer so much as a result of this torturous existence I just never would had chosen and I'll always see existing as only suffering. It's all so dreadful and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want all to be gone with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'm just always so tired of being conscious suffering so unnecessarily just waiting for death.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is just always so dreadful to me.
It truly is so dreadful to me and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful, futile existence more than anything.

For me only non-existence can bring any peace and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this terrible torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again.

I just wish to be permanently free from this cruel existence and I'd just never wish to exist, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so terrible, dreadful and painful that I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, all I want is to never suffer ever again. I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be gone, I just wish to never exist ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this terrible, torturous existence I never would had chosen that just brought so much pain and suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just being waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as just being waiting to die, it's just pain, suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it and I just wish I never suffered in this dreadful existence more than anything.

As long as I exist I really will just hope to never wake again, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this terrible, dreadful existence, more than anything I wish I never suffered and I just never should had suffered at all in this existence that to me is just waiting to die and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this cruel, dreadful existence.

It's all so terrible to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for some peace from this torturous, dreadful existence and I'll just only be at peace once I'm no longer conscious and no longer burdened with this existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I wish I never had to exist and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this dreadful, futile existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much pain and suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

It feels like I've suffered in this dreadful existence for so long.
It really does feel like I've suffered in this cruel, dreadful existence for so long and I just wish I never had to suffer, more than anything I just wish I never suffered but of course all the pain, suffering and cruelty of existing just continues.

It's all so terrible and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I hope and wish for is to never wake ever again.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence, it's all so terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered for so long, I'd just never wish for the suffering and cruelty of existing rather all I want is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this torturous existence where I just hope and wait to be gone and I'll always see existing as just waiting to die, it's just suffering there was never a need for and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence so dreadful that I just never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much pain.
It truly does cause so much pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, in this dreadful existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious and no longer burdened with this existence and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful existence, it's all so cruel and painful and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence and I'd just never wish to exist rather all I want is some peace. I just want non-existence to solve everything for me but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so cruel to me, I just wish I never suffered more than anything and it just feels like I've suffered for so long in this terrible, dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for, existence really does cause and bring so much pain and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and as long as I exist I'll just wish for peace from suffering, all I want is to never wake ever again with no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always finding it so dreadful to exist.
No matter what I'll just always find it so dreadful to exist and as long as I suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence I'll always have so much dread for what lies ahead, I wish I could just choose to never wake ever again and finally be free from this existence I always saw as such a terrible, cruel mistake but of course all the suffering, cruelty and torture of existing just continues and I always wish I never suffered.


I just suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want the peace of non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it truly is all so dreadful and I'd never wish to exist rather all I wish for is non-existence.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this futile, deeply undesirable dreadful and torturous existence and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for non-existence to bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence I just always saw as a mistake and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence where I just hope and wait to be gone, existing will always be so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I was never burdened with this futile, cruel existence where I suffer so much all for the sake of it.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just peacefully cease existing.
I truly do always suffer so much from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing to finally escape from this torturous, dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

It's all so terrible and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I see so much cruelty in how the option to never exist again is denied with the suffering and torture of existing seen as to force and prolong no matter what, as all I want is to not exist.

I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this deeply undesirable, dreadful and futile existence where I just wish and hope to be gone and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to never wake ever again, in this existence so torturous and dreadful where there's all this cruelty and suffering all for the sake of it only non-existence can bring me any peace.

I just wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this cruelty, harm and suffering as a result and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, I'd just never wish for the harmful, dreadful burden of existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is always an abomination to me.
It truly is an abomination to me that just causes harm and suffering until all is gone and forgotten in non-existence anyway and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I'd just never wish to be burdened with this torturous, cruel existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just want to never suffer ever again with all finally gone and forgotten for me and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful and I wish I never existed more than anything, to me existence just feels like a mistake and it's one so dreadful and terrible that just causes and brings endless amounts of harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to be gone.

I just wish for permanent relief from the torturous, futile and dreadful abomination of existence that I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, I just want all to be forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, terrible existence, I truly would never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in eternal dreamless sleep and I suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
I really will always see existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable in this painful, harmful existence I just always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed that was completely unnecessary that just caused so much cruelty, pain and suffering and I'll just always see existence as only suffering no matter what, I'll just always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence, I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long. All I want is to no longer be burdened with this dreadful, cruel existence, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence that only ever brought so much pain and caused me to suffer so unnecessarily and I suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is non-existence to bring me permanent peace and relief from all cruelty and suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I just saw as a mistake.

I really would never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I never would had chosen and I'll just always see existence as the most terrible tragedy and it's all so painful and terrible.

I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never suffer ever again and there's just so much cruelty and suffering in existing, I wish I could erase this existence.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in the peace of eternal sleep and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel, painful and terrible and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in this dreadful, deeply undesirable existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, non-existence is just all I see as desirable and is all that can bring me any peace, I just want to never exist ever again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for peace.
No matter what all I could ever hope and wish for is some peace, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering of this dreadful, cruel and futile existence just continues and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I want is to never wake ever again.

I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling asleep permanently so finally I can be free from this torturous existence as all I want is some peace, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so terrible and dreadful that I just never would had chosen and never would had wished for and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

I wish I could erase my existence, I just want some peace, I want it to be like I never suffered at all but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so dreadful to me, it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, I just want to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me any peace and relief from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I see as desirable.
It truly is all I see as desirable in this dreadful, futile and torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace and relief and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from suffering, I just want to never exist again and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long. Only non-existence can bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel to me and I suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never suffer again, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered but of course I continue to burdened with this existence and I'll always see it as the most cruel, dreadful burden to exist, I truly do suffer simply from existing, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me and is just all I could wish for, I just wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope for eternal sleep.
No matter what all I could hope for is eternal sleep, I just want to never suffer again but of course all the pain and suffering of this torturous existence just continues.

I suffer so much as a result of this existence and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from, all I want is to never wake ever again, I just wish for peace from this existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible and I wish I never suffered, as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again.

I just wish for an eternal sleep where finally all is forgotten and I can be at peace, the peace of non-existence truly is all I wish for, I just want to never exist again and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, if it's up to me I'd choose to erase this existence as I just want all to be gone and forgotten with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes pain.
It truly does just cause pain with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this painful, dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.

I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for peace from this torturous, cruel existence I never would had wished for.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one only non-existence can bring me relief from, all I want is to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so terrible and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to never wake, I just wish to be free from this dreadful, painful existence that only ever caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's just all so cruel, dreadful and painful to me